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Somebody make a commander Cody hoodie with his CC# and the line "good man that Cody" on it so i can buy it

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Anyone else just sit in silence sometimes and contemplate ending it all or is that just me?

Not sit here and plan no. Just think like man maybe I won't wake up in the morning and I won't have to do this anymore.

Or maybe a car will hit me on the way home and it'll all just go black.

Or maybe I'll get struck by lightning.

Or maybe my heart will just give up.

Or maybe maybe given how often there's shootings I'll be one more unfortunate tragic death.

Let me be a statistic, but put me out of my misery.

I'm so very tired.

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I love how little Anakin Skywalker tells Qui Gon Jinn in Phantom Menace.

"I don't want to be a problem."

And then proceeds to become one of the biggest problems in the galaxy.

This is that is it me Jesus video in Star Wars format.

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Cody, texting the commander's group chat: Just arrived at the store. Where are you guys? Did you get the cabinet assembly?

Fox: Liquor isle

Wolffe: Bring another cart

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Ever since I saw this post by @tattycoram I couldn’t stop laughing and I knew I wouldn’t rest until I drew it 🥲

So here’s my take at how I think this conversation went:

I’d like to thank @firstofficerwiggles for hyping me up to post this S2

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Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I’m trying to prove something.

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Today is one of those days where I spend hours excorising my demons and realizing that what I really need is for someone to hold me and tell me I am loved and that there isn't anything wrong with me.

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If I fuxking died tomorrow or whatever and didn't have to get up for work that'd be fantastic. I'm so sick of this shit that I have no fucks left. Jesus take the wheel and drive me off a cliff I'm begging you. JUST LET ME DIE ALREADY DAMN IT

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I've always had this issue with having a hard time understanding people if I can't see there mouths moving or their facial expressions. When I'm going off the sound of their voices alone it based off pitch and tone. I wish most days that people came with subtitles because my brain processes verbal information slower than pictures. And I can gauge what kind of response people are looking for from me if I can see their body language. I made the mistake of mentioning this to a friend who studied psychology and he said I'm traumatized. 🙃

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New Monterey Bay Aquarium Spotify Playlists Just Dropped!

Tunes for tuna. Pieces for pisces. Vibes for tides. Head into the weekend with some curated Spotify playlists picked out by Aquarium staff! Match them up to our livestreams or rock(fish) out with some music to soothe your sole: 

Krill Waves Radio

Relax, focus and flow with some ambient, mostly instrumental lofi hip hop beats from our YouTube Krill Waves Radio video series! All music © Chillhop Music 

Our Favorite Tunas

Let a little ocean into your life with these classic tunas, perfect for every sea-son.

Float On with the Drifters Team

Comb jellies. Sea nettles. Moons. These are the jams our team listens to while caring for our Jellies/Drifters Gallery!

Jelly Cam Jams

Drift away on waves of chill instrumental beats with our Jelly Cam playlist. 

Sea-lestial Sounds (Moon Jelly Cam)

Wishing on a sea star for a soundtrack to enhance your relaxocean while watching our Moon Jelly Cam? Whale sea what we can do. 

It’s a Bay-utiful Day (Bay Cam)

Wave goodbye to anxiety—this playlist of chill instrumental music is shore to relax and calm while you’re watching our Monterey Bay Cam! 

Sway This Way (KF Cam)

Swayt! Swayt! Don’t tell us—you need some sweet instrumental songs to sooth your sole. A playlist for the Kelp Forest of us, if you will. 

Chasing the Blues Away (OS Cam)

Feeling blue? Time to tuna in to our Open Sea Cam and its playlist, swimming with mellow and cinematic instrumental beats to chase those blues away. (“I’m blue da ba dee da ba di” not included) 

Birb is the Worb (Aviary Cam)

Songbirds, meet shorebirds. We’ve got a delightful and light selection of instrumental sounds perfect for pairing with our Aviary Cam! 

You Otter Listen Up (Otter Cam)

Paws what you’re doing. This happy, upbeat instrumental playlist is the pawfect accompaniment fur your sea-cret Sea Otter Cam sessions (that’s what second monitors are for anyways, right?) 

