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Thank-you for Serving

I just wanted to take this week’s blog post to say thank-you to those people who put their lives in harms way to keep us safe.  Thanks to the police who are taking a lot of backlash right now.  Thank-you for keeping us safe and doing your best to stop criminals.   I pray for protection for everyone on the front lines of the riots and unrest in our country.  I can’t wrap my mind around what our country would look like without the police to keep law and order.  We would never be safe and chaos would arise all around us.  I also what to say thank-you to our military and all they do to protect our freedom. We live in a great country and would collapse to outside powers if it wasn’t for their sacrifices.  We have freedoms like no other place in this world. If it wasn’t for the military we wouldn’t be able to say half the things we hear people say.  In other countries you don’t have the freedom to criticize the government the way our media does.  I want to say thank-you to our health care works and other essential workers in the pandemic.  All those people who kept the world going when things were shut down and put on hold.  We were able to make it through because of you.  I am going to wrap up this blog post now.  I don’t want to ramble on but just wanted to show my appreciation to the people who work so selflessly to help other people.

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Silence is Violence

I won't support the Black Lives Matter movement. 

I won't support the feminist movement. 

I won't support the green new deal. 

I won't support the defund the police movement. 

I will support loving each other and speaking truth.   

   Call me whatever you want as long as you read this entire thing. Your opinions aren't valid to me if you don't take the time to listen to my point of view because I've been listening for yours for a while now.  People telling me I don't care if I'm not out protesting.  Saying my silence is violence.  That if I don't agree with them I'm racist.  But I don't buy this.  I won't fall for your tricks to mold me into who you want me to be.  I'm taking my time to form my own opinions and not allow my thoughts to be molded by the mob.   I'm not racists.  I think all humans are created equally by God in His image.  To hate another person is to hate God because he created them in His image.  The Bible even asks how can someone love God who they cannot see yet hate your brother that they can see.  True Christianity and racism can't coexist.  Jesus, when on Earth cared for Samaritans who were the outcast culture to the Jews.  He came to unite His children and not divide them.  This being said you are not racists if you don't support the Black lives matter movement because this movement is so much more than just equality.  We live in a sinful world so of course people are going to do evil things but not all police are evil because some are.  Not all blacks are thugs because some are. Not all whites are white supremacists because some are.  We tend to lump people in groups and that's not fair.  I don't support the BLM movement because it's not about true love for other people it's about destroying the current system we have and having mob rule.    Now let's talk about feminism.  I love women and believe they are created equal to men but for different purposes. I don't support the femmenist movement because it's trying to remove men and remove chivalry and destroy families.  Making women and men blend together is dangerous because we are created for different purposes and if those purposes aren't done our families and life will fall apart.  God knew what he was doing when he created us and when we say we know more than Him we mess things up.  I believe men should protect women and that we should show them love like God loved us.  I believe in a family structure founded by God; a husband and wife getting married and then having children.  This is the formula for a successful happy family.  This is the exact picture of what feminism hates and why I refuse to support it.    How about the green new deal?  It sounds great!  Let's save the planet and go all green.  The issue with the proposed plan is it's not sustainable.  It will destroy people's lives and wreck the economy.  I agree we should do our part to take care of the world but things go astray when the government gets involved.  I’m not going to talk too much on this point as I am not an expert on the environment and economics but I encourage you to do your research before supporting any cause.    Why do some people think refunding the police is a good idea?  I don't even know how to make an argument when its so illogical to remove police.  We are drifting closer and closer to anarchy and no one gets anywhere with out law and order. I hope you can see where I'm coming from and how people can still be good without agreeing with your every stance.    Now after all these things I do not support here is what I think would 180 our country.  LOVE.  Oh and not the kind of love the media and left talk about.  LGBTQ+ is not for love but lust but that is a whole other topic.   When I talk about love I mean love like God loves us, a sacrificial humble love.  If we would humble ourselves and treat others, even those who don’t agree with us, with respect we could make positive change happen.  When all we do is scream at the other side it just creates more anger and divide.  Let’s work together to make positive change in this world.  Let’s share the light of Christ the only way to brighten this dark fallen world.

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Happy Pride Month

    It's funny how much emphasis our culture puts on pride.   We apparently even have a whole month to celebrate it.  Well, I guess saying it like that will make people unhappy because this month is called pride month but you can't celebrate any pride just pride of a non-straight sexual orientation.  We are divided by what we find our pride in.   Some people are proud to be Americans while others seem to hate everything ideologically American.  Some people are proud to be queer while others are proud to be straight.  Right or wrong we are a prideful generation.  We may even be so prideful to not see how other people can have other ideas than we do and those ideas may be just as valuable as ours.       At the core, we have an issue.  We can't fix it by telling people God hates you because you're gay.  Or by saying you don't have rights because you're trans. God loves all of His creation that includes those people.  It's not very Christian like to judge another's actions.  God is the perfect judge and one day everyone will be judged before our Lord.  I think we are to share with others the Love of Christ and the condition we have that's dragging us to our death, sin.  It's not unloving to share with someone how they are sinful and need Jesus.  If you have a disease that's going to kill you and I had the cure wouldn't it be loving of me to share it.  I think the most loving action a Christian who believes in heaven and hell could take is telling others about Jesus, the cure to our imminent death.  Christians get a lot of backlash for sharing their beliefs and are called closed-minded but I think every time they speak about what they believe they speak outta love.     Earlier I said we had a core issue bigger than homosexuality or any other sexual immorality.  It's a pride issue.  I believe pride is the root of all evil.  If we don't learn to humble ourselves as a nation we will find destruction.  This verse from proverbs talks about the destruction of pride.

