s0lemnrot

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I wonder if losing me hurts at all

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once again, i have to go through this entirely alone.

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Walking away from someone while you are still in love is a different kind of pain. Don't speak to me about moving on until you've had to leave behind everything your heart ever wanted.

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i felt seen

too seen

you saw who i was in my entirety

so like a frightened dog

i bit you and ran away

now i am cowering in my corner

growling, snarling, ears back

just to be sure

no one gets close enough

to see me again

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“When I first met you, thats what I remember. I looked up at the sky and thought, Im going to love this person because even the sky looks different.”

— Margaret Stohl

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finally figured out something worse than caring deeply for people who don’t reciprocate: when people don’t even want you to care about them. whatever i have to offer is so worthless no one even wants to take advantage of it.

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There is no worse feeling than realizing you are nothing more than an afterthought in the lives of those you’d die for

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im so tired of being obsessed with people who dont care about me

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I can't stand my own thoughts

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maybe it’s all a myth. maybe there’s no such thing as being good enough, for anyone.

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“why can’t you be normal” I can’t. because of. my disordered ass. and because i’m so full of hate and rage

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I’ve lost so much of myself in other people I’m not sure what’s left

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i think i was destined to be ruined. i think i’ll always be fucked up.

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i wish someone would beat me and choke me because i know that’s what i deserve.

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going insane again over someone who doesn’t care or like me in the slightest

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forever an "it's ok l understand" girl, with tears running down my face.

forever an "I'm sorry" girl, when didn't do anything wrong.

forever a "it wasn't even that important" girl, even though Im really disappointed & got my hopes up.

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Will this stop? At any point in time, will this stop?