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Hello there~ Are you planning to write a part 2 for Honey? ^_^ Loved Part 1!!

Yes, but there's a lot of things going on in my life right now. I'm gonna try and find some free time to sit and write it ☺️

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Honey

Parings: Lay/Yixing Zhang x Reader

Fuckboy au (kinda), angst (I guess)

Part 1 out of ?

Writer's note: Yes. After 84 years I'm finally back. To be honest it was rough year for me... But hey, it's good to be back. Well this is not another chapter of the series I've already started, just something new that I wanted to share with you. It was suppose to be one-shot, but know I'm not so sure. Maybe I will write another part. Sorry that this is so short

Words count: 1091

Another late night in your apartment. He was laying next to you. His breath steady. You on the other hand couldn’t fall asleep. How did you end up in this situation? Simply, you started falling in love. The biggest mistake of your life.

Yixing has been your best friend since primary school. Always together. People even started saying you’re a couple. That changed when you entered collage. He started going on every party he could. Invited or not, he was there. He did everything. Beginning at drinks going through one night stands and ending with a huge hangover.

You got tangled up in this mess, because one day his drunk ass called you. It was 4 a.m. and he couldn’t talk properly. You being you, worrying about that dumbass you called a friend, went to his apartment. You found him laying down on the couch, face pale as a white ceiling that was above him. You helped him get up and go to the bathroom to take a shower. One thing led up to another and before you knew you were already in bed with him. Since that day you became his booty call.

Another mistake on your list. The ‘friends with benefits’ thing should’ve never happen. He did say to not catch feelings for him. No strings attached, easy. Right? Then you shouldn’t be sitting on your bed wide awake with millions of thoughts running through your brain while he was sleeping peacefully next to you.

“That is the last time I’m doing this with you…’ You whispered looking at the sleeping boy. The thing was that you said that way too many times and you always manage to forget about it every time he called.

Yixing stirred in his sleep, his hand searching for your body. You quickly laid down to not possibly wake him up. Yixing clung to you, burring his face in your neck. Quiet sigh left his lips. One lonely tear escaped your eye, going down your cheek.

When you woke up the next day, he wasn’t there. It wasn’t something new. He did that every time you two fuck. Getting up from bed you picked up your oversized shirt that was on the cold floor of your apartment. Sighing you took off the cover from the bed. Always doing that after you let him use you. You heard a ringtone you’ve set for your friend.

“What’s up, Eunji?” You asked with no emotions in your voice. She knew about the agreement between you and Yixing since the beginning. She always said that you’re going end up with a broken heart.

“Did you know that Yixing is going with Minjoo to Free-Life Festival?” You heard her voice.

Minjoo was the most popular girl on the campus. Daughter of some rich CEO. Spoiled brat that thought she can have everything she wanted. Every boy fell on his knees for her and was willing to do everything just to had her look at him.

“He what?! We were suppose to go together. It was our project that won the competition.” You said.

Free-Life Festival was the biggest one in our town that was organized every year. Every student was working on their project that would be chosen for presentation on the festival as a representative. Finally this year was yours. You and Yixing were suppose to present your Heart-beep. A lamp in shape of a heart that was connected to a smartphone or smartwatch. Depending on your mood it changed colors. It was like a signal for the significant other to let them know that something is wrong. The lamp was suppose to motivate people to talk to each other. When you two won it was normal for you that you will go with Yixing as parents of Heart-beep.

You had to talk with him. Quickly changing your clothes, you grabbed your car keys and left the apartment rather to fast, leaving the door open.

*

“What’s that suppose to be?! What the hell Yixing?” You yelled at him as soon as the door was open to his apartment. He was standing there, shirtless with a towel hanging low on his hips. His black hair damp, few droplets of water running down his neck. You could see some scratches on his chest, not so sure if you left them last night.

“Care to explain?” Trying not to focus on his body you looked at his eyes. Those warm brown eyes you fell in love looked away from you as he spoke.

“Guys from campus can’t see me with just anybody.”

It hit you. His words hurt you more than anything could. He said it like there was nothing between you. Not even a friendship.

The boy standing before you wasn’t the Yixing you knew since childhood. No, that was Lay. The heartbreaker, player that doesn’t care about anyone. Others feelings meant nothing to him. Apparently yours too.

“Lay? Where are you? I can go for another round if you still want to.”  You heard some girly voice.

