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‧₊˚ daydreaming | 성훈

p: popular!Sunghoon x shy!fem reader g: classmates to lovers, fluff

warnings! kinda slowburn? Also reader loves chem (sorry not sorry y'all LMAO), long writing!

a/n: based off the song Daydreaming by Ariana Grande<3 last post before indefinite hiatus..

The first day I arrived to school, my attention was caught by a pretty boy of dark black hair and a face perfectly painted by multiple moles in different areas of, not only his face but, his body too. I could never talk to him, he was hella popular and I don't think he'd like to talk to someone like me, a random girl who came this year.

I wasn't completely lonely, I had a friend named Mi-Ju, she told me a bit more about Sunghoon. Things like he had a younger sister, he used to be an ice skater and a lot more things that just made me admire and feel more interested in him.

"You're going to create a hole in his back if you continue staring at him like that" I heard Mi-Ju say and I just rolled my eyes, I was looking at Sunghoon from our table at lunch with my chin on top of my hand "It's not like that..." I said and looked away from him after 5 minutes of staring at him to start eating "Have you heard about the History project?" "History project?! What?!" I looked at Mi-Ju, almost as if something tragic had happened "Yeah... Mrs Kim told us about it last class, we don't have to bring anything she just told us about it to... I don't know, be ready?" She said and I let out a sigh, feeling less worried about it "The thing is that it's in pairs but we won't be able to choose our partners... She'll choose them" "Really? Mrs Kim is always like that... it's no fun literally..." I said and went back to eating before going to our history class.

"Okay class, I'll start naming your partners for this project. When I finish naming all of you, then you can see how you'll organize to do this" the teacher said and everyone stayed silent "So, the pairs will be Areum and Haerin" "Yeonhan and Mi-Ju" "Sunghoon and ___" "Jeonmi and..." wait... I was paired with Sunghoon?! I turned around to look at Mi-Ju but instead of finding her eyes, I found Sunghoon's which were already looking at me beforehand "Alright, those are the pairings for this project. Good luck and remember to bring it in two weeks".

I sighed nervously as I stood up and walked to Sunghoon's desk, thinking on how I was going to deal with him and having to talk to him for two weeks, was this good or bad? "Hey Sunghoon..." I said and swallowed nervously, looking at him before looking to the ground "Hey.. ___" I heard him say and I didn't know what else to say "Do you wanna sit down?" Sunghoon asked me and I nodded, sitting next to him feeling pretty awkward. "So... how do we start this project?" He asked as he looked through his notebook "Uhm I think the teacher said that we should choose a chapter from the book and make a poster about it and the main topics" I said as I grabbed my history book and started to flip through the pages "Do you have any chapter in mind? Also, sorry. Today I forgot my history book so if you don't mind, can we share your book?" "Oh? Yeah no problem about that. Honestly I have one chapter in mind but we can decide which one together, does that sound right?" I asked softly, not believing the way I started to talk to him so normally and confidently "Yeah I'm okay with that" Sunghoon said and we started the project.

"How's it going with Sunghoon?" Mi-Ju asked me, nudging my shoulder playfully before we sat down for lunch. It has been a week since the history project started and my little conversations with Sunghoon, about the project, started too. "What do you mean? It's going good, we're always working on the project so..." I said smiling as I started to eat. I was talking to Mi-Ju when I felt a tap on my shoulder, turning around I couldn't believe that Sunghoon was there looking at me "Yes?" I mumbled softly "Uhm... Would you like to.. meet me after school to grab something?" He asked me and I was speechless "To continue the project! Yeah..." Sunghoon added and I chuckled as he sounded nervous, something new for me to see "Sure" I said smiling at him before he walked away.

"What was that?!" Mi-Ju asked and I giggled to myself, burying my face in my arms "I don't know but I'm so happy right now" "Yeah of course you are, your crush asked you out after school.." Mi-Ju said as she ate her lunch "He didn't ask me out! He said it was to finish the project!" I said, looking over at her before she eyed me "You know very well that it's more like a date rather a study session or whatever... He even said it himself but added the project part to sound more subtle" "Whatever.." I said and looked down at my food, smiling to myself.

"Why did I say that?! Oh my god I'm so dumb" Sunghoon said and bumped his head on the table as Jake patted his shoulder "It wasn't that bad by the way you say you did it... a study session? It's not that bad" Jungwon said, eating his lunch as he looked over at Sunghoon "I could've just gone and asked her on a proper date instead of a "study session"! I don't know why I was so nervous..." Sunghoon groaned "Maybe because you like her?" Ni-ki butted in, playing some games in his phone while he listened to Sunghoon's rambling "I don't-" "Yes you do, Sunghoon" everyone in the table said in unison, glancing at him before he bumped his head on the table again.

Sitting down next to Sunghoon in one of the cafe's table I started to take out all my books and things we were going to need to complete the project "Did you bring your book today?" I asked Sunghoon jokingly as I looked over at him "Yeah I did..." he said before chuckling lightly, cute.

"Let me walk you home, ___" I heard Sunghoon say as we walked out from the café after finishing the history project, a week before the day we had to hand it in "What?" I couldn't believe my ears in that moment "Yeah... Would you be comfortable with me walking you home?" He asked again and I smiled softly, nodding at his words "Yes..". We were walking together when suddenly little drops started to fall, slowly turning into a light rain "Oh.." I said as we realized it had started to rain "It's okay, I have an umbrella in my backpack" I said before taking out a small umbrella, it was more likely to be an individual umbrella due to the size but Sunghoon didn't mind about that as we shared it. It was awkward, definitely. But gladly my apartment wasn't far away from where we were and minutes after we arrived there "Thank you for walking me home, Sunghoon" I said smiling at him "No problem" he said and he was about to walk away under the rain when I stopped him, grabbing his arm softly "You can have my umbrella, I can't let you walk home under the rain" "Really?" "Yeah" I said chuckling "How can I repay you?" Sunghoon asked me and I shrugged, smiling "Giving it back?" I said and we both laughed "I don't know, but don't worry. Make sure to arrive safely and then we'll talk about that" I said and Sunghoon nodded, he waved before he started to walk away with my umbrella.

"And so I gave it to him!" I told Mi-Ju as we were on a phone call "Oh my god, I swear you're making smoother moves than him!" She said and I laughed "It's okay, I don't think he even likes me" I said and laid down on my bed, talking to Mi-Ju for a while more.

The next day I was in my locker when I saw my umbrella with a note and candies beside it, how did it end up inside my locker? I don't remember giving Sunghoon my locker keys. I grabbed the note and read it, smiling to myself as I grabbed the umbrella and put it inside my backpack again. I noticed that the candies were also one of my favorites, how did he know? Maybe it was a consequence and I was just overthinking about it, but how did he manage to put the umbrella and the candies inside my locker?

"Did you pass the chemistry exam?" Mi-Ju was talking with Ni-ki when I walked to her, she smiled and introduced Ni-ki to me as one of Sunghoon's friend "No I didn't" Ni-ki said, chuckling to himself "But the subject is so boring!" He added and I gasped, as a person who loved chemistry "What? Chemistry? Boring? Oh my god-" I said and Mi-Ju only laughed as I argued with Ni-ki. "Ni-ki? ___? What are you doing here?" A voice asked and Mi-Ju gasped "You forgot about me!" "Oh yeah sorry" I looked up and saw Sunghoon, it was weird to see him talk to Mi-Ju so confidently? "Hey" I said and Sunghoon turned to me, smiling "What were you talking about?" He asked again and Ni-ki told him about how he failed his chemistry exam. "___?" Sunghoon asked quietly and I looked at him, Mi-Ju and Ni-ki were busy arguing about something else so they weren't paying attention "Yeah?" I replied simply, waiting for him to talk "Would you like to go out after school to discuss about the project?" He asked me and I almost bursted out laughing, but I got the idea of his suggestion "Okay... even if we already finished the project?" I asked smiling playfully at him as he chuckled to himself, nodding "Yeah, even if we already finished it".

And that's how it was the last week before handing in the project. Sunghoon would ask me to go out after school to talk about the project, when we just went out to eat or walk around. It was sweet, indeed, but it left me confused. Did he want something else with me? If not then why was he doing this?

"Sunghoon?" I asked softly, as we walked together back to my apartment after spending another afternoon together "Yeah?" He replied "Why are you doing this?" "Asking you out after school?" And I was surprised by the way he already knew the point of my question "Yes.." I waited for his reply, but instead heard him chuckle "Because I like you" "What?" I asked again, not believing what he had said. We stopped walking and stood looking at each other "I like you, ___" Sunghoon said, looking down "But I didn't know a better way of asking you out apart from saying it was to study.." he said and I chuckled softly, I looked up at him "I like you too, Sunghoon... I've liked you for a long time" I admitted and he sighed before grabbing my hand "I'm sorry for making you wait" "It's okay, we're ending up together anyways?" I chuckled and he nodded, bringing me closer "We are" Sunghoon said and brought his hand to hold my cheek before connecting our lips together in a soft kiss.

