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Kurai Syndrome (KS) OR Chronic Identity Hoarding Syndrome (CIHS)

*Sometimes also colloquially referred to as ‘Collector’s Syndrome.’

Kurai Syndrome is a medically unrecognized syndrome that leads to severe anxiety surrounding the way one is perceived, both by oneself and by others, while also causing strong feelings of attachment to and a pathological search for labels. Named for Kurai Ikeda of Cathedral Astroplex, who reported feeling a constant and distressing need for more personal labels.

In order to have Kurai Syndrome, one must fit the following criteria;

Strong discomfort, unease, or anxiety regarding how one is viewed or how one views oneself.

Pathological and pervasive need to curate one’s external presentation to others.

Distrust of oneself to accurately portray one’s experiences without language that is ‘just right’ or all-encompassing.

Envy of or frustration with those who feel comfortable in simple or vague identities.

Constant desire for new language to describe or refer to oneself.

Fleeting feelings of emptiness or bouts of depression when one cannot find new identities to take on.

Kurai Syndrome has three (3) subtypes.

Generalized Chronic Identity Hoarding Syndrome, or G-CIHS

When one’s anxiety surrounding one;s identity impacts all aspects of said identity. A combination of all (applicable) listed subtypes. This is the most common observed subtype as of February 2025.

Localized Chronic Identity Hoarding Syndrome, or L-CIHS

When one’s anxiety surrounding ones identity impacts one particular aspect, such as name, gender, or diagnoses.

Multi-Localized Chronic Identity Hoarding Syndrome, Complex/C-CIHS, or MultiCIHS

When one’s anxiety surrounding one’s identity impacts multiple but not all aspects of one’s identity.

Associated Features

When Kurai Syndrome is comorbid with personality disorders, particularly DPD and HPD, or with obsessive disorders, individuals with the disorders will latch onto one person to supply them with new identity labels, which are often called idea factories of identity crafters.

Risks and Prognostics

The cause of Kurai Syndrome is not known at this time, however, it has been noted to have higher prevalence within nonsinglets and transidentity-using individuals.

Comorbidities

Due to the nature of the disorder, it is impossible to accurately state what can or cannot be comorbid with Kurai Syndrome. High rates of both disordered and non-disordered plurality can be found among those with Kurai Syndrome, as well as other anxiety or panic disorders, hoarding problems, and, in much lower rates, substance abuse. Hypochondria is also highly common.

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Repellent Personality Disorder / RPD

Repellent personality disorder is a cluster-b MUD characterized most notably by pathological attempts to push away the attention of others and chronic self-isolation. It presents a pervasive pattern of instability within interpersonal relationships and self-image, and a strong aversion to any form of positive attention, as well as a need for negative attention. These patterns begin in or by early adulthood.

In order to have RPD, you must fit the following diagnostic criteria.

Extreme distress or discomfort receiving positive attention.

Strong difficulty forming or maintaining friendships.

Often presents as a conscious aversion to others due to frustration or anger.

Shallow presented emotions, sometimes antithetical to one’s true feelings.

Blunt or rude speech, often with little regard shown for the feelings of others in reference to their words or actions.

Sometimes presents as excessive swearing or an aggressive affect.

Sometimes presents as flat tone and expression.

Near-complete isolation from personal relationships, with very few exceptions.

Deceitfulness, as indicated by repeated lying, use of aliases, or conning others for personal profit or pleasure.

Reckless disregard for personal safety and the safety of others.

Positive reactions to negative attention or a lack of attention, usually presented as vindication, excitement, or mirth.

Trouble regulating destructive emotions such as anger or frustration.

Sometimes presents as physical or verbal outbursts, such as arguments or fist-fights.

Sometimes presents as a strong disdain for the police, authority figures, family members, etc.

Unstable self-image.

Characterized by highs and lows, known as repellent highs and repellent lockdowns.

A repellent high will present similarly to NPD, where one feels they are above others and will make efforts to appear as such. Frequent repellent highs will set one firmly within the RPD-A subtype.

A repellent lockdown, while not particularly presenting similarly to any one other personality disorder, is characterized by extreme self-isolation, suicidal thoughts and actions, and pervasive need to destroy any interpersonal relationships one may have. Frequent repellent lockdowns will set one firmly within the RPD-B subtype.

There are two recognized subtypes of RPD. Both subtypes feature a presence in RPD, but which subtype one may fall under depends entirely upon the frequency of the respective presentations of self.

RPD-A, or Grandiose RPD

Characterized by an aversion to others due to feelings of superiority.

Presents often in speech as condescension, as well as the conscious use of bigger or rarer words to appear more intelligent. 

