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I am sadness

I am sadness, Gray and wilted. Tired from the passage of time, Windswept and rained-upon, Desperate looking for a place to rest. Oh, if only I could have a dreamless sleep. Instead, my sleep is filled with dreams, and my dreams are filled with people and emotions.

I am the past, Fixed and unwielding. Forever imprisoned in a concrete box, Unable to look forward, Unable to breathe, Unable to express myself in a language other than "emotional", Yet also unable to express my emotions.

I am trapped. I don't know what to do and what to say. How to deal with that sea of unending sadness, Of fury, Of desperation. Of emptiness.

I am sadness. Cold, and tired, and faceless. The only thing I know how to be, Is black.

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I’m not here

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°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･❀*ੈ✩‧₊˚⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

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delirium

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I will be starting an anti-depressant in a couple of weeks. Wish me luck.

I also got some Zannies on the side and I’m shocked to realize I don’t wanna be on them all the time. So mature.

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No more tears, my heart is dry

I don't laugh and I don't cry

I don't think about you all the time

But when I do, I wonder why

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imagining a day i don't imagine a different life so hard i hurt my own feelings

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(by Andrea Music)

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Night falls over the woods

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I wish things were different

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Home is where the heart is, but what a shame, cause everyone’s heart doesn’t beat the same.