Soon you saw blonde girl. It was Minjoo, covered only in a dark blue blanket. Her rosy cheeks and swollen lips told more than you wanted to know. He fucked her right after he was with you. It didn’t even took him too long, just few hours after he was with you. Sudden realization hit you like ton of bricks. You were just another girl for him. After all, he got so many flavors in his phone. When one of them wasn’t available, you were his last choice and when Minjoo was in his radar... He just took her to his apartment. That’s the thing, he never take you there. Not even once. When he needed the release, he just showed up at your doorstep waiting for you to let him in.

“Who’s that?” She asked looking at you through his shoulder.

“No one important.” You said. “It was good talking to you, Lay… See you hopefully never again.” You turned quickly to not let him see your tears that started to roll down your cheeks. Not like he would care. There was another broken heart added to his list. This time it was yours.

Y/N Kim, idiot who has fallen in love with her best friend that used her as a fuck toy. How could you agree to everything that night…?

*

“Honey… Would you be my honey?” He asked slowly kissing your neck.

“Yes.”

And that was the moment you handed down your heart to the wrong person.

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Find them

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Genre: Game au, angst  

Warnings: None  

Words: I lost count xD

Author's Note: This chapter is really, really bad... i'm not happy how it turns out, so maybe I'm gonna edit it later but for now it has to be like that. At least tumblr did let me post this (finally)

Loud crash woke me up. My eyes flew wide open. Body cold because of the lack of warmth behind me. I sat up with a groan, head throbbing, eyes puffy, lips slightly quivering. I felt like hundreds of elephants stomped on me. It wouldn’t be that bad if someone hadn’t break something. I would still be asleep and probably I wouldn’t be so tired after waking up.  

I searched my surroundings for the cause of the noise. Right in front of my eyes stood Hoseok with bleeding hand and shattered plate in the other one.

“Hyung! Are you okay? What happened?” My eyes switching from his hands to his face. The weak smile wasn’t reassuring as he would think. The sadness in his eyes told everything.

“It’s her, isn’t it?” I asked slowly walking to him. My legs were weak, every step I have taken felt like the last one, body almost collapsing. Little nod that was barely seen, the quiet sob that was barely heard... I noticed everything and it was breaking my heart even more. I took shattered plate from his unharmed hand. Quickly, I throw it to the trashcan. Grabbing first-aid-kid that was placed under the shelf with a microwave, I came to Hoseok.  He moved from his spot to sit on the carpet, his back hunched. When I kneeled to be on the same eye level, I saw his teary ones. He leaned his head backwards, so it rested on the couch behind him.  

“Hyung...” I said, my voice so small that I wasn’t sure he heard me. “Let me take care of you.” In more ways than you think...

Before I could take care of his hand, I saw Dawon running out. Hoseok looked at me and I already knew what I had to do. I sprinted after her.

I only saw her silhouette in a distance. I screamed after her.

“Noona!” I run quickly to her after seeing she stopped walking. She turned to face me.

“Don’t, Jimin. I’m sorry I threw that plate at Hoseok. I really am. But... I need to find him. I need to find Jin.” She paused for a moment to take a breath. “I need to help Namjoo find Jin.”

I stared at her dumbfounded. It can’t be true, because Hoseok was talking with him yesterday.

“She thought he stopped calling her yesterday, because he gave up. The break up was hard for both of them, but he tried to get her back... Until yesterday that is. But she saw news this morning. He’s missing, Jimin. Tell my brother that I won’t be back tonight. I’ll be at hers. Trying to do something.”

And like that she walked away, leaving me with my burning from too much information brain. When I get back, he was laying on the carpet looking with empty eyes on the ceiling. His hand still bleeding. I sighed and took bandages and his hand in mine.  

“Hyung?” I asked while wrapping his hand with a bandage. “What happened to Jin-hyung?”  

                              *flashback*

The next day

***

"He... Started to play that stupid game. I told him that he should play basketball or something... But he... He was miserable after a break up with Namjoo... I started to play with him, so he wouldn't feel lonely. But... S-something went wrong. He... H-he couldn't... I was... He just disappeared. I thought he just didn't want to talk with me after I said I won't play anymore..."

He was trembling, all of his body was covered in goosebumps. Then we heard quiet 'ping' coming from his phone. He quickly grabbed his phone and stood up after reading a message. His back was facing me. Suddenly he said to me with stern voice.

"You should go, Jimin. I need to do something." His voice sounded different than ever. Like there was something else hidden under this sudden ton of voice. I grabbed his wrist, not too tight because I didn't want to hurt him.

"Hyung..." My voice was a mere whisper.

