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Hello, everyone! Here’s Chapter 4 – things are starting to get a bit romantic! I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it because, honestly, it was an emotional rollercoaster for me. 😅
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FATES BARGAIN
Chapter 4
SY
The next morning arrived with the pale light of dawn spilling through the windows of the River House, casting long shadows across the halls as the house slowly came to life. Sy had barely slept, her thoughts tangled in the events of the previous night, in the quiet intensity of Azriel’s gaze and the unsettling questions that still lingered in her mind. But she had forced herself out of bed, knowing that today would bring new challenges—challenges she couldn’t afford to face unprepared.
She found herself standing in a quiet study tucked away near the back of the River House, where the windows overlooked the river and the mountains beyond. Nesta and Amren were already there, waiting for her. The air felt charged, as if the room itself was holding its breath in anticipation of what was to come.
Amren leaned against a bookshelf, her petite form draped in robes of dark, shimmering fabric that caught the light like scales. Her silver eyes, ancient and sharp, tracked Sy’s every movement as she entered, her expression cool and unreadable. Nesta, by contrast, stood near the window, her arms crossed tightly over her chest, her posture rigid. The morning light painted her features in stark relief, highlighting the hardness in her gaze and the stubborn set of her jaw. Sy couldn’t help but feel the weight of their scrutiny as she stepped forward, trying to steady the unease coiling in her stomach.
Nesta was the first to speak, her voice clipped and direct. “You’re late,” she said, arching an eyebrow as she glanced at Sy. There was a challenge in her eyes, as if she was daring Sy to falter under her gaze.
Sy bit back a nervous response, forcing herself to stand a little straighter. “Sorry,” she managed, her voice steady despite the nervous flutter in her chest. “I didn’t realize how quickly time would pass this morning.”
Nesta’s gaze remained cool, but she didn’t push the issue further. Instead, she turned back to the window, her expression thoughtful as she studied the river beyond. Amren, however, didn’t bother with pleasantries. She straightened from her place by the bookshelf and crossed the room with fluid, feline grace, her silver eyes narrowing as she appraised Sy up close.
“So,” Amren began, her voice like the rasp of a blade being drawn from its sheath. “Let’s get one thing clear before we start. You claim you have no knowledge of any powers, no training, no... understanding of what you might be capable of here.”
Sy swallowed hard under the weight of Amren’s scrutiny, feeling the full force of the ancient being’s gaze. “That’s right,” she replied, her voice quieter than she intended. “I don’t know if I have any abilities in this world. If I do, I have no idea how to access them.”
Amren’s lips curved into a faint, mocking smile, one that didn’t reach her eyes. “That much is obvious,” she said, tilting her head slightly as she studied Sy, as if searching for some hidden layer beneath the surface. “But the fact remains—you were brought here by an ancient power, one that does not meddle lightly. Hekate would not have chosen you, would not have severed you from your world, unless she saw something of use.”
Sy bristled slightly at the implication, but before she could respond, Nesta cut in, her voice sharp. “We’re not here to coddle you, Sy. Whatever you might be, whatever power you might possess, it’s better for all of us if we understand it. So we’re going to test you—see if there’s anything worth finding.” She pushed away from the window, stepping closer until she stood just a few feet from Sy, her gaze unwavering.
“And how do you plan to do that?” Sy asked, glancing between them, her unease growing with every passing moment. The idea of being examined, of being prodded for hidden strengths, left her feeling exposed, vulnerable.
Nesta’s eyes flashed with something that looked almost like impatience. “Amren and I have... methods,” she said simply, her tone leaving little room for argument. “You’ll cooperate, and we’ll see if there’s anything inside you that’s been waiting to surface.”
Amren nodded, her expression turning more serious. “If there is power in you, we’ll draw it out. Whether you’re ready for it or not. So I suggest you brace yourself.”
The air in the room seemed to shift, growing heavier, and Sy’s pulse quickened as she glanced between them. She wasn’t sure what she had expected from this meeting, but the tension in the room was far more intense than she had imagined. It felt as if she was standing on the edge of a precipice, staring down into the unknown.
Amren gestured to a chair in the center of the room, her expression inscrutable. “Sit,” she instructed, her voice leaving no room for defiance. Sy hesitated for only a moment before moving to the chair, lowering herself into it. She forced herself to keep her back straight, to ignore the feeling of being trapped under their watchful eyes.
As she settled into the chair, Nesta came to stand beside Amren, her arms still crossed over her chest. There was something in her eyes—something almost akin to pity, though it was buried deep beneath her usual frostiness. “This might be... uncomfortable,” she said, her voice softening slightly, though there was still a hard edge to it. “But it’s necessary if we’re going to understand what Hekate might have awakened in you.”
Sy nodded, though she couldn’t keep the anxiety from twisting in her gut. “I understand,” she said quietly, though she wasn’t entirely sure she did. What she did understand, however, was that there was no turning back now.
Amren stepped closer, raising one hand, and a flicker of silver light gathered at her fingertips, twisting like smoke. Her expression sharpened, her focus narrowing as she directed that strange, otherworldly energy toward Sy. “Hold still,” she murmured, her voice almost gentle, though the power in it made Sy’s skin prickle.
The light touched her, and Sy sucked in a sharp breath as a cold sensation swept through her veins, as if ice water had been poured directly into her bloodstream. It wasn’t painful, not exactly, but it was disorienting, like a current tugging at something deep within her, trying to drag it to the surface. Her hands gripped the arms of the chair, knuckles white, as she tried to hold still, to keep her breathing steady.
Nesta watched her closely, her gaze flicking between Amren’s concentrated expression and Sy’s reaction. “Anything?” she asked, her voice low and tense, as if she was afraid of disrupting whatever fragile balance Amren had created.
Amren’s brows furrowed slightly, the silver glow at her fingertips intensifying. “There’s... something,” she said slowly, her voice carrying a note of uncertainty that Sy had never heard from her before. “But it’s buried deep. It’s as if she’s... disconnected from it, like a cord that’s been cut. The potential is there, but it’s locked away, restrained.”
Sy gritted her teeth as the sensation intensified, a pressure building behind her ribs, like a door rattling on its hinges, trying to burst open. She didn’t know if she was imagining it, or if it was something Amren was doing to her, but it made her breath come faster, made her vision blur at the edges.
“What does that mean?” Nesta demanded, her tone sharp with impatience. She glanced at Sy, her expression still hard, though a flicker of concern crossed her features as she saw the strain in Sy’s face.
“It means,” Amren replied, her voice tight with concentration, “that there is power, but it’s not ready to reveal itself. It’s tangled—knotted up like a thread that’s been severed and twisted back together.”
Sy forced herself to speak through the pressure building inside her chest. “And... can it be untangled?” Her voice came out strained, barely more than a whisper.
Amren released her hold, the silver light fading from her fingers as she took a step back, her expression turning thoughtful. “It could be... if we had time, if we could find a way to bridge the gap between what she was and what she’s becoming. But it will not be easy. And it might be... dangerous.”
Nesta’s eyes narrowed as she studied Sy, as if weighing the risks against the potential reward. “You’ll have to decide if it’s worth the effort, Sy,” she said, her voice cold but not unkind. “If you want to know what Hekate left behind inside you, you’ll have to face whatever comes with it. But understand—if you become a danger to this court, to Velaris, we won’t hesitate to deal with it.”