When pride comes, disgrace follows, but with humility comes wisdom. Proverbs 11:2 HCSB

    The only way for us to grow as the United States of America is through humility.  I believe if we could humble ourselves and see that we don't always have to be right then we can find some common ground to unite on.  We don't have to agree on everything but being proud brings nothing good. I hope we can humble ourselves this week to see where others are coming from and learn to love and respect our neighbors even if we don't always agree with them.

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My Heart Hurts

My heart hurts for people who hurt.  Those who face injustice. Those who suffer because of what they look like or what they believe.  I wasn't going to weigh in on this but it's gotten to a point where there are so much anger and hatred being brought from this situation that I feel we need a little hope in this dark time. People are being murdered by those who are supposed to be protecting us.  Now people are fighting for peace by ransacking city's, destroying property, and being disrespectful to fellow men and women.  This is not a solution.  You can't make a bad situation right with retaliation and backlash.   We should protest, I think everyone should write, call email their local officials and fight for change.  Take up a sign and protest, peacefully, not obstructing other humans trying to enjoy their freedoms. We must hold our cops, government, and others in positions with authority responsible. We can't let them become over the law.  But in doing this we can't go and do evil and expect that to fix the system.  Yes, we live in an imperfect society.  I acknowledge horrific things happen to black people and America shouldn't stand by and watch it happen.   However, I don't think white people need to apologize for being white.  It's not your fault you're the color you are.  In fact, that doesn't matter.  What matters is the way you treat your neighbor.  The only people who should apologize are those racists who are killing and hurting and demoralizing others. The underlying issue isn't the police.  The underlying issue isn't the protests.  The police aren't evil.  Protesters aren't evil.  People are.  People are selfish and evil and it leads to dividing communities.  There is always something coming between people and our government and media are exploiting these faults to keep America divided.  This isn't a war between white and black or cop and protester.  This is a deeper issue it's a spiritual war between good and evil.  As this country slips farther and farther from God people are demonstrating our human nature and making it an unsafe place for everyone.  The solution isn't the riots, it isn't the government.  The only solution is Jesus.  Without the love of Christ people don't change.  This country needs a revival to unite together black, white, yellow, red.  We are all created by God, unique but equal.  We need to stop promoting violence and share the word of God.  Without  God and the change, He can provide we won't heal.  This nation will continue to suffer.  I pray God will be made know through this and we can unite in the commonality of Jesus. The solution won't come through protests or even government regulations.  The solution came 2,000 years ago and died on a cross.  We are all sinful humans and we are all prideful.  Pride is what got us to where we are.  I pray Jesus will humble Americans and allow us to see past our own nose.  It's important to live humbly and without humility, we will never have true freedom.  We need a revival not about black people, not about white people, a revival not about people; but Jesus.  If we turn to Christ all of the other injustices will fall away.  Without Christ, we will continue to live in darkness.  Let's show the world the Light.  Pray with me this week that Jesus will be seen and people will repent and humble themselves at the foot of the cross. This is how we will change America, it's the only way.  Let's pray for the protection of our community, everyone on the front lines, and for our freedom.  Thank God for what He is doing and ask Him to use you to further His plan! 

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Scars - Behind the Song

This is a song I wrote that is very raw and emotional. If you haven't heard it please go give it a listen before you continue reading this. https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/eightpassengers/scars. This song dives into the emotions you feel when someone important in your life leaves. It's not an easy topic and I know it is very relatable among many people. I hope that if you are struggling right now you know that you will get through this and you are not alone. Every wound you get whether physical or emotional hurts but they heal. You may not heal to be how you were before, some wounds leave behind scars. This scar is a reminder of the past. We are left with two choices of what to do with this reminder, we can either sulk around in depression about this new scar we have accumulated or we can let it grow us and move on to become a stronger human being. We have to know that we won't be the same and that's okay. It is hard to move on and to get up and continue living. But life isn't about the past, we are made to live in the present and we can be much happier when we learn to not live in the future or past but in the here and now. How can you move on from whatever situation you are facing? Maybe what you need is to hand over the pain to God and let Him carry your burden. I'm still learning how to embrace my scars. I need to learn that these scars can be trophies and not burdens. I need to see that God has a better plan for me than the girl who is no longer there. The first step in recovering from heartbreak is acceptance. Once you recognize what your problem is you can get a grip on the reality of what you need to do or ask to heal. I hope this has helped you. I know writing this song was hard for me but important for growth.

