regularpandairl

[regularpandairl]

Lately

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Lately things don`t feel the same And it’s not Mercury in retrograde It’s the light in our room that doesn’t seem right Maybe if we opened the drapes more often, even though there are so many clouds.

             Lately things don’t feel the same                    And it’s not because we’re Scorpios and they’re Libras

                     It’s the walk to other places that turned longer and more fastidious                                Our eyes stare blankly into nothing                                            

                                            and our soles are ruined from the dragging of feet.

                     Lately things don’t feel the same            And it’s not those four hours of sleep

  It’s the plants that have not been watered

Don’t forget the pans in the sink, although we use them less and less

        Lately things don’t feel the same                       And it’s not the third day on cup noodles

                                      It’s the appointments we constantly forget                                                  the key takes much more effort to turn 

                and our hands sometimes don’t seem connected to our body.

                  Indeed                                                 Things don’t feel the same

                                           And lately

                                              we’ve also spent more time 

                                     lingering in a filled bathtub

                       Wondering if today        

                                              Will be the day

                                                                                                                                      The ice

                                                         Is painted

                                 Red…  

[regularpandairl]

Don’t touch the hand of the tainted

Warm smile Sweet scent of flowers Everything is there to draw you in And as your heart beats faster You fall deeper into a pit

I’ve seen it all before My mind starts playing tricks Some day things will change Or it will build a wall of bricks Reset Redo Yet, I still come for you

With happiness I’ll take your hand Let me show you something new Clip by clip I trim the wings Of a songbird that once flew

I’ve seen it all before My soul is dark as coal Sometimes I’ll paint a rainbow Or count dead flies in a bowl Reset Redo Yet, I still come for you

Mask the pain with understanding All my sins I’ll set on you Reach the goals of satisfaction Even though there’s nothing true

I’ve seen it all before My defences are getting weaker Some part of me wants freedom Or to make the darkness thicker Reset Redo Yet, I’ll try my best to warn you

Don’t touch the hand of the tainted I’m sick through and through Now on your hand there’s sickness painted A very deep dark blue

[regularpandairl]

For you, I cut my hair

I used to have long hair Really long long hair In a bun it blocked the sun And when loose it blocked the way But it was my hair My really long long hair

When I had it in a bun You wanted to see the sun Watch it set, watch it rise So with scissors in my hand Part of it reached its demise

I used to have long hair Really long long hair I sat to see the view But in no place there was a glimpse of you Even though for you I cut my hair My really long long hair

After that I let it loose But you wanted to walk by my side Hold my wand and stroll along the way So with scissors in my hand Part of it was cut away

I used to have long hair Really long long hair Now I walk alone And this turned somehow into a journey of my own I walk forward as strong as I might But I really miss my hair My beautiful long long hair But for you I cut my hair My now not so long long hair

[regularpandairl]

I’m tired

I don’t really want to go home For home isn’t really My home Let me linger around my baby For it’s the only deed that fits my ghostly body

But still, as time presses against my will, I’ll go I’ll drag my feet through the streets Curse at the broken door lock as I turn the key to every side Leave my belongings in a corner and fall on my bed I’ll let my anatomy become one with the mattress And the soft smell of this sweater will be my only refuge

The tears dissolve my skin like drops of acid In a few minutes I’m nothing but a sack of bones on the wooden floor Bathing in sunlight you control makes me feel dirty The feeding from your window of dominance turns it even filthier Only the rays of a distant moon caress my skin But I’m too tired So tired So, so tired

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if you were gone No more double thinking No more calculating steps No more tears Or maybe some

The first would definitely be to celebrate freedom The next for the guilt of not rely mourning The last for the coldhearted monster that I am not I won’t miss you No I won’t miss you I mourned your leaving many times before I won’t miss you No I won’t miss you You were lost even before I lost you

I’m tired I’m just tired

[regularpandairl]

Brave, but not so brave

Brave warrior Will you ever slow your pace? There are so many flowers to smell So many sunsets to admire

Brave warrior Will you ever set your sword and rest? The battle is never-ending But so is the peace you long for

Brave warrior Will you ever let yourself be protected? It’s your duty, you say… But by who’s rule? By who’s order?