Sy met her gaze, the weight of the threat settling in her chest like a stone. But despite the fear that knotted her stomach, she nodded slowly, determination hardening her voice. “I understand. But I can’t keep living in the dark, not knowing what’s inside me.”
Amren’s silver eyes gleamed with a hint of approval, though her expression remained as inscrutable as ever. “Then we’ll continue. But prepare yourself, girl. You’re about to walk a very fine line between the known and the unknown.”
And as Sy took a steadying breath, the morning light spilling through the windows seemed to cast long shadows over the path that lay ahead—one that would demand every ounce of strength she had.
They worked through the morning, until the sun had climbed high into the sky, signaling the approach of lunchtime. Nesta, Amren, and Sy poured over different methods, trying to find any clue about the power that might be buried within her. They tried everything from meditation to focus exercises, even some ancient rites that Amren insisted might coax out hidden magic. But no matter how hard they pushed, no matter how deeply Amren’s silvery energy probed, they found nothing concrete. The power remained elusive, like a distant echo that couldn’t quite be reached.
By the time they called a halt, Sy’s head throbbed with exhaustion, her body feeling like a tight coil of tension. She could see the frustration in Nesta’s eyes, the way she pressed her lips together in a thin line, and even Amren’s usually inscrutable expression had turned more guarded, as if she was reevaluating everything she had assumed.
“We’ll try again tomorrow,” Amren said, her voice sharp but carrying a note of reluctant resignation. “But not to find what power lies in you—rather, how we can draw it out. Sometimes, a locked door needs the right key, not a battering ram.”
Sy nodded, trying to muster up a sense of hope, though uncertainty gnawed at her. She wondered if this would be another dead end—if whatever lay inside her would remain locked away, just out of reach. The idea made her feel hollow, like a shell that rattled with unanswered questions.
Nesta caught her eye as they left the study, her expression still severe, but there was a flicker of something softer in her gaze, something almost like understanding. “Get some rest,” she said shortly. “You’ll need it if we’re going to make any progress tomorrow.”
Sy murmured her thanks and made her way to the dining room, where Elain, Feyre, and Mor were already seated, enjoying the warmth of the midday sun that filtered through the windows. She slipped into a chair at the edge of the table, the soft hum of conversation flowing around her, but she couldn’t bring herself to join in. Her mind kept drifting back to the events of the morning, the unsettling emptiness where answers should have been, and—despite her best efforts—to the memory of last night on the balcony with Azriel.
She thought she was being discreet, keeping her thoughts to herself, but it seemed that she wasn’t as subtle as she imagined. Feyre shot her a knowing look from across the table, a smirk curling the corners of her mouth, while Mor’s eyes gleamed with mischief as she leaned forward, propping her chin on her hand.
“Someone’s awfully quiet today,” Mor remarked, her tone teasing, though there was a gentle curiosity behind her words. “Thinking about a certain shadowy someone, perhaps?”
Sy felt her face heat up immediately, a blush creeping up her neck, but she tried to play it off with a quick shake of her head. “No, it’s not... I mean, I’m not thinking about... It’s just—” She floundered, her words tangling together, and she could see Mor’s smirk widen, Feyre’s expression turning downright amused.
Feyre arched a brow, her smile turning sly as she exchanged a glance with Mor. “Really, Sy? Because you’ve been staring off into space for a good ten minutes now. And you seemed a bit... distracted at dinner last night, too.”
“I wasn’t distracted,” Sy protested weakly, but even she knew how unconvincing she sounded. She caught a glimpse of Elain beside her, who gave her a sympathetic smile, as if to say she understood what it was like to be the target of her sisters’ teasing.
Mor’s laughter was light, more affectionate than mocking, and she waved a hand dismissively. “It’s alright, Sy. We’re just teasing you. It’s only natural to be curious about Azriel—he’s not exactly the easiest male to figure out, is he?”
Sy tried to muster up a laugh of her own, but the weight of her own thoughts made it fall flat. She couldn’t help feeling like she was being foolish, letting herself get caught up in thoughts of Azriel when she had barely been in this world for two days. It wasn’t just that he was undeniably handsome or that his quiet intensity intrigued her—it was the way he had looked at her, the way he seemed to see something in her that even she didn’t understand.
Seeing her discomfort, Elain reached out, placing a gentle hand on Sy’s arm. “Come on, let’s go for a walk,” she suggested softly, her voice a soothing contrast to Mor and Feyre’s teasing. “The garden is beautiful this time of day, and it might help clear your head.”
Sy shot her a grateful smile and nodded, eager for an excuse to escape the watchful eyes of the others. As they stood up and made their way toward the garden, she could still feel Mor’s and Feyre’s playful glances following her, but at least they didn’t push any further.
The garden behind the River House was lush and serene, filled with fragrant blooms and the sound of the river rushing nearby. Elain led the way along a gravel path lined with flowering vines, her steps slow and measured, giving Sy time to gather her thoughts.
After a few moments of silence, Elain glanced sideways at Sy, her expression gentle. “You don’t have to be embarrassed, you know,” she said softly. “It’s natural to feel a connection to someone, especially when you’re in a new place and everything feels so uncertain.”
Sy let out a shaky breath, her hands twisting together as they walked. “I don’t know, Elain. It just feels... complicated. I’ve only been here for two days. I don’t even know what I’m supposed to be, what I’m supposed to do, and I’m already letting myself get distracted by... by him.” She shook her head, frustration edging her voice. “It feels wrong somehow, like I’m not allowed to think about anything except figuring out what’s inside me and what Hekate wants from me.”
Elain’s smile turned understanding, a warmth in her eyes that reminded Sy of sunlight breaking through clouds. “You’re allowed to feel, Sy. You’re allowed to wonder about people, even if you don’t have all the answers yet. And Azriel...” She hesitated, choosing her words carefully. “He’s not easy to know, but I think he sees something in you that interests him. And maybe that’s not such a bad thing.”
Sy bit her lip, thinking of the way Azriel’s eyes had lingered on her the night before, the way his voice had softened when he spoke to her, even if he tried to hide it behind his usual reserve. “But I don’t even know what he’s looking for,” she admitted, her voice barely more than a whisper. “And I don’t know if I’m ready to find out.”
Elain stopped walking and turned to face her fully, her expression serious. “You don’t have to have all the answers right now. Just take things one step at a time. Focus on what you need to do today, and let the rest unfold as it will. Sometimes, the things that seem the most complicated end up making sense when you least expect it.”
Sy managed a small, grateful smile, her shoulders relaxing slightly. “Thank you, Elain. I think I needed to hear that.”
Elain’s smile widened, and she gave Sy’s hand a comforting squeeze. “Anytime.”
They continued their walk in companionable silence, but Sy’s mind felt lighter, as if a burden had been lifted, if only just a little. She wasn’t sure what would come of her tangled thoughts about Azriel, but Elain’s words gave her a measure of peace she hadn’t expected.
Eventually, Feyre joined them in the garden, her expression bright but tinged with curiosity as she approached. “Mind if I join you?” she asked, her eyes flicking between them.
Elain shook her head, smiling warmly. “Not at all. We were just talking.”
Feyre fell into step beside them, and her smile softened as she glanced at Sy. “I heard you had quite a morning with Amren and Nesta. How are you holding up?”