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What is Love?

What does it really mean to love?  Love seems to be a lost word in our society.  We say we love this or we love that.  We love this person or that person.  We throw around this little four letter word everyday but what do we really mean when we allow our lips to form this word.  Does it really mean anything?  This is one of the downfalls of our English language.  Certain words just seem to have blanket meanings for example we say we love pizza and we love our wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend, mom or dad.  But do we really mean the same thing in both cases.  I sure hope we do not have the same type of love for someone in our life that we do for pizza.  Why?  Because humans are way more valuable than a slice of pizza.  So what is the point of writing about this.  The English language isn't changing and we aren't going to stop saying I love pizza because that's just how we have grown up speaking.  However, when we are reading the Bible we come across the word love in many different situations and it doesn't always mean the same thing.  To be able to understand what God is trying to say to us we must understand the original context.  Ancient Greek had a much more meaningful vocabulary.  There wasn't just one 'love'.  They had a different word for each of its meanings.  Let's take a minute and define a few of them so when you are reading you can begin to decifer in more detail what you are reading. 1.  Eros - is a sexual love.  It's the name of the Greek and Roman god of love.  It's the passionate love that is based on emotions from two lovers.  It is a romantic love.  This is not a bad type of love, it's very important in a relationship as long as it is through the structure of marriage created by God. 2. Phileo - Is a brotherly love.  This is the type of love between friendships.  Two best friends that say I love you are referring to this type of love.  It's a I'd die for you or do anything for you, but not romantic. 3. Storge - This is an affectionate love.  Not romantic and not forced. Storage love is a natural love that is shown between family members. 4. Agape - is the most powerful form of love.  It is the type of love shown to us by God.  When God tells us to love everyone this is the type of love He speaks of.  It's a love not ruled by romance, friendship, or family ties.  This love comes from God Himself.  It is a sacrificial love.  This love is the embodiment of what Jesus did on the cross for our sins.

Now that we have talked about four types of love.  You can examine your life and see how you love different people.  Are the ways you love pleasing to God or are they misguided?  Reflect on this question this week and pray that God will teach you to love like He does.

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The Holy Week

This week begins our remembrance of Jesus' last week on planet earth as a human. Before you continue reading I strongly encourage you to go read John 12:12-19 in your Bible. In my Bible this section of scripture is entitled "The Triumphal Entry". Jesus rides into Jerusalem on a donkey and a whole lot of people showed up placing their cloaks and palm branches in front of Him as He passed them. This may seem odd to you that people would remove their jackets to lay on the ground and wave palm branches, but this was a gesture of welcoming Jesus to them. Palm branches are a symbol of victory and the Jews were excited to have victory in Jesus. The people were shouting Hosanna, which is an expression of adoration, praise, or joy. The streets were alive with celebration and excitement. However, I don't think the excitement was in the right place. These people gathered weren't celebrating our Savior coming to take away our sins, they were ready for Jesus to overthrow the Roman government and free them from their oppressive rulers. This misplaced excitement turned into hatred and people yelling crucify Him by the end of the week. Palm Sunday, or the Triumphal Entry, is the beginning of many interesting events leading up to Jesus' crucifixion and resurrection. I'd like to encourage you to continue reading and see what you can discover that may be new to you in the events that took place in this Holy Week. One take away from this passage I find is when we celebrate Jesus coming into our lives is our heart right? Do we invite Him in for selfish reasons because we think He is like a genie and going to give us what we desire? Or do we invite Him in because He is our perfect creator who is holy and deserves our praise and we humble ourselves before Him and come to Him in repentance? I think these are very important things for us to ponder this week. To wrap this up I want you to answer this one question, Who is Jesus?

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You’ve got this

These are crazy times!  I’m not even sure how to put words to what is happening in the world.  This has got to be one of the greatest slow downs the modern world has ever seen.  It is not everyday you close all businesses that are non essential. I was out driving today and it was like driving through a ghost town.  Empty parking spots where it is normally busting with people.  It is crazy to even think of how this is going to change us once the pandemic is over.  How much will life go back to how it was and what will be new?  These are the crazy things I think about.  How long will it take for people to start shaking hands again.  Will businesses begin to adapt and even after this is over continue having people who can work at home do so to save money on rent?  The amount of changes taking place is very overwhelming, but you’ve got this.  You will make it through and be stronger because of it. God has some crazy plan for all of this.  I pray you will be strong through all of this! I love you all. I know this is a short one but I just wanted to give you a quick encouragement for the day!

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Alone

It can become very easy to feel alone in these dark times.  We are restricted to our homes and only allowed to leave if it is critical.  I never imagined 2020 to look like this!  This is defiantly not how I imagined my year going.  I could look at it and sulk around in depression because I lost my job and life how I knew it. But what good would complaining do or worrying about what the future is going to look like.  It is out of my control so I shouldn’t let it make my life in the present miserable.

