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I have a little question for the community. How do you feel when you're hanging out with your safe person and then, without necessarly you knowing, they bring to the hang out their other friends? Because personally, I always feel like they are betraying my trust whenever that happens...even for those times when they warn me beforehand, because I believe they should know I wouldn't back out at that point (They are aware of my PD.) How do you handle the resentment that inevitably comes after? I tend to put the blame on me because I know this "problem" is nitpicky and not that common probably, and I can't expcet people to bend to my desires anyway, but still...I guess I would like to have my feelings validated even if they are weird...

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i want to shake those two little Victorian girl bitchs hands who faked the pictures of themselves playing with fairies and thank them for paving the way.

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“I have all these OCs! But no story…”

bruh

make a fighting game

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Avpd be all fun and giggles until your supposedly safe people bash you when your symptoms act up. Avpd all fun and giggles until you are always the one to reach them midway because you know they just don't comprehend you fully. Avdp all fun and giggles until you want to prioritize your feelings and in return your safe people want to ~not metaphorically~ beat you up. Avpd all fun and giggl-

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also you guys are losers for talking about smoking the grass cat when serperior is right there pre-rolled 

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I submit to you that the most iconic feature of any animal is either unlikely or impossible to fossilize.

If all we had of wolves were their bones we would never guess that they howl.

If all we had of elephants were fossils with no living related species, we might infer some kind of proboscis but we'd never come up with those ears.

If all we had of chickens were bones, we wouldn't know about their combs and wattles, or that roosters crow.

We wouldn't know that lions have manes, or that zebras have stripes, or that peacocks have trains, that howler monkeys yell, that cats purr, that deer shed the velvet from their antlers, that caterpillars become butterflies, that spiders make webs, that chickadees say their name, that Canada geese are assholes, that orangutans are ginger, that dolphins echolocate, or that squid even existed.

My point here is that we don't know anything about dinosaurs. If we saw one we would not recognize it. As my evidence I submit the above, along with the fact that it took us two centuries to realize they'd been all around us the whole time.

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Dropping a brick on the post below

hee hee

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if i got put in a jigsaw trap and survived i wouldnt learn anything id just be like well that was fucked up lol

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How to draw?

here, take these links

The Complete Famous Artists Course

Collection of Art Books and Resources

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It's so weird talking to people who's view of "here's the way life is for everyone" is shattered as soon as they talk to someone with disabilities (physical, mental illness, any). Like you'll say you'll have a problem and instead of helping you they'll argue with you about how you're not actually facing that problem. Like,

Me: Hey, I'm really struggling to find a job and a part of it is my resume. I was depressed & psychotic during highschool so I didn't do anything to gain skills or achievements to put on my resume. I also don't have anyone to put as a reference. What can I do?

Them: You can add your skills, hobbies, clubs you're in, and different volunteer work you've done! You can also get your teacher as a reference.

Me: I already know what to put on a resume, my issue is that I don't have things that I can use. Also, I'm in my mid 20s so I don't know if I can put my highschool teacher as a reference.

Them: Well if you're a part of a church or an activity group, you could add that. Also, think of any projects you've worked on in the past.

Me: I already know you can put these things on a resume. I'm not looking for suggests of things I've already done, I'm looking for what I can do now if I haven't done anything.

Them: There's no way you didn't do anything during highschool?? What about some odd jobs you definitely did for extra money, like babysitting or mowing the lawn?

Me: I spent all of highschool either in modified classes or in bed doing nothing - not even hobbies, what about that do you not understand?

And then you talk to someone who's also disabled and they're like "Here's a bunch of jobs you can do from home that don't pay much but look good on a resume, here's some free online courses that also look good on a resume, here's how you can be making small amounts of money in the meantime, here's some things you can put besides a professional reference, and here are your rights if your future employer tries to take advantage of your disability - which you probably shouldn't tell them about unless you need accommodations."

And suddenly my will to continue trying returns!

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me, appreciating all the hard work that goes into creating video game environments:

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Toby Fox may be the creator I respect most because after creating a game so huge that Nintendo sniped his character for Smash and the Pope's orchestra played his music for the Goddamn Pope I VERY much think it would be within Toby's right to develop a God complex, crack and become insane, go on a bender in the streets of LA, and then have an extremely public Twitter meltdown before getting suspended. Imagining the pressure, I think I personally would do all those things, in that order, in under 6 months' time.

Instead as far as I can tell he's just like "I'm dog" and has been like "I'm dog" since Undertale launched and he's just out there somewhere with near-total anonymity just making his little haha games. Absolute King.

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trying to find a new piece of media to consume like, it has to be new, it has to be familiar, if it stresses me out even a little i will die, i want there to be a specific kind of conflict but i don’t know what kind, i want to be utterly engrossed, i want to watch it in the background, i can’t concentrate, i am hyperfixated, i want to be challenged, i want to be comforted, i want to be disturbed but in a comforting way, maybe i’ll just watch the first three seasons of great british bakeoff again

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they banned the word omega this is literally 1984 george orville was right when he wrote animal crossing

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ayo i found 2 pages with head angles of humans and animals, could be useful to anyone reading this

hoomans

animals