Sy exhaled, glancing down at the pebbled path beneath her feet. “It was... difficult. We didn’t find anything definite. Amren said it’s like there’s a power there, but it’s disconnected—like a thread that’s been cut.” She bit her lip, feeling the frustration bubble up again. “I just wish I knew what it meant. I feel like I’m stumbling in the dark.”
Feyre’s expression turned thoughtful as she listened, her brows knitting together slightly. “That doesn’t surprise me,” she said quietly. “Sometimes, powers can be tied to emotions, to experiences you haven’t fully processed yet. Maybe what’s inside you is waiting for the right moment, the right push, to reveal itself.”
Sy looked up, meeting Feyre’s steady gaze. There was a sincerity in her words, a belief that made Sy feel like maybe, just maybe, she wasn’t completely lost. “Do you think... do you think it’s possible to find that key?” she asked, her voice barely more than a murmur.
Feyre nodded slowly, her expression determined. “I think it’s possible, Sy. And we’ll figure it out together—step by step, just like Elain said.” She offered a small, encouraging smile. “You’re not alone in this, no matter how isolated you might feel.”
Sy’s chest tightened with emotion, a mixture of gratitude and hope swelling inside her. For the first time since arriving in this world, she felt
AZRIEL
Azriel stood in the training ring, the cool morning air sharp with the promise of winter. He stretched out his wings briefly, feeling the tightness in the muscles from a restless night. The training area was empty this early, except for the sound of the wind rustling through the trees and the occasional murmur of the river nearby. But even the tranquility of the scene did little to soothe the tension coiling in his chest.
He had woken before dawn, thoughts tangled with the memory of last night—of the way Sy had looked up at him on that balcony, the way her breath had hitched when she’d collided with his chest, her scent—a mix of something warm and sweet, like honey with a hint of something floral—lingering in the cool night air. He had tried to push the thoughts away, tried to bury them beneath the routines of the morning, but they clung to him, stubborn and insistent, like shadows that refused to disperse.
Now, waiting in the ring, he found himself struggling to focus on what lay ahead. Training her should have been a simple task—one he had done countless times before with recruits, with new soldiers. But with her, it felt different. There was a restless energy under his skin, an awareness that sharpened every time he thought of the way she had looked at him, the vulnerability in her eyes.
Get it together, Azriel. He forced himself to take a deep breath, letting the cold air clear his mind. She’s just another assignment, another person to protect. That’s all this is.
But even as he thought it, he knew it wasn’t the whole truth. There was something about her—something that drew him in, even when he tried to keep his distance. It wasn’t just that she was a mystery to unravel, or that her presence stirred his curiosity. No, it was something deeper, something he couldn’t name, but that made him want to understand her, to reach beyond the guarded look she wore like armor.
He caught her scent before he saw her, that same warm, sweet fragrance that made his shadows twist with restless curiosity. He turned, and there she was, making her way across the field toward him. The morning light caught in her hair, highlighting the softness of it, and her expression was a mix of determination and uncertainty, as if she was bracing herself for what was to come.
She looked so small against the backdrop of the training grounds, yet there was a quiet strength in the way she carried herself, a resilience that he couldn’t help but admire. He tried to keep his face neutral, tried to remind himself that this was just training, but his gaze lingered on her a moment too long, tracing the curve of her jaw, the way her breath misted in the cold air.
“Good morning,” she said softly as she reached him, her voice carrying a hint of nervousness. She pulled her arms tighter around herself, as if trying to ward off the chill.
Azriel nodded, his voice coming out a little rougher than he intended. “Morning. Are you ready to begin?”
She nodded, trying to hide her nerves, and he motioned for her to follow him into the center of the ring. “We’ll start with some basic stretches,” he explained, his tone taking on a more professional edge, even as he fought to ignore the way his heart seemed to quicken around her.
He demonstrated a few stretches, showing her how to loosen up her muscles before any real training began. She followed his movements, her brow furrowed with concentration, and for a while, they fell into a comfortable rhythm—one he could almost forget was different from all the other training sessions he had led.
But then she attempted a stretch, twisting her body in a way that clearly put too much strain on her lower back. Azriel winced, seeing the misalignment, and without thinking, he stepped forward, reaching out to correct her form.
“Wait, like this,” he said, his hands coming to rest on her waist, guiding her gently into the proper position. His touch was meant to be clinical, but the moment his fingers brushed against her sides, he felt a jolt of heat, as if his own shadows had turned against him, igniting something inside his chest.
Her warmth seeped through the thin fabric of her clothes, and her scent enveloped him, wrapping around him like a soft blanket, filling his senses until he couldn’t think of anything else. His hands tensed against her waist, and for a moment, he found himself leaning closer, drawn to the way her breath hitched, the way her pulse fluttered under his touch.
Focus, Azriel. The thought cut through the haze like a blade, sharp and cold, and he forced himself to step back, clearing his throat as he let his hands fall away. He hoped she didn’t notice the way his face felt uncomfortably warm, or the way his shadows seemed to curl around him more tightly, as if trying to hide his own confusion.
“There,” he said, his voice coming out strained as he gestured for her to continue the stretch. “That’s better. Just... be careful not to overextend. You could hurt yourself.”
Sy straightened, her cheeks flushed, though whether from exertion or something else, he couldn’t be sure. She offered him a small, tentative smile, and he felt a pang in his chest that he couldn’t quite ignore. “Thanks,” she murmured, brushing a stray strand of hair behind her ear.
He nodded stiffly, trying to regain some semblance of professionalism, though he could still feel the ghost of her warmth lingering on his skin. He focused on the next part of the training, guiding her through basic defensive stances, showing her how to block and counter a strike.
To his surprise, she picked up the movements quickly, her body adapting to the rhythm of the strikes with a grace that spoke of some natural instinct. It wasn’t perfect—her footwork was still hesitant, and her balance wavered at times—but there was a spark in her movements that caught his attention, a hint of potential that made him reconsider his initial assumptions.
She might have been new to this world, but she wasn’t helpless. There was a fierceness in the way she moved, a determination that shone through even when she stumbled. And as he watched her, he found himself... admiring her, the way she refused to back down, even when she was clearly out of her element.
They moved through the drills, their bodies falling into a rhythm, and Azriel found himself enjoying the exchange more than he’d expected. He corrected her form when needed, but each time he touched her, he felt that same warmth coil inside him, that same pull that made him wonder what it was about her that unsettled him so much.
Before he knew it, the sun had climbed higher in the sky, signaling the end of their session. He hadn’t realized how much time had passed—hadn’t noticed the way the afternoon had slipped away in a blur of movements and unspoken tension.
“You did well,” he said, trying to keep his tone casual as he watched her catch her breath. “You’re picking this up faster than most.”
She looked up at him, a small smile tugging at her lips, and there was a hint of pride in her expression. “Thank you. I think I’m starting to get the hang of it... sort of.”
He nodded, feeling an unexpected warmth at her words, though he tried to keep his own reaction hidden. He wasn’t used to feeling like this—off-balance, uncertain—and he couldn’t quite figure out why her presence affected him so much.
Sy gathered her things, and as she turned to leave, there was a moment where she paused, glancing back at him with an almost shy expression. Her lips parted as if she wanted to say something, but then she seemed to change her mind, offering him a quick, awkward smile instead.
“See you tomorrow, Azriel,” she said softly, her voice carrying a note of something he couldn’t quite decipher.