I have been able to look and see the blessings that have come from this broken time.  We need to look at what we can gain from this and not look to what we have lost.  For me with all my free time I can focus on improving my music and become better at what I truly love to do.  What have you been wanting to do but have never had the time to do?  Now is your chance to make your dreams happen.  It is amazing what good can come from bad situations with the right attitude.  I hope you will join me in making the best of this life we are going to be living, at least for the next few weeks. 

Another positive I have seen through this pandemic is how it has helped in building up the church.  Churches are no longer able to meet in person, but that doesn’t matter.  God has blessed our generation with the means of communicating without physical contact.  This proves that the church was never about the building but the family that meets within its walls. I think through this more people have been exposed to the gospel of Jesus Christ because churches have been forced to gain a larger online presence.  People who would never chose to walk into a church building can easily stumble across a church service that is being live streamed and see the hope we have in Christ.

I hope this has been an encouragement to you.  Help spread the hope and peace we have and if you know someone who needs to hear this share it with them!  Let’s spread joy and peace this week instead of fear and negativity.  I know this won’t be easy but together we can be a light to this dark world.  I am going to try to post these as an encouragement to you weekly so be sure to signup for my mailing list to not miss when I make a new post https://rosesashumans.com/mailing-list.html.  Have an amazing week!

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Letters - Behind the Lyrics

Letters is a song pulled deep from the bottomless pit of my emotions.  It's my mind talking about wanting to write a letter to someone I love but know will never see me the same way I do them.  It's hard to put into the words of not having a connection with someone you wish you could know.  This song is a constant inner battle that seems to take place deep within my head.  Some days it's not there yet others it's blinding.  I’m going to take you on a trip through this song and show you my inner thoughts and why I created this piece.

I’ve got something to show you 

Come follow me through this empty hall

It may be a long shot but I’ve got to try to call

I’ve hidden from you, kept my distance, tried not to fall.     

This first stanza is basically my introduction.  I want to show you this and want you to follow me through the hall of my mind.  I wanted to use visualizations to make this song like a story that you are able to follow.  So welcome to my inner thoughts.

I’ve mourned enough the depression I feel is not hard to recall It pounds on my brain It’s hard to refrain  As I feel the assault of your words in my frame My body collapses come join me in the morgue

I feel like I should be dead because of the pain I feel.  Depression is weird because you don’t have to have a specific reason to be sad, you just are.  There is no good explanation for your emotions.  The words I talk about hearing here aren’t from another person but my inner thoughts.  It’s my own thoughts that are driving me into these depressing thoughts.

It’s where I belong it’s where I’m born 

It’s called me to reform

It wants me to change and it hates who I am

I can't refrain any longer I may lose to this grave

My inner demons seem to hate me.  It’s a constant battle telling them they don’t control me.  They want me to be someone I am not.  They hate who I am and try to use my circumstances in my life to try to convince me I am nothing and are not wanted on this earth.

All these letters I wrote to try to fit in

I wrote to you each day 

My conscience fights to breath

That’s when I took it upon myself to leave 

My mind told me that getting a certain someone to talk with me would solve all of my problems.  If I was good enough she would talk to me.  I knew I needed to get out of this mindset because the one who gives me worth is Jesus and He showed me I had value when He died on the cross for my sins.

It’s hard to believe but I was stuck in grief 

It’d be a relief to be free from the disbelief

Are you really there or are those just words to deal with the pain

It's hard to refrain from looking past the grave

I just wanted to be free from my thoughts.  But was there really anyway out besides the grave?  I was never suicidal thank God!  He kept me close to Him even when I didn’t want Him touching my life.

It'd be easier to die harder to live

What's the point anyway I seem lost on this path

Life took me down and beat me up

I stood up for round two just to take a mitt to the nose

That's how it goes

This life didn’t seem to want to let me find success.  It would cause my thoughts to beat me up.  Maybe living is harder than dying.  No, not maybe, living definitely is harder because you have to make hard choices and do things that may make you uncomfortable but that’s okay because these challengers are what make us who we are.

I hate life I hate you

But you seem to care for me

How can that be true? 

Maybe if I started hating the person who made me feel this way I could just move on.  But hate is never the answer, it does not work.  You must learn to move on but that does not mean you have to hate.  You can take that circumstance as a learning lesson.

Even if it was, I still wouldn't be cool

Wouldn’t fit in with the ones

I wrote a letter to you as I sat in a pool of blood

From the mit on my nose; that’s how it goes, yeah

I just wanted to fit in.  Be “cool”.  But what does that even mean, allowing myself to cave to life’s pressures to become someone I am not.  That’s not what I want for myself.

