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my dearest love (ao3) has befallen a great tragedy (is down for maintenance) so i must pine alone in my lonely tower (i could do something productive but i think not)

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i think we should stop calling them baby names so people remember they’re not just naming a baby but also a future twenty seven year old with a resume

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please let me pass fundamentals of pure maths 🙏

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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why is no one talking about black star by radiohead and sirius orion black?!?!

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i'm on a mission to prove every single conan gray song can be related to the marauders so...ahem,

Comfort Crowd: Sirius in Crimson Rivers when he came back from his first games and just needed James that bad.

Wish You Were Sober: Remus to Sirius, party in ATYD, their first kiss. “Kiss me in the seat of your rover, real sweet but I wish you were sober.” but make it “Kiss me on the stairs to the dorm, real sweet but I wish you were sober.” 

Maniac: Rosekiller. That’s it. It goes both ways. They have sex after the premise of the song.

Checkmate: Wolfstar during prank kind off. Like not completely. Not the whole cheating thing but yes to the, “Flirting with them but telling me your mine.” ATYD WOLFSTAR WHO? “Cuz I’ve gotten tired of the games that you play.” LIKE I SAID?

The Cut That Always Bleeds: Remus to Sirius during the prank slash before they get together in general. Like Remus’ perspective on it. “'cause if you're gonna leave, better leave, better do it fast, can't live a little longer, sitting on your lap, 'cause you know what you're doing, when you're coming back, and I don't want to have another heart attack.” AND “Say you love somebody new, and beat my heart, to black and blue, then they leave, and it's meyou come back to, to say you loved me all along and kissed the bruises 'til they're gone, bittersweet, 'cause I can't breathe, Inside your arms” AND BONUS “But even though you're killing me, I, I need you like the air I breathe, I need, I need you more than me, I need you more than anything, please, please”

Fight or Flight: excluding the cheating part the lyrics are Wolfstar. Remus: Well, fight or flight, I'd rather die, than have to cry in front of you. Sirius: Fight or flight, I'd rather lie, than tell you I'm in love with you.

Heather: Jegulus. Post break up. Heather = Lily.

Little League: James during the war reminiscing about when they were young.

Disaster: Sirius in Wolfstar in Modern aus when he’s just an anxious baby.

Best Friend: Sirius and James duh.

Astronomy: Jegulus. Like. Jegulus.

Yours: Honestly Conan wrote a song so depressing I can’t relate it to a marauders ship.

Jigsaw: Regulus. And me. And regulus.

Family Line: Do I need to go into detail babes? Sirius motherfucking Black y'all.

Summer Child: James motherfucking Potter

Memories: Jegulus. Oh so Jegulus.

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i think it explains a lot about me that i cried watching the wizards of waverly place movie when justin says "why would i help you?" and alex says "because you're my brother" and he says "im your brother?" since he's lost his memories and alex says "no no no justin please please you can't leave me here, please remember. im alex, im your little sister, i taunt you and i tease you and i make your life miserable, but you love me anyway. you're everything that ive ever wanted to be. im jealous of how—how smart you are, and how kind, and how nice. please don't leave me here" and justin looks at her in confusion, bc he doesn't know who she is, but still says "id never leave you"

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remus kinnie canon experiences

feeling like all your friends have much more fun with each other than with you

being relieved at accomplishments rather than feeling a sense of achievement

feeling like you're missing out when you're alone, but when with other people all you want is to be alone

anytime you say a bit too much you feel like you've overshared and should literally keep shut all the time

anytime someone laughs you immediately assume its about you or directed at you

you hate being humiliated in even the tiniest way

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remus kinnie canon experiences

feeling like all your friends have much more fun with each other than with you

being relieved at accomplishments rather than feeling a sense of achievement

feeling like you're missing when you're alone, but when with other people all you want is to be alone

anytime you say a bit too much you feel like you've overshared and should literally keep shut all the time

anytime someone laughs you immediately assume its about you or directed at you

you hate being humiliated in even the tiniest way

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remus kinnie canon experiences

feeling like all your friends have much more fun with each other than with you

being relieved at accomplishments rather than feeling a sense of achievement

feeling like you're missing out when you're alone, but when with other people all you want is to be alone

anytime you say a bit too much you feel like you've overshared and should literally keep shut all the time

anytime someone laughs you immediately assume its about you or directed at you

you hate being humiliated in even the tiniest way

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"what did students do before chatgpt?" well one time i forgot i had a history essay due at my 10am class the morning of so over the course of my 30 minute bus ride to school i awkwardly used by backpack as a desk, sped wrote the essay, and got an A on it.

six months later i re-read the essay prior to the final exam, went 'ohhhh yeah i remember this', got a question on that topic, and aced it.

point being that actually doing the work is how you learn the material and internalize it. ChatGPT can give you a short cut but it won't build you the the muscles.

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It’s sad how much of what is taught in school is useless to over 99% of the population.

There are literally math concepts taught in high school and middle school that are only used in extremely specialized fields or that are even so outdated they aren’t used anymore!

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we simply must zingat through it all

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Friendly Advice

Decide your major early. And don't tell anyone about it. At least not your teachers or people who will change your mind. It's application week here, and I was close to banging my head against the wall. It's not supposed to be difficult until you make it difficult. So, do what you wanna do. You do know it. You just need to shut off the noise that keeps telling you what you "have" to do.

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I like when the bus stops directly in front of you out of the line of waiting people and opens its doors. Chosen by the dragon

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need to stop thinking so I'm gonna immerse myself in Damon Dominique video Ivy Dominique and Enzo Dominique I was nodding my head like yes

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the way that I try to be so artsy and cool but the reality is that i’m just a fucking loser

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Dunsapie Loch, Holyrood Park, Edinburgh

15.05.25