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swearing off of pinterest and tumblr to avoid spoilers cause my friend recently got me into the omniscient reader’s viewpoint fandom and oh my god i’ve been put into another yet another chokehold

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And add the transmigrated readers too bc I miss them sm

Love the side stories but can we please have another spinoff with KimCom living in the big house with all five iterations of Kim Dokja

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So if Cheon Inho is Snowfield Dokja's father does that make him Lee Hakhyun's uncle

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[UPDATE]

Up to Episode 47 part 5 and by now we have:

lhh x 40yjh: What in the 'Your Name' by Ghibli Studio was that. Crazy af

dkos x 41yjh: THEY'RE SO FUNNY TOGETHER LMAO I think they can be besties

dkos: Yeah the other version of you killed me once

41yjh: why would I ever do such insane thing

dkos: that's how we flirt over there don't worry

Anyways, I can't wait for wol&d and 41yjh to interact (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)

[UPDATE]

Finished Episode 37 of ORV Side Story and this is the UPDATED craziness diagnosis for every joongdok combination:

kdj x yjh1864 : crazy

kdj x yjh1863 : crazy

kdj x sp : crazy

kdj x yjh999: besties

od x sp : very wholesome but crazy too

kdj51% x yjh0 : crazy

kdj49% x yjh1864 : very sad

lhh x yjh1864 : one sided unhinged craziness

dkos x yjh1864 : crazy

lhh x child amnesiac yjh: saddest thing ever wtf what was te reason (new)

lhh x yjh41: they are SO CRAZY FOR EACH OTHER AND SO IN LOVE AND SO WILLING TO GO THROUGH HELL AND BACK TOGETHER AND DIE TOGETHER AS LONG AS THEY DON'T LEAVE EACH OTHER'S SIDE THEY'RE SO THEY MAKE ME ILL I LOVE THEM 4149 FOREVER (new)

-Sleep🌵

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this website’s easy watch. *dangles a bunch of greek gods like keys*

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"If you see me being manipulated, cheated on, sabotaged, dominated, tortured and humilliated by a cocky scheming bastard on a trench coat who's gonna exploit me for their ulterior ethically questionable plans, leave me alone, I'm exactly where I want to be."

Read chapter 842 and this popped up into my mind so I had to do it.

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crazy how fanfic authors drop the most beautiful and gorgeous pieces of work ever, leaving you speechless and sobbing at three in the morning as you quietly contemplate the masterpiece you just read

and they don’t get paid for it they just do it because they’re having fun and they want to share their joy with you

like I would literally die for all of you fanfic authors out there reblog to swear your allegiance to fanfic authors

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it's salty

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ALNST FINAL ROUND META

(aka a major point of ALNST is love for others, actually) [ALNST Spoilers!!]

After watching and (being devastated by) the ALNST final round, I ended up being able to finalize some thoughts I’d had since first watching the beginning of the series. (If you are in the process of watching ALNST and/or haven’t seen the final round, do NOT click the keep reading - warning again that there are spoilers.)

With the final fates of Till and Luka, it really exemplifies the theme that single-minded focus on winning in a brutal system like this ensures you survive, but at what cost?

Although he won season 49 of ALNST (and now season 50), all Luka can do is prey on the affection his opponents (Mizi, Till) had for others who lost their rounds (Sua, Ivan) by mimicking their mannerisms. He's never going to escape the fucked up world of ALNST in any meaningful way since he destroyed what was meaningful to him (Hyuna, by way of likely killing her brother).

Those of the main cast who died (Sua, Ivan, Till), in contrast, cared more about one another than they really did surviving. (Mizi did, as well, but for the purposes of this meta, I’m going to focus on those three). Sua sacrificed herself for Mizi, not knowing if Mizi would survive for very long after her death, but she still wanted to give Mizi a little longer to live, because she loved Mizi. Sua even went so far as to try to hide the truth from Mizi about what ALNST actually was (and that the loser in each round would be killed) just to keep Mizi blissfully unaware. The same goes for Ivan. I'd actually argue even more so because whoever won their (semi-final) round would for sure go against Luka. And I also think Ivan knew (no matter who won) that they wouldn't win against Luka. I mean, everyone SAW how Luka messed with Mizi in round 5. But he loved Till and wanted him to survive, even if just a little bit longer.

