sillynarcissist

[sillynarcissist]

Hey :} this may seem like an odd question but bare with me

So I have symptoms of both Bipolar 1, and NPD…but I have a hard time differentiating because of course disorders can overlap…so how can you tell the difference between simply feeling euphoric and narcissism? Cause I know they’re similar. I’m just asking if there’s a way to tell by the naked eye. (This isn’t me asking for a diagnosis from a total stranger..I’m just curious so I can have an idea of how to tell the difference)

hmm I'm no expert, but I can offer my personal experience with npd euphoria

when I'm just normally happy, I can still think before I act. I tend to stay in my usual persona of being nice and silly and I've got a good control on my behaviour

when I'm on a "narc high," that kinda goes out the window. I struggle to think before I say anything, just blurting out whatever I want because I'm so confident that I'm the greatest. I get loud and full of myself and my jokes get meaner, etc. basically I know npd is fucking with me because I stop being self conscious and start acting automatically like I'm the greatest person ever

and of course after the high I usually crash. like immediately once I'm no longer getting supply from being around people I crash completely and instantly become miserable and convinced nobody likes me

thats just my experience with highs from this disorder, I'm not sure if it'll be help. if anyone else would like to give input in the notes, that'd be very helpful

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(said shakily, through tears) I'm so cool and nonchalant... i handle criticism so well... I don't need to strive to be the best because I'm already the best... I'm the genius of the century... everyone loves me...

[sillynarcissist]

next year theyre replacing the "personality disorders" section of the dsm with "dere types"

[sillynarcissist]

being self aware suuuucks like yeah this thought pattern/behavior is stupid and pointless and a symptom. i know this. [does it anyways

[sillynarcissist]

How the “omg lmao i love myself I’m such a narcissist 😆” girls look at me when I tell them every little mistake makes my head spin. I need to prove my worth to myself, that I’m better and more important than those around me. If I don’t I feel powerless and annoying. I need to be in control. I need to be better. If I don’t gain attention from other people I see myself as a god. I tell myself I never needed the attention because clearly I’m much better than them. I’ve convinced myself that I have lived a mediocre life and everything I do is pointless. Living as a mediocre person is pointless. Failure is weakness and my own expectations leave me constantly overwhelmed.

(Can we stop romanticizing and watering down very real disorders)

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I need attention so bad rn but the idea of acknowledging or reciprocating any attention I may receive is nauseating

[sillynarcissist]

t shirt that says i survived hell and all i got was this stupid personality disorder

[sillynarcissist]

random personal post. can anyone with avpd tell me how to tell regular social anxiety from avpd? I do not know if I should seek a psychiatrist about my social struggles or just tough it out with a regular therapist if it's just anxiety

[sillynarcissist]

relatable npd moment: there is this person in my friend group who I hate with a burning passion ( for valid reasons I'm not the only one who has gripes w/ them ) but one of their biggest Issues is that despite being self aware of their problems they refuse to work on any because it scares them. this is exactly what I do but I've made up a web of excuses so that I'm better than them anyway

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I hate getting attached to people more than anything

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[sillynarcissist]

random personal post. can anyone with avpd tell me how to tell regular social anxiety from avpd? I do not know if I should seek a psychiatrist about my social struggles or just tough it out with a regular therapist if it's just anxiety

[sillynarcissist]

bitches be like "do i have a personality disorder or am i just looking for attention or am i just trying to find excuses for behaving the way i do"

im bitches

[sillynarcissist]

born to be the main character in a tragedy about someone who can never have the true emotional connection they crave because they don't feel the emotions required forced to be a real person with the same issues

[sillynarcissist]

i am not better than anyone else for thinking a certain way. and thinking that makes me better than everyone else

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friend in a bad mood but so am I so all their venting just pisses me off but I am being so nicies about it ( taking ages to reply because I keep forgetting to check for a response )