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Long personal rant (about learning to draw and life i guess?)

In December I started art classes- and it was truly a savior for my mental state! The teacher and people there are so lovely, the atmosphere is what I needed (especially after the awful aura at my workplace…). And it's a good motivator - that way I made at least one drawing or painting a week. Surprisingly I discovered that drawing with charcoal is very fun for me! But at the same time I thought painting with acrylic would be much easier for me but boy, oh boy did I struggle.  

Some weeks I really looked forward to Sundays and those classes, it has been the peak of my week. As I said, the vibes are what I need- we laughed a lot, we supported each other, the teacher was super chill and gave good advices (he really made sure we did understand his tips and critique). Also I learnt to chill out more while drawing- I am learning, this is just a practice and therefore it does not to be perfect, and I feel more  free to just try and make mistakes (because that’s how you learn! * that more like note from to to me* ). 

Last week we had our last classes and this weekend there will be an exhibition of our best works. My mom will come to visit, how sweet! 

But - side note- I will miss the pride parade because it's happening almost at the same time which makes me a little bit sad… But I wont complain about it now! 

What’s something that brings you joy during a week? Have you ever taken some classes like this?

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suzie toot keepsake fanzine

I got some hilarious and awesome photos while I saw Suzie perform, so I wanted to make a cool collage to relive the moment a bit!

Shoutout to my girlfriend for taking those last two wigless shots-she's a superstar and those shots are gold!!!

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wooblyghj

well damn, it's hard to argue with that

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Being consistent? Never heard of that… I'm so annoyed with myself lately, mostly because of fatigue. I'm sure many of you know the feeling of wanting to do something, thinking about it and planning it and then… you just can't. Maybe I should make a zine about it but writing is easier.

Another thing I'm sure many neurodivergent people are familiar with is thinking that you just need to find out the right system™.

I'm sure there is a way to deal with fatigue and executive dysfunction. I just need to find it, make some rules (and list! who doesn't love a good list!) and… it will probably work for a week or so and then I'll be back at it again, and by it I mean my flop era.

But then what? I don't wanna give up and do nothing my whole life. But then again what is "nothing"? My therapist told me that I'm too fixated on results and even trying or beginning a project counts as something. Idk how to end this post- maybe someone here has some recommendations on how to deal with such feelings?

I wrote this post last month(ish) and never posted it. And now that I’m reading it I think I’ll post about a very fun, zine related thing C: There is a zinster and a youtuber Catmothcrow and she recently made a video with a spreadsheet - roll for zine. Basically you roll for prompts and make a zine with what you got- amazing idea for when you don’t know what to do but want to do something! I will post my results soon so stay tuned ;)

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I don't know how people have energy to do so much stuff after work! I wish to be more active on social media but idk… Today I'm posting on instagram stories about how I made new cover for my LOTR book (pictures below) and I felt so silly doing that. Like, its nothing special, not some kind of grand project with spectacular effect. Just me cutting some magazines into tiny collages… And it's nothing wrong, like I trully enjoy process of making this arts and crafts stuff but now that I made a post about it I feel kinda stupid? "wow girl you are 28 years old who glues some shit togheter woo-fucking-whoo".

Maybe thats some sort of imposter syndrome? Or just general fear of people making fun of me? With is stupid bc my post get like 0 clout. Wich I know I would eventually get if I was more consistant with posting. Yes again I made a full circle!

So maybe the lesson there is just not getting in my head so much.

I had to vent a bit. Hope that next post will be about some project that I finally finish!

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I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety

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You won't like me when I'm psychoanalyzed, issue 1

My first, and for now, only wholly digital zine. Yet again I made it at work (can you tell how enthusiastic am I about my work place? lol). Anyway I made it when I wasn't feeling very well, as you can see. Honestly for almost half a year now I’m not doing so well- my anxiety got worse again. But it’s also different somehow? Like I haven’t even noticed how I have very little energy to do anything, then I looked back and it felt like I was rotting this whole time… As the zine says, I feel like I’m stuck in a vicious circle. But now it’s finally spring, days are longer, there is more sun and flowers begin to blossom and so does my spirit! I really am like a house plant- need lots of sun to thrive. Well, I do not thrive yet (will I ever?). But despite it all, I try to not give up. And I post this hoping it will motivate me to rise, to finally do all the stuff I wish to do. 

If you are reading this I hope you are doing well and I wish you the best! Share with me something that makes you happy or something fun you did recently (even a little thing). 

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or at least i’m trying to

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My instagram

Wow I finally posted something on instagram! I will try to be somewhat active there, I'm not great with social media tbh (like my non arts and crafts activity is limited to texting silly videos to like 3 people or my brother and posting some random photos once in blue moon). If you use instagram consider leaving a comment or a follow (why it feels so weird to say that..?). And yeah, that's it for today :)

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last year i played around with different zine formats/ways to get creative with page layout. this design resulted in two distinct halves around a center spine, so i thought it'd be fun to add in a 90º rotation as well.

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Make bad art!

This video was all i needed. I highly recommend giving it a watch if you feel like maybe your artworks aren't as good as others or you lost your motivation to create.

Generally it makes good points about creativity and need of making art C:

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I went to local event (I was so brave)

Today I was at comics event! I kinda had to force myself to go since, as I previously said, my anxiety got worst again. But I'm so happy that I went there!

There was A LOT of people selling their zines so I went a bit crazy with spending but oh my, what a bust of creativity <3

And surprise surprise people were actually nice, like really nice. I got compliments about my makeup and even chit chatted a bit with one artist about riso printing (and I bought her zine, there is a link to her instagram). Maybe I will do some zine review although most of them are not in english.

On (even) more personal note- I got "cozy" in my anxious state, kinda isolating myself and going out become scary for me- but I went and reminded myslef that people are generally nice. Like sure someone maaay pick at my look or something but mostly poeple are nice. And if you are also nice then it's very likely you will have some nice interactions. Even those small talks about riso or silly sticekers or other things made me feel better. Also the weather was so sunny, I saw many dogs and flowers outside so touching grass really do helps, hehe.

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lino prints!!!!! im gna do more in the future for sure i love doing these!!!! all are hand printed and hand carved by me <33 link

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I’m still a bit shy about sharing more personal zines so I will start with something silly - we get lots of junk mail at work. I hate my boss so I do not feel motivated to do my best all the time. Therefore I made this zine- we did not have glue so it's holding on bits of double sided tape. It's a bit wonky ( tbh I was hiding that I'm making it, lol) - but overall not bad? I’m trying to work on composition more, I don’t have that natural sense of what looks good (some people do it with such ease, wow!). 

whole spread~

idk, i think I like shis pages the most? C:

Do you like your job? Or maybe you did something silly you weren't supposed to during working hours? Please share with me <3 

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hey new followers and dog enjoyers

my old doggy doodles post is suddenly getting hella notes and lots of comments wishing the full set was still available (it was posted on twitter rip) so i've made it available to download on kofi and itch.io!

and here's some ones that didn't get posted on tumblr before, as a treat.

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I started making mini-zines again. This one is about all the things we carry, and what loot I'd drop if I was a small video game mob character ✨