✦゜・。。

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bro idk what's going on but my posts haven't been receiving that much support this last week like tf 😭

btw I'll post in some days, bc i have an already written post so I'll see when it's best to post it

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leave b4 u love me! | 선우

p: non idol!Sunoo x non idol!gn reader g: angst, best friends to strangers

warnings! unrequited love, Jungwon is mentioned

a/n: listen to leave before you love me by Jonas brothers y'all

"Come on Sunoo! We'll be late!" I shouted from the front door of Sunoo's house "Okay okay!" He shouted back before walking rapidly my way "You take so long to get ready" I mumbled as we walked out from his place and walked down the streets to visit a new café nearby, which I wanted to go since it opened "Don't say that! You take your time too!" Sunoo said as he checked his hair in a little mirror he had brought before going out "Anyways, aren't you excited to see the new café? I heard that it has really good food and furniture!" I said as we walked together "I have to see it to believe it.." he said and I rolled my eyes "Yeah wait until we arrive and you'll believe it"

"I'd like to have a cinnamon roll with a latte, please" Sunoo told the waiter as she wrote down our orders, after she had left I turned to Sunoo smiling "The place is really nice, right? and there aren't many people today, gladly" I said as I looked around before looking at him again, I chuckled when Sunoo suddenly rolled his eyes at my remark on the good decoration of the place "I guess it's good" he said and I hit his shoulder playfully "Admit that you like it c'mon!" "It's well decorated but I don't love it" he said and it was my turn to roll my eyes "Think what you want to think, I do love this place". After a while of talking our orders arrived and we started to eat, the food was really good too and I got Sunoo to admit that.

"It wasn't that bad in the end" Sunoo said as we walked back home "See?! It was a really good and cozy café! The food was amazing too!" I said happily, remembering the quality of the food "Why do you like it so much? It's just a café..." I heard him say and I shook my head "You wouldn't understand.." I said smiling to the front while we walked and I could hear Sunoo scoff at my words.

I went out from my classroom and walked to my locker to put my books back inside before going home, today was a busy day. Walking to the school entrance I felt someone holding my arm, turning around I saw Sunoo smiling down at me "Hey Sun" I said as I stopped walking and turned all my attention to him "Hey, wanna go to the café we went last time?" I was stunned by his question, I thought he didn't like the café that much to invite me again "Really? If you say so, then yes!" I chuckled and grabbed his hand before pulling him forward to walk out from school but I felt him tense by this and so I let go of his hand when I felt him holding my hand again "I'm okay with that, you just caught me off guard" Sunoo said and I chuckled "I thought you didn't like it".

One week after I was studying in the library when suddenly Sunoo entered and sat next to me, weird because he wouldn't step a meter close to this place "Hey ___" he greeted me and I looked at him weirded out "What are you doing here? You don't study here? Do you even study?" I bombarded him with questions because it was really weird to see him here and with school books "Oh my- I can't even step in this place that you'll make all for those questions, just let me be.." I heard him say as he put all his books and opened his notebooks, to study, apparently. "If you say so, I'll let you be... maybe you'll pass the upcoming exams.." Sunoo gasped "Stop right there, ___" he said and I laughed, focusing on my own books shortly after.

"Do you like someone?" Sunoo asked me as we sat on my bed, our study session long forgotten as he had gotten bored and wanted to go to my place instead "Not really, I'm not looking for being in a relationship right now... how about you? Is there someone you like?" I asked, nudging Sunoo's shoulder playfully "Maybe... but I'm not sure if they'd like me back, I heard that they didn't like anyone" he said nervously, I smiled at him and patted his shoulder "Don't worry! try to make a move and make them fall in love" I said, chuckling softly as I tried to encourage him to get closer to his crush "Yeah I should try that..." he mumbled softly before turning to use his phone again.

Some days passed after our conversation about who we liked and I was noticing a change in Sunoo's behavior, and I was scared. I was starting to think he liked me, for the way he acted and treated me, which was different to the way he treated me some weeks ago before our conversation. I was scared because if he did like me, I wasn't going to be able to reciprocate those feelings, I only saw Sunoo as my best friend and even as my brother... I didn't see him differently and I didn't want to change my way of seeing him, but I didn't want to end what we had because of his feelings.. Was it my fault to not like him back? Even if I wasn't sure if he did like me, it seemed like it. Should I ask him if he likes me? I'm so confused right now...

"So what are you planning to do today, ___?" Silence... "___?" .... "Uhm earth to ___!" And I came back to reality "O-oh... sorry, what did you say?" I asked Sunoo, I was deep in thought thinking about what I decided to do today, I didn't want to give Sunoo fake hopes to be with me... because there weren't any possibilities for him to be with me, because he did like me. Last Tuesday I was sat next to Jungwon and I couldn't keep it in and just asked him about it, and he said that Sunoo did like me. "I was asking you if you had something planned to do today.." Sunoo said and I shook my head, looking at him, maybe this was the moment to tell him "No no, I don't have anything planned" I said and I saw him smile at me "Perfect then, let's go to the café you like" "Okay~!" I said and we started to walk to the café, I was scared to reach there and have to tell him everything... I didn't want to end everything just yet.

"You look pretty today, ___" why did he have to do this? "Thank you" I said softly, looking down at my cup of coffee, avoiding his gaze. "___, you know, lately I've been feeling different and I've started to feel something new with you. I started to see you as something more than my best friend, and I realized that I wanted you to-" "don't. Please... don't continue that sentence" I said, still looking down because I wouldn't dare to look into his eyes without crying "What?" "I can't... I can't reciprocate your feelings Sun..." Sunoo sighed softly, moving awkwardly in his seat "___ it's okay-" "No it's not, I didn't want you to give you false hopes.. I'm sorry, I'll leave" I couldn't stand being there for a minute longer, I was breaking inside. "What? No no! We can talk this out.." Sunoo held my arm, not letting me go just yet "Sunoo, it's the best if I leave before you love me" I said softly, looking at his hand holding my arm slowly letting it go "It's way too late for that, ___" "But you know I can't love you back, Sun" "Why?" "Because you're my best friend, my brother, I can't see you differently and I didn't want anything else but a relationship like that Sun, friends" I said and turned my head to the front before walking away, he didn't stop me this time... I guess Sunoo did let me go this time.

🌛゜・。。

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bad idea, right? | 제이크

p: ex!Jake x gn!reader g: bad boy Jake x "good" girl/boy reader

warnings! cursing, toxic relationship and behavior, reader has a sister, mentions of alcohol and getting drunk, reader can't move on and can't see the truth about everything that had happened.

note: this is inspired by the song "bad idea, right?" By Olivia Rodrigo! enjoyy

"He totally ruined you ___! How can you think you still have feelings for him?!" My friend Eun-seok shouted at me "I'm not sure! But I think I still have feelings... it's okay, they'll go away" I said, and I couldn't even believe my own words that I already knew Eun-seok and the rest of my friends were glaring at me "Okay, do whatever you want ___, I just don't want you to get all messed up again... he's not a good person for you" I nodded at her words, she was right but something was bringing me back to him, Jake.

Me and Jake were in a relationship some months ago, but he cheated on me with one of his "friends". I couldn't get over him yet, yes I know he cheated on me but maybe there's still a little possibility of him and me coming back together again? Maybe...

While I was hanging out with my friends at one of their houses, I received a text and it was Jake.

"See me tonight?" 19:23pm

I swear that my heart skipped a beat by seeing his name popping out, and my eyes almost popped out too when I realized that he wanted to meet again. I was with all my friends but they weren't paying attention at what I was doing, should I say yes? Is it a bad idea? They don't have to know where I'm going... fuck it it's fine.

"Yeah, where?" 19:32pm

"Ugh my sister has a problem at home... I have to go check on her" I groaned, trying to build up a lie to my friends so they didn't know where I was going... because if they knew I was meeting Jake, they'd kill me right away, and I don't even know why I'm meeting him anyways. "Really? Uh can't your parents go and do something for her?" "Nah you stupid, they're abroad!" I said and my friends laughed, after a while I finally went out and was on my way to meet Jake... it's a bad idea, right?

I didn't know how but suddenly it was 8am in the morning and I was in his house and more specifically in his sheets, yeah Jake's sheets. When did I end in his bed? Why was I even sleeping next to him? Fuck.

"___ not this again..."

"oh yeah that's totally your sister!"

"thank you for being honest!"

"I can't believe it..."

The room had some beer cans scattered around and I could already get the idea of what had happened last night, and why my friend's group chat was full of texts of them cursing at me... and it was because I had accidentally sent a picture of me and Jake in his bed last night, the best thing is that I can't even remember when I did that! I'm all fucked up right now, really fucked up.

Trying to not wake Jake up, I got up from his bed and walked to the bathroom. I felt disgusted with my own reflection but tried to freshen up a bit before having to face the reality... once again.

"___? Are you in the bathroom?" Fuck "Uh yeah" I mumbled, cursing myself at the way I sounded so dumb "Oh okay, can we talk after you get out?" Fuck, fuck, fuck... why would he want to talk? "Sure" I said, I was going to run away at any moment.

"I'm sorry for what I did, can I have a second chance?" "I'll need some time to think about that.." "it's okay, take your time and tell me" Jake wanted a second chance and he regretted what he did... I knew he wasn't such a bad person after all, but I did need time to think about everything and to let my friends curse at me for meeting him last night.

"Why did you meet him again ___?"

"You know that he's your ex!"

"He asked me to meet up! And hell yeah! I know that he's my ex but I only see him as a friend!" That was the biggest lie I've ever said because I was rethinking the idea of getting back together with him. My friends weren't sure about my answer and I wasn't sure either, but what was I supposed to do? "Hey ___... I don't know if you'll like this but check Jake's stories.." quickly grabbing my phone I checked his profile and saw the exact thing I didn't want to see, or to admit that would happen, because it was a picture of him with another girl... and they weren't exactly acting like friends in that picture because they were kissing, should I feel sad about this? Even after our break up and multiple toxic moments by Jake? My brain was going crazy, too much was going on and I didn't even know what I wanted to believe.

"___ you should stop!" And once again I was with all my friends, all of them shouting at me because I saw Jake... again "I know I should stop... but I can't!" I said because, truly, I didn't know what was making me go back to him after everything he had done to me "You always say that and can't go a week without saying "I met Jake again..." I swear you're only going back to him and without a proper reason why!" Eun-seok said "This is not good for you and your mental health, ___" another friend said, already feeling ashamed of me and the way I couldn't move on "It's okay, I'll try to move on. I've seen much hotter men after seeing him so it's okay" "___!" My friend Haerin shouted at me "What now?!" "How can you think about seeing more people when you can't even move on from your toxic ex?!" She shouted at me, and I didn't know the reason why. "Just let me be okay? I'll see what I'll do with this!"

