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young cocky race car drivergirl bickering with her crew chief as she speeds down the straightaway telling her chief that she can make this turn and she knows her car better than anyone but her chief (sexy older lady with glasses) keeps telling her she can't make that turn and itd be suicide but she knows. she knows if she can pull it off she can defeat her rival once and for all (also a girl with black hair and a stone cold personality) and finally prove to her that she belongs to stand on the same podium, that they are equals, that she is worthy of her rivals love, gripping the wheel tight as she puts her all into the turn, veering hard right like crazy, foot on the break, looking like she's about to lose control and-

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In a mood when I don't wanna be tonight. I want to kiss another girl's cock or her balls from behind.

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So fucking pissed I'm stuck awake when I should be asleep because my mind keeps turning in anger.

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the hopepunk platitude that 'most people would develop measured opinions on marginalised demographics if they were simply exposed to them in everyday life' doesn't work because 99% of people have a switch in their head that they can flip in order to stop seeing the person in front of them as a person and instead as property, property for utilitarian benefit to themselves. you can tell when someone flips their switch while talking to you

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I fucking hate my parents so fucking much. I fucking hate how each one, even after I've grown up and moved out, treats me like a property or an object. I hate how they erase my identity, my culture, in how they talk to me and how they act as if all my true family or people's struggles are all hypothetical. I'm so fucking sick of it.

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If I see one more person say “do transphobes who want trans men in the women’s bathroom realise that it’s easier for a dangerous predator to pretend to be a trans man” about these bathroom bills I’m actually gonna lose my shit because this is such a disgustingly transphobic thing to say, and the fact that I’ve seen other trans men say it as if they’re being supportive is fucking insane. How about we don’t insinuate that any trans person is secretly a dangerous predator. How about we don’t think about how this will affect cis people rather than the trans people who are being forced into dangerous situations. How about we don’t ignore the dangers that trans men will face in the women’s bathroom because you seemingly can’t conceptualise that your white, passing existence isn’t the case for every other trans guy. I’m fucking done with this shit. I’m not gonna be polite anymore, the more I think about this statement, the worse it fucking gets. Idc if you’re trans, if you say this you’re fucking transphobic.

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このままで、メーテルごっこを我慢続けできないよ

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I wanna lick another trans girl's boobs.

Sorry it's one of those nights yall gonna just have to handle it.

Anyway I wanna suck and bite on her puffy nipples until she pins me down and fucks me.

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This album is so fucking good. Cried to "Can You Get To That" while in the car just the other day.

Funkadelic - Maggot Brain

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yo

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AYYYY YO.

aoko you literally cannot say that

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I wasn't going to post about this but everytime I have some alone time, it comes to mind again and I think I need to say something somewhere.

My grandpa passed away in the hospital yesterday early in the morning. They'd been in icu a couple days before being transferred to hospice and dying there. He'd been difficult about seeking care both from poverty but more than that, he hated going to doctors/hospitals.

My grandparents have both been poor for a long time now, so that's been a large issue in all of this, but it hurts especially losing him, he was there for me often when nobody else was.

When I was a kid, he'd feed me and my sister when my dad wouldn't. After I came out as trans he called and gave a lot of support as well as told me he'd "used to crossdress" and about how he had a boyfriend in the 60s but they split for financial/societal reasons. He'd give me advice for passing now and then.

I didn't really know the full extent of his gender situation tbh, so I always felt gross saying I thought he might be trans, like I was putting something to his identity that wasn't there. I no longer really feel this way.

My grandmother spoke a lot while on the phone with me today about the true extent of this and specifically, unprompted brought it up. She mentioned things like how he'd never, ever take care of himself when he had to be a man, or how he'd "hated every second of having to live this way." He was apparently scared to go to the hospital now in particular because he didn't want them to see he'd been shaving.

Likewise, we aren't directly related, they apparently met at some point and she was the first other woman tolerant of all this and not trying to "fix him." Her words.

I already feel gross having to have had used "he" to talk about them. I don't really know how to handle any of this. I told some close friends and family this but it feels like losing both a family member and a comrade. Everything about their upbringing feels so close to mine and I think they knew it too. I wish I'd talked to her a bit more. I wish I'd fucking asked more questions or been brave enough to discuss this more in depth.

Throughout this, the thought hasn't left my mind of the fact that, preventing trans people from transitioning or existing will lead to self harm/suicide/death. It's sinking in that even if not always in the conventional way this is true.

I wonder if she'd been born later she'd maybe have had an easier time, or at least taken better care of herself because she'd have been able to transition. I wonder how many other fucking people have given up on their bodies or their health because of this shit. How fucking many people were forced into the hiding?

We lost a sister today and there's a high likelihood they'll throw out her ashes due to circumstances without lettingmy grandmother keep them. I fucking hate the world we live in. It's not fucking fair.

To any other trans siblings reading this. Don't you fucking let anyone stop you from being yourself. If these fucks had it their way, we'd all end up this way. Please, do everything in your power and reach out if you need others. I don't fucking want anyone to have to fucking go this way.

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Sometimes it does feel weird talking about NSFW bans because you either see it discussed in the sense of "NSFW bans are bad because the systems just randomly shoot innocent queer people!" or "The NSFW was bad (supposedly) but all the weirdos who jacked off to porn went away so things are nicer now" and its like

man that's great meanwhile I don't think Mastercard should decide if I pay someone to draw Cynthia from Pokemon being brainwashed or not.

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favorite johnny bravo scene