Now it’s time to get up and stop this doze

I dozed off but I woke up and it’s time to go to the ring

Fight for me and fight for you,Yeah, i’ll fight for you too

I learned that I need to stand up to my inner thoughts and fight.  I need to fight to be myself and not try to fit into some ideal image that isn’t me!  I need to get out of this perfect person dream and accept the person God made me to be.

This is the path I chose who knows where it goes

That shows how much I oppose the unknown

I’ve been thrown out but I’m in the zone now, somehow

I’m on this path of life and I am going to follow it.  I’m not going to follow someone else’s dream but my own.  I don’t know what the future holds but that’s okay because I’m ready to face the unknown.

I’ll take you down with a stone and hear you moan

I’ll be disowned, I’m all alone but this fight was worth it I’d do it all again

It makes me who I am now

I need to defeat my best friend, my inner thoughts, and not let them control the way I think anymore.  This isn’t easy and it may make you feel even lonelier but that's okay because you can create a new life once you’ve ridden yourself from these evil voices within you.

If I took it all back I’d be someone else

Would that even be so bad

If I had the chance to go back I probably would

I'd chance myself to retry with you

That's why I'm writing these letters to you

As I heard this beat I couldn't help but feel for you

It had to go this way what do you say, bae

Every decision in our life makes us who we are.  If we could go back and change the way we responded to something that would change who we are.  I’m contemplating here whether that would be such a bad thing.  Maybe being different would be okay.  But we can’t go back in time and change things.  We must embrace our past to shape our future.

I couldn't think of what to say

I just thought of you how I lost

You left, you're gone for good this time

Heck to what I said

I'll be fine without you around

I need me myself and I

Since we can’t go back to that person who left, they’re gone.  We must learn to accept that and move forward.  It’s not easy but I promise it is worth it!

I lied I lied trying to comfort myself from these lies

I thought I could move on

But I keep turning back

I wrote a letter just to toss away

I want to say hey but I'm scared you'll go away

Will you ever come back

I tried many times to move on but was lying to myself when I said I had.  I kept coming back.  I continue to come back. I still struggle with this and am preaching to myself with what I am saying.

I want you to be here with me

I wish you were here today and tomorrow

Yesterday is past but the future is near

Yet it never comes even though it's always rushing forward

I can't move on

I'm stuck 

I'm stuck

What fun are you trying to have

Playing with my feelings

Ahhhhhh

You hurt me more than you know

Saying we'd always be friends

Then not texting back

Yeah 

Why didn't you text me back huh?

Letters

To you 

Help

I need you

I wrote this letter to you

This wraps up the song Letters.  I hope it can help you and inspire you to move on.  I’m not saying it will be easy or happen in a day.  But your life is precious and you deserve to not live in the past.  You miss so many blessings when you are looking to the past or the future.  Live in the now.  Live today.  Tomorrow is never promised so live life fully today.

If you havent heard this song yet and have read this far please help me continue to make more music and give it a listen and share this with a friend.

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We May Just all Die

You worried yet about our imminent death?  We all knew it was going to happen.  As Benjamin Franklin said, “but in this world nothing can be certain, except death and taxes”.  Are we prepared for what lies beyond this earth?  Nobody can be sure what lies on the other side.  We can have faith in what we believe and know in our hearts there is an afterlife, but what exactly it will be like we cannot even begin to fathom.

I’ve gotten to thinking about death this week because of our lovely media shouting about this coronavirus.  Maybe it is a big deal but what is worrying going to solve?  I have decided I’m not going to waste my days or money worrying about the effects the coronavirus will have.  However, I fear that the media may make the idea of coronavirus much more dangerous than the actual disease itself.  Hear me out.  Our society is not structured in a way to handle mass panic.  Our grocery stores are set up to restock shelves so food is always available based on normal purchasing frequencies.  When you scare a large mass of people to go and ransack a grocery store for months of supply’s it won’t be able to sustain everyone.  This will lead to major shortages of stock and create more chaos when people can’t find what they are looking for.  I don’t want to waste too much of your time on this topic because you hear about it everywhere.  I just want to warn you to be wary of the “facts” you hear from the media.  Don’t believe everything you hear.

Why do we fear this idea of death so much?  Is it because it has so many unknowns?  In church this week my pastor talked about how death is like a graduation from this life to something even better.  It is a new beginning.  If you are a believer in Jesus Christ then you have this hope that is greater than the power of death itself.  We don’t have to fear dying because we know what will be on the other side.  Having this eternal outlook on life can give us the encouragement to get through each day.  We have purpose.  Without this view why does anything we ever do matter?  If we just die and that’s it, what’s the point?  Without the hope of Jesus returning we can just look forward to the sun imploding, exploding, or however it’s going to die and all life dying with it.  That is one gloomy way of going through life.

I pray that you have this hope about what is going to happen after death.  That you know you will be free from the pain and hurt of this earth.  If you want to know more about how you can have this freedom you can reach out to me, I would love to talk to you or help direct you to wonderful resources that can help answer your questions.  Death is imminent but it doesn’t have to be scary.  Think of it like a graduation from this to eternity!