"You're a lost case, ___." and it was true because I was stuck with him, knowing it was ruining me.

I wanted to open my eyes but I couldn't, I couldn't run away from him because I'd always go back to him and his toxic but oh so addicting personality and beautiful face, even if the real person behind those looks wasn't good for me.

💭゜・。。

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posting tomorrow cuz I feel it will be the best time LMFAO 🙏🙏

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bro I'm so happy bc I'm finally getting more ideas to write abt (finally) 😭

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WILLOW | 정원

p: idol!Jungwon x non idol!gn reader g: fluff

warnings! fear of being seen or getting caught (?)

note: this is inspired by the song willow by Taylor Swift<3 (also thought abt this while showering when willow played in my phone lmfao) enjoyy

Dating someone who was an idol wasn't something easy and we'd always have to be careful to not get caught, because people could end everything so easily that didn't let us relax for a moment if we decided to go out to the convenience store.

I wasn't an idol myself but just a student, already graduated from high school and the person who I got involved with being an idol was my boyfriend. Yang Jungwon was his name, is his name and I'm glad to be able to call him my boyfriend; because he's a really nice person himself. We met some time ago but that doesn't matter, because no matter the ways we ended up together.

Knowing Jungwon as a really straight and responsible person, I couldn't believe how he asked me to be his girlfriend, knowing how hard it was for him to date someone in the industry he was in. He said he'd take any risks to be with me even if he knew he could get fired for doing so, and I couldn't contradict him because it would've been useless at this time, also because I'm in love with him too. Our relationship is worth the risk. Jungwon was chill about going out together, always being careful of course, but I couldn't say the same about myself as I'd get scared of someone catching us and ruining Jungwon's career. I have to admit that sometimes I was just overthinking about the what if's but Jungwon is always there to bring me back to earth and calm me down.

"Which one do you want? Jake hyung told me this one's really good" Jungwon pointed the chocolate ice cream inside the refrigerator, I was struggling in choosing an ice cream because all of them looked good "Mhm.. okay I'll get that one" I said before grabbing the ice cream Jungwon told me Jake had recommended him, I was going to give it a try. We went to pay for everything we had grabbed and soon we were walking back home, hand in hand. I couldn't help but turn around or look for someone around when we were walking, making Jungwon confused by my sudden behavior "Is something wrong?" He asked as we walked "No no" I said trying to convince him, but I knew I couldn't because we knew each other really well "Tell me what is it, is something on?" Jungwon asked me again, the only difference that this time he stopped walking and looked at me "I don't want someone to see you walking around with me... you know if someone sees us and then takes pictures and then posts them you'll-" "Hey hey... it's okay, no one will see us because it's almost 2 am and I don't think someone would be around with a camera wanting to take pictures, would they?" He asked me with a tinge of playfulness in the end to try to calm me down, maybe that was what I needed, some reassurance and his silly jokes "Okay~" I said smiling as we started walking again but before I could hold his hand, he started to run away making me go behind him "Hey!" I shouted as I followed him until he slowed down and started walking normally again. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I looked up at him "Why did you run away?" "I don't know but it was funny seeing how you tried to catch up" Jungwon said and I chuckled shaking my head softly at his actions. Then I realized that he had his arm around my shoulder instead of holding my hand, looking up with a pout I heard him chuckle as if he already knew why I was looking him like that, maybe he did know "Why? Do you want me to hold your hand again?" He asked me and I nodded almost instantly, cringing at the way I'd agree at whatever Jungwon would say or ask. "Okay, whatever you say~" I heard him say before grabbing my hand and intertwining his fingers with mine as we walked together with slow steps because we didn't have a reason to rush anything, we were together and that was enough for the both of us.

"Didn't you want to watch this one? Last week you told me you were looking forward to do so" Jungwon asked me as we sat together on our bed, full of snacks as we decided to have a movie night "Ah yes! I totally forgot about that, let's watch it!" I said excitedly, getting comfortable as I opened a pack of chips and started to eat while Jungwon played the movie on the tv. I don't know if I was tired or what but I ended up falling asleep after watching half of the movie, maybe it was because I was all cuddled up next to Jungwon as he'd rub circles in my back as we watched the movie. Or maybe because the movie turned out to be more boring than I had expected making me fall asleep without even finishing it.

I felt movement behind me before the mattress sank and making me recognize that it was Jungwon who was moving behind me. Before I could turn around, I felt his arms wrapping around me while pulling me to feel his chest behind my back. Trying to wash my sleepiness away, I turned around and saw Jungwon still awake looking down at me "Did I wake you up?" He asked me softly, bringing me closer to him "Yes.." I said, chuckling at my own words and before he could apologize, I talked "But it's okay, don't worry... I fell asleep while we were watching the movie, right?" I asked, seeing how Jungwon's eyes were turning into half crescents as his smile was growing too; remembering the moment I had fallen asleep "Yes.. you fell asleep but to be honest, the movie was a bit boring" he said and I laughed softly "It was, but you weren't helping either.." I smiled as I said this, referring to the way he was almost lulling me to sleep as we sat together watching the tv "I know... but you know it's already a habit of mine already~" he said, chuckling softly and I swore I wanted to keep this moment forever with me; his smile, the sound of his chuckle and the way he was holding me right now.

I smiled before hugging him closer and leaning my face in his neck, feeling how he kissed my head "I love you, rest well my love" I heard him whisper softly in my ear, careful to not talk loudly "I love you too, won.. good night" I said, already falling asleep in his arms. Jungwon whispered some more things but I couldn't understand what he said, maybe I'd ask him tomorrow...

💌゜・。。

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still can't believe how this got +60 notes

It feels cool with you | pjs

p: idol!jay x non idol!fem reader g: angst (only in the beginning), fluff

warnings! crying, insecurities, reader is insecure of herself, short writing!!

note: more fluff for y'all 😁 hope you like it 🫶🏻

now back to the enha x nwjns songs mlist

You know me like no other 다 표현하지 않아도

Looking at my own reflection in the mirror, not recognizing the person who stood after me. Was it me? How could I look like this... How could someone like Jay, put his eye on someone... Like me? I wasn't an idol like him, full of charms, skills and beautiful visuals that could make everyone put their eye on me... Like Jay did, and I don't even understand why he did.

Suddenly a tear escaped my eye, followed by another, and another one; creating a slow but hurtful waterfall running on my cheeks. I couldn't keep my sobs in either, I just let my tears fall freely on my cheeks as they stained them and left them wet. I tried to stop them, my attempts failed as I couldn't stop the insecurity from spilling out of my eyes. I stopped trying to stop my tears and just stared at my own reflection, insecure thoughts filling my mind once again. The flowing of my tears, along with my thoughts made me think again, if I was so unstable with my own self-esteem; How come Jay hasn't left me yet? I'd have been tired of this if I was him...

The sound of a door opening and then closing made me jump as I had got startled, it was Jay the one who had made those sounds. Then I remembered my state, quickly trying to clean my tears and to try to hide the bright red that coloured my face; the result of my crying. I didn't want Jay to look at me like this, but it was inevitable when I heard him calling me from outside of our shared bedroom.

"Love?" Jay called me "Are you home?" He asked again, entering the room I heard him sigh out of relief by seeing me "Ah there you- what? Were you crying? Did something happen?" And soon, I was bombarded with questions as Jay got closer to me and held me by my arms examining my face closely. I saw him looking behind me, only finding the mirror. He knew what had happened, they were my insecurities again who had made me cry. Jay sighed softly and embraced me, careful as if I was some kind of fragile crystal that could break if you put a hard strength on it. "What happened?" Jay asked me, knowing very well what the answer was but still trying to make sure it was what he thought "are they back?" He asked in a soft tone close to my ear, sending shivers down my spine. I could only nod at his question, feeling him kiss my cheek and start whispering sweet nothings into my ear.

And I think I like your point of view 다시 돌아와도 돼

Ever since I told Jay about my insecurities, he has always been here for me and reminding me how much I matter to everyone; specially to him.

In his eyes I was like a diamond on display, everyone could come and see me but no one could get me. Due to my importance and value, I had to be kept away from everyone. Not everyone could have me or see me. And for him, I should be kept away from everyone and their comments. Maybe his way of seeing me was a bit uncommon, but he made it look as if it was the most normal thing in the world. Because for him, I was on a pedestal above everyone.

I couldn't get why he thought of me so highly but Jay made me know the reason why. The only reason why he has me up there, it's because he loves me. I still couldn't get why, and I thought of it as something silly. For Jay, I wasn't just his girlfriend but the love of his life. He is the love of my life too. But something in the way Jay acts, makes it look different. The way he loves is simply beautiful, putting everyone first.

Thanks to his encouraging, and loving, words I could sink in the idea of how good I am. I am a good person, and I deserve him. He showed me how to love, but most how to love myself first. Jay showed me how important I am and how much he appreciates me.

One of the many things I admired from Jay was his sincerity and the easiness he'd have when I feel insecure and he has to help me go through it. Jay always had the right words for the right moment, he knew what to say and what not. And the best part of it all was that he knew how to make those words come out of my mouth, such as "I'm enough" or "I deserve all, and more, of the good things", even when I couldn't fully believe them. But he also made sure of making me believe those words.

