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The kind of numbness that comes with the death of a self.

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me: man i should probably stop picking at my face

the angel on my shoulder: yeah man stop that it’s not good for you

trent reznor: keep pickin at that scabbb

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Urge surfing is so goddamn fucking hard. I want him to bite me I want to see the scars I left him I want to taste him I want to know how he feels inside me. I want to text him. I think I'm gonna break lmao.

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How do you paint so tiny? Impressed by the talent.

uh-with-thuh teethuuuuhhh

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I will NOT give into the desire to be wanted.

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I think the meaning of life is pain in order to then create meaning. And impermanence also.

is the meaning of life just maximizing pleasure and reducing annoyance

what's your best explanation of the meaning of life.

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"And oh, so sick I am

And maybe I don't have a choice

And maybe that is all I have

And maybe this is a cry for help"

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"Hang on to your heart, kid

Hang on for your life"

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I don't wanna work, I just wanna listen to music all day :(

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My spotify playlist of covers. I'm aware it sounds somewhat spiteful.

“Johnny Cash’s Hurt” i’m falling to my knees and beating my fists on the ground. Trent Reznor didn’t serve cunt and suffer teenaged girl levels of angst in the nineties writing that song for nothing.

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Thinking about you.

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Relatable.

I hate the fact that I cannot love someone properly ever since my first breakup

It's been 4 + months now, and I still feel like a part of me died after her. I tried dating 2 people after that but it didn't work.

It's not that I've moved on. I don't think I love my ex anymore. I feel like I ran out of whatever I had to say.

My body is recovering though, I've stopped feeling nauseous and any form of anxiety attack.

I don't know if I can love someone anymore

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tagged by: @julpernulper, would love to talk <3

last song: Confessions of a Blackheart by Genitorturers.

favorite colour: Deep Purple (hehe, get the reference?)

last book read: The History of Sexuality by Michel Foucault. And then I found out Foucault was supposedly a pedo.

last movie: Challengers, purely for the OST lol. Not a bad movie though, fairly interesting. Very intrigued by Zendaya's character.

last show: True Blood, which I started because I was craving a southern gothic vibe. Doesn't completely fill that desire, but I adore the Louisiana accents and the mystical goings-on. And there's vampires. What else could a girl want?

savory/spicy/sweet: 100% savoury . The majority of the time at least. I will do anything for a good bag of nachos, or a baked savoury treat.

relationship status: single

last thing I looked up: "Serj Tankian long hair" lol.

current obsession: Acid Bath. Goddamn, I need Dax Riggs to do that fucking animalistic growl into my ear. It's so sexy. Acid Bath also very much fulfills my southern gothic craving. Can't fucking wait to see videos of them performing again, in the year of our lord 2025.

looking forward to: Going home in December. It's going to be freezing cold, but I'll have myself for as long as I can stand, and when I can't, I'll have my friends, and I'll have books, and I'll have music, and knowledge at my fingertips whenever I please, with nothing else in the way. Also a possible metal gig as soon as I get home, two bands I've been wanting to see forever.

Tagging: @spoonmanshit bcos you're the only other person I interact with on this app kinda.

People I'd Like to Know Better

tagged by: @mt07131 hiii thankyou :3

last song: black heaven by creeper

favorite color: green or pink

last book read: currently reading forensics by val mcdermid which is kinda not great. and also haunted by chuck palahniuk

last movie: rewatched saw 2004!!!

last show: x files!! on season 3

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet

relationship status: single

last thing i looked up: twin peaks

current obsession: everyone is gonna be Soo shocked when i say nin . also diy

looking forward to: thursday in january hopefully!!!

tagging: @aggressiveguitarnoises @julpernulper @mortuarykid @1nrain-bows @rais3dheart :p

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You're just Topuria-pilled wdym.

My ungodly amount of obsession with red roses needs to be studied

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Literally me.

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Reminds me awfully of something....

This is me running away from my problems and life while I play The Microphones