Pengwinning Tunes (Penguin Cam)

Birds of a feather listen to this collection of whimsical instrumental tunes together. And watch the Penguin Cam with it. 

Take an Elasmobreak (Shark Cam)

And fin-ally! A collection of fintastic instrumental music to dive into while watching our Shark Cam!

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I wasn't enough when I was filled with kindness and compassion.

So tell me am I enough now that I'm bitter and filled with hate and anger?

I wasn't beautiful when I there was good in my heart.

Am I beautiful now that my heart is cold and callous?

I wanted to be good and kind. But you made me vengeful and cruel.

I wasn't always but you didn't see me when I was kind, when I was loving and sweet. When compassion was the reason for my actions.

But you see me now, now that I am cruel, cold and heartless. Now that fury drives me because there is nothing else left in me.

Now that my desire for revenge motivates me. Now that my hate is what keeps me warm.

Now I have your attention. Now you want to stop me, now you ask me why.

I'll tell you why.

I wasn't enough for you when I was good. When there was time enough, when I had humanity left in me I wasn't worth the time and energy. But now, now that I am a threat to you to those you love, now I'm worth it.

Now when its too late.

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Does anyone else spend every holiday crying ?

Or is that just how bad my depressions gotten lately?

Why does feeling alone when you're surrounded by people hurt more than when you're actually alone?

Does everyone else wonder if they'll ever be enough? Or feel like some terrible burden to the world?

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The whisper of a smile still touches my lips when I think of you

Your name still burns in the pit of heart

Yes I'm burying myself in the arms of another

Yes I've tangled myself up with others

Yes I've stopped reaching out to you

But no, no I haven't stopped thinking of you

Yes I've stopped talking about you

Yes I've lied about moving past you

He whispers he loves me

He tells me all the things I wanted to hear from you

He gives me all the things I wanted from you

But no, no he won't be mine either

Just like you, its effervescent, you see you walked away and left me empty and hollow. I let it simmer inside that coldness, that feeling consumed me.

He won't be mine because he's someone else's

Yes the man I ran to belongs to another woman but he tells me everything I need to hear

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I keep hoping I'll forget the way you smiled at me and how you looked at me all those times.

How you waved at me when you finally came back after training

I still think about how it felt to have you protect me.

How you looked at the backdoors smiling at me drinking me in with your eyes.

To date your picture still makes my heart flutter and race, and my lips still smile when I think about you, and my eyes fill with tears with knowing that I'll never forget you.

And that you won't ever think of me like I think of you and that kills me inside.

I used to pray you'd notice me, now I pray that I'll forget you.

I'm so scared to mention your name because no one would forgive me for still caring about you.

We were never more than friends but God did I care about you.

I will always pray for you and your happiness even if its at the cost of my heart. Love has no heart, it doesn't care who it burns along the way.

I was fine without you before we met and in time I can only pray that I'll be fine after you

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We've been jipped! Conned! Grifted!

All these years and we never asked for a prequel of Lilo and Stitch!

Hear me out:

Cobra Bubbles and the Councilwoman starring in the Roswell events.

I wanna know how Mr.Bubbles convinced aliens that mosquitoes are an endangered species.

Is no else curious about this??????

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Life has given me many blessings along with all my aches and pains

Maybe I forget to stop and count them sometimes

But when it matters most the world doesn't hesitate to remind me

For all the ones I've lost along the way the universe has conspired to give me exactly what I need when I need it

For all the ones who hurt me, in return, I am given someone that will hold me through thick and thin without hesitation.

It's those people who hold out a hand to help me up and then push me to be better, stronger and remind me how far I've come.

For those few who saw past the smiles and laughter and saw the pain and said "Come rest your weary soul here."

I hope they know that I will stand for you when you're legs are weak, and I will fight for you when you're at a loss, I will stand with you when what you need is an ally, and in front of you when you need to be protected. At all and any costs.

This is my family, the family I chose for myself.

The family I created when the one I was born into thrust upon my young shoulders more burdens than I was ready for and told me it was my responsibility to carry them.

Today I for you and tomorrow you for me.