I don't care what other people say

"You're my favorite person, y/n" Jay whispered as we laid down, he had me wrapped up in his arms and whispered sweet and loving words in my ears. "I love you so much and I'll never get tired of saying it" he whispered again and I felt him kissing my forehead softly "Thank you, Jay" I said, my voice barely audible but he managed to hear my words "You know you don't have to thank me, everything I'm saying is just the truth" Jay said and started to pat my head softly, his actions lulling me slowly to sleep "I love you so much, thank you for everything" I finally said, the tiredness taking over me as my eyes slowly started to close. "I love you more, my love" Jay whispered and left a kiss on y/n's head, closing his own eyes too.

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I NEVER EXISTED | 희승

p: non idol!heeseung x fem!oc reader g: angst, lovers to strangers (idk if that's even a trope but idgaf 😁)

warnings! break up, cheating, rumors, cursing

note: so this would be like a complete turn to my other Heeseung post Attention, this is connected to that story and it marks like the end of the relationship between Haeun and Heeseung. Enjoy ;)

This writing doesn't belong to the nwjns series!!

Also this is inspired by the song "I never existed" by Chase Atlantic!

I never expected to feel so happy with someone like Haeun, she was so sweet and loving with me that I felt as if I had met the love of my life. Although Haeun didn't want us to be public, I understood and didn't think much of it because maybe she didn't feel prepared to let everybody know about our relationship but there was something that made me feel strange, the fact that Haeun would ignore my existence whenever we were at school. I didn't expect her to act as a couple if we weren't public but I didn't expect her to ignore me either.

The other day at school I heard some girls talking about Haeun being in a relationship, with someone that wasn't me. I decided to ignore them because after all they were just rumors and because they didn't know about me and her, right?

But to be honest, those words wouldn't go out of my mind to the point I'd start to overanalyze every single thing Haeun said or did. Was I toxic for that? I wished I wasn't, but sadly I felt as if I couldn't fully trust Haeun after hearing those rumors, I felt somewhat influenced by them. I thought that I should talk to her about it and clear every thought or wrong idea, we shouldn't hide anything from us.

Sitting on the couch beside Haeun I was using my phone, and thought of that moment as the perfect one to ask her about the rumors that I had heard some weeks ago "Haeun?" "Mhm" I called her but she didn't look up from her phone, I didn't want to look toxic so I just continued with what I wanted to say "You know, some weeks ago I heard a rumor... About you dating someone else, that wasn't me..." I said and instantly felt Haeun snapping her head up to look at me, I could feel her tense too. I saw that she started to look around, avoiding my eyes "Where did you hear that?" Haeun asked, slightly nervous if you asked me "I heard it while I was walking down the school hallways, I don't remember who said that but I just remember that someone said it. I'm hoping that isn't true" I said and Haeun played with her hoodie's sleeves, she sighed and looked at me. She held my hands and looked at me "Well, that isn't true... I couldn't date anyone else but you, Hee" Haeun reached her hand up to my cheek and kissed me softly, making me forget about what we were talking about as she pulled me in for not one or two but many kisses. Back then, I believed Haeun's words because I trusted her.

Two weeks after our little conversation about those rumors, I started to think about them even more frequently; due to Haeun's actions. Suddenly we stopped hanging out so much as Haeun said she had homework or she had set up meetings with her friends, strange. Or when Haeun wouldn't answer to my calling while she's on the phone, texting a "friend", who apparently makes her smile a lot. I started to get suspicious by her actions, were the rumors true? Because if they were, that'd explain the reason why she didn't want us to go public. I noticed the distancing between me and Haeun since then, she wouldn't text me more than a good morning text or a I'm busy text if I asked her to go out or just call her. I couldn't even see Haeun as we could never "match" with our schedules, I wouldn't even see her at school anymore even if when I saw her she wouldn't even look at me because at school as if never existed for her.

"Hey Haeun, wanna go out to grab something after school?" 16:08

"Hello, no I'm busy" 16:49

"oh okay, we'll go out another day :)" 16:52 ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤseen

That's how our conversations would go, we wouldn't call each other from stupid cheesy nicknames but our names. Haeun wasn't texting me anymore either but when she replied she took some time to answer and wouldn't even try to keep the conversation going. I was confused and annoyed at her, even angry. Angry because Haeun wouldn't text me and she wouldn't even talk to me, I started to doubt if we were still together. I felt as if my trust in her had disappeared completely because Haeun didn't even care if I told her something, I'd be welcomed with a seen if I decided to text her and I was sick and tired of it. I was wondering if she still loved me.

Yesterday I saw Haeun in the school hallways with Yeonhan, he was our senior and they were walking together. I saw Haeun with her arm locked with his and when she saw me, she only smiled and I swore I would curse her in her face for that. Didn't I exist to Haeun for her to ignore me like that? I thought we were together... I guess we weren't. That told me the probably reason why she would act as if we didn't know each other in public.

I received a text from one of the girls of my class, I didn't know her but she texted me to talk about Haeun and that might be the reason why I didn't question or care much about their identity. The girl knew about me and Haeun, and that Haeun was with someone else. She told me that Haeun was dating this boy named Yeonhan and that she didn't want to be public because of him and because Yeonhan didn't know that I was with Haeun. I was angry and disappointed, how could this happen? I never saw Haeun as this type of girl, if I knew about this I wouldn't have dated her. Why did I put my eye on someone like her? Did this mean that she never felt anything for me?

Knocking on her apartment's door I waited for Haeun to appear, because I wanted an explanation from her. I waited and when the door opened I could only see Yeonhan in front of me, hilarious because she was "busy", apparently he was the one who kept her busy for me not to come over when I asked her if I could do so.

"Uh Heeseung?" He asked, weirded out by my presence "Who is it Yeon?" I heard a female voice ask before going beside Yeonhan and looking in front of her, it was Haeun the owner of the voice; of course "So Yeon huh?" I asked, chuckling dryly "What are you doing here Heeseung?" Haeun asked, sounding slightly annoyed, her tone sounding amusing to me "Why are you asking? I'm your boyfriend, you shouldn't ask me that" I said, knowing well of the presence of Yeonhan beside her "Your boyfriend, Haeun? What is he talking about? I'm your boyfriend" Yeonhan said, looking at Haeun. I was enjoying this deep inside, knowing that Yeonhan didn't know about me was funny because Haeun never told him. "L-let me explain" she panicked and I laughed, making the couple in front of me look at me "Let me explain, Haeun" I said and Haeun swallowed hard "Yeonhan... I think you didn't know but I was in a relationship with Haeun until... Five minutes ago? I don't know because if I knew she was with you, I wouldn't have ever dated her" "Oh is that it, Haeun?" Yeonhan asked Haeun, and she looked away. I was loving this so much, even if it sounded evil, she deserved this "I think I should leave you two to talk about this, after all I'm not your boyfriend anymore Haeun, right?" I asked, and took a peek at her face. I tattooed her expression deep in my mind. I looked up and sighed, I turned around to walk away. "Does this explain why you didn't want us to be public and why you ignored me at school?!" I shouted as I walked away, smirking as I saw her and Yeonhan still standing in her door. On my way back home I thought about all of this situation, was this our final break up? Because I felt as if we had broken up a long while ago.

"Heeseung, can we talk? Please"

"Oh now is when you text me? After you had fucked everything up?"

"I know but I'm sorry, please let's meet to talk this out"

"Talk about what? Just go on and tell them, all of your friends and Yeonhan, that I never existed, as you did before when we were "together"

Maybe that could help you look less worse than you are right now if someone knew about what you did with me and Yeonhan"

"I'm so sorry Hee"

"You shouldn't be calling me that and you know it, Haeun"

"I know, I'm sorry"

"I don't care if you're sorry or not, what's done is done. I hope I never see you again"

I laughed at the way Haeun was looking for my forgiveness after what she had done, she could have at least used a quarter of her brain before and could've told me about this and be sorry. But right now? It's useless. The word "us" with her is useless, because there wasn't an us between me and her not when there was someone else already.

‽゜・。。

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enhypen x nwjns series

p: enhypen members x fem!/gn!reader

g: fluff, angst. He fell first, she fell harder. You have to pick only one of us, grumpy x sunshine, strangers to lovers (short)

warnings! (slight) cursing, break up, death character, crying, competition, avoidance, rude attitudes, childish behavior, insecurities, really short writings in some posts!

synopsis: enhypen one shots with (or/and inspired by) nwjns songs!

state: finished!

choose your story!

- HURT! nrk

- GET UP | psh

- what's your ETA? ksn & yjw

- attention | lhs

- it feels cool with you | pjs

- new jeans ($15,03) | sjy

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ~ ☄️

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rn I'd be writing a post based on the relationship I have w a certain someone AND IT CAN'T FIT ANYONE IN ENHYPEN CUZ TF I GOT SO IMMERSED THAT NOW ITS JUST ME RANTING ABT THEM 😭😭😭🖕

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new jeans ($15,03) | sim jaeyun

p: non idol! jake x fem!reader g: strangers to lovers (couldn't expand it)

warnings! Slight cursing, reader is called Eunji, super short!!

note: last part from the nwjns series! you'll find the mlist here, enjoy!

Walking around the recently opened mall I spotted an interesting shop, wanting to see what they had on display I walked closer. Taking a look at the different clothes they sold, my eyes spotted a pair of jeans. The piece of clothing seemed made for me, I was already imagining myself styling it and the model was perfect- "oh- I'm sorry, I wasn't watching where I was walking" a manly voice said beside me. Looking up I saw a young boy, around my age, looking down at me. Soon snapping back to reality I noticed how the boy was still looking at me, waiting for an answer "Oh it's okay, don't worry" I said and the boy vowed slightly. I brushed off any thoughts and entered the shop, I walked around it, soon spotting the pair of jeans I had seen before coming inside the shop. I smiled to myself as I brought my hand to grab the hanger, but instead, I felt a hand over mine; looking beside me I saw the same boy who had bumped into me some minutes ago "You again?" I said, chuckling softly. I saw the boy blushing before moving his hand away from mine, I heard him clear his throat before chuckling softly too "haha... Yeah" he said, still a bit awkward. I smiled and then looked at the pair of jeans, which would have caught the attention of both me and the boy. "Were you thinking of getting them?" I asked, taking out the piece of clothing from the hanger. The boy nodded and I smiled "We can ask for it on the counter" I said and the boy nodded, looking away, cute. Wait what?

