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Unstoppable Pathological

I don’t think you realized how much you affected people, either positively or negatively.  Being your friend was a full time job that was oh so very time and self consuming. 

I’ve left parts of myself.  Full time thing  Time consuming  I was suffocating  Though it was your thing You had you shot  But you watched us rot Then, she got caught  Leaving as if victims were an afterthought We see the lies  From our own eyes  When she denies That's when we realize

we were cheated wounds untreated anger’s deep-seated  you retreated

It wasn’t fair to even compare your pain and mine i wasn’t fine  you crossed the line clung to us like a lifeline

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past friend

TAZ AMAL

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monster TAZ ALAM

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ok but imagine being fucked in a flower field

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y'all i honestly just feel so fucking empty and void inside.

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fuck you

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bitch im tired of y'all's lazy reader's asses.

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the blog where i say whatever the fuck i want

where i'll bitch and moan and assume that i'm sad as fuck and in dire need of attention

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tumblr dot com really be like screaming into the emptiness, huh

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i truly dont know what the fuck this blog is

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Denise Peter on Instagram

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alexa play "Enough For You" by Olivia Rodrigo

And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back

Before you found someone more exciting The next second, you were gone And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough

Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing? But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself 'Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else And they'll think that I am so exciting And you'll be the one who's crying

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blehhhhhh

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Am I cute? No. But do I have a nice personality? Also no

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Mental health tip of the day: Routine

As much as we dread the word, our brains enjoy routine. If we have open, unpredictable schedules it can lead to decision fatigue, increased anxiety, and feeling as though we’ve accomplished nothing throughout the day.

If you don’t enjoy routine, it might be because you’ve had routines imposed by others. You should do these things for yourself; to keep on top of your health, your responsibilities, and your mental well being.

Routines don’t have to be complicated, and you don’t have to have your entire day planned out. But it’s important to have at least some parts of your day structured so your brain doesn’t constantly have to improvise.

I personally enjoy my morning routine. If you pester me during it I will screech and slam the door. 7 am-9:30 am is Leah time. I do cardio, work out, do yoga, meditate, play with my plants, brush my teefers and all that other good stuff, then go about my day. Ideally, I want to eventually do meal planning. Deciding what I’m going to eat takes way too much mental energy.

This morning me-time gives me a chance to check in with my body and mind. Do I have any aches and pains that I need to address? Am I feeling anxious or irritable? How can I be proactive to fix these things and improve my mood so I don’t have a bad day? What can I eliminate or get done to reduce my stress? Doing this ensures I have a good start to the day no matter what it throws at me later.

As with everything, start with one small thing and go from there. For me, it was working out in the morning for 5- yep, five- minutes. Then I layered things on as they became habits. No matter how small, doing something for yourself helps, and you can start any time :) this took me 28 years to do, so you’re never too old, but you should start ASAP.