He nodded, watching as she turned and walked away, her movements quick, as if she couldn’t leave fast enough. And yet, there was something about the way she glanced back over her shoulder, the way her cheeks flushed, that made his heart tighten unexpectedly.
He watched her retreating form, standing in the empty training ring long after she had disappeared from view. His shadows whispered around him, carrying secrets he couldn’t quite grasp, and he ran a hand through his hair, letting out a slow breath.
What are you doing, Azriel? He could feel the weight of the question pressing down on him, but he didn’t have an answer—not one that made sense, anyway. He knew he should keep his distance, that he should focus on his duty, but every time he looked at her, that resolve wavered just a little more.
As he finally turned away, the memory of her smile lingered in his mind, like a spark that refused to be extinguished. And he couldn’t help but wonder what might happen if he let that spark grow into something more.
AZRIEL
Weeks had passed since that tense morning in the training room, but the memory of Sy’s calm, steady gaze, the way her warmth had filled the room, lingered in Azriel’s mind with haunting clarity. He had tried to convince himself that his interest was merely professional, a sense of duty toward someone unfamiliar with their world. But each time he tried to rationalize it, the image of her drifted back, as vivid as ever.
When he thought of her now, it wasn’t just her actions or her potential abilities that he recalled. It was those stormy grey-blue eyes, clear and unguarded when they looked at him, yet sharp with determination. It was her hair, light brown and straight as a blade, falling to her waist with a natural grace that made him wonder what it might feel like slipping through his fingers. He found his thoughts betraying him with images of the gentle curve of her waist, the elegance of her frame, and the pink of her lips—a color as subtle as it was maddening. Her scent had grown familiar too, a soft blend of warmth and sweetness that lingered long after she’d left a room, so intoxicating that it invaded his thoughts at the most inconvenient times.
Every time he caught himself drifting into these thoughts, he tried to shove them aside, reminding himself of his duty, of his need for professionalism. She’s a stranger here, he’d tell himself, as if repetition could douse the fire burning within him. But his resolve grew weaker each time. And now that Sy had become more at ease within Velaris, he found himself noticing the changes in her. Her laughter had grown freer, her smiles quicker, and even Nesta—who rarely warmed to anyone—seemed to hold an unspoken respect for her.
Then there were the nights when Sy would stay close by, assisting Rhysand and Feyre with Nyx when the little one grew restless. It was a talent Sy had barely discovered, yet one that seemed to resonate with the child’s needs. Her presence was soothing, and Nyx, who seemed to recognize it, clung to her during these times. More often than not, Azriel would be lying in the next room, hearing her soft words or the lullabies she’d hum. He couldn’t deny the peace that washed over him knowing she was nearby, her calmness seeping through the walls as if reaching him in his own restless solitude.
But tonight, there was no solitude. Velaris was alight with the preparations for a festival, a celebration that brought all the Lords and dignitaries from neighboring courts. The evening promised long hours of diplomacy, and Azriel’s day had already been stretched thin with preparations, overseeing the security, coordinating with Cassian and Rhysand on potential threats, and ensuring each guest's arrival went smoothly.
And then there was Eris.
Azriel’s jaw tightened involuntarily at the thought of the Autumn Court heir, the arrogant male who wore his mask of indifference all too well. No one at the table welcomed his presence, but his attendance served political purposes, securing fragile alliances that the Night Court couldn’t afford to jeopardize. Mor, who bore the deepest scars from Eris’ cruelty, avoided him altogether, keeping as much distance as possible from the gathering. For her sake, Azriel kept his own restraint firmly in check, though his shadows bristled at the mere thought of Eris at the same table.
As he took his seat beside Cassian and Nesta, he surveyed the room, the hum of voices mixing with the strains of distant music. He exchanged a few words with Cassian, his gaze flickering occasionally to the doorway, a strange anticipation pooling in his chest. He told himself he was scanning for threats, keeping watch for anything unusual. But when he finally caught sight of Sy entering the hall, his every coherent thought seemed to vanish.
Sy stood in the doorway, and even from across the room, she was nothing short of breathtaking. The dark blue gown she wore clung to her frame, its deep, midnight hue intensifying the fairness of her skin, making her seem almost ethereal in the soft glow of the lanterns. The dress hugged her chest, emphasizing her delicate collarbones, her waist, and flaring slightly at her hips before falling in waves to her ankles, giving her an elegance that felt both regal and effortless. Half of her hair was braided and pinned like a crown, the rest cascading down her back, shimmering with each movement. She looked… otherworldly. And all Azriel could do was sit there, utterly struck.
His heart pounded in his chest as he tore his gaze away, feeling a surge of emotions that left him reeling. A sense of fierce pride mixed with longing that he didn’t quite know how to name. He forced his expression to remain neutral, even as the sight of her seemed to settle like a weight in his chest. But when his gaze swept the room again, he noticed he wasn’t the only one captivated.
Eris’s stare was locked on her, his eyes narrowed with a dark, assessing gleam that made Azriel’s blood simmer. Eris had always enjoyed admiring beauty, but the intent behind his gaze as he looked at Sy bordered on something more. Azriel clenched his fists under the table, forcing himself to breathe. The jealousy surged, coiling in his veins, raw and insistent. Every part of him wanted to stride across the room, to put himself between her and Eris, to make it clear that she was not for him—or anyone else—to ogle.
His irritation only deepened when Rhysand introduced her as his “distant cousin,” a flimsy excuse to explain her presence to the other Lords. Yet Eris’s expression was hardly placated, his gaze lingering on her even as she moved toward the table.
When she finally took her seat, it was right across from Azriel, directly beside Eris. Azriel’s jaw tightened as she lowered herself gracefully into the chair, her gaze briefly skimming over him before flicking away, as if she were making a conscious effort not to look at him. He wanted to catch her gaze, to see if her eyes held any hint of acknowledgment, but she seemed determined to keep her focus elsewhere.
Cassian leaned over, murmuring something to him, but the words barely registered. His mind was too caught up in Sy’s presence, in the way she avoided his eyes, her own gaze set resolutely on her plate as though she sensed his turmoil and wanted no part of it.
And Eris… The male leaned slightly toward her, a subtle movement, his voice soft as he greeted her, his tone filled with a dark charm that made Azriel’s teeth clench. The sight of it stoked the fire of jealousy even further, the restraint he had so carefully built starting to fray at the edges.
He forced himself to focus on anything else—the wine glass in his hand, the faint laughter echoing from across the room, the rustle of the fabric as people shifted in their seats. But every time his attention wandered, it snapped back to her, to the way the blue of her dress seemed to deepen the stormy grey in her eyes, the soft blush in her cheeks, the way her lips curved in a polite smile even as she seemed uncomfortable under Eris’s gaze.
Azriel felt a desperate urge to reach across the table, to pull her gaze to his, to remind her he was there—yet he knew he had no right to ask for such acknowledgment, no claim to make her look at him the way she had that night on the balcony. But as Eris’s hand drifted a fraction closer to hers on the table, his patience snapped.
Without thinking, Azriel cleared his throat, the sound sharp and deliberate in the quiet hum of the conversation. Eris glanced up, his brows lifting in mild annoyance, but Azriel’s cold stare was unyielding, a silent warning that left no room for interpretation.
The Autumn Court heir offered him a smirk, an infuriatingly knowing look that spoke volumes, as if he’d already pieced together Azriel’s poorly kept secret. But Eris leaned back, abandoning whatever game he had in mind, and turned his attention to his wine.