"Get out, Jimin!" He never yelled at me. Not even when he was angry. So I did what he wanted and left his house.

*Wednesday*

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Me: yey gonna upload another chapter of "Find them"!

My tumblr: Ha! You wish.

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Masterlist

Yey, I finally have time to make a masterlist. Sara you have only two fanfics, you don’t need masterlist. Of course I need one! It’s for the future.

MONSTA X

All in. Are you ready to risk it? (gang au)

Part 1     Part 2       Part 3

BTS

Find Them (game au)

Part 1     Part 2

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All in. Are you ready to risk it?

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Genre: Angst, gang au, hacker au

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of rape, violance, blood

Words: 1 272

                                             *few days ago*

"They know that I'm alive..." She said with heavy breaths. Her eyes were big and full of fear. Sara was laying on my bed, hair splayed on the silver material of my pillow. Is it true what she said? We did everything to make them think, no, to make them believe she's dead. Hyungwon even took some of her blood and put it near the dead body we've stolen from Hyungwon's hospital. We prepared even documents, everything was okay. Hospital didn't know that something is wrong. Hospital took it as Sara, so why now? How the hell they know?  

"He... He saw me, Wonho... That man who was send after me... He saw me. The one who killed my parents... He knows now that I'm alive. He will try again..." Tears were running down her cheeks, but she still continued. "He will try again to take me... Last time... H-he almost raped me." She was choking on her tears. I kept her in my arms. She clung to me, crying at memories she wanted to forget.  

"Shh... I will protect you. Remember? I promised you that I will protect you and I will keep my words."  

                                                  *present*

He was beaten up. Everyone could tell that they tortured him in many ways. We knew why he was here. Part of me was happy, because he was back. But him being here meant she was there. Was that guy really trying to claim her as his? Yes. Not a first time he tried. When we found Sara that day... When she was with me alone... She told me everything, all her story. Her parents were in front of their house. Nothing dangerous, right? It was time that was wrong. They saw leaders of two gangs that were making deal. The one that was smarter run away, but Ji... He had to kill them. Sara saw everything, so when she was praying to die quickly and without a pain, he thought that taking her, making her his wife even, was a really good plan to make people respect him. In his eyes it was brilliant, he wanted to be respected by people because of his sick decisions. When he caught her and tried to rape her... She managed to run away, but another member of the gang was send after her. Hell. That's what it was to her. After what happened to her she had many problems with trusting. She was always caution around Kate and Minhyuk, but soon enough Kate and Sara were inseparable. Min also got her trust, hell he was her mentor, she studied plans with him. They even planned some actions together. But now all of it was ruined. As I was looking at sleeping Hyungwon, I clenched my palms into fists. Someone's steps echoed in the room with dim lights.  

"I came to say that I'm sorry."

"It's too late, Minhyuk. We lost her." I said, as I walk by the boy, whose head was hanging low. I was at the door, when I heard his sobs muffled by his hand."

                                                    *

"Well, hello Sara. I knew you would come back to me like the good bitch you are." The man's voice was loud and sounded rough in my ears. Did I regret going to him? Yes. Did I regret helping Hyungwon by doing this? Hell no. If I can help my friend by sacrificing myself... Of course, I'm gonna do this. The man came near to me. He grabbed my chin and forced to look at him.

"Look at you. Prettier than before. What a beautiful face and damn that hot body. But... You were a bad girl. And what bad girls get when they disobey? A punishment." Loud smack echoed in the spacious room, where we were in. My cheek was burning, but I held my head high. I didn't let him see my weak self.

"Oh my... Look how vulnerable you are. God, I want to ruin you right here, right now. Fuck, that red face of yours." He pushed me against green wall. His mouth found a way to my neck and started to suck on my skin. His disgusting hands grope my hips pushing them against his own. A low moan left his lips. I turned my face, so I wouldn't see his face. I didn't fight him. I didn't need to anymore. Hyungwon was alive and save. There was nothing, no reason to make me fight for my life. With raspy voice I asked:

"Hoon... Will you kill me after this? I beg you. You can do with me everything, but please kill me when you will be done." He was looking at me clueless. He stopped everything what he was doing. Taking few steps back, he took all of me in his eyes.

"Where is the spirit you had? Where is the want for life you had?" He shook his head. "Chan! Take her to my bedroom. I will be there in a minute. Wait for me there, Sara. And better if you will be the same as that night we met." His lips brushed against my earlobe. I was taken by Chan to room on the end of the hallway. As soon as I entered the room, he locked the door, so I couldn't escape. The king size bed with dark red duvet was right in front of me. I sat on the bed. Curled I was waiting for what would future bring. Tear escaped from my eye and run away on my cheek.

