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How to hate someone you once loved before

1. Throw out reminders!

I have so much crap from him, it’s like half of my room. I cant throw it out because it’s stuff I actually like lol. Now his sweaters... I could burn them... but I’m not going to. I’ll just set them in the bottom of my dresser somewhere. Our picture from homecoming? I will never throw that out because memories, but I will put it at the bottom of my dresser in the sweaters so I don’t have to look at it. The blanket he got me, I’ll just pretend my mom got it. His fuzzy socks, same thing. I’ll do that with everything else.

2. Block or unfriend them.

I already unfriended him on snapchat and it feels a bit good. Now I can talk shit about him and he slutty girlfriend. Facebook I kept so if I got a boyfriend he can see how happy I am without him, but I did unfollow his posts. Instagram I kept following him because he’s still following me and I want to see every post of him and his girlfriend together to see the gay captions he puts.

3. Remember the bad things

I’m gonna write down all the cons to our relationship in the past.

4. Avoid this person

From now on, I’m looking the other way when I pass by him in the halls. If he waves, says hi, and smiles, I’m just gonna give a half smile for one second and keep walking.

5. Listen to hate songs

Any suggestions? I hate you, I love you, seems like a popular one.

6. Get a crush

Check, I have 3 crushes at the moment. I have set my priority on one at the moment,

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Words about my recent “ex”

I'll always love Him. It's just a fact. Even if I move on to another guy, crush or boyfriend, my heart will always hold a piece for him. I'm going to lose a lot. The feel of our hands intertwined, the happiness and pain killer from his personality, his lips on mine sending electric shocks to my heart. The protection of his arms around me and the smiles he gives me as he calls my names. When he lifts me of my feet like a baby and kisses me goodnight/goodmorning. I'll lose our cuddle times, playful games, and looking into each others eyes. I'm gonna lose his love... Well I already did. There's no forcing a smile down when I look at him, I'm just going to have to look down or away. Maybe in a few weeks, months, or even years he will realize how perfect we were together. We were so similar, except the fact I was shy and he was more out there. I knew being shy would have negative impacts on my life, it ended our relationship...but I've gotten so much better thanks to him. I no longer cared what people thought of me, I stood up for myself, and I talked so much more to strangers and accqantances. I loved his family... nothing was negative about the relationship between them and me. They understood I was shy, but getting better. He meant everything to me and I would leave family hangouts just to be with him. I hungout too much with him because I was used to summer and wanted to feel loved 24/7. He turned my life upside down and I wanted to experience everything with him. Homecoming, Prom, winter activities, road trips, sleepovers, shopping, etc. If I was asked to describe Him, I would say he was a cute nerd. Not the nerd who reads books and studies every night, but the one who obsesses over superheroes and pickles. Did it annoy me? Well yeah, sometimes, but I loved it. I would say his hair was a light ginger color, almost blonde, but it was beautiful, soft, and his best natural quality. His smile is one of a kind, one that melts your heart and force your cheeks up. His laugh was peaceful and his eyes were a loving brown. He was fairly tall and my face would sink into his shoulders during a hug. He smelled amazing and his muscles were the perfect size for a teenage boy, along with his flat, soft stomach. He was skinny and had veins in certain areas I thought were attractive. We shared the same size feet and the same humor. He always cared for me and cheered me up. Sure we had fights, but that was healthy. Sometimes we had too many arguments, I wanted to consider a teen relationship counseling or something. I would also say that voice was like music to my ears and his appearance never seemed to disappoint me. He was very different, I loved that. He would sing at the mall, talk to strangers, and yell things out at the lunch table during school. I would laugh and look around, but I was never embarrassed because I loved him. He hid his emotions in front of others, but he never got fooled me. If something was wrong, I knew. He was the same way, he knew when I was unhappy. I always believed laughing was the key to happiness and he brought that key with him everyday. He was rarely serious, just humorous and lovely. He always took things slow, unlike 99% of guys in the world. I was glad to have the rare 1%. Everything he did for me I appreciated and was thankful for, even taking me to school. Hunter had helped me with a lot of things, even my fears. My grades were surprisingly wonderful for the first time in my entire school years. I never had to think about him in class a lot because I knew I had him and I'd see him soon. I never admitted to being the jealous type, I didn't even know, but I was. I was extremely jealous because my biggest fear became losing him. A lot of times, maybe 80% of the time, I would want to go up to his room and lay down to cuddle. It made my heart happy that I was too blind to realize it was gonna get boring. We spent months doing that and I was still happy, but his switch slowly turned off. He was what I called perfection and then suddenly he forgot that. His mind was on other things and I soon just became a friend to him. After our breakup, I cried every night and first thing when I woke up. I was refusing to let him go. After sleeping and crying when I awoke again, I had no tears left to cry. I decided if I really loved him I would wait for him. Maybe waiting is the wrong way to put it because I don’t know if we will ever be something again. I'm gonna be friends with him and accept it until he falls for me again. I'll go back to crushing on him and trying to impress him everyday with hair, makeup, and outfits. I finally understand the quote, "If you love something let it go, if it comes back then it's meant to be." The truth is... I don;t know if I'll get my world back, but I'm going to improve myself and pray. I still have faith and believe in our relationship. Maybe this is a good thing from God. Maybe this happened to test if I would lose my faith or hope. Maybe he wants us to realize what we had and be better, like it'll change our relationship together for the better if we got back. I just want him to know that I will NEVER stop loving him, no matter what. If we got new relationships, I would still love him and who knows, maybe we will get back together and be better than we ever were. Right now I'm suffering and drowning in depression, isolating myself from a lot of people, and barely eating. I need to forget about Him for this week until he texts me again. I'm thinking that keeping a busy schedule and doing things I love will help get my mind off him for now. I'm still gonna love him, but I just need to be happy and pull out of this. I'm just afraid that him seeing me happy will make him think I moved on. Maybe God did this so I could earn two friends too. I will never know why God did this, but I will fosho never give up on my recent relationship even if that means waiting for years and only being friends with my crush. So I say, "Bring it on God, I'm ready for your challenges this week and I promise you will shocked with my results." 

