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I’ve posted this before, but I will never be over it.

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Tonight I miss the times that you loved me sober It seems like every time I try to get closer I’m pushed away much further than the last This time I know things aren’t so simple You’re right We aren’t kids with huge potential It’s time We take our mistakes example Of just how, we choose our own paths Maybe this time you fall could be your last? And you say Even if I tried it never lasts Needles, blow or maybe a flask These things are not the issue, it’s the tear and not the tissue, ive been right there fucked up with you You say I don’t deserve To take up space and love on this earth Every step I take is wrong and I’m trying I think I just need a little time I say hey just look me in my eyes If you wanted to we could walk through the ring of fire Might get burned a bit but I know we’ll be fine I need you to survive but I can’t be the one you call at five AM when you haven’t slept and you’re close to dead I can’t have your safety mean more than mine within my head I deserve A little peace walking through this earth If I could take you by my side I’d prefer But I will not light myself on fire just to burn, because you say you’re freezing Not anymore I will walk through all these open doors I’ve made myself a way to be more

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“its okay to cry. cry over all you have lost, cry over all you have ever wanted, cry over all you have never had. cry over the boys who never loved you and cry the boys who loved you too much. cry over the times your heart has broken and cried for all of the times it wont. cry for all of the family who is never there, cry for all of the family who would be there if they could. cry for all of the goddamn beauty in the world, cry because you will never see it all.”

— im trying to remember crying is okay

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fuck medication fuck psychiatrists fuck the mental health act and fuck anyone who thinks that they possess the right to manipulate and permanently change another human being’s brain chemistry to suit the norms of the rest of society.

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“sometimes I wish I could be your blood because I find it so unfair how you run through my veins when I don’t even get to feel your body and sometimes I wish I could taste your lips even though I’m sure they taste of vodka and poison but mostly I wish I could be the cause of your goosebumps simply by trailing kisses down your spine, the worst part of this toxic love is your passion will never match mine”

— k.l.g

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The Lorax, 1971

(original images not mine)

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beauty in this world isn’t only what’s spoken, but what’s felt

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true versatility

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There’s no shame in having a mental illness. It’s okay to struggle, it’s okay to be open about your feelings, it’s okay to need help and support. You don’t need to be embarrassed or apologetic for being symptomatic. You aren’t a burden for seeking help. There’s no shame in going to therapy or being on medication, in taking time off from things to care for yourself. Being unwell is not a shameful thing, and neither is taking care of yourself. Do whatever you need to to help you on your path to recovery and coping. Your health is the most important thing, and that will always be okay.

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honestly just shouting into the void here, but I am afraid. my mother may have cancer, she has had multiple tests and now she has to have a biopsy then surgery to remove the mass whether it’s cancer or not. i live in another state and she needs me, but i don’t want to go home. i don’t want to take this on. i don’t want to put my life on hold. i know this makes me seem so fucking selfish but I am so fragile. i am afraid. i need anyone.

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“I watched life and wanted to be a part of it but found it painfully difficult.”

— Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anais Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966  (via mademoisellevert)

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me in a professional setting: haha yes it is I a fellow mentally healthy. so chums how do you enjoy always feeling the correct emotions at the appropriate times? personally I like how said emotions are always a reasonable intensity!