"Guys... Forgive me. For you... I had to go all in."

                                                       *

When Jihoon stepped inside his bedroom, he saw her fragile figure curled on his bed. Evil smirk was plastered on his face. The door was locked from the outside by his man from gang. The key heavy in his pocket, but he knew he couldn't do anything even when he heard her screams.

                                                    ***

"Hyungwon woke up!" I heard Kihyun's voice. I run to the room where they were. Hyungwon was laying on the bed. His skin paler than ever, lips dry, eyes slightly closed. Deep breathes, the only thing that could be heard at that time.

"Was she there? Did you saw her?" I asked as soon as his eyes met mine. With disappointment on his face he rasped out 'no'. I kneeled down. I clenched my hands on the black blanket that kept Hyungwon warm. Kihyun's hand patted me on my back. No one said anything.

As soon as everyone left and I was left alone with Hyungwon, he spoke:

"I'm sorry... If it wasn't for me... She would be here with you... Not me." I felt his hand when it brushed my hair away from my forehead. "Don't cry, hyung..." His voice full of sadness. Muffled sob at the end of his sentence made my head shot up. He felt guilty, but it wasn't his fault. I took his weak hand in mine. Both of us were trembling.

"Shh... It's not your fault. It has never been your fault."

                                              ***

Jihoon came out from his room after being there for hours.

"Make sure she won't leave. Oh! And give her some food and water. I've had enough fun for now." He said to his man, while pushing black hair to the back. He put his white shirt in black jeans he wore. When the man, Chan, was left alone, he could hear quiet sobs coming from the girl behind the door. He faced them, his hand on the knob, but...  He was too scared to go there and see her.

[ramyun-lover93]

All in. Are you ready to risk it?

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Genre: Angst, gang au, hacker au

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of suicide

Words: 1 425

I was sitting on the railing of the bridge. Looking sadly at water splashing on the edges of the river. If I could turn back time... I wouldn't let Wonho take me with them. It would be better. They would be together now and Hyungwon wouldn't be kidnapped. I wouldn't have that 'X' tattoo... I wouldn't be a part of their life. I would die quietly in that alley. So, what is keeping me back from jumping from this bridge? What is holding me back from ending my life? The promise I made to Wonho.

              *four months ago*

"Shit. Shit. Shit!" Wonho cursed, while Kihyun was looking for medicaments in a bag. "Hurry up! She's bleeding more than before!"

"I'm trying, okay?! I want to help her too!" Kihyun yelled back at his friend. The girl was laying on their temporary table, which was for medical help, under a bright light coming from an old lamp. Her breath was shallow and by every minute it was slower than before. Her blood was seeping through the material of Wonho's shirt, that he was pressing to her wound. Her clothes were already torn. Only shreds of material left on her body.  

They were scared. Death was lurking in the corner, waiting for a good moment to jump on the girl and take her away. Boys were trying hard to do everything in time. The shirt was moved away, wound wasn't deep, but the quick bleeding was worrying Kihyun.

"Hurry up! Stop this bleeding!" Wonho's voice echoed in Kihyun's head. Taking needle from the table, he started stitching up unconscious girl. Never in his entire life he thought he will be stitching up someone else other than his members, some stranger. It's not that Kihyun wouldn't want to help her, but in his opinion, they should take her to the hospital. However, something deep down in him was saying that Wonho is right. Maybe it was the desperation in Wonho's eyes that was an impulse for Kihyun to make an exception toward that poor girl. Maybe it was something else, but in the end she was with them all stitched up now. What's more important, more stable than before.

"We need to clean her. I'm gonna ask Kate to do this her-"

"Don't! I'll do this." Wonho's firm voice cut down the shorter boy's sentence. He took gently the girl off the table and slowly went to his room with her in his arms. In reality he was embarrassed to clean her by himself, but on the other hand he didn't want to someone else know about her.  

                   *present*

Touching my tattoo under my ear has never been this painful. Memories always liked to show up in my head. But now the happy one's with my clan brought nothing beside pain. I wasn't supposed to make a promise with Wonho. I wasn't supposed to do many things, but here I am... Regretting that they saved me... Looking at my wrists and seeing my first tattoo ' Let me OUT'… I decided to have this one, right after I told Wonho about my past. Hyungwon tattooed this... The 'Let me' part I on my left wrist and 'OUT' is on the right. I wanted it like that, so I could always tattoo something to it. And I did tattoo something under 'OUT', I chose 'breath'. It was few days before Hyungwon was kidnapped. Now when I look at them... I want to erase them. They will just remind me of boys and Kate. All of this is complicated, because I want to remember them, but at the same time I don't.

