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[shitshithh]

t i really need help today its been haerd for everyone but i jsut need to be kindly talked through getting food especially and everyone seems imedaitley hostile im not trying to start  afihgt i just want help and I hit my head again and then mydad hit my thigh after grabbign me and I dont know i dont know i know i couldve handled it differently before it even got to that and evryone is havign a really hard day too so i should stop askign anythign espeialy stupid wierd vaue shit like that and idk idk idk idk they talked to me after its okayy im mosrly jsut upset bc i worry about how when I get really reaaly overhwelminfly upsrt hittinf my head effects my brian or htiting my arms effects my already shit circulation and I feel like when i get to that point theres jsut energy and guilt in me and i dont contorl myself very well i dont feel every here already and really im the biggest threat to msyelf rn I hit myself and leave marsk etc noone else and thats why anyone elseeven ever got phsyical or hatever idk idkidkidkidkidkidk sorry this is bad I just need to eat frfr im so hungry i wish takign care of myself was easier h