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No I’m not okay; I miss you and I’m filling the void with every vice I know trying like hell not to drown in my own tears. You never loved me and I accept that, but I love you either way in the way that you need. I taste your lips in the weed. The shrooms show me your face. I feel your hands on the pills. If you do not need me, I shall love you from afar. But do not doubt my love for you.

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We drove through the campus and I imagined a different life

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i wish i could tell everyone how bad im struggling 

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Relapse is its own heaven and its own hell. Relapsing mutiple things at once is its own oblivion.

For once as I close my eyes and listen to the rain I suddenly feel a peace I have long since have forgotten.

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unloveable

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Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits

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Dream bout a kiss that makes you cry

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Vincent van Gogh Still Life with French Novels and Glass with a Rose 1887

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Or when you can easily catch them in a lie but you have to play it off because if you call them out they leave. They always leave.

People say you're not "too much" for the right people. What fucking people? Where are these people who are going to be there for me when my arms are covered in blood? When I'm screaming and crying and banging my head off the wall. The "right people" don't exist. Nobody wants to fucking deal with this shit.

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— Jeremy Radin, from “So I Locked Myself Inside a Star for Twenty Years.”