"Sara!" I heard familiar voice screaming my name. I knew they will come looking for me. That's why stopped hiding. I get off of the railing. He was standing right in front of me. The worst part was to see his face. That sad look... I came closer and hugged him.

"You know Wonho... I was thinking a lot now. They want me, so they will get me. It' our time to part, Wonho." I said nuzzling my face in his chest. He smelled like a lemon and green tea. He smelled like home. Home, my home, which I finally found after so much pain in my life. His chest was vibrating, his soft voice like a music in my ears.

"You can't do this to me, to us. Hyungwon wouldn't like that..." I knew he will use this card against me. So here I was shaking in his arms, crying my eyes out. After calming down a little I took step back.

"Go home, Wonho. I need a little time for myself. I don't want to show Min how weak I am. He saw way too much today." I smiled at him trying to reassured him. He hesitated for a moment but nodded his head. I watched as he drove away on his motorcycle. Single tear run down my cheek.

"I'm sorry, Wonho..." I whispered.

                   *4 months ago*

Her eyes opened slowly after few hours of solid sleep. First thing I heard was her saying with raspy voice 'water'. I gently held the back of her head while she sipped through a straw, the water I gave her. She was still weak, her body was covered in sweat and blood that I couldn't clean off of her skin.

"Come on. We need to clean you." I helped her get up and guided her to the bathroom. Clean clothes were laying on the sink. She sat down on the stool that I placed near the bath, just for her. Her head was hanging low, breath still shallow, but I could tell it was a lot better than before. When the bathtub was finally filled with warm water, I asked her if she can do everything by herself. She weakly shook her head.  

"Ok. I'll get Kate to help you" I said standing next to her. Her hand, without much strength, grabbed my wrist. I stood in my place looking at her with confused eyes. Weak pull on my wrist made me kneel, so I could be on the same level as her.

"Stay... Help...Me..." Her eyes were half-opened, lips dry and licking them wouldn't help. I nod and slowly took off that ugly hospital shirt that Kihyun put on her. She was standing now only in underwear. The wound was safe under bandages and foil that Ki put on it just in case, so the water wouldn't get into the wound.  

"Do you really want me here and not another girl?" As in answer I heard that she didn't care anymore about anything. Her statement saddened me. That young girl... Probably few years younger than me. Why in the hell wouldn't she care about her life? She unhooked her bra, on her face flashed a grimace of pain. I quickly averted my eyes from her figure. I heard soft groan slipping past trough her lips as she sat in the bath.

"Can I?" I asked her, holding wet cloth in my hand. Soft hum was all I could hear from her. I started to gently rub the cloth against her bruised skin, trying to make her not to feel any pain, her quiet whimpers didn't shock me. I mean, even small pressure on bruise hurts. But when I saw tears running down her cheeks, I immediately stopped everything what I was doing. She buried her face in her knees. Have I done something wrong? But then she spoke.

"They are dead... My parents are dead. They killed them." My entire body froze. That means, they were after her too. She's their target.

                  *present*

My head was spinning. She should be here. She should be here right now. Where the hell she is? I.M was trying to track her again after she didn't show up since I've come back alone and that was two hours ago. I shouldn't leave her there alone. I shouldn't listen to her. It was my duty to take her home, safe and sound. Why I didn't just take her by force and put her on my motorcycle? Boys were looking at me with pity in their eyes. Then we heard soft steps. My head turned, heart started beating faster than before. Was she really back? Or maybe that's just imagination? But who I saw wasn't her. I heard Kihyun's quiet  gasp. Before I could think, I was already standing, looking at the person in front of me. My whisper echoed in the room.  

"Hyungwon?"

[ramyun-lover93]

All in. Are you ready to risk it?

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Genre: Angst, gang au, hacker au

Warnings: Swearing, strong language

Words: 1 634

“Yah! I said that these are the old ones for fuck sake! I.M, search for the newest plans of the building! How the fuck am I supposed to plan all of this without them?! Is anyone fucking thinking here?!”

Minhyuk was yelling at everyone. He was furious, his voice was getting louder and louder.  I understand that. I’m angry too, but it won’t help us in any way. I looked at the boy. He silently sat on the couch with his fingers tightly clutching his light blue hair. I gently sat next to him. Minhyuk didn’t even look at me. Shyly I started to talk.

