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Striving to be thriving

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Growing up is giving up

Stay punk

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I don’t feel like I suck at driving but … apparently I do..??

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I’d be put in jail for the things I’d do if I got my hands on a time machine

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Sorry I said what I said. Can’t a girl be a little sleepy anymore??

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I miss my Barbie’s I hope they’re okay

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◟♡ Daydreaming 24/7

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I had my first day at work today !! First job too. Then I got into a fight with my mother and felt like I wasn’t doing enough.

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i feel like an old maiden in dating culture. girls, don’t settle <3 do what makes you happiest!

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Just had a fight with my mom. who can take me in?

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'I manifested a kiss with Zayn Malik.'

Zayn's new video has the girl that manifested herself into it as his love interest and they have theeee MOST natural chemistry out of two people acting in an m/v that I've ever seen.

This was a basic ass girl w/ a twitter at some point but one day, and prob over a period developing it, she decided she was THAT bitch and look who she fucking snagged. YOU always come first.

Zayn ABSOLUTELY has her number. He was NOT responding to Gigi like this, lmao. Schedules conflicting prevent him from tapping it like he wants to is what I'm getting, mostly on his end. There's also a bit of an emotional cloud of personal issues he's dealing with, but she left an impression on him. He wasn't expecting anyone to make him feel more...alive..like she did on set. And this was all just 'acting', but not really. That model was able to penetrate some dark, murky waters and ignited something deep in him that he hasn't felt in a while. And it shows.

Does he have her number for real though? Nah, not right now or if he DOES, he's not texting her immediately but will contact soon. He was working, BUT like I said, she stirred something VERY difficult to move in him. He was merely reciprocating and reflecting her energy. The m/v was very fast paced and shot within limited takes so there wasn't much direction aside from her being the girl with the right look/chemistry and SHE took it to the next level and he..didn't really fight back but leaned into it instead. Everyone loved it, including the director, but Zayn was shook. He doesn't want to THINK he was this shook, but he was. He was a bit detached during the whole thing. Work is just work to him. But that made him go...okay, this is..interesting.

But if they start dating, I won't be surprised. There's A LOT of stoic, reserved, and aloof-ass Capricorn energy though before you can make it to that dreamy Venus-Mars trine in Pisces-Cancer with him, however. So, hopefully she's prepared to deal with how difficult he can be because I keep feeling these..weird..dark hazes of defenses that prevent me from accessing his true feelings clearly. I know what they are, but he's guarded. So, my guess is that she's gotta have to be a very patient but also an emotional and take charge person to deal with him long term.

What I'm sensing is that he MAY try to reach out and see 'what she's about' is what I'm hearing from him. But it's very 50/50. This was a long term manifestation that the model had forgotten about but kept in the back of her mind but she wasn't actively 'thinking' about and things just came together in a very sudden, perfect, and unexpected way. Hit her like a bullet train. But Zayn isn't really in a high key relationship mood. He's in this weird emotional place where he's siphoning energy into work and he's not in the best of places rn tbh. BUT he also wants to meet someone new and see if there's a true and real 'spark.' So, my guess is this girl just might be it.

It's not clear if it'll happen for sure but the universe is saying that there's a possibility that it may. I'm an optimist, however :3

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I miss the studded phone cases from like 2012

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