We walked to the counter and I handed the pair of jeans to the woman behind it "How much is it?" I asked, giving her a kind smile. The woman typed in her computer's keyboard and scanned the jeans' barcode "It's $15,03" the woman said and I nodded smiling "But... There's only one of this left in stock, the restock will be around a month or two" the cashier said and my smile quickly dropped, I turned to look at the boy beside me "Uh.. you can have it" I said and extended the piece of clothing in his direction, the boy shook his head and smiled. He pushed my hands to my chest, with the jeans too "No, it's okay. It's going to be better if you keep it" I thought for a second and then I shook my head again in refusal "No, I can look at another shop. Keep it" I said and pushed the jeans to his chest again, he sighed "Okay, I'll keep them only if you give me your number" I saw him show a playful smirk towards me, feeling my cheeks reddening I nodded "alright, you can have it" I said while avoiding eye contact.

"So... Eunji?" He asked while smiling at me, I nodded as I looked to to the recently contact added in my phone. "You're Jake?" I asked as I finally looked up from my phone, I saw the boy in front of me nod with a smile. Jake moved closer and kissed my cheek in a swift movement, I couldn't stop the blush to creep up my cheeks as he did so "Maybe I can lend you the jeans from time to time if I may have a date with you?" He asked while keeping the eye contact, I chuckled and looked away "More? You want my number and a date to keep those jeans?" I didn't know where did that confidence come from but it did, I heard Jake chuckle "Maybe I wouldn't be asking you so much if you weren't so pretty... Or so interesting.." he said and I choked on my own saliva after he had come closer and tugged a strand of hair behind my ear. Why was he so smooth with every action? "Sure" I said, I couldn't say anything else due to the effect his actions had on me. How could a complete stranger have such strong effect on me?

"Then it's done, I'll text you when and where we're meeting. Until then, see you, Eunji" Jake waved before walking away, this was a completely new experience to me but I'll make sure of making it count.

👖゜・。。

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It feels cool with you | park jongseong

p: idol!jay x non idol!fem reader g: angst (only in the beginning), fluff

warnings! crying, insecurities, reader is insecure of herself, short writing!!

note: more fluff for y'all 😁 hope you like it 🫶🏻

now back to the enha x nwjns songs mlist

You know me like no other 다 표현하지 않아도

Looking at my own reflection in the mirror, not recognizing the person who stood after me. Was it me? How could I look like this... How could someone like Jay, put his eye on someone... Like me? I wasn't an idol like him, full of charms, skills and beautiful visuals that could make everyone put their eye on me... Like Jay did, and I don't even understand why he did.

Suddenly a tear escaped my eye, followed by another, and another one; creating a slow but hurtful waterfall running on my cheeks. I couldn't keep my sobs in either, I just let my tears fall freely on my cheeks as they stained them and left them wet. I tried to stop them, my attempts failed as I couldn't stop the insecurity from spilling out of my eyes. I stopped trying to stop my tears and just stared at my own reflection, insecure thoughts filling my mind once again. The flowing of my tears, along with my thoughts made me think again, if I was so unstable with my own self-esteem; How come Jay hasn't left me yet? I'd have been tired of this if I was him...

The sound of a door opening and then closing made me jump as I had got startled, it was Jay the one who had made those sounds. Then I remembered my state, quickly trying to clean my tears and to try to hide the bright red that coloured my face; the result of my crying. I didn't want Jay to look at me like this, but it was inevitable when I heard him calling me from outside of our shared bedroom.

"Love?" Jay called me "Are you home?" He asked again, entering the room I heard him sigh out of relief by seeing me "Ah there you- what? Were you crying? Did something happen?" And soon, I was bombarded with questions as Jay got closer to me and held me by my arms examining my face closely. I saw him looking behind me, only finding the mirror. He knew what had happened, they were my insecurities again who had made me cry. Jay sighed softly and embraced me, careful as if I was some kind of fragile crystal that could break if you put a hard strength on it. "What happened?" Jay asked me, knowing very well what the answer was but still trying to make sure it was what he thought "are they back?" He asked in a soft tone close to my ear, sending shivers down my spine. I could only nod at his question, feeling him kiss my cheek and start whispering sweet nothings into my ear.

And I think I like your point of view 다시 돌아와도 돼

Ever since I told Jay about my insecurities, he has always been here for me and reminding me how much I matter to everyone; specially to him.

In his eyes I was like a diamond on display, everyone could come and see me but no one could get me. Due to my importance and value, I had to be kept away from everyone. Not everyone could have me or see me. And for him, I should be kept away from everyone and their comments. Maybe his way of seeing me was a bit uncommon, but he made it look as if it was the most normal thing in the world. Because for him, I was on a pedestal above everyone.

I couldn't get why he thought of me so highly but Jay made me know the reason why. The only reason why he has me up there, it's because he loves me. I still couldn't get why, and I thought of it as something silly. For Jay, I wasn't just his girlfriend but the love of his life. He is the love of my life too. But something in the way Jay acts, makes it look different. The way he loves is simply beautiful, putting everyone first.

Thanks to his encouraging, and loving, words I could sink in the idea of how good I am. I am a good person, and I deserve him. He showed me how to love, but most how to love myself first. Jay showed me how important I am and how much he appreciates me.

One of the many things I admired from Jay was his sincerity and the easiness he'd have when I feel insecure and he has to help me go through it. Jay always had the right words for the right moment, he knew what to say and what not. And the best part of it all was that he knew how to make those words come out of my mouth, such as "I'm enough" or "I deserve all, and more, of the good things", even when I couldn't fully believe them. But he also made sure of making me believe those words.

I don't care what other people say

"You're my favorite person, y/n" Jay whispered as we laid down, he had me wrapped up in his arms and whispered sweet and loving words in my ears. "I love you so much and I'll never get tired of saying it" he whispered again and I felt him kissing my forehead softly "Thank you, Jay" I said, my voice barely audible but he managed to hear my words "You know you don't have to thank me, everything I'm saying is just the truth" Jay said and started to pat my head softly, his actions lulling me slowly to sleep "I love you so much, thank you for everything" I finally said, the tiredness taking over me as my eyes slowly started to close. "I love you more, my love" Jay whispered and left a kiss on y/n's head, closing his own eyes too.

dear reader, you're enough and loved<3 thank you for existing...♡

♡゜・。。

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Attention | lee heeseung

p: popular!heeseung x new student!fem oc reader g: fluff, he fell first, she fell harder. Heeseung is slightly flirty.

warnings: slight cursing, reader is called Haeun, long writing!

synopsis: Heeseung is known for his attractive looks and also because even if he's popular he always is kind with everyone who decides to approach him. When Haeun arrived to the school she didn't go unnoticed by Heeseung and that made him become interested on her, even if she wasn't interested on him at first. Will Heeseung get Haeun to notice him?

note: another part for the nwjns series! hope you like itttt 🫶🏻

한참을 쳐다봐, 가까이 다가가 you see (ey-yeah)

I was known for being attractive and nice but how could she not know me or notice me? I mean, maybe I was used to the attention from everyone in the school (even from my own teachers) but how could she not see me?

Last month a bunch of new students arrived to our school, between them there was a girl that seemed nice but she didn't talk much more apart from her own name. I felt slightly interested on her because she didn't look like those girls who'll go around trying to be part of a group already, she wasn't seen with anyone but remained nice to everyone. Some people who approached her told me that she was nice and that she didn't push anyone away so, how was it possible that I couldn't see her with anyone around?

I was determined on talking to her and getting to know her, and who says maybe I'll try to hit on her? Oh no, I'll leave that for later.

"Hey, Haeun right?" I asked as I sat down next to her before our chemistry class started "Yes, I'm Haeun. You are?" She asked me, I kept a gasp inside me thanks to her questions. I simply smiled and looked at her "I'm Heeseung, nice to meet you Haeun" I said and she smiled, I had extended my hand for her to shake and she did. "Do you mind if I sit next to you for our chemistry class?" I asked her "No, it's okay" she said smiling kindly. "Why did you do it tho?" Haeun asked me as she took out her things for our lesson "Sit down next to you?" She nodded "Well, I wanted to know you and maybe become friends?" I said, not everything was a lie, I did want to become her friend... And, okay! Maybe try to know her better to go further? Ah I should really focus... "Oh, thank you for trying" she said smiling again, I really hope this works "No problem" I shot another smile in her direction before paying attention to our class.

널 우연히 마주친 척할래 못 본 척 지나갈래 You're so fine (ey). Gotta, gotta get to know ya

I tried to be with Haeun as much as I could, at lunch, in class even tried to invite her to my friends group! Was I going too fast? I really want her to take a look at me and try to approach me first too! Even if she didn't, I wasn't going to give up.

"Do you have any plans for today after school?" "Mhm... I'll just study" Haeun said and shrugged slightly as we walked through the school hallways. "Oh well, let's study together" I said and she looked at me questioningly "Why are you doing all of this?" "What do you mean?" "Everything, trying to be with me, spending time together at school, having lunch together and sitting next to me in class" she said and I sighed softly "Does it annoy you?" "No, why?" "Then just let me be, I'm trying to be friends with you Haeun" I said, I didn't where those came from but I said them "Okay" the girl said, chuckling softly. I wanted more, I wanted more of the sound of her chuckle. Was it weird to like the sound of her chuckle? Damn.

