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says something flirty and runs. /Silly

Oh my you have such a way with words /silly

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We are going to make out We are going to make out We are going to make out We are going to make out We are going to make out We are going to make out (stares with big eyes)

YES WE ARE HUSBOOMF!!!

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consumes consumes consumes consumes consumes

IS CONSUMED (Love you🫶)

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I'M DOING AN EXPERIMENT

To prove something to a friend, please

REBLOG IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES

LIKE IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS DON’T BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES

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The second is the biggest part for us. We always think our amnesia isn't too bad until someone asks us about something we forgot or something happens to remind us it is that bad.

An example being we made a friend on discord back in january who we talked to for a while. They reached out last month and I had no clue who they were, nor could I remember much about talking to them or anyone else on discord outside of our usual circle. It was very jarring that we had forgotten so much.

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

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System Asks: Growth Edition ☀️🌳

⛺️ — What was your first neutral or positive interaction with your parts?

⚓️ — What are your favorite grounding methods to use during times of stress?

🏖️ — Is there anything recently that you have done relating to DID/OSDD that you are proud of?

🍽️ — What do you do to deal with internal conflict?

📙 — Tell us something new that you have learned about DID/OSDD and/or recovery.

🌷 — What are some things you currently want to work on?

🌊 — Tell us about something that was hard but ultimately helped on your journey.

⚡️— What are some things that pose as obstacles on your path to healing?

🌙 — Tell us about something new you have learned about yourself.

🌱 — How do you personally reduce or prevent maladaptive coping mechanisms that other parts use or want to use?

🌻 — What is the most important thing you have learned so far?

💕 — If you’re in a relationship, describe something that you learned about relationships or happened in your own relationships that helped you in the process of recovery.

🎉 — Do you celebrate anything personally in regards to your healing? If so, what do you celebrate and how do you celebrate it?

🌀 — What is something you had to unlearn?

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-Amy(I even changed my name to not be associated nuvsomi)

being an introject of someone who hurt u is

"wow i sure do hate what they did and while i acknowledge im not them BOY DO I HATE MYSELF"

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Oh man living in a beautiful house with a beautiful wife and owning a large automobile fucking slaps

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sillybitchtism

replace one word of your url with bitch

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Average day, sometimes someone is having both at once

one guy in front is having gay thoughts. one is panicking about school. i just want to sleep

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I don't trust that half the anti-endo systems on tumblr actually give a shit about their fellow systems, because there's never any follow through.

(General you) You rave and rant about how ableist endos are, but you use SP and PK. You pretend that you hate ableists, but you use userboxes from people who are pro-endo or who demonize NPD. You bitch about how fucking horrible endos are but you never actually DO anything about it.

I don't use SP or PK because they're endo run. I don't use Finch anymore cause the bastards are pro-endo. I don't do anything that has fucking endogenic bullshit, and I can survive perfectly well like that. Anyone who pretends they need a fucking discord bot to survive need to log off.

sorry but this is actually a horrible take. An anti endo using SP doesn't make them less of an anti endo. It a helpful tool, especially for bigger systems like ourselves who cannot rely on stupid little notebooks or whatever the fuck else you'd recommend. Octocon isn't any better, it's endo neutral and it's dev has been in a few different controversies that we won't go into now, however my point is that there is literally no good way for systems to track their alters or their fronting. Acting as if you are morally superior because you don't need those tools is fucked up, get the hell of my blog and go fuck yourself.

(also telling people to "log off" all because they want to be able to be themselves online is fucked up as well. Sure, you don't need pluralkit to live, but it is a tool that makes life easier for plenty of systems and to deny that to them is just blatant ableism at that point. Especially when for a lot of us knowing who said what could be very important for tracking reasons or other. Just because YOU can be "perfectly fine" without any kind of accommodation doesn't mean everyone else can)

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Apparently it's a hot take but telling ppl to DNI bc of your "source trauma" from that source is fucking weird and feeding into your delusions

You need to understand that pseudo memories are not real they are pseudo for a reason

Yes, sometimes they mirror actual trauma but another fictive from your source you do not like has absolutely nothing to do with it and it's just plain stupid imo to tell an entire group of ppl who have literally done nothing wrong to dni

I literally saw a userbox that said "idc if you're source separated Valentino fictives DNI" grow the fuck up

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It’s always funny—no, pathetic—watching endogenic systems spit venom at traumagenic ones for “trusting psychiatry,” like that makes us obedient little pets licking a boot. Newsflash: I’m not loyal to doctors. I’m loyal to truth. And the truth is, you don’t get to claim a TRAUMA disorder without trauma. That’s not elitism. That’s definition.

You don’t get to cherry-pick clinical terms while simultaneously denying the disorder they come from. You don’t get to walk into trauma-centered spaces wearing a mask you made out of someone else’s suffering and call that resistance. That’s not defiance. That’s theft. And if you think disrespecting survivors is punk, then you’ve clearly never bled for anything in your life.

I’m not here to coddle delusions. I’m not here to clap while you cosplay pain you never lived. You want to feel special? Get a new hobby. Because this—this identity built from shattered memories and carved from years of surviving what should’ve killed us? It doesn’t belong to you.

Being punk means burning down systems that hurt people. Not stealing the scars of those they’ve already broken.

You’re not punk. You’re a parasite. And no matter how loud you scream or how many buzzwords you throw like confetti, you’ll never be what we are.

You’ll never get it.

And you’ll never be us.

-Misfits

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do not post your triggers, cues, programs, any of that shit on tumblr dot com. point blank period. do not just hand that info to people who may want to hurt you.

i am not saying this to fearmonger. don't put that shit on a public blog.

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Bale

Change a single letter and change the word game

I want to play a game with you all.

You have to make a new word by changing only one letter of the last word.

Dirt

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If it helps at all, we could give you the contacts in dms?

hey, I haven’t been able to contact @/bugcanines in a while, I’m just wondering how their doing and if their okay.

if you ever see this, tell them that I miss them

Ento is doing fine :) Ways of communication are very limited rn, but the two ways we have been able to contact hym is Rec Room(Weekends/after achool) and Google Chats(During School)! I hope this helps!

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hey, I haven’t been able to contact @/bugcanines in a while, I’m just wondering how their doing and if their okay.

if you ever see this, tell them that I miss them

Ento is doing fine :) Ways of communication are very limited rn, but the two ways we have been able to contact hym is Rec Room(Weekends/after achool) and Google Chats(During School)! I hope this helps!