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From Hell to Heaven Chapter 11 - Bad and Good News

A few days after his talk with Lily, Severus was standing in the shower, hot water pounding on his body. He felt much better since he had confessed to Lily the things that had been burdening him for so long. He had wanted to talk with her from the beginning but had been too ashamed and afraid that she would find him disgusting and would leave him. Yet once again, Lily had proved to be the kindest and most understanding person he knew. She had listened to him and explained everything the best she could. He was so relieved to learn that nothing that had happened to him had been his fault, that it had been his body’s natural reactions over which he had had no control.  

He took the soap and lathered it over his body. He was still too thin, with bony arms and legs, and ribs still visible under his pale skin, though a few weeks of a proper diet at Hogwarts had him no longer looking emaciated. He was sure that with time he would reach adequate weight for his age. What worried him more was his height. He was the shortest Slytherin boy in his year, and only barely taller than Lily. He had read in Mary’s book that boys could grow until the age of twenty, and he hoped that he still had time to catch up, though he would probably never be as tall as his father, not after years of malnourishment, especially during his early childhood.  

From Hell to Heaven - Chapter 11 - Sigrun23 - Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling [Archive of Our Own]

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Make the strongest female Professor, who was a positive role model for every girl at school and has no mentioned skin color in canon black?

HBO: NAH.

Make the headmaster of Hogwarts, the only one Voldy ever feared, one of the greatest wizards of his time, who also has no mentioned skin color in canon black?

HBO: NAH.

Make the poor boy who grew up in poverty with an abusive father and turned to a gang to escape that world and is explicitly mentioned to be white in canon black?

HBO: Yes! YEEEEEESSSSSSSS! Yes! Woo-hoo! We did it! Diversity points for everybody! YYYYEESSSS!

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Little smooch

- for good start of the week.

(It's always weird to draw Snape with a smile.)

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been wanting to draw for this fic for forever 💗 looove werewolf severus, underrated AU for sure

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babies and some extra sketches :)

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I've always been bothered by the analysis that Lily didn't care about Severus. Not only because I love their friendship and ship them together, and also because I think it cheapens the relationship as a whole and makes things fall a bit flat. I do understand where people are coming from tho. She does defend James to him, and is implied to be physically attracted to him even while being friends with Severus (I disagree with her already having a full blown crush, but I do think she found him handsome), also she's pretty emotionless when he's trying to apologize, which leads people to believe she was only looking for an excuse to ditch him. Which I strongly disagree.

First off, I don't think they would've lasted that long if she didn't love him a lot (as a friend or as a crush that's your pick). Their friendship lasted 6 years, and JKR confirmed that a huge motivation for James, personally, bullying Severus was jealousy she felt of Lily's attention and affection, he saw Snape as a threat. Potter watched Lily all the time, hit on her all the time. Lily is described to have a temper. It is almost impossible to me to believe that James wouldn't have noticed that Lily was bothered by Snape and outright wanted him gone from her life, therefore rendering his motive for the bullying flat. We see he is even more cruel when Lily stands up for Severus, mocking him further (as we see on the train scene in Prince's Tale and in SWM), exactly because he believed that they both liked each other (romantically or platonically)

Also, a scene that sticks out to me is the one in DH when Lily is insisting for Severus to stop hanging out with Avery and Mulciber. If she was just looking for an excuse, wouldn't she have given the ultimatum then and there? She clearly didn't like them, thought they were cruel, and they hurt Mary, which is implied to be an acquaintance if not a friend of hers. Why stay as long as she did, "making excuses" for him to her friends as she says, if she didn't want the friendship anymore? Her lack of emotion when he's apologizing can be easily explained away by how angry she is. That scene didn't happen after days or weeks from SWM, it happened in the same day and she clearly didn't want to speak to him in the moment, it being the only scene in which he demanded her attention in a sense. In Lily's POV, that was this friend she had for almost a decade, her oldest friend, who had just turned on her for no reason, when she was trying to help him. A lot of people ignore how bad Severus is at expressing his feelings and telling her hard things about his life (as seen in him using euphemisms for his father's behaviour when we know that he was being brutally whipped), so it's very possible that he wasn't transparent with her about his insecurities or how bad the marauders' bullying affected him, so she never thought much of it. Might be a little insensitive, but hey, she was a 15 yo. It always seemed to me that he presented himself way more as a shoulder for her to cry on than the opposite.

Also, the memories that were given to Harry were not meant to show the pretty moments of their friendship, at least not in my interpretation. Yes, it had some cute moments to make clear to Harry that they were friends, but to me it was way more about showing Harry the conflict of Snape's life from the start, the Dark Arts and the DEs, which he was very tempted and interested by, and the Lily, who's a symbolism for Light in his life. She was the one pulling him away from them, warning him, and he wouldn't listen. That's why basically all their scenes have some sort of conflict. To show Harry how his entire life, he was in between those two sides being pulled back and forth, and when Lily's pull was gone, he headed straight in to the Dark Arts, and ofc, that didn't end well at all.

This got super long for no reason and it's prob very badly written but it was mostly a word vomit lmao I just rlly like them and yes they had their problems but most friendships do :( they would've worked it out in another universe...

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missed drawing them

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You said I killed you— haunt me, then!

Be with me always— take any form— drive me mad! Only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

[Emily Brontë's Wuthering Heights]

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A spy is born

Quick sketches of Severus when he formally joins and becomes a death eater

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New Chapter! From Hell to Heaven Chapter 9 - Occlumency

The moving spiral staircase took them up to the Headmaster’s office. Professor McGonagall knocked twice on the oak door and opened it, motioning to Severus and the Marauders to enter. She closed the door after them and left them alone with Albus Dumbledore. 