"Where do you wanna go to study?" I asked her as we walked out from the school building "I know a café nearby, I go there frequently and it's really cozy so it's a good place to study" Haeun said and I nodded "okay there it is, you lead the way?" I asked smiling playfully and Haeun chuckled while nodding softly "Yeah"

"And what's your favorite color?" I asked her, leaning my face on my hand "We came here to study and you're asking my favorite color?" Haeun scoffed before smiling softly "it's light green" she said before moving her gaze to the books beside her, picking a highlighter pen to underline something on one of the books. "Aren't you going to ask me what my favorite color is? Mhm~ how bad..." I said smiling softly as I looked in her direction, Haeun rolled her eyes playfully before looking at me "okay, what's your favorite color?" I chuckled "Blue" I said and she nodded before going back to her books again "Won't you study? That's why we came here" Haeun said without looking up from her notes "Maybe... I'm a bit lazy, honestly" I said and laughed at my own words, Haeun shook her head while smiling softly as she continued to read something on her study guide. After a while I decided to take out my own books and try to study for at least 15 minutes, which I knew I would only focus 5 minutes. I wasn't someone who was good with studying so it was hard to focus, and even more with the girl I was starting to like sitting down in front of me. We wrapped up our study session after 30 minutes, when we went out from the café I looked over to Haeun "Do you want me to walk you home? It's pretty late.." I said and she denied kindly "No, thank you. I'll go back by myself, you can walk me home the next time" she said and my eyes went wide "So there's going to be a next time?" I asked smiling playfully and she chuckled while looking around "Maybe?" Haeun said in a playful tone too "We'll see if there's going to be a next time. See you tomorrow Heeseung" she said and I nodded, my smile not going away from my lips "See you tomorrow Haeun" I said before walking away, waving at her as I walked away. Today was a good day for sure.

Hey 다 들켰었나 널 보면 하트가 튀어나와

In these last weeks I realized that I did like Haeun. I mean, if since the first day she arrived I've been trying to make her notice me, didn't that mean that I have developed some feelings for her already? Well, now I'm sure of it and yes, I like her. I've also noticed the way my heart goes wild whenever I'm close to her, or when she passes near me when we're going out from our class and to the hallways for our breaks.

"Hi" I said and sat next to her as we were in the cafeteria for lunch "Hi Heeseung" Haeun replied simply "How have you been?" I asked and she smiled slightly as she took out her lunch "Good, and you?" She replied and looked at me "I'm all good, did you bring something tasty for lunch?" I asked and heard her chuckle "You've come here with a lot of questions... And yes, I brought some tasty food" Haeun replied and I swore I could feel my heart jumping crazily inside my chest, in an attempt of acting normal I swallowed and tried to play it cool "that's cool" I said and noticed that Haeun had turned to look at me questioningly "Is everything alright?" She asked, looking at me quite weirdly too "Yeah.. yeah everything's alright" I said and looked away, looking down at my food to avoid her piercing gaze. I saw Haeun shrugging slightly from the back of my eye and sighed softly, starting to eat my lunch.

The end of the day had come after some severe hours of studying. I made my way out of the classroom and to my locker, I didn't feel Haeun's presence until she called out my name and tapped my shoulder. Turning around I looked at her, confused. "What?" "I was asking you if you had any plans after school" she said and I swore (again) that my heart could explode any moment soon. Was Haeun, Park Haeun, asking me if I had any plans after school?! Was she?! Oh my- I would have started to jump and scream if it wasn't for her being there in front of me. Trying to play it cool, again, I shook my head gently "Not really, uh I was planning on going to play some basketball" I said and Haeun nodded "Well, I have the afternoon free so I can go with you and maybe we can spend some time there. Also so that you don't miss your time playing basketball..." She said and I nodded quickly "Yes, that sounds perfect for me" I said and Haeun chuckled as she turned around and looked at me "Let's go?" She asked smiling and I nodded again "Let's go".

"Won't you get bored while seeing me run around and throwing a ball inside a hoop?" I asked Haeun as we made our way to the basketball court in one of the parks near the school, thankfully the court was empty and it could be just us. "Nah, I'll be good. If I do get bored then I'll just get up and walk away" she said and I laughed, she shook her head and sat down on the floor next to the court "Are you okay there?" I asked as I saw her sitting down on the floor "Yeah, no worries" the girl said and I nodded. I started to play for a while and never saw Haeun moving her gaze away from me, maybe it was greedy for me to say it but it was true.

"Ah goddamn, Minji was right. Heeseung is so damn fine"

가끔은 정말 헷갈리지만 분명한 건 Got me looking for attention

Haeun had started to act differently around me after she had seen me play in the basketball court last week. She seemed more flustered? Shy? I don't know what it was but she was acting different. I wanted to ask her about it but I couldn't bring myself to do it yet, maybe something happened? I need to try to ask her what's going on, maybe that can help her open more with me! We can get closer if I show more interest on her? Yes! I'll try to ask her what is happening.

Another thing I could notice on Haeun's behavior was that I saw her more around me, she'd stick around more frequently and would come to me first and ask me about my classes. At the moment I'm living a dream whenever she does that because it feels so nice. It feels so nice to have her attention finally, I've wanted that ever since I put my eye on her and when I noticed that she had started to see me more made me realize that maybe my plan worked. It wasn't a plan either, I just wanted to get closer to her. And to be honest, she's one of the nicest people I've met. It can be because I like her, but she's really nice! Should I confess my feelings? Or is it too soon?

"Haeun?" "Mhm?" She looked at me after I had called her "Can I tell you something?" I asked her and she nodded. We were at the Han river as I had invited her here to hang out for a while after school. I was walking with Haeun next to me and I stopped to tell her what I was hiding for some months already. "You know, ever since you came to school... You've caught my attention, and since then I've been wanting you to notice me..." I said, smiling like a fool as I avoided her gaze "And I've come to the conclusion that I like you. I like you Park Haeun" I said more confidently and finally looked into her eyes, I couldn't read them. I couldn't tell what her eyes were saying. They were empty to me until she got closer and embraced me "I like you too, Heeseung" she mumbled and I wrapped my arms around her. When we separated I still had one of my arms around her, slowly leaning closer I finally closed the gap between our lips and connected them into a soft but full of emotions kiss. I poured all of my feelings into that kiss, she brought her hand up to my cheek and I hugged her closer to me. Due to the lack of air, we parted away but she made sure of keep our foreheads together even after the kiss. I smiled like a fool and heard Haeun chuckle, my favorite sound. I felt as if I had won in life after knowing that she reciprocated my feelings, even as much as I did. "I love you, or is it too soon?" I said and chuckled, a tinge of nervousness in my voice soon shut up by Haeun's words "No, I think I already love you too" she said and chuckled before hugging me again. After that evening, I was sure that I had caught her attention like she did with me at first. This was the beginning of something that could last years, or at least that I wanted to last years.

☆゜・。。

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WHAT'S YOUR ETA? | Sunoo & Jungwon

p: non idol!Sunoo x non idol!Jungwon x gn!reader

synopsis: you've broken up with your ex and your two best friends are there for you to help you go through it. One day, they make you choose one of them to stay with you, because they won't share you between themselves. Who are you staying with?

note: ahh third post of the nwjns series :'') you'll find this event here

long post!!

아주 눈부시게, honestly, 우리 사이에 He's been totally lying, yeah

Ever since I broke up with my ex, Sunoo and Jungwon have been attached with me to the hip. They're my best friends and because of that they've been with me through all my break up with my actual ex.

Although they're always with me, helping me and comforting me, they don't get along very well between each other. The reason why? I wish I knew because none of them has ever told me why they can't be alone together not even for five minutes.

I don't really mind about that at the moment, because I just care if they are with me. They told me to not worry about their grudges and that's what I try to do, even if the curiosity eats me up sometimes when I see Sunoo side eyeing Jungwon or when Jungwon scoffs at Sunoo's words.

Today we decided to meet at a café and spend some time together, I sat while waiting for them. The first one to arrive was Sunoo. He instantly smiled at me the first second he arrived, and sat down next to me as we started talking.

"How's it going? Do you feel better after what happened with... Them?" Sunoo asked, referring to my ex. I sighed softly "Yeah, I'm good. I haven't thought about them as I've been spending a lot of time outside haha" I said and Sunoo chuckled, nodding. "He didn't deserve you. I knew he was lying whenever he said he was busy, even on your birthday!" Sunoo said and I chuckled bittersweetly while nodding "Yeah.. he never covered up his lies well". We talked for about five more minutes before Jungwon arrived, he greeted me and vowed slightly to Sunoo as he sat down in front of us.

"How's it going ___?" He asked and I smiled "All good" "Have you ordered yet? Sorry the bus was late" he apologized and I nodded softly, understanding his situation "No we haven't ordered yet, and don't worry about that" "Let's order, then." Jungwon said and I nodded, the waiter came and took our orders.

내 말 믿어, you deserve better than that 내가 도와줄게, 걔는 그냥 playing

Sunoo and Jungwon always made sure of reassuring me about how good and nice I was and how my ex didn't deserve me. They were always there reaching out for me and comforting me if I suddenly had a breakdown and didn't feel well.

Last Tuesday we decided to meet and to go walk around the park for a while, I agreed and we set our hang out there.

When I arrived I saw Jungwon and Sunoo already at the park, each one of them on their phone as they wouldn't talk to one another when I wasn't there. I walked to them and they both looked up, they smiled and Jungwon greeted me.

"Hey ___, let's go?" He said and I nodded I smiled at Sunoo and we started walking around. We talked for a while as we moved around the park, stopping to take some pictures of the view in front of us. After walking around for quite a while, they told me we should sit down and I said yes as I was already tired of walking. The three of us sat down on a bench in front of some swings.