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So yesterday at school, some kid waved a mexican flag over the balcony at lunch and everyone clapped. Then he ran and got caught. He got a suspension… really? How is waving a flag a punishment? The mexcian flag even had its own poster by the library, yet he cant wave his flag. School rules are not fair

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Let's just say if I only had $1 and I was really hungry, I'd buy you a burrito

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I think this is the first time I sat down with my head resting in my hand, daydreaming, and smiling. I usually don’t smile

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It's so amazing...

When you get the guy you have been waiting for, for so long. So I met this guy back in October last year over facebook. Then we started waving to eachother at school but I never talked to him before in person. This whole time we were never aware we liked eachother after getting to know eachother. So couple months past and we both give up on eachother thinking we’re just friends. He gets a gf and I get a bf a few days after in revenge because I thought he liked me but then I was like ���oh… Well since he don’t like me, whatever.” I felt connected to the posts saying, “You cant just come into my life, make me feel loved, and then leave.” So then his girlfriend says he can’t talk to me anymore even though we were best friends. I was the only girl he texted the most besides his girlfriend. (Which turns out later, he was only with her because he wanted to feel loved and he gave up on me too). Well after a 2 months of not talking over text and only waving, he comes to me for advice and they break up so me and my bf break up too. I never liked him and never even did anything. No hugs, holding hands, kissing, nothing, because I wanted my best friend. After a few weeks up our breakups me and him started getting closer. We talked all day everyday, instead of a few hours before bed. We were eachothers first priority. We flirted more. We even hungout and talked for the first time with friends. Then after that, he admitted his feelings towards me and I admitted mine. WE FELT THE SAME WAY ABOUT EACHOTHER THIS WHOLE TIME!! October all the way to May!!! So finally, the next time we hungout, we got together and now are dating. Monday will be a month and I couldn’t be happier. I got my best friend. I get to call my boyfriend my best friend and I get to hold his hand, hug him, kiss him, etc. I never thought it would happen, but I did learn a valuable lesson I could pass on to my friends. It may not help, but I think it could be good advice. I’m just gonna say this… IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT! My first boyfriend was the one I dated in revenge and that was the end of freshmen year. Technically I wouldn’t count it even as a relationship so my best friend would be my first. I waited… 8 months… 8 months!! For my amazing boyfriend and it…was definitely worth it. Anyways, that is just a little something I needed to post and get out of my head.

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