You are the one that always stands tall Through thick and thin You’re the master of all Keeping your fears within But then there was the fateful encounter With the mirror at the end of the road Where you saw the broken mind Chained hear full of lies Tainted soul

Brave warrior You are not so brave For the sunsets pass and the flowers wither while you watch

Brave warrior You are not so brave For every tool of peace is there And you still choose to be controlled by the lords of chaos

Brave warrior You are not so brave For at the end of the day, you crave protection Not understanding that no one can protect you as much as can

You are the one that cowers in fear Behind doors, where no one can see Master of none, I hear Waiting for a chance to flee

Warrior… You are brave But not so brave

[regularpandairl]

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[regularpandairl]

Smells like stupid, sound like dumb

The sun burns It smells like stupid My feet hurt It sounds like dumb

The coins fall one by one “If you’re gonna charge so much, at least give me the big one” Should I take red or pink? I fuckin’ hate pink I’ll take it

The body sweats It smells like stupid The car beeps It sounds like dumb

A few quick steps along the road The scent of homemade food all around I should’ve eaten something before leaving “Ice-cream… Ice-cream and good company”

The shade appears It smells like stupid The water falls It sounds like dumb

Should I take the stairs or the elevator? I already smell like death, lets not push it I hear yells on the other side, but I still go So much heat, I must be drunk

The door opens It smells like stupid The girl peeks It sounds like dumb

Are you going in or not? You should realise there is no return You should realise there were other options Can you smell chocolate? You fuckin’ cunt

The petal moves It smells like stupid The bottle fills It sounds like dumb

It would either work the way you expected or worse Gladly it was quite soft an bearable Little did you know, a storm has ahead Cold heart, harsh words, heavy silence

The key turns It smells like stupid The feeling dies It sounds like dumb

Induced self-loathing and the longing to belong A steady hand takes care of the crafts A toxic voice takes care of the joy You don’t want to, but at some point you’ll have to admit There had always been a better choice

The throat dries It smells like stupid The cloth slips It sounds like dumb

The poison of a overheard conversation fills your heart and taints your soul “You should’ve known this” “You should’ve done that” As the feet drag all the way back to safety A single tear runs down you cheek

The soul darkens It smells like stupid The pen draws It sounds like dumb

Fuck… I should’ve bought my baby ice-cream…

[regularpandairl]

The bird fades

A bright blue bird rest on my hand Silence is broken by a sweet lullaby I wonder who you sing to To whom do you offer your gift?

A blue bird rests on my hand May I listen to it’s song? You cheerfully ask But as soon as it’s lullaby starts, you cover your ears

A purple bird rests on my hand I so want to share it’s beautiful song Captivated by your interest, I show you the bird But as soon as the lullaby starts, you rip the feathers from it’s wings

A black bird rests on my hand How I wish people would take the time to listen to you “I will, I’m sure I will” Then, as soon as the lullaby starts, you deem yourself unworthy and close the doors

Lately you’ve been so quiet But a loving hand is lifted and an attentive listener comes to play The lullaby starts, and as it ends I notice you turned your back and walked away

It was mine wasn’t it? I was meant to be the receiver, the listener But I offered my share to others I’m so glad I got to keep your lullaby at the end Because now the song is lost and the bird fades.

[regularpandairl]

Meet the JSE community

Alright... so @no-strings-puppet created this prompt (awesome idea btw) and I was like “ok... never really done this before so let’s give it a go”.

I really want to make mine look good and to actually give a proper idea of who I am and how I am... What makes me, ME.

I’ll update it as things get done.

