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Colorism

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Please, reblog! IIt’s called self defense. Apart from having here, in the US, one of the highest cases of homicide and rape in the world and high rate of GBV, think about how this could help your mother or sister

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*clears throat*

You “date yourself” encouragers are full of shit.

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So this just happened. . .

Another engagement announcement. Driving. Praying. Crying. Defeated. Swearing. Parking. Questioning. Praying. Crying.

“I’m starving you of a relationship, so you can put that energy into what I’ve called you to do. So when you get to the place predestined for you, I’ll introduce you to the man who is on your level.”-Voice of God, clear as day.

#thisjusthappened #truestory

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To All My Narcissists

When you came in, I no longer mattered

My emotional growth is stunted

It’s all about you

I’m abandoned

I’m divided, never a conqueror

A second class citizen

Made fun of

Lied on

Bullied

Ignored

Ganged-up on

Shunned

So I conform

Never be the competition, be the supporter

Be humble

I step back so you can step forward

Never mind what I want to do

It’s all about you

I’d better not embarrass you

I’m a reflection of you

Never mind that I’m emotionally crippled

Dismiss me when I no longer serve a purpose

Keep me close for an ego boost

Then put me back in my place

Take all my energy

Destroy my outlook on love

Make me feel like I’m nothing

Say whatever you want to me

Stunt on me

Turn everybody against me

Rub everything in my face

I’m not allowed to speak the truth

Keep me caged

Tell everybody I’m crazy

Be uneasy when I break free

Pout, lie, talk crazy under your breath

Try to convince me I’m overreacting

I’m no longer interested

It brings me great joy knowing it fucks with you

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well i’ll be damned

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Confession

No matter how many people tell me I am beautiful, I don’t believe it in my heart. 

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“Black women will be just fine without you”

— We Will No Longer Love Men Who Hate Us

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Who comforts the heart?

Who comforts the heart?

Anger, frustrated, anxious, depleted.

Late nights, early mornings, long days.

Restless, worthless, hopeless.

Who comforts the heart?

Chips, candy, fast food, trail mix.

Tight clothes, labored breathing, self-conscious.

Doubt, indifference, disbelief.

Who comforts the heart?

Looking, searching, manipulation.

Desperation, lowered standards, disrespect.

Energy, sacrifice, loneliness.

Who comforts the heart?

Praying, crying, reading.

Talking, writing, listening.

Confirmation, no confirmation, stalled.

Who comforts the heart?

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It takes a different kind of person to find a smile in the middle of everyone around them receiving exactly what they themselves have been praying for.

Sigh inconspicuously.

Head up, shoulders back.

Fake smile until it becomes genuine.

Drink water until your throat loosens.

Blink until the tears go back in.

Say congratulations.

Sit on your hands if they are trembling.

Save your anger for your journal.

Deep breaths.

Positive self talk.

Repeat.

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#iPhoneography #AfricanArt #Sex #BlackArt #BlackLove #Intimacy

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Scary. . .

I was doing inventory with my HR Manager in our office. If you've ever been to my office, you know this is a HUGE old house with many different rooms.

I went into a vacant room (mind you this room is always empty, due to high turnover), and I immediately felt like I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was in a crowded room, but it was only two of us in there. It was the most eerie feeling in the world. I told her that I needed to leave the room because something was wrong with it. She got silent. This is weird, because this woman never stops talking.

She led me into the room next to it, and there was a boarded up wall. Apparently, the room was an observation room with a two-way mirror to study the mentally insane. . .

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When did I learn how to be heartless as a means of protection?

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If you see beauty in something, don’t wait for others to agree.

Sherihan Gamal (via wordsnquotes)

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This is the best thing I've ever seen.

You have not lived if you haven’t seen this.

You are not living if you don’t watch this once in a while.