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You know, when I started this blog I was 19 rejected by a girl that I wanted to date that was too occupied with what she wanted to. I had this need to be wanted, to desired, to be cerished... I wanted to be loved like a normal girl. To be loved like what I saw in the movies. I want to have something normal of my own. That is why I have returned to tumblr. To have community, to see if I could have something normal that I could call my own.
Sadly, 6 to 7 years in I couldn't really have it. When I see couples on the train, in public or right near me, I easily get reminded of how insignificant I am. And, before someone tells me to just "love myself" or to "work on myself": I have, I've tried. I've been to therapy plenty of times. Trust me, I really have tried. I've ended talking to and being around ppl that eventually that did not to like me as much as I liked them. And, I made to realized that people are not to be trusted.
I have come to realized I will just be rejected by the world. I HATE IT HERE! I do not wish to be in this reality. I have tried, dammit ... I really have. I am tired to have to live for others when ppl won't even bother prioritize me or communicate with me or to even meet me halfway. I am tired on hearing "just be nice to ppl" or "just do this" or "just do that" when ppl don't want to do anything out of their comfort zone for me. I AM TIRED OF THIS SHIT! I AM TIRED OF ALL OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't been alright in quite a long time.
And if it means ending it all myself not to be in this world anymore, I will gladly do it. Not that anyone (even on this site) cares! I AM DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!!
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#i think i'm ready to leave this earth and this platform...#i'm ready to leave#it's been real#i will kill myself#personal#vent post#suicide tw#me#i can't take this anymore
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when is it gonna end I’m tired
#can it all just end?#i want to end this life#and it feels like nobody's listening...#vent#personal#me
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happy valentine's day to everyone who has a lover...i'm gonna go cry now.
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sometimes, i be ready to die.
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elon musk did a nazi salute twice at the inauguration, and republicans are defending him.
trump revoked executive order 11246, which prohibited discrimination.
trump put all dei employees on leave to be fired.
trump blamed the dc plane crash on dei.
trump banned all lgbtq+ flags from being hung in government buildings.
trump ordered the pentagon to cancel celebration of mlk jr. day, black history month, women's history month, holocaust remembrance day, asian american pacific islander heritage month, lgbtq+ pride month, juneteenth, women's equality day, national hispanic heritage month, national disability employment awareness
month, and national american indian heritage month.
trump rolled back biden’s executive order to lower prescription drug costs for people using medicare and medicaid.
trump rescinded the $35 cap on insulin, and prices are expected to rise to $1500 a month.
trump ordered the national institutes of health to cancel their review panels on cancer research.
trump ended the guidelines to prevent ai misuse. the guidelines prevent many things, but notably it prevents production of ai child pornography.
when sean hannity asked trump about the economy, he said “i don’t care”, after campaigning with the economy as his main talking point.
trump has withdrawn the us from the world health organization.
trump is ordering health agencies to stop reporting on bird flu and halt publications of scientific reports.
trump has pardoned over 1500 people who stormed the capitol on january 6th.
trump changed mount denali back to mount mckinley.
trump signed an executive order to rename the gulf of mexico to gulf of america.
trump shut down cbp one, an app which granted legal entry to 1 million+ immigrants.
trump is allowing ice raids at churches and elementary schools.
trump announced plans to declare a national emergency at the us-mexico border.
trump signed an executive order to expand the use of the death penalty.
trump disbanded the school safety board that works to prevent school shootings. it was comprised of survivors, educators, and gun violence prevention advocates and formed after the school shooting in parkland.
trump withdrew from the paris climate act.
trump revoked all protections for transgender troops in the us military.
trump rescinded executive orders made by biden that benefited and protected women, lgbtq+ people, black americans, hispanic americans, asian americans, native hawaiians, and pacific islanders.
trump is attempting to make it legal to refuse to hire or fire pregnant women.
multiple state legislators are drafting bills to allow the punishment for abortion to be the death penalty.
trump pardoned 23 individuals convicted under the freedom of access to clinic entrances (FACE) act for their anti-abortion activism, including oftentimes violent protests at abortion clinics.
trump signed an executive order allowing deportation of foreign students who they believe express support for hamas or hezbollah.
trump announced that the us government will from here on out only recognize male and female as sexes. intersex is not legally recognized anymore.
trump refused to swear on the bible during his inauguration. (i’ve gotten some comments about this specific point. i didn’t include it because i’m christian, because i’m not. i’m agnostic. i included it because he’s the first president in history to refuse to swear on ANYTHING, bible or not. in the bible it teaches that the only person who cannot touch the bible is the antichrist, yet that on TOP of everything else will never convince his followers that he’s unfit.)
andy ogles drafted a constitutional amendment to allow trump to be president for a third term.
georgia republican congressman mike collins called for the deportation of new jersey born mariann budde, the bishop who urged trump to “have mercy” on the lgbtq+ community and immigrants during a service at the national cathedral.
six states (arizona, idaho, iowa, kansas, mississippi, and north dakota) are planning on challenging obergefell v. hodges, which would end same-sex marriage nationwide. about a dozen more states have representatives are also considering filing similar resolutions.
amazon revoked protections for lgbtq+ and black employees.
the cdc has removed their hiv prevention page.
the united states state department has officially changed its “travelers with special conditions” page which previously said “lgbtqi+ travelers” to “lgb travelers”, completely getting rid of the tqi+.
every single republican told us we were overreacting. trump swore he had nothing to do with project 2025 yet continues implementing details outlined in it. not a single person has the right to tell us we’re being dramatic anymore.
hope “cheaper eggs and gas” was worth it.
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