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How I dance to steal yo man

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What the what

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Getting back into spilling my guts via the internet.

Honesty hour? :D

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Haven't really been on Tumblr in forever, but here's an update:

In the past year I:

Planned my wedding

Finished college

Continued working full time at CVS

Got depressed again

In the past 2 months I:

Called off my wedding and ended my relationship completely

Started working on my Master's degree

Finally got hired as an English teacher

Got myself help

Things are looking up, though, and I like where I'm at.

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Haven't posted in a looong time,

but I needed somewhere to complain just for a few minutes.

I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of arguing, I'm tired of him discussing it with people and ending up in weird moods that make me wonder if he's going to postpone (or completely call off) the wedding.

It should be a happy time for us and instead he's doing a lot of bitching.

I've told him repeatedly that he's making me so doubtful about if he actually wants to marry me at all that I'm afraid he's going to do it and I'll have to spend the rest of my life wondering if he's ever happy or if he resents me for being so ready to marry him.

In wedding planning, isn't the bride supposed to be the bitch?

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A little heartbroken.

I've always wanted to join the bone marrow transplant registry, and I was just told that because of the spine surgery I had after being hit by a drunk driver, I'm ineligible to donate.

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A little heartbroken.

I've always wanted to join the bone marrow transplant registry, and I was just told that because of the spine surgery I had after being hit by a drunk driver, I'm ineligible to donate.

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The reason I've been so absent from MilsoTV this week...

I was busy having stare-downs...

Smiling and cuddling...

And enjoying getting to make weird kissy-faces again with my handsome boyfriend while he was home for 2 and a half days! <3

I wish he didn't have to go back to his base today. I'm looking forward to seeing him again in a month or so, though. :)

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John just left again.

As soon as I couldn't see his truck anymore, I instantly felt the best part of me leave.

It's like I'm kind of broken when he's not here.

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John surprised me at work last night!

I didn't think I'd get to see him until today. I'm so glad he's home for a few days <3

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One term paper down, one more to go...

BEFORE MY MAN GETS HOME! :D

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JOHN GETS HOME TOMORROW!

Oh yeah, 4 days of leave, oh yeah!

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