        1- I don’t really like my real name and I can hardly remember the last time I introduced myself using that... so here goes it:

You can call me either Roxy or Panda, I’m 19 years old and I was born and raised in Mozambique, Africa.

        2- Appearance 

[regularpandairl]

Until then my friend

I’m loosing again To the battle long forgotten Forgive me for breaking our promise But the straight I thought I had was nothing but an illusion

I’m so sorry my friend But right now I can’t treat you right For my heart found another cage And I lost another fight

I only ask that you forgive me And believe when I boldly claim It will soon come to an end And we will see another day

If you close to turn cold Around you build a wall Don’t worry my dear I will understand, because I was the one that made you fall

And the day all this pain goes away I will destroy every barrier And hear you sing one more song For I know you will wait for me Even if I take very long

Until then my love We will weep like we’ve done before I’ll lay down my life I’ll surrender Because every road you take Will always lead back home

So cheers to another sunset Another sunrise Another day

Until then my friend

[regularpandairl]

Meet the JSE community official prompt list!

Hey there friends! Earlier this week I made a little post brain dumping for a little activity the community can do!

As someone who has gone on to really talk to and connect with people on tumblr through meeting them within the community, it’s made me realise that people are SO much more than their avatars and screen names, and I really want to get to know you guys!!

So I’d like to start a meme similar to “Meet the Artist”, where I list a bunch of questions you have to answer, with some space for creativity in there if you want to illustrate it or make your list stylised and have that #aesthetic.

This will be open for as long as you guys want to do them, but at the end of the weekend, I’ll post a little collage of everyone’s submissions!!

To help me find them, please tag it #meetjsecommunity, @ me and spam my inbox because I am the WORST at finding these things. Also, if you could reblog this post to share it around so other people can find it and join in, that would be awesome!!!

So, here we have the official list! Please keep in mind, these are prompts, and you all have creative freedom to not answer these questions, or add your own!! Some of these questions have a focus on Jack, but I really want to focus on YOU guys and who YOU are so the majority are personal :)

1. Name, Age, Country? (I always like seeing country Cus it’s incredible how widespread the community is sometimes) 2. Appearance? (For all you artists you can draw some pictures of yourselves!!) 3. Hobbies? 4. What is your dream job? 5. What kind of shit would we find in your bag? 6. How would you describe your personality? 7. When did you find Jack’s channel? 8. Put in order your top 3 favourite Egos! 9. Favourite/ most nostalgic video/series of Jack’s to watch? (Multiple answers are fine, I know I’ll find it hard to answer) 10. Would you describe yourself as an active member or a quiet member of the community? If you’re an active member, what is your favourite part of what you do? Do you write fanfiction? Fanart? Theories? Or do you just enjoy chatting with others?

Feel free to skip or add your own questions!! I’ve tried to make it so that these questions are easy to draw accompanying illustrations because I know how much you guys love to draw!!

Have fun guys! I can’t wait to get to know you all a bit better! #meetjsecommunity

[regularpandairl]

Smoke in the mirror

Isn’t it weird, this situation? Hearing a melody from the other end of a nation Such a different reality So far… So out of reach..

Who would think fate would brig me so near Where I could feel a soft, tempting breeze While facing a black hole of unknown

Would I take that leap of faith? I thought to myself Would I dive into another mystery? And recklessly, I set a foot in Accepted a sweet embrace and a gentle kiss So sure there was nothing I could miss

We know we will not lie So I thought I could step forward and try But with smoke in the mirror I could not see That you are just like me

I made every question Even though I had the answers And when it started to rain I quietly watched and said nothing

What difference would it make? There was nothing left to break Painting a boat for a caged heart Crying a river for a frozen soul As a guitar with broken strings Strumming melancholy and understanding

The never ending search for happiness A feeling that is never yours to claim Asking for help but never letting go of your chain

One more step, one more change Warm colours fill your mind Vibrations of a million good-byes How bad would it be, if you stayed here tonight?