Till, until he saw Mizi once again in this final round, didn’t really care about surviving (as round 6 proved, since he stopped singing in order to get eliminated). Even in the final round, his will was still depleted (and he was physically exhausted, since it was a few hours since round 6 considering that Hyuna is still injured) – one could argue he performed more to honor Ivan’s sacrifice and to grieve/remember them (as Luka immediately noticed when Till began to put more energy into singing). In the end, Sua, Ivan, and Till all died. But although it caused a lot of heartache, the love/affection the four had for each other didn't amount to nothing – it allowed at least one of them (Mizi) to finally be free of ALNST. (Yes, I think Mizi does manage to escape afterwards, due to the visual parallel between her grief in round 1 and now – except now, she no longer has a collar). With all that said, it’s no accident that, in the shot where Mizi is comforting Till in his last moments, Luka is visible...but he’s utterly alone. As the now-victor of two ALNST seasons, he casts a long shadow, but there's no one there for him anymore. Hyuna is not approaching him despite being on stage as well (and likely dying, based on her injury).

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They didn't have enough time or tools or guidance to cope with their emotions. How can you love right when nobody taught you what to do with these unhinged feelings inside your chest, when you never even knew what motherly or familial love was, when u never had anything but each other in this life and still didn't know what to do about it.

They failed so bad at communicating and understanding each other but the love was still there. Ugly, messy and painful.

And you can't even blame them.

They were trying.

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I'm barely coping with alnst round7 how do I even go back to normal after this?

They took my child away AGAIN

-Sleep🌵

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Hello! So, emm... the yaoi devil posessed me and I ended up writing 4149 porn :3

-Sleep🌵

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I feel the same way like since I finished orv my coping mecanism HAS BEEN Side Story. We not only get what we already had in orv there but we also get MORE. I mean Lee Hakhyun?? The transmigrated readers?? Heewon's backstory?? 41ST TURN YOO JOONGHYUK??

How can you be willingly missing out on Killer King like this lmaoo

And you start reading thinking oh well ig there's no kim dokja anymore and then you get BOMBED with like 5 different kim dokjas who are all their own insane versions of endearing and infuriating at the same time like, there is really no time for missing him

I need the fandom to discuss orv side story more, to make theories and analyze side characters and make fanarts and fanfics pls I'm on my knees

Im genuinely curious why people dont wanna read orv side story. Everyone who started it thinks its amazing, yet a big percentage of orv fans ignore it for some reason. Ive heard an explanation like 'there is no kim dokja' as in we dont see 100% kdj but thats not true. What you get in the side story is what you had. There were almost no changes. When you started reading kdj was already fragmented. He was never 100% from the beginning- his 100% self just haunts the narrative, as people say. The novel you read is an attempt so save him. Meanwhile in side story you get all those different flavours of kdj. Is there another reason? Are you afraid that the ending you dreamt of wasnt true? Well, rest assured, because hsy's plan did work. Are you scared the characters are different? Well, kimcom appears quite frequently I would say, especially in the middle, as well as other characters. Even OD and SP are there! Seriously, Im so curious!! Please tell me why you dont want to read it...

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[ORV Side Story]

Finally finished catching up with Side Story 😭😭😭 I've been trying to put my thoughts and review into a post but I ended up writing a +1k word essay... somebody help

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[ORV Side Story Ep38 Spoiler]

Jaehwan watching how the two guys he saved from imminent death take turns at fainting and the only thing the one who remains awake does is fight him over the other whether it be by arguing like an internet stan or naked deadly sparring:

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Realest thing ever. I think Hyuna is very conflicted by the fact that even after everything that happened and despite the resentment she still can't help feeling attracted to him.

She hates him for being the prettiest human alive and hates herself bc of how hot she thinks Luka is. Bc she shouldn't be feeling that. Bc Luka is (allegedly) responsible for her brother's death so how can she feel this intense thing towards the man who ruined her brother's life? But she also misses the cute little boy she used to play with. She also might be the only person who has seen Luka at his most vulnerable and real state. She wants to run away from her past and forget about both her brother and Luka. But she can't.

She hates that Luka rules over her almost as much as she rules over Luka's.

And I fear he might know that.

Some of you guys think that any possible feelings of attraction Hyuna may feel for Luka had to be crushed by whatever caused Hyunwoo's death, and are turned off by the idea Hyuna may love or be attracted to Luka after that.

But no me, I'm built different.

I actually think that a good dose of trauma, betrayal and deep mistrust makes the ship even sexier than it already is.