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Steppingstone- ME

Your life would've been horrible if it weren't for me.

My life would have been perfect if it wasn't for you.

I do not wish we had not met, for it would mean I would not have helped a soul.

But I do wish it were different

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My bones are jelly

My skin taffy

My heart pumps sugar

My brain long rotten

Being sweet has its downsides

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"sentient symphony"

I started as a lonely horn

Blaring out into the world hearing nothing but echoes.

As I raised myself upright for the first time

A trumpet appeared by my side.

As I took my first steps,

A violin materialized next to me.

By my first day of school that lonely horn turned into a small posse of instruments.

Toiling day and night, shouting into the vast emptiness

As I aged more and more musicians joined my orchestra.

As I talk to my first love a bass joins in

Groaning deep into my chest.

As I have my first kiss, a small steady drumming joins the cacophony that is my soul

As I pet my dog for the last time

A tuba joins me playing a heavy note,

That note still hangs in the air to this day

And as I say goodbye to the woman I love

A flute appears, playing a tune that stabs into my heart, never to stop.

Every conversation I've have

Every person I meet

Every experience I endure

Another instrument joins the ever growing noise

We are all but orchestras playing the story of our lives

We are all but sentient symphonies.

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Art is the embodiment of heart and mind.

A picture made of your soul.

I had to stop “doing” the whole art thing.

Every story I write your face takes form upon the love interest.

Every poem ends up about you.

In every sketch I see the lines of your smile.

I can't paint without you in mind.

“I bet she'll like this one”

My art comes from my heart

And it's filled with memories of you.

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my soul is exhausted by the notion that there is hope, yet at the same time, my passion remains lit aflame.

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I have no recollection of finding this song, nor adding it to any playlists, yet, here it is, in my liked songs, helping me feel better in a dark time⁠♡

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I'm so tired

The muscles in my arms deteriorated to the point I can't move them.

My teeth rattle when I breath, barley held in my gums

My eyes grow heavy

My stomach drops

My head pounds your name

My heart beats for you

And the further away from you I grow

The slower it beats

I wish for the day it stops