A peaceful smile covers a waterfall of fears You can’t give something you need for yourself But of course you wouldn’t listen to me Neither would I, if you asked for honesty Although the words fall like a prophecy

Yes, just like you, I here remain Unable to voice out my own pain Never crying, for each tear will be in vain A bird born in a cage Not knowing the meaning of being free

And as we sit on this stairway Admiring the path to come I slowly reach or you If I could only say how broken I am To keep you at arm’s length But so far away

How do you know this? You asked me Because with smoke in the mirror you fail to see That I am you And you are me

[regularpandairl]

Who are you?

Who are you? Not right now, but when no one is watching. When feeling your heart beat heavy in your chest is not enough.

It will always be there Second floor, corner, chemical, toxic.

You hear the sound of metal vibrating in the air One time, three times, silence, hesitation, four times, footsteps, air around a spin, one time, footsteps, silence.

It’s happening again... You saw it, didn’t you?

How will people hear you if you doesn’t talk? Falling back into the pit of lies you so hardly fought to get out of. Yes… its happening again

One candle for every person you lost Some stand for the journey, some gladly don’t have to and others just do it to aid the ones that stop midway A frail figure steps forward and starts lighting candles One, three, five, six, eight, twelve, fourteen, eighteen, twenty-two, twenty-four, twenty-eight How many times have you lost yourself?

So used to baffle your cries, you can’t even hear your own voice when you’re alone Didn’t you have somewhere to be? Does it matter? You already went after the taste of toxicity you so loudly promised to never touch No one will ever hurt you as much as you do

You stop and try to listen to the footsteps in the distance One, two, three… one, two, three… You used to do that remember? Counting your own footsteps

Now what? Did you manage to go through the day? Was it you or was it that toxic kick that you labelled as living?

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Tueri et Diligere

Have you ever felt so useless, you just pity yourself?

A small moment…

Life puts you in tough situation , and you’re forced to choose:

Common sense or the wellbeing of those you care about.

No matter how strong they are, you still chose them…

But what if you’re not strong enough?

In one moment you’re there, acting on instinct and in the other you’re holding another soul and watching it drift away.

As you stare at a lifeless body, you wonder..,

Why couldn’t I just be stronger?

This time you were, but what will happen next time?

Will it be enough?

Or will the world once again crush you and take away what you have left?

Anger and hatred fills your heart and taints your soul pitch black.

Useless…

Useless…

Useless…

You know it was rather easy this time and in the end you were weak.

Strong enough to succeed, but so weak… you could have done better.

As you watch the water run down the skin and clean the wounds, you hear it once more.

Useless…

Useless…

Useless…

You gently place ice on top.

Useless…

Useless…

Useless…

You panic for a moment, excuse yourself and contemplate the terror on your face.

It could have gone so wrong…

But the anger leaves your body and is slowly replaced by something else.

Something pure and strong.

Although you can still feel the black mark of your hatred, this new feeling clears your path and illuminates the way

It’s pure…

It’s clean …

It’s strong…

You know what you have to do

To look forward and to carry on

To understand and to learn

To care and to fight

To protect and to love

Et pro eis

Tueri et diligere

[regularpandairl]

They crave

They crave They crave for freedom They crave for that sweet letting go They crave for the end of their suffering as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else They crave for justice without revenge They crave for understanding They crave

They crave They crave for learning They crave for passion without limits They crave for the truth no matter how much it hurts They crave for growth without barriers They crave for friendship They crave

They crave They crave for love They crave fro flowers without thorns They crave for that little too slow, little too fast,but never monotonous They crave for ice without burn They crave for happiness They crave

They crave They crave for honesty They crave for rhythm without obligation They crave for that simple pacing around while thinking of nothing and everything They crave fro the shore without cold They crave for peace They crave

They crave for zero They crave for infinity They crave for nothing they crave for everything