Sy’s gaze flickered up then, meeting Azriel’s across the table. Her expression was wary, unsure, but her eyes held a question he couldn’t quite decipher. She looked at him, and he felt that familiar warmth, that ache that had grown sharper over the past weeks. He couldn’t explain the pull between them, the way he felt drawn to her despite his better judgment.
But he couldn’t let himself forget who he was, what his duty demanded. He was the Spymaster, bound to protect those around him, not to indulge in feelings he couldn’t afford to have. And yet, as she held his gaze, a subtle vulnerability in her expression, he felt his resolve falter.
The meal continued, but Azriel barely tasted a single bite. His attention was consumed by every glance, every word spoken between Sy and Eris, every shift of her gaze as she tried to avoid meeting his eyes. He wanted to pull her aside, to demand an explanation he had no right to ask for, to find out what was happening beneath her calm exterior. But more than that, he wanted to understand why she had woven herself so deeply into his thoughts, why she felt like a piece of his life that he couldn’t bear to let go.
As the evening wore on, he made a decision—a reckless one, perhaps, but the need to know had grown too strong. He would find her after this cursed dinner, confront her, speak to her, anything to break the tension that hung between them. He didn’t know if he was ready for the answers he
SY
Sy stood at the edge of the ballroom, engaged in light conversation with some of the more amiable attendees when she felt a presence beside her. Turning, she saw Eris, dressed in his usual sharp attire, a faint smirk on his face as he took her in, gaze lingering a bit too long. His amber eyes seemed to gleam with mischief, though whether it was friendly or predatory, she couldn’t quite tell.
"You look stunning tonight, Sy," he remarked, voice smooth as velvet, but there was an edge to it, as if he was sizing her up even as he complimented her. The words were flattering, yes, but also rehearsed, like he was reading from a script.
Sy gave a polite smile, her tone firm yet not unfriendly. "Thank you, Eris. It’s always interesting to hear a compliment from the infamous heir of the Autumn Court." She let her words hang in the air, letting him know she was aware of the kind of character he played in her own world’s stories. Her polite deflection was enough to make him chuckle softly, but he didn’t push further, a glint of curiosity flashing in his eyes.
As their conversation waned, Sy’s gaze wandered across the ballroom, where laughter and music filled the air. But her eyes inevitably landed on Azriel. He was standing in the shadows at the far side of the room, wings partially unfurled behind him like a cloak, a steady, watchful look in his dark gaze that was fixed entirely on her. There was something intense, almost predatory, about the way he was watching her—as if he were a hunter, assessing his prey from across the room.
Her heart gave an involuntary flutter, a rush of heat coloring her cheeks as she wondered, Why is he looking at me like that? There was something deeply searching in his gaze tonight, as though he was trying to unravel her very soul with a single glance. But then her mind flickered back to Eris standing beside her, and it dawned on her—perhaps Azriel’s attention was only piqued by concern. After all, Eris wasn’t exactly known for his… altruism, especially not in her world’s stories.
Maybe he’s just watching out for me, she thought, a twinge of disappointment curling in her stomach. She pushed the feeling down, reminding herself of what she already knew: that Azriel was ever the dutiful Spymaster, loyal and vigilant to a fault. Why would he look at her with anything beyond duty?
"Excuse me," she said softly to Eris, offering him a polite nod before she slipped away to where Mor and Elain stood chatting. Both women greeted her with bright smiles, their faces softening with warmth as she joined them.
"Ah, escaping Eris already?" Mor teased, raising an eyebrow as she gave Sy a knowing look.
Sy laughed, a genuine sound that melted away the tension that had been curling in her chest. "I’m just… not sure how to take him," she admitted. "He’s a bit of a charmer, but I can’t forget what he’s capable of."
Mor’s eyes flashed with something unreadable, a tightness in her expression that Sy recognized instantly as anger. "Oh, he’s capable of a lot, alright. Most of it’s terrible." She exchanged a glance with Elain, who offered a sympathetic nod.
Sy lowered her voice, glancing around to ensure no one was listening. "I’ve read about him in my world—about how he hurt you and Nesta. I can’t forget that." She frowned, feeling a fierce protectiveness for Mor, as if the memories of reading those stories were somehow her own.
Mor shrugged, trying to mask her discomfort with a cavalier smile, though the sharpness in her eyes remained. "Trust me, I’ve got more than enough power to fling him out of this place if he steps out of line. Or maybe I’ll just toss him through a window." She shot Sy a wicked grin, and they all burst into laughter, the sound lifting the heavy air around them.
As they laughed, Sy glanced up, her gaze drawn instinctively across the room to where Azriel stood. She could swear there was a hint of a smile on his face, barely visible but enough to make her heart skip a beat. She was surprised to find him watching her, a slight warmth in his eyes that seemed so out of place on his otherwise stoic face. For a fleeting moment, she thought she saw something more—a tenderness, an unspoken feeling that made her heart race.
But then reality settled back over her. She reminded herself that Azriel had shown no interest in her beyond what duty required. It was an observation she’d made from the very start; he maintained a careful distance, only speaking to her when necessary, his glances typically fleeting, as if unwilling to linger too long.
Still, as she watched him now, Sy found herself caught in a flurry of thoughts she couldn’t shake. Her mind wandered, conjuring images of his hands—those calloused fingers, so skilled and sure in battle—wondering what they might feel like if they touched her with tenderness rather than force. She imagined what it would be like to bury her fingers in his dark hair, to feel the softness of his lips brushing against hers. A blush crept up her cheeks as she wondered about the feel of his strong hands against her skin, about how it would be if he held her, not with the controlled strength of a warrior, but with the gentleness she sensed he kept hidden from the world.
But as quickly as those thoughts arose, she forced them away, grounding herself in the reality that these feelings were nothing but fantasies, moments she’d observe from afar, never truly daring to hope for. The pull between them, however real it felt, was likely nothing more than a trick of her own heart.
Breaking the silence, Mor’s voice pulled her back to the present. "Speaking of Azriel," she began, her tone laced with curiosity, "you and he seem to have been keeping a careful distance from each other. Is that just me?"
Sy sighed, smiling wryly. "You’re not imagining things. Since that first day in training, it feels like he’s made a point of avoiding me. Or when he does see me, it’s like he can’t decide whether to run away or… I don’t know, stare right through me as if he’s reading every secret I’ve ever held." She shook her head, laughing softly. "Sometimes, I swear he looks at me like he’s trying to figure me out completely, and other times, it’s as if he’s seeing someone else entirely. Either way, he’s as elusive as ever."
Mor and Elain exchanged a knowing glance, both women stifling laughter. "Classic Azriel," Mor said with a smirk. "He wouldn’t know how to handle feelings if they hit him in the face."
They laughed again, the sound light and freeing, and as Sy’s gaze drifted back across the room, she felt her heart leap. Azriel was no longer on the other side of the ballroom. He was standing mere inches away, his tall, powerful frame like a shadow looming beside her. Her laughter died on her lips as her pulse quickened, a flutter of nerves filling her chest.
She tried to look anywhere but at him, to keep her composure, but the heat of his presence was impossible to ignore. After a tense moment, she gathered the courage to look up, her gaze finally locking with his. The intensity in his eyes was enough to steal her breath, a quiet storm brewing behind his usually calm exterior. The world seemed to fall away, the hum of the room fading into a quiet buzz as they looked at each other, caught in an unspoken moment that felt as if it might shatter with a single breath.
