[It wasn't a bad dream at all...but i dreamt about him only two times since...and everytime the memories came back and i need time...]
You came to visit me tonight huh? Why do the memories fade so quickly when I dream about you?
You ran around the house trotting around me because you were happy to see me and I couldn't say a word to you. I couldn't even see you properly because out of the blue it was raining. I tried to wipe the rain off my face but I wasn't very successful. But I cuddled you a lot, we threw ourselves on the ground like we always did. I closed my eyes and smelled you, felt your fur under my fingers and felt your chest rise and fall as you breathed.
Every now and then I think of you and look at Bruce. He is completely different from you, as he should be. But sometimes he does things that only you used to do and I wonder if his presence here with me doesn't have your hand. This morning when I woke up he climbed into bed. He never does it because he is terrified of high places...and yet he climbed slowly on that "horrible monster". He laid down between me and the wall and put his face on my pillow. You did it those times when I needed it, when the night brought bad memories and I suddenly felt like I was underwater. Bruce did it too. And I don't want to read strange things into it... but for a moment it was you.
You are still the love of my life Rocky...and sometimes looking at your pictures i still feel underwater. But I have Bruce now...he might be not the luckiest dog on eart and yeah it took me time to love him after....but i think it's not a bad thing. Wounds needs time to heal you know? But i'm doing better now, thanks for checking on me every now and then. I miss you.
Sometimes I can read an entire book in a day, solve difficult mathematical equations and have innovative ideas to better manage my daily time... other times like this evening I blow on ice cream...
For some reasone Tumblr never sent me the notification. But hell yeah! I deserve that damn song xD
Sus blogs keeps following me...and they're all private and i DON'T FUCKING KNOW IF I'M BLOCKING REAL PEOPLE OR STUPID BOTS AAAAAAAAAHHHHH SOMBODY SAVE MEEEEEE!
Sus blogs keeps following me...and they're all private and i DON'T FUCKING KNOW IF I'M BLOCKING REAL PEOPLE OR STUPID BOTS AAAAAAAAAHHHHH SOMBODY SAVE MEEEEEE!