Sunoo moved to look at me, he gazed to the floor before looking up again "You know, ___" He started "That our relationship, with me and Jungwon, isn't the best. And lately, after your break up, we've been hanging out a lot the three of us together.." he said while looking at me, I nodded in signal of telling him to continue "And so, we thought about you should choose one of us. Because it'd be better for you, and us, if you only stayed with either me or Jungwon" he finished and I nodded, I looked away. What were they asking for? Choosing between my two best friends? I didn't get the reason why but it surely was because of their own inside "argument", so I decided to stay silent and nod. "Okay.." I said softly "You don't have to choose just now" Jungwon said "If you want, we can give you one month to decide. You can spend two weeks with me and then the other two with Sunoo. So when the months ends, you can have your answer" he said and I nodded, maybe that could help me decide... "Okay, let's do that" I said and they nodded, this was strange but I guess I'll have to do it even if I'm not sure if I'll be able to choose.

We can go wherever you like, now where are you?

I spent the first two weeks with Sunoo, we went out to some places and just had a lot of fun together laughing and talking, maybe gossiping too.

He always managed to make me laugh and have a good time around him, remarking the way he'd treat me like this if I chose him instead of Jungwon.

"Hey! Come back! I still have to put your facemask on!" He shouted as I ran away from him and around the house, his house. He invited me over to his house to have a sleepover and watch some movies, maybe eat something and play some board games. Right now I left him inside his bathroom as we were doing some skincare routine session, and he wanted me to use one of his facemasks. I didn't want to as I wanted to go and continue watching the movie we were watching before going to the bathroom, but I had to agree to do our skincare.

I laughed as I ran around his house, trying not to trip over anything that could be laying on the floor. I jumped over the couch and he stood in front of me, holding the little packet which had the facemask inside it. Sunoo looked really funny from my point of view, facemask on and a hairband on too. I couldn't stop laughing while I tried to dodge him so I could go away and continue running.

In the end, Sunoo ended up catching me and putting on the facemask. I had to give up but we could still continue the movie. We ate snacks and pulled an all nighter, because none of us could sleep. It was a nice night and we had a lot of fun. The next morning I woke up and decided to wake up Sunoo too, because it was 13:44 p.m. I had lunch at his place too and went back to my apartment, he bid me goodbye from his door and I walked back home by myself while enjoying some time alone. It wasn't that Sunoo's presence wasn't good but, it was strange how I'll had to chose between him and my other best friend... Wasn't it weird?

Today was Sunday and that was my last day with Sunoo before I spent two weeks with Jungwon, and after decide who I'll stay with. With Sunoo today, we just went for something simple and set a meeting at a café nearby my place.

I met him there and we spent the afternoon there, after eating something and chatting for a while Sunoo told me he wanted to walk around the park before I could go home. While we were at the park we bumped into some swings and decided to go to them and just stay for a while, it was night already so it wouldn't hurt anyone if some people used the swings for a while, right?

"___?" He called me "Yes?" "I'd like to tell you this before you go back home and your week with Jungwon starts" he said and got up from the swing, walking over to me. He stood up after me and held eye contact "If Jungwon dumps you or if you don't feel good with him during your two weeks together, my phone's always on to receive any calls from you" he said and I blushed slightly at his words. Sunoo smiled softly at me and pulled me up from the swing before walking with me out from the playground "Where are we going?" I asked, confused on how he had pulled me up and started walking without talking "To your house, it's getting late don't you think?" He asked while looking at me as we walked through the streets "Oh yeah it is quite late already" I said after looking at the time in my watch. 20:47 p.m was on full display on it, it was late indeed.

We reached my apartment and Sunoo stood up in front of me smiling "See you in two weeks ___" he said and I nodded "See you, Sun" I said and smiled; I separated to walk to my apartment's entrance but Sunoo stopped me before kissing me on my cheek, whispering "I hope you choose well" and pushed me slightly inside as he walked away, not turning around. I stood dumbfounded at his actions, I tried to wake up myself and entered my apartment still deep in thought thanks to Sunoo's actions.

We can go wherever you like, baby say the words and I'm down

On my first week with Jungwon everything went well. As I did with Sunoo, we went out and spent a lot of time laughing and having fun. We even went to the cinema and he took me out to have dinner at different places. Jungwon also told me that this would be the same if I chose him before Sunoo and that he'd treat me better than he could ever do. And that made me think again, why were they doing this?

"Look this one is cute!" "No! The bunny one looks better!" We decided to go to an amusement park that day. Jungwon told me he'd win one of the big plushies on display for me, in one of the games at the park and he told me to choose one plushie to keep. "Okay, I'll get the bunny one for you then.." he sighed and I laughed. Jungwon played and finally won the plushie for me, he handed it to me and I smiled thanking him.

"Where do you wanna go now? Tell me and we'll go" he said and I looked around, smiling before pointing the ferris wheel "let's go to the ferris wheel" I said and he nodded, his dimples on display thanks to his smile. We walked over to get in line before getting to the ferris wheel. After a while we got in and soon after it started.

"Woah it looks really nice from here" I said while looking over all the amusement park from our seat. It suddenly stopped and we could admire the view we had for us, the neon lights from the park shining and reflecting everywhere. "Are you having fun?" Jungwon asked me, looking over to me as we sat next to each other "A lot, and you?" I said smiling softly "I am having fun too" he said and his dimples popped out again and I chuckled to that "What? Why are you laughing?" He asked as I suddenly let out a laugh "Nothing, I just find cute the way your dimples pop out" I said and reached my finger to touch one of them, chuckling after doing so. Jungwon laughed too at my silly actions, we were really having fun.

Later that evening we went back home, we laughed and talked about anything until we reached the bus stop. We had to take different buses but we waited for them at the same place.

"What time is it already?" I asked Jungwon, he took out his phone and showed it to me "it's 19:39 p.m already... Quite late haha" he said and I nodded "I hope that our buses don't take much to come" I said and he nodded. After a while his bus stopped in front of us but I didn't see Jungwon getting up to take it, I looked at him confused and he looked at me too "What?" "Isn't that your bus?" "Yeah, why?" "Aren't you going to take it?" "No, i'll wait until yours comes and then I'll take mine" he said and I stayed silent for a second, his reason had taken me off guard. "Okay" I said looking away, I don't even know why I blushed at his words. He was just going to wait for mine before he could take his bus and that made me feel flustered? Oh god.

"Where do you wanna go next?" Jungwon asked me, looking to the road in front of us "mhm... Maybe to the arcade?" I suggested and he nodded "When would you like to go? Tomorrow evening maybe?" "Yeah that sounds good to me" I said and he sent a smile to my, sending one back too.

My bus came visible from afar and that meant I'll have to go. I got up and Jungwon did too, soon the bus was in front of us and I had to get in.

"See you tomorrow, ___" he said and I nodded, he hugged me and ruffled my hair slightly "See you, Won" I said and got inside the bus, waving at him after sitting down. When my bus wasn't visible anymore, Jungwon sat down again. He scoffed to himself.

"You won't win this, Kim Sunoo"

"Do you wanna grab something to eat?" Jungwon asked me. Today was our last day together before I had to choose between him or Sunoo, to be honest I was nervous about that day. We were walking down the streets as we had decided to go to the mall before going back home "maybe we can buy something at the mall?" "Good for me, then" he said and we continued walking. To be completely honest, this week with Jungwon was really nice. We had a lot of fun and spent a lot of time outside to different places. But, I can't compare him to Sunoo, and I can't compare Sunoo to Jungwon. They're both so special to me that I can't compare them, how am I going to be able to choose between them?

We entered the mall and looked around for a while, stopping to check out some of the things they had on display in every shop. Eventually, I got a bit hungry so I told Jungwon, so that we could go to one of the food spaces and buy something to eat for lunch. "Won?" "Mhm?" "I'm hungry already.." I said and chuckled softly after "Oh okay, where do you wanna go from here?" He asked me and I looked around before making my choice "Let's go there! I heard that the food they sell is really good" I suggested and Jungwon nodded, walking over to the counter and making our order.

"You weren't wrong ___!" Jungwon said as he ate again from what we had ordered "I know right?!" I chuckled and Jungwon nodded as he drank some water "Yes, it's really good!" He said and I smiled. We spent some more time at the mall after having lunch before going back home.

"Have you made a choice already?" Jungwon asked me as we walked side by side on the street on our way home "For tomorrow? Not really... It's hard" I admitted looking down as we walked "It's okay, ___. I know it's a bit difficult but I'm sure you'll make a good choice" he said and I smiled softly at him "The thing is... You and Sunoo are the best choice, the two of you" I said and heard Jungwon sigh beside me "I hope you choose well tomorrow" he said, before hugging me. I didn't realize when we were already in front of my apartment "I'll see you tomorrow ___, we'll send you a text, with Sunoo, to tell you where we'll meet" Jungwon said and I nodded "Okay, see you Won" I said and waved softly at him. I entered my apartment's building and into the lift, when I got to my floor I got inside my house and let out a sigh. What have I gotten myself into?

Jungwon told me that we were going to meet at the Han River with him and Sunoo so I could tell them my choice. I received a text from both of them, Sunoo and Jungwon.

Sun: what's your ETA, ___?

Won: ___, what's your ETA?

This was going to be hard for me. I replied them that I was going to arrive soon and continued my way to the river. I was nervous, a lot. I haven't even stopped to think about my own choice, what was I going to do?

I arrived and they were waiting for me already, I walked to them and they greeted me with a smile. Sunoo looked at me and I avoided his gaze along with Jungwon's. "Have you made your choice ___?" Sunoo asked me and I looked around, trying to think of an answer. I nodded, even when I wasn't sure of my answer "Then who it is, ___?" Jungwon asked me. He and Sunoo spoke again, making me move my gaze upwards to their faces.

"Who are you choosing, ___?"