AZRIEL
Azriel’s gaze was fixed on Sy, unable to look away even if he tried. She was stunning tonight, wrapped in a deep navy dress that highlighted her fair skin and every graceful curve of her body. Her hair, half pinned and half cascading down her shoulders, moved like liquid silk with every shift and turn, and her grey-blue eyes, so strikingly bright, seemed to shimmer under the soft ballroom lights.
He couldn’t ignore the way her lips parted slightly, a faint trace of surprise in her expression as she caught his gaze. What would those lips feel like pressed to his own? The thought came unbidden, hot and unrelenting, and he swallowed, trying to steady the storm rising within him. Or better yet, how would they feel against his skin? On every inch of him? He felt the tension coil tighter, threatening to unravel him right there. No. He needed to rein this in before he lost himself completely. Pushing away those maddening thoughts, he managed a low, “Hello.”
Sy blinked, clearly surprised, but she returned his greeting, her voice soft. “Hello.”
Before he could say anything more, she took a small step back, as if trying to put some distance between them. The movement hit him harder than he cared to admit, a pang twisting in his chest. He wanted to reach out, to close the space between them again, but he forced himself to stand still, even as he felt the urge to pull her close, to make her stay. Why is she pulling away? he wondered, struggling to keep his expression unreadable, his emotions tightly locked down.
“Did Eris… bother you?” he asked, his tone sharper than he intended. “I hope you didn’t let him… play his little games.”
Sy’s eyes flashed, and though her response was calm, he could sense her irritation. “I’m just trying not to draw too much attention, Azriel,” she replied, her voice steady yet laced with a subtle edge.
Azriel’s jaw tightened, the image of her standing next to Eris searing itself into his mind. He remembered how Eris had looked at her, the amusement in his eyes, the way Sy had laughed softly, even if it was just polite conversation. His hands clenched at his sides, fighting the simmering jealousy clawing its way through his veins. He knew he shouldn’t react—knew that his emotions were pointless, unjustified—but the thought of Eris near her, speaking to her, touching her, made his blood run hot. Still, he kept his face perfectly composed, betraying none of the turmoil churning within.
They stood there in silence, a charged moment hanging between them. Azriel met her gaze, allowing himself to linger in the depths of her eyes, letting himself get lost, just for a moment, in the gentle storm that seemed to swirl within them. It was foolish, he knew. But the longer he looked, the harder it was to break away, the more he felt his resolve slipping. I don’t want anyone else to have this moment with her, he realized, the admission curling dark and possessive in his chest. I don’t want anyone else to see her like this.
This isn’t duty, he thought, almost surprised at the realization. My assignments don’t make me feel like this. His mind echoed with the word jealousy, a word he rarely allowed himself to entertain. He almost laughed at himself, bitter and incredulous. Since when do I get jealous over a mission?
And then Eris appeared at Sy’s side, breaking the moment like a blade slicing through silk. “Would you do me the honor of a dance?” he asked, his voice smooth as he extended a hand toward her.
Azriel watched Sy’s reaction, a tight knot forming in his chest as she offered Eris a polite nod, her hand resting delicately in his as he led her to the center of the ballroom. Azriel felt the sting like a physical blow, his jaw tensing, though he kept his face a mask of cool indifference. But beneath the surface, his blood was boiling, a silent fury simmering as he watched Eris pull her into his arms.
As the music started, Azriel’s gaze never left them. He watched the way Sy moved, her body graceful and poised, every step smooth and fluid as if she were gliding. She was exquisite, a vision of elegance, and he felt his heart twist painfully at the sight. Eris had his hands on her, his gaze never leaving her face, and Azriel wanted nothing more than to storm over and pull her away. But he remained where he was, his body taut as a drawn bow, every fiber of him focused on the scene unfolding before him.
Eris’s hand rested lightly on her waist, guiding her through the steps, and Azriel’s gaze hardened as he watched. That should be me holding her, he thought, his fists clenching at his sides. He noted every smile, every gentle laugh that escaped her lips, each one searing itself into his memory as a reminder of the moments he wasn’t a part of. Yet he also couldn’t help but notice that her eyes didn’t shine quite as brightly as they had when they were talking before. She was polite, yes, but her warmth didn’t seem to reach Eris, her laughter softer, less genuine. It was a small comfort, a reminder that perhaps, even if she was dancing with Eris, her mind wasn’t fully there.
But then Eris’s hand began to slide lower, drifting just slightly down her back, his fingers inching dangerously close to the curve of her hip. Something snapped in Azriel, a white-hot surge of protectiveness, possessiveness, igniting like fire in his veins. His expression remained stone, but his entire body moved of its own accord, cutting through the crowd and reaching them before his rational mind could hold him back.
Without a hint of hesitation, he stepped onto the dance floor, his gaze fixed solely on Eris, his voice as cold as steel. “Eris,” he said smoothly, though there was an edge of command in his tone, “may I cut in?”
Eris arched a brow, the corner of his mouth tilting into a smirk as he met Azriel’s gaze. There was a challenge in his eyes, but he relented with a casual shrug, releasing Sy’s hand and stepping back with an exaggerated flourish. “All yours, Spymaster,” he drawled, casting one last lingering look at Sy before moving away.
Azriel took Sy’s hand, his fingers gentle yet firm as he pulled her into his arms. His touch was warmer than she’d expected, steady and grounding as he guided her into the dance. She looked up at him, her gaze uncertain, and he could see the question in her eyes, the hesitation mixed with something that looked almost like relief.
“You didn’t have to do that,” she murmured, though her voice held no trace of reproach.
“Maybe I did,” he replied, his voice barely above a whisper as he held her closer, guiding her through the movements. His hand rested just above the curve of her waist, his thumb grazing her spine in a barely-there touch that sent a spark of heat through his skin.
They moved together in silence, the music filling the space between them, though neither seemed fully aware of it. Azriel’s focus was entirely on her—the way her eyes caught the light, the softness of her lips, the gentle curve of her frame against his own. He found himself memorizing every detail, every nuance of her expression, every shift in her gaze as they danced. The warmth of her, the feel of her so close, it was intoxicating, stirring feelings he’d long since buried, emotions he wasn’t sure he knew how to handle.
He forced himself to keep his face neutral, though his heart hammered in his chest, each beat a reminder of the dangerous line he was treading. But he couldn’t bring himself to let go. Not yet. Not when he was finally holding her like this.
As the music swelled, he looked down, meeting her gaze fully, allowing himself to be vulnerable, just this once. “Sy,” he began, his voice soft, a hint of something raw slipping into his tone. But he faltered, the weight of his own feelings crashing over him, too much to put into words.
She looked up at him, her gaze searching, and for a moment, he felt as if she could see straight into him, past every wall, every shield he’d ever built. And he knew, in that instant, that there was no going back. This wasn’t a duty. This wasn’t an assignment.
This was something he could never walk away from.
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FATES BARGAIN
Chapter 3
AZRİEL
I stood back from the lively buzz of conversation, my arms crossed over my chest, shadows curling around me like a second skin. From where I lingered near the entrance of the River House’s courtyard, I had a clear view of her. Sy was with Feyre, Mor, and Elain, the three of them chatting animatedly with her. Feyre’s warm laugh echoed through the open space, Mor’s hands moving in expressive gestures, and Elain’s soft, encouraging smile aimed at Sy as she tried to draw her into the conversation.