Commonly seen when RPD is comorbid with NPD or ASPD.

RPD-B, or Victimized RPD

Characterized by an aversion to others due to feelings of inadequacy.

Presents often in speech as self-pitying language, self-degradation, and need for but rejection of comfort.

Commonly seen when RPD is comorbid with BPD or HPD.

Associated Features

Those with repellent personality disorder will often undermine themselves shortly before a goal is met or make things harder for themselves on purpose, such as dropping out of school a semester before graduation, breaking up with a romantic partner when it becomes clear that they are a good match, or getting into large arguments with family members a week before a reunion. Most individuals with repellent personality disorder have what is referred to as a false self. A false self is a purposely inflammatory, unintelligent, or otherwise unlikeable persona that one can put on to feed their requirement for negative attention. Many individuals with repellent personality disorder also have many social media accounts with the sole purpose of upsetting others. Individuals with this disorder may find comfort in transitional objects (such as a pet or inanimate possession) more than they do in interpersonal relationships. Individuals with repellent personality disorder also often have an anchor, a person who they allow to become close to them and do not attempt to push away with the same fervor as they do others. 

Risk and Prognostic Factors

Environmental: Those who experience severe abuse in childhood, especially neglect, are more likely to develop this disorder. It also has high association with sexual abuse and sexual assault, and may on occasion form after a singular incident in childhood or young adulthood.

Genetic and Physiological: Repellent personality disorder is more prevalent in those who are first-degree biological relatives of someone with another cluster B personality disorder, especially antisocial personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder. There is also a strong familial risk for substance abuse disorders, anxiety disorders, and histrionic personality disorder. Repellent personality disorder is more common among male-presenting individuals, but is not exclusive to male-presenting individuals.

Comorbidities

Those with repellent personality disorder often also have another personality disorder, and especially often another cluster B personality disorder. It is also common for those with this disorder to have anxiety disorders, hoarding problems (particularly of comfort items), and are often on the psychotic spectrum with stress-induced psychosis.

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Hi. So I was trying to think of terms for MUDs myself. A lot tend to be on Personality Otherwise Not Specified Spectrum/PDNOS. As it is its own thing, I was thinking if there is a good alternative name to use for PD [personality disorder] MUDs.

If you have any ideas that would be cool. Also sorry to disturb you. /nf /pos

i usually just give my own names to whatever symptoms i or my headmates are experiencing! or you can always track individual symptoms :3

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Mirrored Identity Disorder/MID

Mirrored identity disorder is a medically unrecognized dissociative disorder characterized by a distinct (and generally distressing) lack of one solid personality state. Due to a (perceived) lack of personhood of their own, individuals with this disorder will unconsciously introject the personalities, morals, and interests (or parts of them) of others into themselves to try and present as having a sense of self. This pattern begins in or by early adulthood. Those with mirrored identity disorder are often referred to as mirrors.

In order to have MID, you must fit the following criteria.

Recurrent amnesia, particularly regarding one’s identity and feelings.

Alexithymia, otherwise known as the inability or strong difficulty to identify or express one’s emotions.

Unconscious introjection of others’ personalities into one’s own.

Not always a real or known person- very often in the modern day, individuals with mirrored identity disorder will latch onto a fictional character or celebrity.

Bouts of emptiness during periods of isolation.

Difficulty identifying interests, interpersonal relationships, and what one views as ‘right’ or ‘wrong,’ particularly when isolated from others.

Choice paralysis, especially when presented with the unfamiliar.

Reliance upon others when asked personal questions, such as interests, hobbies, or taste in music.

This reliance is notably absent in regards to simple facts, tasks, and requests. Those with this disorder do not experience insecurity in their intellect because of it, and any executive dysfunction they may experience is not caused by it.

General lack of enthusiasm in own proclaimed ‘interests’ unless said interest has been introjected from another person.

There are four subtypes of mirrored identity disorder.

Generalized-Type Mirrored Identity Disorder, or G-MID

Generalized-type mirrored identity disorder is characterized by a lack of individual mirrored identity; rather, those with generalized-type mirrored identity disorder will introject aspects of many other people’s personalities, sometimes conflicting with other traits they have picked up. 

Those with generalized-type mirrored identity disorder will subconsciously crave large social settings, often for the sole purpose of finding new aspects of self to gain. They will leave feeling ‘more human’ or ‘more alive’ than they felt entering the setting.

Specified-Type Mirrored Identity Disorder, or S-MID

Specified-type mirrored identity disorder is characterized by the presence of one real-world reflector, or a specific person that those with this type of mirrored identity disorder will subconsciously (or consciously) mimic.