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Writing is Hard

Some days inspiration just doesn’t seem to come.  Why can being creative be so hard on the mind?  Everyday it seems to be hit or miss for me whether or not I can create something I find to be cool.  I struggle with trying to find that perfect sound or how to use the perfect words.  Like right now writing this I have found writer's block trying to figure out where I want to go with this.  Is it even worth keeping up with posting because not very many people seem to read what I write.  Should I keep going with this or should I just give up?  

  For me I am going to keep writing because if anything it gives me practice and discipline.  If I continue to try to meet deadlines for this blog post it will help me build habits of completing tasks on time. I hope if you want me to keep doing this you will encourage me by sharing this post or one of my other ones on social media and tag @rosesashumans.

  Writing music is one of my favorite things to do but it is also a very hard task.  Learning to get words to flow correctly has been a big struggle for me.  I think a lot of creatives fall into this trap of losing sanity when what you create isn’t “perfect”.  There has to be some sort of reason why mental health issues are so high among people in the music industry.  I think it's due to the amount of pressure put on them from fans and more so themselves to put out quality music in a timely fashion.  In this high pace society if you are not constantly putting out content you get forgotten about and swept under the carpet. When the writing becomes hard the pressure increases.  This pressure can destroy a weak soul and crush them under the weight of the world.

  I think it is important to allow yourself to take a break to refresh every once in a while.  When your favorite artist misses a year for an album drop, don’t go to social media bugging them or complaining.  Allow them to have time to refresh and get a new perspective.  It may take this break for them to be able to create a new masterpiece and not get destroyed by their inner selves.

  This is all I can think of to talk about right now.  I hope you can see and understand the difficulties of the creative industries we have created.  I hope you can be understanding to those people who take a break from putting out creative pieces whether that’s music, videos, blogs, etc.  Have a wonderful day and stay positive you beautiful people.

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The Dilemma

I cannot stand how nowadays you are a terrible parent and get accused of child abuse for not allowing your three-year-old daughter to transform into a male through hormone treatments.  Like come on society; it's a three-year-old!  They do not know what sexuality is or even how life works.  They don’t have the wisdom yet to decipher between male and female.  Why should they be allowed to make a decision that will affect them for the rest of their lives, solely based on a feeling they had one day? I believe that as a parent, you should be able to guide your children on a path of truth seeing the body God gave them and learning to accept it as who they are.  Instead, we are training up a generation to believe in lies and live in a fantasy. Saying, “You do you” or “do whatever makes you happy”.  Call me closed-minded but it is very dangerous to sexualize children from a young age and allow them to decide what gender they are even if their biology disagrees.  We are holding people with mental illness up as if they are the way of the future.  Instead of helping them get the treatment they need we praise them for their false beliefs in who they are

The hypocrisy in this transgender movement is so great it’s sickening.  People will argue with you for hours about how science proves that we got here through evolution or that we have a global warming crisis on our hands.  However, these same people that would argue we must accept science for what it says also say that the science of our biological make up is just a bigoted thought and must be ignored in order to be accepting of a male who “feels” like a lady and say we must accept them to be a female.  I hope you can see the issue in this. Also along the lines of evolution being a homosexual should be very wrong because two men can't reproduce, which is the whole point of evolution, to keep our species alive and better for the following generations.  That is a whole other topic so let's get back on my original train of thought.  How are we supposed to live in a society where truth is fluent from person to person.  There is no successful formula to success in a place where everyone is right no matter what.  

I am not saying that we should go picket at pride events and scream hateful things at these people.  We are called by God to love them.  We need to befriend these people and show them the love of Christ.  However, be sure not to confuse loving someone with being accepting of their lifestyle.  We can love someone and still not accept the way they live.  As we build a relationship trust will form.  And with this level of trust you can get into these good conversations about how we should live life.  Remember, it is not our job to convince someone they are not a male or a female, or that they shouldn’t like guys or girls.  That is the job of the Holy Spirit.  The only thing we are called to do is share the Good News of Jesus Christ with everyone and let the Holy Spirit do the work of changing their heart.

My call to action for you is very simple.  Go into all the world and share the Gospel.  Hey! that sound familiar doesn’t it.  That’s because that’s God’s Call to Action to us not mine.  I want to challenge you this week to smile at someone who you normally wouldn’t do something nice to; someone who may not see eye to eye with you.  Be a light in this dark world.  And remember it is not your job to change someone but be a vessel for God to speak into someone’s life!  Have a wonderful day!

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Shoot

The left won't stop screaming to ban rifles. The right won't stop screaming to keep our guns!  Let's ban the guns! It'll solve all of our problems.  Don't ban the guns we want freedom!  As they argue amongst each other, another shooting is taking place in our streets.  We keep falling farther in our broken society and I don't think our government can do anything to stop this downward spiral we have found ourselves in.  