But I wasn’t focused on what they were saying. No, my attention was on Sy herself—on the way she responded, the way she shifted nervously under their kindness, as if it was foreign to her. Her body language spoke volumes: the slight stiffness in her shoulders, the way her hands fidgeted with the fabric of her new dress, how she glanced down when the others’ attention turned too directly toward her, as if uncertain how to accept it.
There was something about her that held my attention, something that went beyond mere curiosity. It was a feeling I couldn’t quite place, like a word that hovered on the tip of my tongue but refused to be spoken. I told myself that I was simply doing my job—keeping an eye on a potential threat. After all, she was still an unknown element in our world, brought here by an ancient power with motives none of us could yet understand. That’s what I told myself. And yet...
I couldn’t ignore the way my gaze lingered on the way the evening light caught the subtle highlights in her hair, or how the dress she wore—the deep twilight blue—flowed around her in a way that made her seem as if she belonged to the shifting shadows of dusk. I hated that my attention kept drifting back to these details, these little things that had no bearing on the potential danger she posed. But they drew me in, nonetheless, as if there was a thread connecting us that I couldn’t untangle.
Rhysand and Cassian were nearby, talking in low voices. I could catch bits and pieces of their conversation—plans about the approaching tensions in the north, the rumors of unrest among the Illyrian camps—but the words barely registered in my mind. My shadows should have been trained on them, on the potential threats gathering beyond Velaris’s borders, but they hovered around Sy instead, drifting closer, as if drawn to the same quiet mystery that held my focus.
Cassian’s laugh broke through my thoughts, low and knowing, and I tore my eyes away from Sy just in time to see him smirking at me. He folded his arms across his broad chest, giving me that look—the one that said he knew exactly what was going through my mind, even if I hadn’t put it into words yet. “You’re staring, Az,” he said, his voice laced with amusement. “She’s got you all twisted up, doesn’t she?”
I shot him a sharp look, refusing to let his teasing get under my skin. “I’m watching her, Cassian,” I replied coolly, keeping my tone even, professional. “It’s my job to figure out whether she’s a threat or not. We still don’t know what brought her here, or what she’s capable of. It’s better if someone keeps an eye on her.”
But even as the words left my mouth, I knew they weren’t the whole truth. Yes, it was my responsibility to ensure that she didn’t pose a danger to Velaris, to Rhysand and Feyre, and to all those I swore to protect. But there was another reason I kept watching her, a reason that tangled in the shadows of my own thoughts, making it impossible to look away.
Cassian raised an eyebrow, the smirk deepening as he leaned in slightly, lowering his voice conspiratorially. “Right. And all those looks you’re giving her—the ones that seem to linger a little longer than necessary—those are just part of the job too?” He chuckled, his laughter a rough rumble that made my jaw clench.
I shot him a glare, but he wasn’t wrong. Even I could admit that. There was something in Sy that stirred a part of me I hadn’t expected—something that made me want to know what lay beneath the guarded glances and cautious smiles. But I couldn’t let myself go down that path. I couldn’t afford distractions. “Believe what you want, Cassian,” I muttered, turning my gaze back to Sy, trying to ignore the knot tightening in my chest. “She’s different. I’m just being thorough.”
Cassian’s laughter softened, turning into a more genuine, knowing smile. He clapped a hand on my shoulder, his grip firm but not unkind. “Sure, Az. Keep telling yourself that.” He paused, letting the silence stretch between us before adding, more quietly, “Just... don’t forget to let yourself be something more than the Spymaster once in a while. Not everything has to be a threat.”
I stiffened at his words, a familiar defensiveness rising in me. I shrugged off his hand, keeping my eyes on Sy as she laughed softly at something Mor had said, the sound delicate, almost fragile. It was a sound I hadn’t expected from her, and something about it made that knot in my chest pull tighter. “You’re imagining things,” I replied curtly. “I’m just doing my job.”
But even as I said it, I knew it wasn’t entirely true. Because in that laugh, in the way she seemed to carry a weight that matched my own, I saw a reflection of something that felt achingly familiar. A loneliness that I recognized, though I couldn’t explain why. And I hated that it called to me, that it made me want to reach out and understand it, even when I knew that letting myself care about her could only lead to trouble.
Cassian sighed, but he didn’t push the issue further. He turned back to Rhysand, their conversation resuming, but I could feel his knowing smirk lingering, like an itch at the back of my mind.
I forced myself to focus, to remind myself of why I was really here. She was an unknown, a question that needed answering. But as I watched her from across the courtyard, I couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like to understand the full story behind those guarded eyes, and why—despite every instinct that told me to keep my distance—I felt the pull to unravel the mystery of her presence.
And why, as she glanced my way again, her expression softening when our eyes met, I couldn’t quite bring myself to look away.
SY
As the conversation with Feyre, Mor, and Elain continued around me, I couldn’t shake the feeling of being watched. A tingling awareness crept along my skin, and despite the lively chatter of the three women beside me, I couldn’t ignore the weight of that steady gaze. It was like a pull—drawing my attention away from their words, coaxing me to look up.
So, I did. My eyes met Azriel’s across the courtyard, where he stood with Rhysand and Cassian. His posture was relaxed, arms crossed over his chest, but his focus was entirely on me. Those hazel eyes of his, shadowed and intense, seemed to see straight through me, unraveling secrets I wasn’t even sure I had. The air between us seemed to still, the sounds of the River House and the river itself fading into the background. It was as if, in that moment, the world had narrowed to just the space between his gaze and mine.
For a moment, I couldn’t look away. And it struck me then—just how undeniably handsome he was. I’d seen it before, of course, the sharp angles of his jaw, the strong lines of his shoulders, the way his dark hair fell just slightly into his eyes, giving him an untamed look that made my pulse race a little faster. But there was something more—something about the way he carried himself, a quiet strength that wasn’t loud like Cassian’s but still commanded attention. A charisma that lingered in the shadows around him, making him both mysterious and impossible to ignore.
It was unsettling how easily he could capture my focus, how my thoughts seemed to twist around him even as I tried to concentrate on the conversation with the others. I forced myself to tear my gaze away, turning back to Feyre, Mor, and Elain, who were discussing plans for the next day. I nodded along, but I could feel my mind wandering back to him, wondering what thoughts hid behind those watchful eyes, what made him so intensely aware of me.
I tried to engage in their conversation—Feyre was talking about a new art project she wanted to start, and Elain chimed in with suggestions about the flowers she could use as inspiration. I even managed a few comments of my own, but the entire time, I was aware of the steady beat of my heart, of the way my pulse seemed to quicken whenever I thought of the way Azriel had looked at me.
After a few minutes, curiosity got the better of me, and I dared to glance back in his direction, just to see if he was still looking. I expected to find him focused on Rhysand and Cassian, maybe leaning back into whatever serious conversation they were having. But instead, I caught him again—his gaze fixed on me, his expression unreadable. There was a flicker of surprise in his eyes when he realized I’d caught him staring, but he didn’t look away immediately.
