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PROJECT: EDEN’S GARDEN SPOILERS BELOW.

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no matter how profane, sacred or insane

painfully preoccupied, It's always still the same

the killer is inside me, don’t try to take my life

i’ve buried all my hatchets - but i’ve sharpened my knives!

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https://gofund.me/dba49dac

Hello, my name is Lina, and I’

writing to share my story from Gaza. I’m a mother of three—Bassam (10), Adham (8), and Lynn (3). Our lives have been turned upside down by the ongoing conflict.

Our home and my husband’s workplace were destroyed, leaving us with nothing. We’ve been displaced multiple times, struggling to find safety in an incredibly dangerous environment.

We’re currently living in desperate conditions, with no home, no income, and no stability. We need your help to rebuild our lives and give our children a safe place to grow up.

If you can, please consider donating to support us. Your help will bring us hope and a chance to start again. Every contribution, no matter how small, makes a difference.

Thank you for reading our story, and please keep us in your prayers.

I just found this in my inbox and wanted to share it as well, so if you could also support Lina and her 3 children, Bassam, Adham, and Lynn, I'd appreciate it and thank you for reaching out Lina, I hope and pray for your safety ❤🍉

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Hello 👋,

I hope this message finds you well. My name is Aziz, and I’m reaching out with a heartfelt plea to help my family find safety and reunite with our mother. 😞

The ongoing war in Gaza has torn my family apart. My mother and newborn sister are stranded in Egypt, while I, along with the rest of my sex family members, am trapped in the midst of the genocide in Gaza. We have not only been separated but have also lost our home and are enduring unimaginable hardships. 💔

Your support can make a difference. Whether by reading our story, donating, or sharing our campaign with others, you can help us reunite, find safety, and start anew. 🙏🕊

Thank you, from the depths of my heart, for your kindness, compassion, and solidarity during this difficult time. ❤🍉

https://gofund.me/58268669 🔗

i just wanted to post these here and share about Aziz and their story, if you have any money, please go support them, and or at least just send positive messages for them ❤🍉

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Represention of Autistic Frustration in Laios Dungeon Meshi

Like many other autistic people, I related strongly to Laios Touden while reading Dungeon Meshi. This post isn't going to spend time disputing whether he displays autistic traits or not—while I could do that, I want to focus on why specifically his portrayal struck a chord with me in a way the writing of most other autistic-coded characters has not.

Disclaimer: as the above suggests, this post is strongly informed by my own experiences as an autistic person, as well as the experiences of my neurodivergent friends with whom I have spoken about this subject. I want to clarify that in no way am I asserting my personal experience to be some Universal Autistic Experience. This post is about why Laios' character feels distinct and significant to me in regard to autistic representation, and while I'm at it, I do feel that I have interesting things to say about autistic representation in media generally. This also got a bit long, so I'm sticking it under a read more. Spoilers for up to the end of chapter 88 below.

The thing that stands out most to me in regard to Laios' characterisation is the open anger he displays when someone points out his inability to read other people. This comes up prominently in his interactions with "Shuro" (Toshiro Nakamoto):

The frustration pictured above (Laios continuing to physically tussle with Toshiro, using crude language toward him) becomes even more notable when you remember that this is Laios, who, outside of these interactions, is not easily fazed and often exists as a lighthearted contrast to the rest of the cast. Then we get to Laios' nightmare.

In Falin's words: "Nightmares love emotional wounds. Wounds you hold in your heart. Things that give you stress, or things that were traumatic for you. They aggravate memories like that and cause the dreamer to have terrible dreams." (chapter 42, page 10.) (damn. i'm properly citing for this post and everything.)

Thus, Laios' nightmare establishes an important fact: even if he is unable to recognise social blunders while he's making them, he's at least subconsciously aware that other people operate on a different wavelength to him, and that he's an outsider in many of his social circles (both past and present). His dream-father's disparaging words stress the impact this has had upon his ability to live up to the expectations set out for him, and we also get a panel of kids who smirk at him (presumably former bullies to some degree). Toshiro's appearance only hammers home how much Laios is still both humiliated and angered by his misunderstanding of their relationship.

I've thought a lot about anger as concomitant to the autistic experience. When autistic representation portrays ostracization, it's generally from an angle of the autistic character being upset at how conforming to neurotypical norms doesn't come easily to them; as a result, they express a desire to 'get better' at meeting neurotypical standards, a desire to become more 'normal' (whether the writing implies this is a good thing or not). In contrast, not once does Laios go, "I need to perform better in my social interactions, and try to care less about monsters, because that's what other people find weird." His frustration is directed outward rather than inward, and as a result, it's the people around him who are framed as nonsensical.

The Winged Lion starts delineating Laios' anger, and Laios' reaction is to think to himself, "It can sense all my thoughts, huh?" (chapter 88, page 16.) This is the scene that really resonated with me. I'm not saying I have never felt the desire to conform to neurotypical norms that is borne from insecurity, but primarily, I know that I don't want to work toward becoming 'normal'—I don't want to change myself for people who follow rules I find nonsensical. It's the difference between, "Oh god, why can't I get it," and, "WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT?" (phrasing here courtesy of my friend Miles @dogwoodbite). And for me personally, Dungeon Meshi is the first time I've seen this frustration and the resultant voluntary isolation from other people portrayed in media so candidly. Laios' anger is not downplayed or written to be easily palatable, either.