No government ban is going to help, I mean look at drugs, if bans really work why are so many people dying from overdoses everyday? Why do people keep getting their hands on these illegal substances if there are laws in place to prevent them being consumed? Because criminals will find a means to get what they desire.  That's why they are criminals, because they don't follow the rules laid out before them.

The scariest part about the left's ban on guns proposal is that it isn't a universal ban on guns but a ban on civilian gun privileges.  So if the government bans guns what's to stop them from accumulating more power and begin censoring our speech? With all of this power we as citizens will be at the mercy of our leaders.  Is that really a place we want to be? especially when within this country, there is so much distrust in the government and so much corruption and that is only what is at the surface that is visible to common people.

Imagine giving this much power to your favorite politician.  This may be great in your perspective and may even have great rewards but what happens in 4 to 8 years when a new leader is elected in and they have to pass this torch of power.  What if this new politician doesn't agree with you? Then how would you feel about them having this much power?  It probably wouldn't seem like such a great thing, and you may even start to argue that they have too much power and must have this power limited.

This is the problem I see in our current politics.  These political parties that form our government are creating a division even bigger that before in our country.  It seems, instead of being the United States of America we have become; the divided Republicans and Democrats.  We can't even pretend that we can get along. This isn't just happening with the gun control controversy, every aspect of our government people will disagree solely based on party lines instead of what they actually believe.  For now let's continue to focus on our gun crisis that appears to be taking place in America.

Is there actually a crisis and does this need to be a huge discussion as it is?  I would argue yes! This is a very important topic to discuss.  I don't think there is a black and white answer to this topic, unfortunately. I don't have a fix all issues.  Maybe the solution is a nationwide ban on guns.  The problem with this is then the only people with guns are those who are criminals and intend to do harm with the gun.  The only people who will lose access to their guns are the law abiding citizens.  Even without guns I don't think our base issue will be solved and that's a heart issue.  An issue of greed and pride which causes people to seek to harm another for personal gain.  On the opposite side of the argument maybe we don't need more gun laws.  Maybe the ones we have are enough.  We already require background checks to purchase a firearm.  It's arrogant to say that anyone can acquire a gun through legal means in America.  

I think regulation of firearms no matter at what length won't fully provide a bulletproof solution.  The only way to find freedom from these terrible circumstances is humbly approaching Christ and being willing to live according to His way.  He created all life and put it into motion so I would argue that's enough of a reason to follow his laws.  I hope this was insightful and maybe helped you think a little more on what you believe on this issue.

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More than You Can Handle

Why is that so hard? Is it even possible to keep going through this trial?  I don't understand why it has to be so hard?  Are you going through something that you don't think you can handle?  Don't worry because I promise you that you can get through!  Here is a beautiful promise from God.

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to humanity. God is faithful, and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation He will also provide a way of escape so that you are able to bear it.

1 Corinthians 10:13 HCSB

God will always provide us with a way out of tricky circumstances! That is a promise He made to you! He isn't some evil being in the sky who is just waiting for us to slip up and fail so that He can have the entertainment of punishing us. He mourns when we mess up and rejoices at our success stories.  He is a God of love. Although He is also just and cannot allow sin to go unpunished, which is why He sent His Son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins (John 3:16).

Just know, no matter what you are going through if you give it to Jesus through prayer He will guide you through.  This is way easier said than actually put into practice though.  I struggle with this everyday. I think this is such a challenge because it requires us to be vulnerable and admit we need help. I don't like to do this because of the pride I have in my heart.  But if we can let go of our problems and cast them to God he is faithful to help us through every single time.

I hope this will be of great benefit to you and your walk on this Earth.  I pray that Jesus will show His divine self to you and humble you to the point of submission to Him so you may become a slave to Christ. This sounds harsh and brutal but the reality of being a Slave to Christ means you are free from death.  Which is a trade off that is worth it!  You can never really be free, everyone is a slave to something.  If you have the option to be a slave to death or your loving creator I would choose love and hope you do as well!

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Reflection

2019 is finally coming to an end.  It has been a year full of change and growing at least for me.  I just wanted to take some time to reflect on the year to hopefully give me some insight on the year ahead and find the changes I need to make.  And maybe through this you will get to know me just a little bit better. This year I've learned that life isn't all fun and games.  All of my friends have been off to college and I'm a full time A/V technician.  Although it keeps me busy it's been a huge adjustment from hanging out with friends all the time to always working and not having many friends. On top of working I am trying to get more involved with my new church I started attending this year; but balancing work and serving with the church’s FOH is very challenging.  My schedule has been so crazy it's become very stressful.  I'm having to learn how to deal with not always knowing what I am going to be doing the following week, and sometimes even the current week.  It seems like everything happening is bleeding together and I can’t remember what happened when.  