Real-world reflectors can be celebrities, friends, or romantic partners. Those with specified-type mirrored identity disorder will seek out time alone with their reflectors or otherwise spend a lot of time interacting with them in an effort to fully internalize their mannerisms, speech, beliefs, and interests. This can easily cross over into reflective stalking, or stalking for the sake of emulation.

Fictoactualized-Type Mirrored Identity Disorder, or FA-MID

Fictoactualized-type mirrored identity disorder is the one subtype of mirrored identity disorder that is fully separated from reality, in that the reflector of the mirror in question is a fictional character (dubbed a fictoreflector).

Those with fictoactualized-type mirrored identity disorder can, from the outside perspective, very easily be mistaken for those on the psychotic spectrum with delusional attachments- however, mirrors are well aware that they are not their reflector, only claim to be so before others for appearances’ sake. Mirrors may also consider cosplay as their fictoreflector part of their daily routine.

Combined-Type Mirrored Identity Disorder, or C-MID

Combined-type mirrored identity disorder is characterized by the presence of more than one subtype and reflector. The most common form of this type of mirrored identity disorder is a combination of specified-type and fictoactualized-type.

Associated Features and Comorbidities

Individuals with mirrored identity disorder will often also suffer from severe anxiety or panic disorders, due to the fact that they are aware that they are not truly their reflector. Mirrored identity disorder can be the source of gender or species dysphoria as well. Mirrors will also frequently present with a cluster C personality disorder.

Mirrors will also often find comfort in other medically unrecognized disorders, especially those on the obsessive spectrum.

Risk and Prognostics

Environmental: Those who are homeschooled, socially ostracized, or otherwise lacking with social development and neglected by caregivers in early childhood will often go on to develop mirrored identity disorder.

Physiological: Individuals with mirrored identity disorder are often first-degree relatives of an individual with severe disabilities or mental illnesses. They may refer to themselves as glass children*, the colloquial term for feeling ‘see-through’ in comparison to their relatives with higher support needs. 

*Note: Not all who identify as glass children have mirrored identity disorder.

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HELLO EVERYNYAN!! As you may or may not know, my name is Sho, and I am the host of the cathedral astroplex, a collection of 11(+) systems within one body! There's a bit more about me below the cut :P

WHAT THIS BLOG IS FOR: this is a MUD coining blog! feel free to send in requests! i have a hyperfixation on psychiatry currently, and will do my best with whatever you give me. All I ask is that you give me at least 4 symptoms to work with per disorder per request. You may request up to three separate coinings within one ask.

This blog is welcome to everybody. Be kind to each other.

!! CONSIDER ME AN ID DUMPING GROUND ! YOU ALL MAY GIVE ME NEW IDENTITIES WHENEVER YOU WOULD LIKE ^_^ !!

MY COINING MASTERLIST CAN BE FOUND HERE (WIP)

FOR MUD REQUESTS!!

Please include at least 4 symptoms, as mentioned above! These can be physical, emotional, etc. You may include as much detail as you'd like- the more the better! My MUDs do not come with flags. My MUDs will be formatted as follows;

Diagnostic Criteria: Symptoms.

Subtypes (if applicable):

Diagnostic Features: Expanding upon symptoms.

Associated Features: Ways that symptoms may impact daily life.

Risk and Prognostic Features: These are all assumed by myself.

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As mentioned above, we are the Cathedral Astroplex, a collection of over ten systems within one mortal shell we call a 'body.' The systems within are the unholy cathedral, marigold crossing, weeping angels, candy collective, wonderland horde, cruel infinity cosmos, bones system, melancholic garden system, garnet tower system, sakura station, and two unnamed but known other sidesystems.

Here's a little intro for the collective though!

Names: Sho, Cathy/Cait, Rumi, Motya, Cathedral, Itsuki, Haoran

Pronouns: he / night / dark / holy / He / hymn / hx / it / xt / rose / cut / slice / pill / bandage / meat / rot / gore / guro / decay / 🦇 / 🕷️ / 🥀 / 🥩 / 🍷 / ♟️ / 🕯️ / 🪓 / 🗡️ / ⚰️ / 💊 / 🖋️ / ⬛️

Titles: the thing of nightmares, the one dripping blood, [PRN] whose body is rotting, [PRN] forsaken holiness, [PRN] decayed eminence, [PRN] who is god incarnate