“Hey, Min… We will save him no matter what.” I said while lightly patting his back. Being in Monsta X clan… It means a lot for me. I wasn’t able to save my family, the only thing I could do was to watch them die. They were murdered right in front of my eyes. I couldn’t do anything back then. Now, I need to save one of the members of our clan. The one from my new family. Now, I can do something.

“Get lost…” Minhyuk muttered under his breath.

“Huh?” I looked at him confused.

“Get lost! You’re too fucking young to fucking know how I fucking feel right now. You’re too young to know the feeling of losing someone! You know nothing! Get lost, kid! Get lost before I shoot you!” He was shouting at me, aiming his gun at me. Did I feel fear? Yes. Was it because of the situation I was in? No. It was because of Minhyuk’s state, I was scared he could do something to himself or other boys. I seriously didn’t give a damn about my life at that moment.

“Min…”

“I SAID, GET LOST! I never wanted you in our clan! It was a big mistake to take you in! At least Kate isn’t a failure like you!” I took step back, when I heard quiet ‘click’ coming from the weapon he was holding in his hand. Was he really able to shoot me? At that moment, big figure stood between us. It was Wonho.  

“Hey, Minhyuk. That’s enough.” His voice was strong with low growl that could be hear at the end of his sentence. By now I was trembling in fear. Both of them were glaring at each other with anger. “You know nothing about her.” Wonho said with firm voice, but much lower than before. He glanced at me to see if everything was okay with me.  

“Oh please, Wonho. Stop being on her side all the fucking time! Are you fucking with her? What?! Is she really that good at sucking your dick? Do you really like to fuck her? To fuck this little whore?! I bet she’s still sucking other guys dicks. How do you feel about your little slut spreading her legs in front every guy she meets, huh?! Do you know how fucking stupid you are by believing in her, in her words?! Fucking answer me Wonho!” Minhyuk was yelling like a madman. Wonho was standing with his hands curled into fists. Tears were streaming down my face.  

“I SAID ENOUGH!” Wonho yelled and his fist collided with Minhyuk’s face. Loud gasp left my mouth. He was furious. When Min landed on the floor from the impact of the punch, Wonho didn’t hesitate and jumped on him. Straddling Min’s hips, he was blindly throwing punches at laying boy. And again, I couldn’t do anything. My voice stuck in my throat, my body felt like it was paralyzed. I felt helpless. Shownu, our leader, came and separated them before they could throw another punches at each other. I just wanted to disappear…  

~Kihyun’s P.O.V~

“Guys… I think Sara has just run away.” I said looking at everyone, when everything was a little calmer. Wonho’s eyes widened. He was the first one ready to go look for her, but that’s when Kate showed up. She throwed Sara’s gun at the table. I looked at her in hope that Sara left her gun for us to clean it. But both of us knew what this meant.

“If something happens to her…” I could hear Wonho’s weak voice. If she went without a weapon in her state… Everything can happen and first one to blame by Wonho will be Minhyuk. This won’t end good… Trying to calm everyone was not a good option either. Firstly, I could be punched by Min or Wonho. Secondly, calming them would be taking too much time. But again, what can I do in situation like this one?

“Maybe we’re wrong. Maybe she just went to clear her mind and will be back in a minute.” How could they believe in my words, when even myself didn’t believe in them. Wonho didn’t look good, he was angry, that’s for sure, but then again who wasn’t angry at Minhyuk right now? I brushed my pink hair with fingers. She wouldn’t go that far. She needs to be somewhere near our place. When I looked at Wonho again, he was sitting on the floor, his back pressed against the wall of our hideout place. Not everyone knows their story… I’m the only one that know what’s between Wonho and Sara. Hyungwon and Kate know just a little bit of their story. It wasn’t that long time ago when we met her…

*four months ago*

“I told you not mix wine with beer, Hyungwon. You never listen to me…” I said trying to keep my balance. “Tall frog or turtle, not a human… I swear to God… Yah! Watch your steps. I don’t want to end up laying on the streets with you on top of me. Yah! Stop it! It’s hard to keep balance with you clinging to me like baby koala. Yah, Wonho, help me, you jerk!” As an answer to my complaining, I heard cheerful laugh. Boy with silver hair with blue ends came to us and helped me with Hyungwon and his tangled legs. We didn’t even get that far from the bar where we were drinking or should I say where Hyungwon was drinking, when we heard screams, sobs and loud crashing a glass bottle on the wall. All of that noise was coming from the alley few steps from where we were standing. Looking at each other with Wonho, we knew what to do. We placed Hyungwon on the bench that was near the bar.  

