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bitches will be like "im a horrible awful evil irredeemable monster who is deceiving their friends into thinking they're normal and good. i should kill myself so people dont have to interact with someone as horrid as me" and then have morality ocd. its me im bitches

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Nobody tells you how hard it is being a disabled trans guy

I can't work out without seriously damaging my health, but I want to work out so I can be like other boys

I can't do sports and I don't find them interesting but nearly every other boy loves sports

I have to take month long binder breaks if I even have the energy to bind

I hate having to go through puberty I hate the way my body curves I hate that everything down to my fucking spine will never be like the other boys. I can't walk like cis boys I can't do anything like cis boys

My body isn't my own and I feel so dysphoric that I feel like I want to cry if I see another person at all

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Holy shit I am in so much fucking pain rn what the fuck do you mean this is normal and monthly

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Me about to throw away all of my progress in my mental health because I talked to much in the intro channel and the mod yelled at me

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Something is wrong and I don't know what it is

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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Me sobbing crying because I had one thing and I'm horrible at it. I can't do shit right and I hate it I and I need to explode right now

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Chat mt fucling pussy is bpesding i need to remove it

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Never going to get how my mum didn't understand why the contents of the book Lolita would make me uncomfortable on the same day the police were coming to talk to me about the rape case???

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I am going to go insane I need full control over everything ever and I am crying because people on the internet were a little bit mean to me I am half contemplating leaving the server but I have friends on there but also the new guys make me so fucking uncomfortable

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chat I am not having a good time rn and I'm so close to lashing out and I want to die I'm stressed as fuck and I can't fucking do this

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Everyone hates me god fucking damnit I'm going to just drive everyone away again why couldn't I have the normal people disorders if I just had anxiety or some shit they'd like me but no I had to have extreme fears that cause me to faint if I see a bit of fluff that looks like a flea and faint if I see my own reflection

I've gotten to the point I literally cannot bear to look at myself

I don't have any clothes I like because of this stupid body I hate myself I just want to be the perfect skinny boy but I can't even get that right

I wish I wasn't like this all I want is to be normal then people would like me but there's no way for me to be normal. I can't have what I want so desperately

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On my 3rd panic attack of the hour I hate living and nothing can give me comfort anymore

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When your parents instill a deep fear of imperfection in you to the point you stop trying at things because it might not end up perfect and you have panic attacks looking at photos of yourself or looking in the mirror because you're not absolutely perfect

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Me when I just get hit so hard with the mental illness

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I'm actually so pissed about the police thing

Someone who wasn't me told the police about my rapist long before I was ready to say anything

I am not ready!!! I do not remember all of the information!!! This is actually the worst idea anyone has ever had!!!

God please it feels like I'm being rushed I don't want to do anything about this I don't want this can't I just tell them to drop it because it happened but I don't want anything to happen with it

I'm just not ready I never wanted to tell my parents about it I wanted it to just be left to me and The Internet I don't want anything legal to happen

I've never gotten into legal issues before I'm terrified of the police and what will it do for my public records like will it affect any employment and like I might get someone sent to jail. For years. This is a big fucking deal it's not just something small like shoplifting or graffiti it's a rape case