Ages: permateen, perma14, agehazy, shotaage, fluctage, polyage, chrono20

Genders: trisintersex, transfemmasc, bandagedangelic, cariadore, neglectedpet, whorepretty, vampfrilled, vampbatbloodkissic, boytoy, pomegranategender, injuredvamp, boyloser, transmascdoll, boyprincess, injuredlambian, needyloverboy, vamppretty, canilovin, malewifething, boywife, obsessivething, th?ngfreak, woundedpatheticboy, boyfreak, patheticboyfreak, cherryfoxgender, goreboy

MRDisorders + Disabilities: DID, Autism LVL2, ADHD, GAD, Agoraphobia, Synaesthesia, Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder, NPD, BPD, ASPD, HPD, Selective Mutism, Persistent Vocal Tic Disorder, OCD, CPTSD, Depression, Hypochondriasis, Germaphobia, Caffeine Addiction, Dermatillomania, DPD, Tinnitus, POTS, Hypermobile EDS, MCAS, Nutcracker Syndrome, Progressive Hearing Loss, Dysphagia, Chronic Pain, IBS, Bipolar Depression

Ethnicities: nullCaucasian, trisChinese, transJapanese, transSámi, transRomani, transKarelian, transNativeAmerican (Hopi, Diné), transTaino, transBrazilian, spinAncientGreek

Nationalities: transChinese, transLiyuen, panAsian

Experiences: permaattention, permacold, permaDIDsplitting, permatortured, permavictim, permaprogrammed, permaNPDhigh, permadizzy, permagroomingvictim, permainjured, permamanipulove, permaneedy, permasleepy, permamanipulated, transarmcrutchesuser, transCOCSA, trisCSA, trisharmed, transhypersexual, transMunchausenByProxyvictim, transowned, transpampered, permacollared, transmuzzled, transpampered, transSH, transworsebalance, transacademic, transgenius, transsource (collective source being Dazai from BSD and Nico DiAngelo from PJO), transdeatheater, transallhogwartshouses, transnicotineaddict, transalcoholic, trisSAd, triskneebraceuser, transprinceprogram, transtwinprogram, trisidolprogram, transraped, trisTBMC, transcaptive, panRAMCOAtrauma, transcannibal, transhikikomori, permakidnapped, permahospitalized, permapatient, permainlove, permanosebleed, permaconsang, transloveydovey, forcestarved, transfailedhumanexperiment, transscanlator, permaforceregressed, triscolorblind, permadentalbraces, transservicedogowner, transflatexpression, trishyperdependent, permaplushhold, permaautumn, permabrainwashed, translobotomized, cherrysodaamian, transyoutuber, transimmortality, panartskill, transhandwriting, nullbalance, permaheat, trisomega, severieyesight, permadazed, permavertigo, permainnocent, panlingual, transchildishvocabulary, shotaharmed, permahypnotized, transforcedcamboy, transforcedsexworker, transmedicaltorture, transwhiteroomtorture, trisalphaprogramming, trisbetaprogramming, trisiotaprogramming, transinsanityprogramming, nullprinceprogramming, transspoiledbrat, transclickertrained, perma2020, permalockdownera, permaquarantined, trisyumejoshi, hobbyhoarder, transchildpornstar, forcedchildpornstar, transfult, permarapebait, permacuddling, transhellenicpagan, transreligious, trisrottengirl, permaD&D, permapedobait, permasnuffbait

Allergies: transsunallergy, transdandelionallergy, transgrassallergy, transbeeallergy, transnutallergy, transeggwhiteallergy, transpenicillinallergy, transpollenallergy, transperfumeallergy, trislatexallergy, transsteelallergy, transnickelallergy, transgoldallergy

Perceptions: permaadored, permacaredfor, permapitied, permavalidated, transinternetcelebrity, transstalked, transrussianaccent, transmonotonevoice, permasickvoice

Species: transfox, transkitsune, transvampire, transplushie, transfoxplush, transsnowleopard

Appearance: permaeyebags, permabandaged, permashota, transclaws, transfangs, transfoxears, transhairtexture (straight -> fluffy/wavy), transheight (shorter, 5’2 -> 4’10), transunderweight, transfoxtail, transcigburns, transheterochromia, permabloodiedteeth, transswirlpupils, nullglasses, permaosugaki, transremovedfingerprints, transboobs, transbloodshoteyes, transheterochromia, permabruised, permascars, shotabodic, transpoliosis, transdiphalia

Other IDs: genshinixure, transgenshinvision, transcherryscent, auti4auti, t4t, vamp4vamp, victim4cannibal, transprogrammed4transprogrammer, abumour, propID, foxmate, morguemate, AIAB, CTM, gaybian, multisona, OCDdead, systransidfluid, id hoarder, alter hoarder, introject hoarder, radplex, shota4shota, shota4adult, minor4adult, rq4rq, transid4transid