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Mental Health, Spiritual Health, Holistic Health

Hopefully there will be a few more posts like this.

My perception is such that it encompasses many things -- the reality of many things and the many facets of those things. I try to accept things as they are. I also try to discern for myself what is occurring.

If there were anything I had to say to my younger self it would be the same sort I would say to myself now or to anyone else: Know thyself and seek virtue. Explore the unknown. Trust your instinct and reason.

It was those sort of ideals that led me to being a very well rounded and healthy person. It is by being healthy that I can say that we live in a sick world. That our mental health crisis in America -- or anywhere else for that matter -- is essentially a spiritual one. What is “spiritual”? I mean one’s relationship with themselves, with others, and with the divine. Who could deny that most of those relationships are ill or founded on lies? The very lives we live every day.. they make us sick.

By seeking virtue or exploring the unknown or trusting your instinct / reason you come to find that there are so many things that are wrong with our world. Strange and crazy things that are terribly wrong, really. We can heal ourselves and we can heal this planet and our way of life if we confront those relationships that are founded on lies or violence in our government (and other institutions), in our relationships with one another, and eventually with our destiny as a species on this planet.

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#beyondthisworld

I’m a lightworker. I’m a transgender man. I’m mixed race. I am beautiful -- inside and out. I am barely making it. I also want nothing to do with the world’s current direction thusfar.

I’m thinking it all needs to come crashing down... to change in the blink of an eye.

My whole life I have thought that something was going to upend this world. Maybe it was a premonition. Maybe it was a implanted in my mind, somehow. But I think it has actually always come directly from the Cosmos...

People are tired. I have been tired and vexed by this place as soon as I was aware. It’s not supposed to be this way anymore.

I am better than this.

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i don’t know what love is

this isn’t clickbait. i honestly can’t remember a time where I thought, “this is love”. i think.. people feel themselves to be loving me. I think i have a different feeling of what love is... or what i think it feels like.

no.. I have never truly loved another. i want to.. i want to meet the other people like me. the other beings like me. i think then I will feel what I feel missing from others...

love from a god is different than love from a human. i have felt love from somewhere.. from the cosmos. that is why I think.. what I think love is is different. perhaps I expect mortal love to be too much.