The culmination of Laios' frustrations in this scene wherein we learn that Laios has fantasised about "a pack of monsters attacking a village" drives home just how alienated he really feels. I need not go into his wish to become a monster himself, redolent of how many autistic people identify/have identified with non-humans to some degree as a result of a percieved disconnect from society (when I was younger, I wanted to be a robot. I still kind of do.)

Obviously, wishing death upon other people is a weighty thing, but the unfiltered nature of this page is what deeply resonated with me. The Winged Lion is laying Laios' deepest and most transgressive desires bare, and they are desires that are a product of lifelong ostracization by others (whether intentional or unintentional). This is the brand of anger I'm familiar with, and that my neurodivergent friends express being familiar with, but that I haven't seen portrayed in writing so explicitly before—in fact, it surprised me because most well-meaning autistic representation I've experienced veers toward infantilisation in trying make the autistic character's struggles easy for neurotypicals to sympathise with.

Let's also not neglect the symbolism inherent to Laios' daydream. "A pack of monsters attacking a village". Functionally, monsters are Laios' special interest—he percieves everything first and foremost through his passion for monsters. His daydream of monsters attacking—killing—humans, is fundamentally a daydream of the world he understands (monsters) overthrowing the world that is so illogical to him, that has repeatedly shunned him (other people). I joked to my friends that it's an autistic power fantasy, and it actually sort of is. And in it, his identity is aligned with that of the monsters, while his anger manifests in a palpable dissociation from the rest of humanity. This is one manga page. It's brief. It's also very, very raw to me. I think about it often.

To conclude, I love Laios Dungeon Meshi. This portrayal of open frustration in an autistic character meant a lot to me, and I hope I've sufficiently outlined why. Also, feel free to recommend media with autistic representation in the notes if you've read this far—I would really like to see if there is more of this nature. Thank you for reading. I'm very tired and should probably sleep now.

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guys i have a friend who love scout from tf2 so if you're reading this dev no you aren't

theyre very silly but I BEG YOU GET AN EXORCISM in the silliest way possible

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why thank you my lovely broski

for my @'s I'll do @undy1ngumbrage @nyxi-pixie @kkshowtunes and @detectivehoffmann !!

@alittlefellawithbigoleyes sent me this little game and so i had to do it. :) ty cal<3

make yourself with this picrew + give us the last song you listened to!

feat. my gray streak and new hair (also ily freddie mercury👑)

i am tagging: @c-lion, @joanofexys, @qstygia, @ordei, @rekikiri, @jtl-fics, and all my mutuals. i'm sorry there's so many of y'all and i'm braindead at the moment TwT <3

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ok so update

she's cheating on her WITH HER BROTHER.

guys, my dog is a lesbian

she was kissing my aunts dog 😿

im so proud 😼

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guys, my dog is a lesbian

she was kissing my aunts dog 😿

im so proud 😼

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hiya!

im rekoi, or you could just call me koi or reko (whichever one floats your boat)

any pronouns but preferably she/her

questioning lesbian x.x

i have adhd and autism so yeah -w-

some of my current hyperfixations are jjk, bsd, alien stage, and rn I love maki zenin ^^

rn my hobbies are sleeping /j, drawing, listening to music (if that counts), and much more

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jjk sideblog: @jjkinfestation

bsd side blog: @bsdinsanity

yttd sideblog: @yttdreblog

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why thank you for the tag pookie

Some songs I have been loving are definitely

1. Ruler of My Heart from the Alien Stage Soundtrack

2. My Clematis (also from the alien stage soundtrack)

3. HOT TO GO! by Chappell Roan

4.Gambler by HalaCG (this isn't because of aventurine so shhh)

5. Sore wa by Rory in early 20s

Tags wise ofc I'll do: @undy1ngumbrage and @nyxi-pixie !!

tagged by @littlelesbianlegend thank you <33 sorry the post was a bit long

five songs i've been loving lately!

prom - sza

espresso - sabrina carpenter

poison oak - bright eyes

is there something in the movies? - samia

map on a wall - lucy dacus

no pressure tags: @mildew-dread-mold @fromjannah @bnsfrailway @carcrashgf @catacombchrysalis (i know you were tagged before sorry) @ahotknife and anyone else who wants to!

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I just went to this outback near me and got this really nice and cool server and they were very nice (I gave them my Tumblr)

so if you're reading this random server from outback hiya ^^

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@maybemagmar

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Poor Tim

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Me??? Waking back up in this account after FOUR YEARS of complete radio silence?? More likely than you think...

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he got jumpscared by a long bald man booo

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HI I LOVE MARBLE HORNETS. DROWNING IN IT. unfiltered version under the cut cuz i think he looks good :)

like look at this man hes so visible