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the holy trinity

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"look at me"

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"Promise me you won't try again. Promise me, Jean. I don't want to lose you."

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tfw you were my childhood best friend and the only person who I could talk to who understood because we were each others only witnesses, and I taught you French because you asked for it to be our secret and you brought me magnets and wrote post cards from cities when you left because I wasn’t allowed to leave, and I’m only still alive because you made me promise not to leave you, and I loved you but you couldn’t look away from the game long enough to let yourself love me back, and when they hurt you enough that you couldn’t play anymore I distracted them, because you asked me to, but in order to leave you had to slit my throat and I thought you were so beautiful and I still do only now I can’t talk to you anymore ,

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I can't stop thinking about this. jean moreau, traumatised asshole and the ravens' most powerful backliner, decorates his side of the room with postcards and stickers. I'm holding back tears this is so unexpectedly sweet

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Jean: Oh when I have scars it's a problem but when HE has scars nobody minds

Jeremy: Jean he's trans

Jean: And I am French

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at least its been confirmed by all characters now that kevin has pretty privilege bc his personality is insufferable but everyone wants to blow him

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this is the best summary of jean and jeremy's relationship i think

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Jean saying "He will be court" about Andrew to a tv in an empty room is so so so important to me

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kevin taking jean's hand in his and turning his arm around to assess his wounds and asking him to make a fist and sighing in relief when he can like he's done this song and dance a million times before with jean. checking him after an incident and making sure he's still in one piece and jean allowing it because he loves him desperately and it's the only reprieve he has from all the abuse. the only time someone handles him with care. and it stings because he has to tell himself that kevin only cares because if jean can't play exy he's no use to anyone and if he's no use to anyone he'll be killed and kevin will be left alone and kevin desperately doesn't want to be left alone. but he's also the reason jean gets to keep his language even if it was only ever whispered in secret. and he's the reason jean had a collection of something to treasure, even of it was just magnets and postcards. and he's also 90% of the reason jean is alive because he made a promise and he couldn't bear to leave kevin even though in the end kevin left him behind. and even after that kind of betrayal he still has unwavering trust in kevin and goes where he tells him to so he'll be safe and defends his name when he needs to. because it's kevin. and maybe he can't be everything to jean but he will always be something to him.

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we're so back, aftg nation, let's gooo

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I drew the shitpost I made about Jean sassing Kevin. Hope u enjoy.

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something about jean and kevin and the magnets. something about how the ravens broke them in a way that they were still recognisable but had a piece missing that prevented them from being the same as before. something about them no longer being magnetic and able to stick but jean still holding on to them. something about the magnets kevin gave jean and their relationship

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(voice of a man slowly losing his mind) does it ever strike you that the plot of aftg is moved by little acts of kindness kevin offered to people who never had any semblance of it before. loving riko when no one would, befriending jean in the nest and keeping him alive through debilitating amounts of trauma, telling andrew he was worth it in a dingy high school locker room, teaching neil every night even if he knew he was about to die

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no because like. he taught him french and it would be their little secret. they had each other when it felt like there was no one else. kevin saw nothing but the court and jean had given up on hoping for more than that years ago. he got punished because he let kevin go. he hates him now. they can hardly speak civilly to each other now. kevin gave him a place with the trojans. they were "tight". he sent him postcards and souvenirs and jean kept them all. he knew better than to look at another man too long and how appropriate, how in character that a pretty face had fucked him over yet again. he wished a thousand painful deaths upon the foxes' queen for just minding his own business. he ran messages between him and his gf. he slit his throat on the way out. once upon a time jean would do anything for kevin and kevin knew it.

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Beneath the clothes were his few personal possessions: namely, postcards and magnets Kevin had bought him while on the road with Riko for press events.

Jean’s favorite, a small wooden bear with a red beret […]

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OH???? OH!!!! Oh jean. :( this hurt