☆゜・。。

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GET UP | park sunghoon

p: non idol!sunghoon x non idol!fem reader g: angst

warnings! mentions of death, crying, sudden goodbye, sad ending.

note: second post of the nwjns series!! You'll find it here ;))

10:27 a.m "Get up"

What's has gotten into us lately? Was it our life? Or maybe us? Maybe it was me, or maybe it was you. I hoped it was me.

I've met Sunghoon when we were still in college, our last year. We became friends really easily thanks to one of our friends that we had in common. Our friend had set up a meeting between our big group of friends and that's when I met Sunghoon. We talked all night and went back home being friends, we could talk everyday at school and after it. He was nice and caring, he would walk me home after school or maybe after one of our outers, because we would hang out pretty often.

Sunghoon was someone who could bottle his feelings easily, but he didn't do it with me. He told me what happened in his life and I did too because, that's why we were friends right?

With me, Sunghoon wouldn't keep anything in. If something happened or annoyed him, he would go straight to the point and call me our for it. That's what I liked about him, his facility on talking so smoothly about what concerned him, his sincerity.

Even after all of our outers and time spent, we would always have that little moment in which we would talk about us and our problems or just things that could be happening at that moment. Sunghoon was a comfortable person to be with and although there could be moments of silence, he would make it a comfortable silence.

That was until everything changed, well, I had to admit that it felt more as if he had changed.

We would hang out but Sunghoon wouldn't talk a lot, not even about himself. He was dry and straight with me, but he didn't seem straight about himself and what was going on.

I'd start the conversations but he'd end them easily with his dry and short replies. Sunghoon wasn't trying anymore.

17:03 p.m "I don't wanna fight your shadow"

I wanted to talk about what was happening.

I didn't like this.

Some days passed and I gained enough strength to tell Sunghoon to meet, and talk. He said he was busy and I ate his lie, because I knew that he wasn't busy.

Sunghoon would avoid talking about anything that meant what was going on with his shitty attitude, and his constant avoiding to me.

I felt as if I was talking to the air because he wouldn't even answer to my texts. Sunghoon wasn't there anymore.

A week, two weeks, a month...

Three months passed and I never knew about Sunghoon, no one talked about him. I didn't bring him up either, I was mad at him and his behavior anyways. Was everyone mad at him too? I wish they were, his attitude deserved it.

20:48 p.m "meet me back in five if I matter ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ to you"

I couldn't lie to myself anymore, even when I said I hated Sunghoon for ghosting me and disappearing from everything and everyone.

I missed him, his texts and his presence.

Of course, his way of leaving was horrible and I still suffered. I deserved some explaining on why he left me hanging and treated me like he didn't care.

Did he hate me? Why would he do this?

Those two questions lingered in my mind and made me cry, because I could never hate the one who made me feel so happy and alive. Even when he left without saying anything.

13:49 p.m "like you said, I do."

"Hey Hoon, it's been a long time. Can we meet?"

"Hey ___, it's Sunghoon's mother. I'm so sorry to tell you but Sunghoon passed away three months ago, I thought he told you about his sickness. I'm so sorry."

"Oh, no. He didn't tell me anything, I thought he was mad at me... I'm so sorry for your lost Mrs. Park"

Sunghoon had passed away? Sickness? He was sick? And I never knew? Those words couldn't sink in because this was for sure a prank, right?

I wish it was, even when I went to the cemetery and was welcomed by the sight of Sunghoon's tombstone, his name engraved on it.

My knees went weak as I cried in front of him, hating myself for saying I hated him once. When he wasn't even here either.

Did the rest know? Did they know Sunghoon left us long time ago?

If he trusted me so much why didn't he tell me about this?

I cried for hours in front of him, I knew he wouldn't come back and tell me what happened. Sunghoon wasn't here and our last conversation wasn't the best. I wish everything was different.

The next week I visited Sunghoon's family, they welcomed me and, to my surprise, his sister gave me a letter. She told me that Sunghoon wrote it for me and that he would like me to read it, after his death. I kept some tears inside and kept the letter with me until I arrived home.

When I did, I read the letter and couldn't contain my sobs. Sunghoon had started to avoid me just so I could hate him and never know about his sickness or death, funny because he didn't want me to know about it and to suffer. And I ended up suffering anyways.

I cursed myself and him because, why would he do this?

In that same letter, he told me he loved me and I wanted to scream at his face that I loved him too. But I couldn't do that.

Why couldn't he tell me that face to face? Why wait until now?

I couldn't say goodbye to him, he didn't do it either.

And in the end, it wasn't me. It was him.

but I wished it was me instead of him.

☆゜・。。

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HURT ! cause I'm not gonna be the one to get hurt

p: idol!ni-ki x non idol!gn reader g: angst

warnings! angst, break up, mentions of childish attitudes

note: first part of the nwjns series!! 😭 also idk why but I've been writing a lot of angst, AND I'M ENJOYING IT 😟

One year has been since I met Ni-ki. We met at an arcade when he saw me playing one of the games he wanted but ended up hanging out with me after watching me play a round, and became friends.

He was really nice and kind, he teased me too. He told me he was an idol and that he couldn't be seen outside with me or with anyone, I understood it because after all that's how idol life works.

We hung out a lot, even with his packed schedule. He texted me a lot too and we video called each other sometimes, it was all good.

Until I started to feel something else apart from friendship

Suddenly I started to see Ni-ki in a different way, our hang outs didn't feel as fun outers anymore but as maybe.. dates?

Maybe I started to like Ni-ki when he grabbed my hand to lead me further into the crowd, or when he introduced his band mates to me one night I came over to the dorms. Or maybe when he told me he would like to be more than friends... No, I already liked him when he said that.

I knew that we couldn't date due to his dating ban, and I understood it.

I didn't care about it a lot, because everything was okay while I was with him. That was until he wasn't with me anymore.

It was when their world tour started, and our downfall started too.

Ni-ki told me about how excited he was about going around the world and performing in front of so many people. But he never talked about me, about us and what could happen to our bonds when those times arrived.

The truth was that, we never went official. Because we couldn't but also because he never asked me out, neither did I.

I decided to brush off all those thoughts, I had the idea that maybe I should wait for him and then we could date or talk more about us. I was a patient person anyways.

The tour started, Ni-ki texted me once or twice, in the morning and before going to sleep. We couldn't have long conversations due to the time difference and his schedule, and I understood. I was grateful that he could at least send me a text, remember me.

That was until the second week of him on tour that he stopped sending texts, he stopped sending photos. I tried to text him, but he never answered. Ni-ki posted on socials and looked happy while on tour, was I selfish for wanting his attention when he was busy? I knew how busy his life was, and I still wanted his attention.

I stopped texting too, and one month passed. Then two. Then his arrival to Korea had to be soon, according to the fan accounts. Because he would never tell me when he would arrive here or at least say hello, no, he didn't do it anymore.

When he was supposed to arrive I texted him, a simple "Did you arrive?" And I waited for an answer. I didn't get one. Not even after 6 hours after having sent that text.

I was tired of waiting and decided to visit the dorms, I deserved some explanation of what happened right? He disappeared without saying anything.

And that's what I did, I went to the dorms and knocked on the door. I waited for a while outside and Jake opened the door, he smiled at me and let me in, telling me that Ni-ki was in his room. I entered the house and went directly to where Jake told me Ni-ki was. I saw him on his phone. Funny.

Funny how he'd be on his phone but not answering my texts, how at least he was supposed to.

"What are you doing here?"

"Not even a hello?"

"Hello"

"Why didn't you text me? I was worried and you left me hanging for more than two months, did I ever cross your mind?"

"I was just busy, nothing else"

"Oh yeah so busy that you're on your phone now and are ignoring the hundred texts I sent you, right?"

"Stop overreacting, it's not a big deal... Gosh"

"Oh well, if it's not a big deal then I'm leaving"

I didn't know what had gone through him, to make him have such immature attitude...

And like that, I didn't talk to him since that day, neither did he.

I went out and didn't come back, he was acting like a child. He didn't care about me, or us.

After that I didn't call, I didn't text.

He didn't reach to me, until Sunoo did.

He told me he wanted to meet up at a park near their dorms and we did. I waited for him at the park but Sunoo never appeared, Ni-ki did. He stood after me, looking at me. I was confused, why was he here?

"What are you doing here?"

"We should.. talk"

"about what?"

"Us"

We spent the afternoon talking about what had happened and he told me he wanted a second chance, I didn't know back then but I gave him the chance to try again.

We came back to our usual times, hanging out, playing, etc. We never talked about our feelings but it didn't matter. Until one day the curiosity was eating me up, so I asked him.

"What are we?"

"I don't know... Friends?"

"Oh... Okay"

As simple as that, was his answer. So he didn't feel anything for me, after saying he did. Should I be mad? Maybe his feelings changed?

Another comeback came, and again, the same story repeated. Ni-ki texted me for a week but stopped, it was his busy schedule again. And I was tired of it already, I understood that being an idol was his dream and job but... What about me?

When I brought it up again, he brushed it off. Just like he did three months ago.

"You always do this!" "You always overreact and don't care about me!" Ni-ki snapped out at me.

"What?! I don't care about you?! If I didn't care about you or us, I wouldn't have given you that second chance

You know what, Ni-ki? Let's leave it here. I don't want this to happen again."

"What?! You can't leave me like that!"

"Maybe I wouldn't be doing this is if you at least cared more about me or us!"

"You know how busy my life is!"

"I know but I'm tired of knowing and understanding! Have you ever thought about how I might feel?"

silence...

"That's enough for me, good luck. I should've known this wouldn't work. Not even with your schedule or your childish attitudes. I don't wanna be the one to get hurt by this"

Maybe neither of us was ready for a relationship, but it still hurt how he wouldn't care about us. And how he wouldn't accept that he was the one in fault.

Was it the wrong time or person?

Maybe both.

☆゜・。。

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