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When a Character Is Grieving Someone They Never Got to Say Goodbye To

✧ They talk about the person in past tense… then correct themselves. Then stop talking entirely.

✧ They touch things that belonged to the person like they’re fragile, sacred, about to disappear.

✧ They hoard the last voicemail, last message, last anything. Play it. Don’t play it. Just knowing it exists hurts enough.

✧ They leave something untouched, an empty seat, a half-packed bag, a coffee order that isn’t theirs.

✧ They get irrationally angry when someone else seems to be “moving on.” As if forgetting is betrayal.

✧ They don’t let themselves cry all at once. It comes in pieces. Like they’re afraid too much grief will drown them.

✧ They over-apologize. For being quiet. For being distant. For not being okay.

✧ They become hyper-aware of time, dates, anniversaries, time zones, the exact moment everything ended.

✧ They get superstitious. Ritualistic. As if doing things "right" might reverse something.

✧ They smile when they talk about the person. But it’s brittle. And it never quite touches their eyes.

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Brooklyn Nine-Nine (2013 - 2021) I 2.20

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Thank you @iii-of-ender and everyone who got me to 10 reblogs!

GHEFTRC GUHH GLAD YOU LIKED IT EN!!

Stargazing Skies

A/N: woah okay! here we go, first story! feedback is always appreciated, uh, hope you enjoy. I don't know what else to say. Story under cut !👍

It was a calm, clear night, with no clouds in the sky. Perfect for stargazing, so that’s exactly what Clementine and Aster did. They had set up a small picnic earlier in the day and were currently using the blanket to shield their bodies from the harsh, cold ground. It was mostly Aster pointing out different constellations and their stories. Clementine had heard them a million times before but as long as it was Aster telling her then she didn’t mind at all. It had started to get a bit chilly out, not so much that they were uncomfortable, but they did huddle together a bit more.

“That one there,” Aster gestures to a small cluster of stars in a bit of a wonky cross formation, “That’s Cygnus. Orpheus, son of Calliope and master of the lyre, fell in love with Eurydice, a tree nymph. On their wedding day though, she got bit by a snake, and Orpheus was widowed the same day he was married. He traveled all the way to the Underworld, and passed Cerberus by playing the lyre. He traveled to the throne of Hades and Persephone, both of them sobbing due to his song. The tune had touched the god of death’s heart so much, that he let Eurydice follow him back out of the Underworld, but he could not look back at her until the both made it out. He managed making the whole trip without looking, actually, but he made the mistake of looking back as soon as the warm sun engulfed him, and not his wife. She had been sent back, and when he died eventually, he couldn’t see her even then. He cried out, the wails reaching Apollo, who turned him into a swan and placed him and his lyre, it’s to the west right there, the like weird hourglass right there, anyways, Apollo placed him and the lyre in the sky to live on.” Aster rambled on, their face lit up, they knew a lot about the stars and loved to recite the stories they had memorized so young.

Clementine loved to watch and hear them ramble on about astronomy. It didn’t take too long for Aster to notice her staring, she looked at them as if they were the one to place every single one of the stars they loved so much in the sky. They said nothing though, only staring back.

After a few minutes, Clementine breaks the silence. “Hey, Azzie, did you know that the brain lives on for about seven minutes after death?” Clementine asked, still staring at Aster, but they both had shifted to a more comfortable position, Aster's head against Clementines chest, her hands idly braiding the lilac locks. “No, I didn’t know that, that’s pretty cool. I wonder what it’s doing during that time.” Aster replies, looking up slightly, but quickly looking back at Clementine, who responds, “A lot of people say that it replays the person's best memories in life.” Aster hummed in acknowledgment, thinking about it for a minute, before answering “That’s a pretty interesting thing to think about, isn’t it?” Clementine just nodded, and they sat in comfortable silence for a while, before Clementine interrupted it by saying, “You would be in all of my seven minutes.” Aster doesn’t say anything for several seconds, caught off guard a bit, but finally responds with a simple, “You would be in mine.”

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Stargazing Skies

A/N: woah okay! here we go, first story! feedback is always appreciated, uh, hope you enjoy. I don't know what else to say. Story under cut !👍

It was a calm, clear night, with no clouds in the sky. Perfect for stargazing, so that’s exactly what Clementine and Aster did. They had set up a small picnic earlier in the day and were currently using the blanket to shield their bodies from the harsh, cold ground. It was mostly Aster pointing out different constellations and their stories. Clementine had heard them a million times before but as long as it was Aster telling her then she didn’t mind at all. It had started to get a bit chilly out, not so much that they were uncomfortable, but they did huddle together a bit more.

“That one there,” Aster gestures to a small cluster of stars in a bit of a wonky cross formation, “That’s Cygnus. Orpheus, son of Calliope and master of the lyre, fell in love with Eurydice, a tree nymph. On their wedding day though, she got bit by a snake, and Orpheus was widowed the same day he was married. He traveled all the way to the Underworld, and passed Cerberus by playing the lyre. He traveled to the throne of Hades and Persephone, both of them sobbing due to his song. The tune had touched the god of death’s heart so much, that he let Eurydice follow him back out of the Underworld, but he could not look back at her until the both made it out. He managed making the whole trip without looking, actually, but he made the mistake of looking back as soon as the warm sun engulfed him, and not his wife. She had been sent back, and when he died eventually, he couldn’t see her even then. He cried out, the wails reaching Apollo, who turned him into a swan and placed him and his lyre, it’s to the west right there, the like weird hourglass right there, anyways, Apollo placed him and the lyre in the sky to live on.” Aster rambled on, their face lit up, they knew a lot about the stars and loved to recite the stories they had memorized so young.

