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If I had 5 dollars every time my anxiety brain acted up over nothing, I’d have a consistent income.

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Sorry

That feeling of confliction

Of knowing how to do but also able not

The mind is a brilliant thing

It tells me what to do

But

my body refuses to follow through

I lay here and think of how to improve

I lay here, I lay here, yet I don't move.

I stare at the wall

And continue to think

And thus I feel worse,

Creep towards the brink,

Lazy,

unmoving,

A trouble for others.

It's all my fault but it's also unfair.

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Failure

To me it was a victory,

the battle overcome.

to me the first step was taken

I considered that a battle won.

but when I went to celebrate

and started to feel set free,

Reality came crashing down

all around me.

All because I wanted

to share the victory with you,

a major battle won to me

was a failure to you.

I started,

I took the first step,

I thought I'd get there eventually.

With a smile

I told you this...

and your reply?

"you only took a step? you should have ran a mile"

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This user is a writer but never writes 

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Am I okay?

How do you know you're okay?

Do you need to reach that

threshold of fantasy,

Where smiles come easy

and the air is free to breathe?

Or is it when there's a smile on your face-

It doesn't touch your eyes

but not another soul can tell?

When you can laugh with those held dear

and tell others

you don't have a care in the world

but you,

and only you,

know the truth?

How do you know you're okay?

Because I'm not so sure I am anymore.

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Inner War

I feel trapped in a loop created by my own mind. Caging my heart and keeping me captive for so many years. I struggle; there are times in this war where I walk away wounded, and yet I am the only one to see the brutal burns from a repetitive defeat. These flames forge me and drive me forth though, and while they do signify fallen times I charge back on to the battle ground.

This is nothing new, it's a war that has treated for centuries. Through the wreckage I've seen much. I grew, changed, became a scholar and then a teacher of others, I even saw myself wed. My life lurched forward, the fighting never stopped. Paused at times perhaps, yet here I am lifting my sword to carry me to battle once again, wondering if this time it will land the final fatal blow.

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Generation Gap

I reach out for help

time and time again,

hand stretched from my own 

black abyss of anxiety

only to be dropped 

by the unrelating hands of Gen Zs

trying to help me up.

A millennial lost, in a sea

of the younger generation

struggling with each other,

while I drown alone.

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Pros and Cons

Tw: Suicide

The human mind is a terrifying thing.

Parents, husband,

People who have time and again

transformed their lives for me-

Not out of pity

but out of love.

Yet the whispers tell me-

No one cares.

I am alone.

With a noose

I could take a swan dive from my balcony

and it wouldn't touch a soul.

I whisper back-

You lie.

My husband loves me,

He tells me so every day.

He'd be heartbroken.

My parents love me,

I can see it in their eyes

when they say how proud of me they are.

A part of them would die with me.

Yet here I am again,

contemplating the pros and cons

and wondering if the pros

will ever tilt the scale

Just the wrong way.

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Hanging On

Self preservation

or Self destruction-

Why must these both be driving forces?

A kaleidoscope of misery 

pushing towards insanity

until dangling from the edge.

But then no.

I hoist myself back up

instead of finally falling off. 

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That awkward moment…

When you’re typing a question out and you realize how stupid it was then spend an hour thinking about how to reword it before giving up

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Does Time Stand Still?

Time does not stand still.

Every second ticking past

a moment that has never passed.

Or does the constant rhythmic flow

defeat the purpose of how we grow?

If every second is the same

then what force is there to blame

for when the day drags on

and the hour feels too long?

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Passing of Seasons

As the dewy Fall’s besmirched

and the snow begins to fall

I forswear the coming weather

and for the spring I call.

Alas exquisite beauty

was never meant to be

the placid, peaceful zephyr

to this day eludes me.

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Got to see FoB today! (Technically yesterday now lol) they were amazingly perfect and I can die happy now

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I enjoy the morning mind dumps! I look forward to seeing them on my dash :) I hope your test went well!

Good morning everyone

I need some real inspiration these become harder and harder every morning. Maybe I should retitle it “Morning Mind Dumps” I mean that’s what it is at this point 😅… I’m probably the only one smiling at that 😓

Well anyways I’ve got a math test today! Excited? No. Nervous? No. Ready? I guess. Has anyone else ever wondered how they got as far as they have? I remember vaguely crawling through drain pipes wanting to get bitten by a poisonous spider back in middle school. How did I manage to fail at that? Okay ummm… Depressing much? Absolutely. Hi umm that’s just how I am.

I was told the other day that emos are ugly and can’t dress worth garbage I was just like ummm… Have you seen Brendon Urie? Kellin Quinn? Gerard Ways? Like they’re goals.

Anyways let’s have a good day today good luck everyone!

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Hush

Hush now my child

it will be alright

even though you may not

believe me right now.

Hush now my child

as the night grows cold

stay safe in my arms

don't question how.

Hush now my child

forget the days stress

don't fret, stay calm

ease your furrowed brow.

Hush now my child

for soon you will see

that no matter what happens

you're safe here with me.

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Ikr!? I thought the same thing too at first, was pretty disappointed :/

Realization just set in…

Biwsette isn’t an actual up coming Mario character… I was thinking oh maybe she’s in Mario tennis or smash bros… Nope she’s a fan art character that’s becoming a hentai star…. Could have been a really cool character too… Smh

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