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— Franz Kafka, The Castle | The Lovers of Valdaro

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Giovanni's Room, James Baldwin

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Vincent Van Gogh

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Does anyone else look in the mirror long enough and examine your features to the point where you start to get physically nauseous? Just me? Ok

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i do look at the sky and wonder: do parents bear the same resentment their children have towards them?

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Janet Fitch, White Oleander // Charles Bukowski, Ham on Rye // Gail Carson Levine, "Fairest" // Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait in Letters // Hieu Minh Nguyen, "Pig" // Valentina-Remenar on DeviantArt // Ashe Vernon, Not A Girl

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it's an everyday occurrence

my heart and mind in dissonance

to wish an end for myself

or to wish a lifetime for us

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you hold my breath so much

only your words would serve as my air

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i chugged down that energy drink as if it's blood, to the point that some of the liquid dripped down from the corner of my lips. i waited, and waited. i waited for that painful beating of my heart, like it's trying to get out of my ribcage. like it's screaming free me, free me, i cannot breathe

however, i suppress it. i continue to suffocate it. i smile at the arrhythmia that i am feeling.

my heart beats.

it screams.

it's alive.

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Say you love me and I will show reverence at your feet. I will bow my head at every sight of you. I will follow the path that you walk on. Say the word and I will be at your service. All the same, let me grab your nape and push you down. Let me drag you around. I will make you kneel and say a prayer, perhaps one that would shake the heavens. You kneel and I praise. You beg and I bless.

I am both your master and your servant.

Say you love me, then you will be my ruler and I will be your god.

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the day i find someone i can kiss all the time, its over for everyone

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[...] I love you so it is simply murdering me.

Sylvia Plath, The Letters of Sylvia Plath Volume I: 1940–1956 ⁠— Ted Hughes, 5th October 1956

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i have known grief my whole life

i've been living with it chasing me

however, it will always find a way to catch up

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they say the one who loves more always loses

and i have been told by my past lovers

that i have always been a winner

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what do you both have when forever doesn't exist?

a lifetime.

habangbuhay means forever

habang buhay means while still alive

rough translation:

Our forever doesn't have to mean the same because we know that doesn't exist. Our forever could be yesterday, today, and tomorrow. While we are still alive. As long as we live, all the times that I am with you, that's my forever.

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vow for eternity; an excerpt from a fanfic i wrote