“Good evening, gentlemen,” said Dumbledore, a small smile on his lips. “Please, sit down.” 

He waved his hand and five comfortable chairs appeared out of thin air. The boys sat down, Severus on the far right, next to the perch on which a beautiful, red and golden, phoenix slept with its head under a wing. 

Dumbledore sat down behind the richly ornate desk, and looked at them with his blue piercing eyes. “So, Professor McGonagall told me what she saw,” he started, his tone light. “Apparently, you, Mr Snape, cast a spell on Mr Potter and in answer to that Mr Black cast an Impediment Jinx on you. When Professor McGonagall gave you a detention, you didn’t accept, saying that the Gryffindors ambushed you, insulted you, and Mr Potter said something that made you lose control and attack him. But you didn’t want to tell Professor McGonagall what Mr Potter had said, claiming she wouldn’t understand. You asked to take this matter to me; apparently, I know everything and I will be able to understand. You flatter me, Mr Snape, I assure you I don’t know everything.”  

“Well, you do know that, Professor,” said Severus. “We talked about this in the summer.” 

“Ah, yes.” An understanding shone in Dumbledore’s eyes. “Well, then, I’d like to hear your versions of tonight’s events. Why don’t you start, Mr Potter?” 

You can read the rest on AO3

From Hell to Heaven - Chapter 9 - Sigrun23 - Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling [Archive of Our Own]

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Just 2 teens chilling at the local playground

Inspo: (x)

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~False God~

Happy Birthday Severus! ✨️🖤✨️ I'm sorry I didn't drawing something more cheerful, but I couldn't say no for angst art ;_;

Hope you will like it and this smol text, which I wrote for them~☆

The Priest's Cry

"Oh Serpent God,

Oh my Immortal God.

Can you hear me?

Can you hear your priest's loud cry?

Why you lied to me?

Why you betrayed me?

You promised me enlightenment,

But you sent me darkness.

You took my purity,

But gave me corruption.

You turned living water into dead blood

And turned life into death.

You devoured my body and tormented my soul.

I gave you everything and you destroyed all.

Your tousand burning eyes pierce me through and through,

Where can I hide, where can I die?

Your golden cup burns my hands,

Your corrosive venom burns my mouth.

Your hallowed snake writhes on my chest and tears apart my throat.

I feel like I'm rotting, my arm's falling off.

My love is dead and there's nothing left.

You were supposed to be like a father, but you became worse than Death.

You hear my lament and I hear your laughter.

Why are you mocking me, why are you fooling me?

Who will save me from you? Who will save me from myself?

It will never end, the guilt will never go away.

You are the False God, God of Corruption, God whos Lying.

May you became The Mortal One."

(video music from Fear and Hunger)

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To my darling, Happy Birthday!!!

To my dearest Elvis. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 90! WOW! How has so much time gone by? My gosh, you were/are/always will be the star that was born on January 8th 1935 at 4:35 am, to your loving parents Gladys and Vernon Presley. From your humblest beginnings to your incredible rise to stardom you have achieved many amazing things in your life. Your career spanning over 2 decades. You started at 19 with the release of "That's All Right Mama" and now look at how far you've come. To this day millions of fans from around the world join in a multitude of ways to celebrate you, your successes, and your humanity. Honey, I constantly thank the Lord for your existence, it has helped me in more ways than one knowing you're around. Through your music, your movies, interviews, books, everything. It has helped me more than you'd ever know and I know I can speak for more people than just myself. You were always terrified of being forgotten, from your time in military service to the age of 42 that you thought was "old". But let me tell you, that couldn't be further from the truth. You will never be forgetten my darling. You have a place in mine and every other fan's heart that is only 'you' shaped. You had/continue to have a profound influence upon the music industry bringing rock'n'roll, country, blues, gospel and many more to the forefront of people's minds for decades. But that's not all. Your humanity, kindness and versatility in everything you do has never been matched since. The way you interacted with your audiences and fans, how you loved us as much as we love you, it's something unfortunately that is rare to see. Your ability to bring smiles and laughter to people's faces is unparalleled by anyone else. You were a rarity that we shall never come across again. No matter how many people judge me on this profound love I have for you, I promise it will never dim. You've sparked a flame that will never go out. So my darling, Happy Birthday! I hope you're celebrating in peace finally with Yisa, your mamma, daddy, Ben and Jessie. We will forever love and miss you my darling. Thank you for everything you do. So, Happy Birthday. I love you today, tomorrow and forever.

Xx

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i love when snape fandom is like, the marauders attacked snape four against one/two against one! like, of course they did. what, were they supposed to fight the whole death eater gang at once? you’re SUPPOSED to outnumber your enemy!

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"I loved you completely. And you loved me the same. That's all. The rest is confetti."

{The Haunting of Hill House}

HNY!

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Severus Snape, prowling the hallways of Hogwarts deep in the middle of the night after having been awoken by some.thing.

And suddenly, he hears a noise behind his back.

(Mediums used: fine-liners, lead pencils, graphite powder, neon marker, yellow pencil, kneaded rubber)

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Ah, all you stars, destined to shatter into pieces, At least quietly, shine on me,

I'll go on, with pale cheeks, I'll go on, farewell stars--

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嗚呼 砕け散る 宿命の星たちよ せめて密やかに この身を照せよ

我は行く 蒼白き頬のままで 我は行く さらば昴よ

{谷村 新司/Shinji Tanimura's "昴"/"Subaru"}