“Don’t move your ass from here, Hyungwon. We will be back soon.” I told to the boy, who lay down on the bench. I run after Wonho. I didn’t think I will be late because of few seconds of talking to drunk Hyungwon, but here I was, looking at Wonho beating the shit out of some guy. Then I saw a girl covered in blood, laying on the ground, silently sobbing. Before I could go to her, Wonho had already kneel next to her fragile figure. She flinched when he tried to brush from her face, sticking bloody hair.

“Kihyun… Go and take Hyungwon, he needs to sober up. And call Kate. Tell her to prepare our medical equipment.” Wonho said with firm voice. He came closer to the girl, who weakly said ‘no’.

“Shh… I’m gonna help you. I’m not gonna hurt you, okay? Just don’t close your eyes. Talk to me, alright? What’s your name? I’m Wonho.” He was talking to her with gentle voice. He needed to gather her trust to do anything to help her.  

“Sara…” Her voice cracking at the end. “It hurts…”

“I know, I know… Just… Keep talking and don’t close your eyes.” He took her in his arms. I ended my phone call with Kate. Wonho gave me a serious look. She was in bad condition and both of us knew that she could not make it. Hyungwon sobered up a little and now was standing on his own. Taking keys out of my pocket, we quickly went to the car. Wonho took backseat with the girl and Hyungwon sat in the passenger seat next to me. I started the car. Every minute was important.

*present*

“Hey… She’s strong. Nothing bad will happen to her. You know her the best. I’m scared too, Wonho. She’s like a little sister to me.” Jooheon was talking to the black haired boy.  

“I tracked her. But I have bad news she left the chip here… Also, I tried to track her through cameras on the streets and buildings, but again… She’s smart and avoids them.” I.M said, while looking at his computer typing something. I could see that Wonho is breaking down bit by bit. Jooheon stood up and went to help I.M. Minhyuk was laying on the couch, doing nothing, just blankly staring at the ceiling. If he just kept everything to himself…  

“Are you happy, Min?” I said with dry voice. Tiredness visible on my face. He looked at me with confused eyes. “Are you happy that she’s gone?” I asked again, but this time with more force. He didn’t answer. He just got up and left the room. I looked at the screen where all of us could see Sara’s photo. Wonho was looking at the picture with a sad look. I.M was still searching her through cameras, trying to compare her face from the photo with faces of people walking on the streets. I sat next to the sad boy.

“She… She begged me not to tell anyone what happened to her that night. Hell, I fucking promised to her that I will always protect her.” His voice was trembling. I could tell he was scared. We all were scared.  

“Where the hell did you go, Sara?” He said standing in front of her picture.

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Genre: Game au, fluff, angst  

Warnings: None 

Words: 1 439

"Hyung!" My joyful shout echoed through the corridor. I ran to the boy and jumped on his back.

"Yah! What the hell, Jimin? Are you trying to break my back? Get off of me... Now." The boy said with fake annoyance in his voice. In reality, he likes the skinship. Faking annoyance is his trying to look cool, but the real Hoseok is a soft fluffball that likes to cuddle. I jumped off of him and while I was searching for my test result in a bag, I stood next to him. Proudly, I gave him a sheet of paper, looking at his face with excitement. Big, warm, brown eyes lit up while scanning the piece of paper.

"Woah! You did it! My lil' bro did it. You passed a math test that you were studying to with me for hours. And you even got a C+. Chimchim, I'm proud of you. Come on, hyung is paying for your meal. What do you want to eat?"  

He was way happier than me. Big smile on his face... Looking at him smiling like that... It made my heart flutter. I felt thousands of butterflies in my belly. He cares about me, that's for sure. If my family cared about me enough... I wouldn't meet Hoseok. I guess it's good that they kicked me out. Sometimes I wonder if they ever thought about me as a part of their family. I don't need them, I have Hoseok, he's my family now. The only person I need in my life. There are some days that I think I'm addicted to him, but then again who wouldn't be. He's a literal sunshine and day without him makes me sick.

The restaurant, where he took me was small and pleasant, but I didn't want to eat there. Don't get me wrong. I would love to spend my time there and taste every delicious food that they serve, but at times like this one I just want to spend cosy time with Hoseok without everyone looking at us as we eat.