Clementine loved to watch and hear them ramble on about astronomy. It didn’t take too long for Aster to notice her staring, she looked at them as if they were the one to place every single one of the stars they loved so much in the sky. They said nothing though, only staring back.

After a few minutes, Clementine breaks the silence. “Hey, Azzie, did you know that the brain lives on for about seven minutes after death?” Clementine asked, still staring at Aster, but they both had shifted to a more comfortable position, Aster's head against Clementines chest, her hands idly braiding the lilac locks. “No, I didn’t know that, that’s pretty cool. I wonder what it’s doing during that time.” Aster replies, looking up slightly, but quickly looking back at Clementine, who responds, “A lot of people say that it replays the person's best memories in life.” Aster hummed in acknowledgment, thinking about it for a minute, before answering “That’s a pretty interesting thing to think about, isn’t it?” Clementine just nodded, and they sat in comfortable silence for a while, before Clementine interrupted it by saying, “You would be in all of my seven minutes.” Aster doesn’t say anything for several seconds, caught off guard a bit, but finally responds with a simple, “You would be in mine.”

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Do you have a "favourite" physical trait to give to your OCs? If so, what is it?

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staring at my ocs. do i give you trauma or yuri

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Not knowing who you are and not wanting to find out in fear of losing people all by yourself, beautiful?

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thinking about this

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hey do you wanna go to the park and sit on the swings and look at the moon together

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which oc knows nothing about cooking?

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why do i make my characters suffer so much?

because i’m the writer and i can.

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big door. . . . .

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You know when

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Nova btw :3333

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when your ocs have fans it's always like

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Jasper/Orion bad ending to Never Love an Anchor - The Crane Wives

Yippee! This is gonna be fun! First encounter with the full song I think, so a few things might be off or weird, doesn't help that I'm tired gndhdh (definitely off from the original meaning, which is about a parent and child.)

"On some level I think I always understood that these hands of mine were clumsy, not clever. And I tried to do the best that I could, but try as I might, I couldn't bring myself to hold you." - Jasper and his attachment issues, they always thought that his hands were clever in a way, as they've always been good with technology and stuff, but when it comes to people and loving others, they freeze, his hands suddenly aren't as steady as they are when placing delicate chips in specific spots.

"It's a secret I keep tucked inside my chest, with this heart of mine that's guilty not remorseful." - Jasper feels guilty about lying about being human, sure, but they don't think they did anything wrong by it, he doesn't regret it, if that makes any sense.

"There is love that doesn't have a place to rest, but it would have buried you if it had settled on on your shoulders." - Jasper chokes up when it comes to love (and really emotions in general actually), especially now, but when they're able to express his love outwardly and comfortably, they love big. There has to be a better word for that but I am tired.

"On some level I think I always understood, that a ship could never really love an anchor." - HEAR ME OUT. Jasper being the ship, Orion being the anchor. Jasper is bound to leave at some point, but Orion won't be leaving with him. Jasper will set sail back to Rana, while Orion is staying anchored where he's always been on Earth. (I KNOW TECHNICALLY SHIPS BRING THEIR ANCHORS UP BUT THE SONG TALKS ABOUT CUTTING THE ANCHOR AWAY AND MY SYMBOLISM DOESN'T WORK WITH HAT SO SHHHHHHHHH /sill)

"So I did the only thing I could, and severed the rope to set you sailing from my harbor." - Orion letting Jasper go, despite how much he wants them to stay, he knows that Jasper would never be happy like that (or would they -rock face- /sill) and he knows that he would never be happy to leave the farm, especially to go to some new planet where he might not even be able to live, metaphorically and literally. So he does the only thing he could do, and lets them go.

"There are times when I still wonder about you, you are someone I loved but never known." - Orion still thinking about them months, maybe even years down the line. I mean, if you found out someone you loved wasn't even from the same planet as you, you'd probably be a bit skeptical about what else you know of them, right? He feels like he never truly knew Jasper, that his whole personality could've been a lie just to fit into the society he was forced into better. He loved them anyways, wanted to get to know them if it was a lie, but he didn't get that.

"And you'll never see the reasons I had for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you." - Jasper sheathing his 'claws' or, in this case, identity, because he feels like they [his family/species] would (and probably actually could, if they ever came back for them first.) hurt him if they found out a human knew they existed, let alone have a relationship (friendship or otherwise) with one of their own.

"I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel. I am all the things they might have said to you." - This could be taken two ways, from Jaspers perspective, he's selfish for leaving Orion, they're broken for their weird feelings around emotions, especially love, they're cruel for not even being able to give Orion the proper goodbye he deserved. Also like idk if anyone else had this experience but my mom and other adult figures would always make jokes and stuff about aliens and while my experience wasn't about them being necessarily bad, I know that some others I knew were scared of the idea of aliens thinking they were, so just that really, and I think an alien species just outside of Earth's solar system (especially one that sometimes visits Earth) would learn about humans the same. From Orion's perspective, he's selfish for wanting Jasper to stay with him, he's broken for still being caught up on them months later, he's cruel for letting Jasper leave, letting them go back to the same people who had abandoned him.

"Do you ever think of me and my two hands, and wonder why they never soothed your fevers, and wonder why they never ties your shoes, and why they never held you gently, and wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?" - Just them yearning for a life together really, they'd be the kinds to want a simple domestic lifestyle, but haha they don't get thattt <333

ANYWAYSSS like I said things might be off for many reasons, maybe I'll update it one day when they're a bit more developed and I am not very tired and I have more experience with the song who knows this is what's there for now! Uh enjoy! Or don't!