As I look back on this year I see that it started off with me breaking up with my girlfriend.  I share this because I believe that even though it was hard on me I know it was the right decision for where I was in life.  It may of been a selfish decision and I’m sorry for that but it was what I needed for this year to be able to figure out who I was.  However, I'm still not sure if I have figured out who I am and what my purpose is.  2020 is going to be a year of continued growth for me.  The beginning of this year I started to have many doubts about what I was doing in life and what the point of everything was.  I stopped reading my Bible daily and wondered if God even really cared.  I never stopped believing He was real but did He really intervene in our lives?  I started writing an album talking about these kind of doubts people have and am excited to share it with you.  However, it still has a long way to go before it gets to see the light of day.  

This year hasn’t been all bad though.  I started Roses as Humans which has been nothing but amazing.  Starting out with eight passengers and Madison Raye has been amazing but I can’t wait to hopefully get some more artists to join this family in 2020 and the following years. If you are interested please hit me up and let's talk music!  Music really is the best way to deal with pain, and for me it is very therapeutic.  If you have any topics you would like to hear me write about either in this blog or in a song, please send me a message through email, social media, or any other way you have to contact me.

Another amazing thing that has happened this year as I mentioned above, I switched churches.  I am now going to a much bigger, more modern styled church which has been a real blessing to me.  They have given me that chance to serve God through my skills in A/V.  They don’t hesitate to use lights, video, and sound / a band to glorify God.  Instead of shying away from these things and saying it’s for the secular world why not use these things as a way to glorify God especially if God has blessed people within the church to be able to do these things.

As this year comes to a conclusion I have begun to pick up my Bible more.  Although not everything makes sense, which is ok, I am begging to see I don’t have to know everything to put my trust in Jesus. I can take a deep breath and feel His peace surrounding me and know that everything will be okay.  My prayer for the end of this year is to ask God for forgiveness for the times I didn’t trust in Him this year and ask Him to help me follow Him and to love Him more in 2020 than I did in 2019. I hope each one of you can have a similar prayer and can say that 2020 is going to be a great year.

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Abortion and the Death Penalty

Let’s make sure we force tax payers to pay taxes to keep rapist scumbags rotting in a jail cell, oh and lets make sure tax payers continue to make sure any women can make a selfish choice and have an abortion at their convince.  I do not see how it makes sense to say the death penalty is cruel yet abortion is totally fine.  I would argue that abortion is also the death penalty.  The biggest difference between the death penalty and abortion is that the death penalty is the death of a convicted criminal and abortion is the death of an innocent child.

You could argue that a fetus is not a child but there isn’t any solid argument for that stance. The only solid piece of evidence to when life starts is when the building blocks of life, the DNA, begins.  Scientifically the point of conception is when the DNA for the child is formed.  At this point everything about this child is decided.  It’s height, hair color, eye color, body type, etc.  is all decided by the DNA formed at conception.  In a study by Steven Jacobs, a University of Chicago Ph.D. candidate, 5212 out of 5502 biologist said that life begins at conception (https://www.lc.org/newsroom/details/071219-most-biologists-believe-life-begins-at-conception-1;https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=3211703;).  This is huge because these biologist were not all Christian, conservative, and did not have pro-life biases.  I think everyone should take a minute and go read this study.  I don't want to try to convince you that abortion is evil but I believe if you see what biologist say you will come to the same conclusion I have. The only reason the abortion argument exists is because of the lack of knowledge of when life starts.  If you are pro-choice and believe that life begins at conception, you are selfish and evil, especially if you would argue against the death penalty.  There are many standards people have to when life begins, some say when the baby is feasible outside of the womb, others say when a fetus can feel pain, or when a heartbeat can be detected.  The biggest problem with these stances are they can be changed based on location and technology available. With these standards you are saying the life of a baby of a rich family is more valuable than that of a poor family. Put in those terms I hope you would agree that that is not okay. Now I hope you have taken the time to read the study above and come to your own conclusion on this controversial subject of abortion.

Now I want to take just a brief moment to talk about the death penalty. Do you really think it's cruel to end someone's life as punishment for terrible crimes they committed?  The Bible talks about the death penalty for many sins in the old testament so I don't believe you could argue against it with the Bible.  Also how is the death penalty not merciful? Someone on death row is just rotting alone in a cell with no hope. How is that not more cruel than painlessly leaving this Earth?  You could argue that then you are taking away chances for them to come to Christ.  As a Christian I think we should share the gospel with them prior but I don't think it's our job to decide if they have changed or not, that's for God alone.  I think in our society we can't forgive someone's crimes because they say they accept Christ.  That's dangerous because we can't see their heart to know if they really have changed.  

My final statement I want to leave you with is this.  If you can not support the death penalty then you can not support abortion without being hypocritical. Both are ending life, however I don't believe the reverse is true.  I believe you can be against abortion and for the death penalty and here is why.  The death penalty is punishment for a crime that was commited, therefore it is deserved.  Abortion on the other hand is ending an innocent life and taking away their choice to do good in this world.  I would say yes I am pro choice and pro life (yes, I think that is possible).  I support four choices: abstinence, birth control (preconception), motherhood, and adoption.  The only choice I don't support is the killing of an unborn child.