"Hyung, can we just order pizza and play video games at your place?" I asked him, looking at him with the best puppy eyes I could make. For a moment he looked confused, but then his bright laugh echoed in my ears.  

"Yah... You're really something else, huh? Okay! What kind of pizza you want? Just please don't chose the one that my sister brought last time you were at my place. I still can't believe she eat pineapple on pizza..." He said, while zipping his green jacket. It was birthday present from me and his sister. I weakly smiled at him and at the memory of him squealing at that jacket like a kid squealing at new toy. I zipped my black jacket that Hoseok gave me as a gift last year. To this day I don't know what occasion was, but it felt nice to get something without pretext.

His house is my favourite place to spend my time. It's not that I don't like my dorm, but my roommate is annoying. I don't mind that he's loud during the day. I'm angrier at him that I do all chores alone. He doesn't help me at all now. Besides playing games in his room, he's done nothing.  All I can hear is just some noises from games coming from his room. From time to time I needed to bang at his wooden door, because I couldn't sleep at night because of the loud music playing. I guess he wears headphones now. It wasn't like this from the beginning. Taehyung was everywhere, spent time with me, maybe it wasn't that much of a help but he always took out trash and made a shopping list... Since he found a game last week, he's changed. If I'm correct, I haven't seen him since that time. That's why I like to be with Hoseok all the time. Well... Apart from this, I feel at ease in his presence.  

Hoseok's room is really big compared to mine. His desk with a computer stands near a window, because he likes to look in the distance when his eyes are tired. The king size bed is almost in the centre of his room. Small nightstand is next to left side of the bed that he likes to sleep on.  A big TV with a PlayStation is opposite to his bed. Sometimes I forgot how cool his house is, so when I enter it I'm amazed. Hobi always laugh at me every time I do that, but I know that deep down he's just sad. He said many times to me to just move in, but I can't. It's not that I don't want to, I just don't want to look as I'm using him.

"So what should I order? Oh and grab some beer from fridge." He said looking at his phone searching for a number. I quickly took beer and after saying which pizza I want, I went to his room. I placed cans on the desk. Through the window I could see people walking in a hurry. Some of them were talking on their phones, but most of them couldn't see others. The saddest thing is that kids are paying for this. Not long ago I was like that too, alone, seeing members of my family once in a while. The price for a good career is having terrible relationships with other people. When I turned, Dawon was standing next to the bed. On her face was a weak smile.  

"Noona! Is there something you need?" She shook her head and before I knew, she was hugging me tight. I put my arms around her and slowly stroke her back. Something wet landed on my collarbone, then I heard her sniffling. "Hey, what happened? Noona? What's wrong?" I sat with her on the bed. When her sobbing didn't stop, I slowly started to rock her in my arms as to try to calm her down and find what happened.  

"He's missing... She's scared... Something bad..." She choked out some words. With her every sob, my heart sank down even more. Seeing her in state like that... She's part of my new family and I don't want her to get hurt. Simply, I want to protect her and Hoseok. I can't let someone ruin my family.

"Jimin, who are you talking to?" Hoseok said, when he entered the room. His gaze fall on Dawon. His brown eyes lost the usual spark and went wide. Before I knew he was beside us, wiping our tears. I haven't noticed when I started to cry too. Everything was blurry because of the tears, but I could hear Hoseok's movements all over the place. He was opening and closing drawers. I nuzzled my face in Dawon's dark, long hair.  I was still holding in my arms. The next thing that happened was Hoseok telling me to place his sister in the middle of his bed, while he pulled the blanket on her fragile figure. She looked so broken, that it made me even more sad. I looked over at the boy standing next to me, who I cherish with all my life. He looked broken too. We sat at the edge of the bed, heads hanging low, staring blankly at the wooden floor. Silence was louder than ever.

"Hyung... We should let her sleep for a bit." I said, getting up from the bed. I wiped last tears on my cheeks with my sleeve. We left the room, letting her rest.

"Do you know what happened?" His voice was raspy. As to answer to his question I shook my head "no".

The living room was quiet too. Neither of us wanted to say a word. It was suffocating. That silence was killing me. That situation was killing me too. My eyes were puffy after all this crying... There were no more tears to fall. I felt empty. He felt empty too, I could tell that by just looking at him. I let my head rest on his shoulder. The want to comfort him was stronger than anything in the world, but it was him who after all comforted me. Not the other way around...  

The couch wasn't that big, but for our bodies it was perfect. His warm body pressed against my back. His breath on my neck. I felt so small, but safe at the same time. Hoseok put his arm around my waist and we both fall asleep.

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