A small, mischievous smile tugged at my lips before I could stop it, a silent acknowledgment that I had noticed him watching. Azriel’s reaction was almost immediate—his cheeks darkened with a hint of color, just enough to be noticeable, before he quickly turned his attention back to the conversation with his brothers. He pretended as though nothing had happened, his posture shifting as he murmured something to Rhysand, but I didn’t miss the way he seemed just a little too focused on appearing nonchalant, as if he could erase the moment with sheer willpower.
I bit back a laugh, a warmth spreading through my chest at the thought that I had managed to fluster him, even just a little. It was a small victory, but it left a pleasant flutter in my stomach, a reminder that beneath his stoic exterior, there was still something human—something that responded to me in ways that were beyond his control.
But as I turned back to the girls, I realized they hadn’t missed the exchange either. Mor’s eyes were alight with amusement, a knowing smirk playing on her lips as she tilted her head, studying me with a look that was far too observant. “So, Sy,” she began, her tone teasing, “did you enjoy the view over there?”
Feyre raised an eyebrow, a smile curling the edges of her mouth as she exchanged a glance with Elain. Elain, ever gentle, tried to hide her own amusement behind a polite cough, but the way her eyes sparkled gave her away. “You and Azriel seemed to be having a little... moment,” she said softly, though there was no judgment in her voice, just a kind curiosity.
Heat rushed to my cheeks, and I tried to shrug off their comments, though my smile must have given me away. “It’s not like that,” I mumbled, feeling a little flustered under their collective gaze. “He’s just... watching me because, well, I’m new here. It’s his job to be suspicious, right?”
Mor let out a laugh, her smirk widening as she nudged my arm playfully. “Oh, sure, let’s go with that. But I’ve known Azriel a long time, and I can tell you—he doesn’t usually get that distracted when he’s supposed to be working.”
Feyre’s smile turned a touch more sympathetic, though her amusement hadn’t faded. “He’s not easy to read, but... maybe you’ve caught his attention in more ways than one, Sy.”
Elain nodded, her voice gentle but curious. “There’s no harm in being curious about someone, after all. It’s... kind of nice, isn’t it? To know that someone is looking out for you?”
I hesitated, unsure how to respond. The warmth that lingered from Azriel’s gaze, from the way he had seemed so focused on me, left me feeling strangely exposed, but not in an entirely unwelcome way. “I don’t know,” I admitted quietly, my voice barely more than a murmur. “I think it’s more complicated than that.”
Mor’s smirk softened, and she wrapped an arm around my shoulders, giving me a gentle squeeze. “Complicated is just another word for interesting, isn’t it?”
I couldn’t help but smile at that, and as the conversation shifted back to lighter topics, I found myself glancing back toward Azriel one last time. He was focused on Cassian and Rhysand now, but there was a stiffness to his posture that hadn’t been there before, like he was still aware of the connection that had sparked between us, even if he was trying to ignore it. And though I didn’t know what any of it meant, I couldn’t help but wonder what might come of it—what secrets might lie behind those watchful eyes, and whether I was as much of a mystery to him as he was to me.
Feyre and Rhysand led me to the room where I’d be staying, their footsteps echoing down the quiet halls of the River House. The room was tucked into a distant wing, far from the heart of the home where the rest of them gathered. It was beautifully decorated, filled with rich, warm colors and thoughtfully chosen furniture, but the isolation was palpable. Feyre offered me a reassuring smile as we reached the door, a smile that mirrored the one she’d given me earlier when she’d hinted about Azriel.
“We don’t want you to think we’re trying to isolate you,” she said gently, her voice sincere. “This is just the only spare room we have, Sy. But the good news is, there’s someone in the room next door who can keep you company if you need it. Maybe you could knock on his door if you ever need anything.” There was a hint of mischief in her eyes, the kind that made my cheeks warm. It didn’t take a genius to figure out who she meant.
I ran cool fingers over my flushed cheeks, trying to dispel the heat that rose there. “Thank you, Feyre, Rhysand,” I said, trying to keep my voice steady. I managed a quick, flustered smile before retreating into the room, closing the door behind me with a soft click. “Good night,” I added, but they were already disappearing down the hall.
Inside, the room was as welcoming as the rest of the house. A large wardrobe stood against one wall, and when I opened it, I found the clothes Feyre had bought me earlier, neatly arranged alongside a few other outfits I hadn’t seen before. The thoughtfulness behind it warmed me—a reminder that, despite being a stranger, they had treated me with a kindness I hadn’t expected. It made me pause, thinking about the family I had left behind. How were they faring without me? What had become of my body back in my own world? Was it still lying in that hospital bed, or had they already said their goodbyes?
Pushing those thoughts aside, I walked out onto the balcony. The cool night air washed over me, carrying with it the scent of the river and the crispness of the mountain breeze. I leaned against the railing, staring out at the breathtaking scene before me. The Night Court’s skyline stretched out under a sky full of stars, more vivid than anything I’d ever seen back in my world. The mountains loomed dark and majestic in the distance, while the river wound its way through the city, reflecting the starlight like a ribbon of silver. It was so beautiful, so unreal, that I found myself holding my breath, afraid that if I blinked, it might vanish like a dream.
I closed my eyes, letting the night air fill my lungs, trying to center myself, to silence the tumultuous thoughts that kept circling in my head. But then a voice broke through the quiet, low and smooth as the river itself, startling me so much that I jumped.
“Rough day?” The male voice came from my right, and my hand flew instinctively to my chest, trying to steady my racing heart.
Azriel stood there, leaning casually against the doorframe of his own balcony, his arms crossed. He looked relaxed, almost amused, a small smile playing at the edges of his lips as he watched me with that familiar, unreadable gaze. His shadows lingered around him, curling in the darkness like smoke. How long had he been standing there? Long enough to have seen me lost in thought, that much was certain.
I let out a shaky laugh, trying to mask the way my heart still pounded in my chest. “You Illyrian males seem to have a hobby of sneaking up on me, don’t you?” I teased, forcing a smile to my lips, though I couldn’t quite shake the flustered feeling.
He arched a brow, his expression curious. “Males, plural? Who else has managed to scare you?” He didn’t move from his spot, but there was a subtle tension in the set of his shoulders, a tightness in his voice that hinted he didn’t like the idea of me being caught off guard by anyone else.
His handsome features were as still as stone, but I could sense the disapproval beneath his calm exterior. It was as if the idea that someone else might have shaken me irritated him more than it should. I bit my lip, wondering if I’d imagined the edge in his voice.
“Rhysand,” I replied with a small shrug, trying to play it off as casually as I could. “Earlier today, he did the same thing—caught me off guard, just like you did now.” I wasn’t sure why I felt the need to share that with him, why I wanted him to know, but the words tumbled out before I could stop them. Maybe it was the lingering effect of the conversations I’d had with Feyre and the others, the suggestion that there might be more to Azriel’s watchful gaze than mere duty.
He said nothing in response, but the silence between us stretched, thick with unspoken thoughts. His shadows shifted subtly, brushing against the air like whispers I couldn’t quite hear. I turned my gaze back to the stunning view before me, trying to focus on the night rather than the heat that his presence seemed to stir inside me.
I drew in a deep breath, the night air cool against my flushed skin, but my mind raced with questions. Could I have powers here, in this new world? What did Hekate truly want from me? How had I even managed to cross the veil between worlds? And what of my family—were they grieving, or had they already moved on from my absence?
Closing my eyes tightly, I tried to will the thoughts away, to quiet my mind. One step at a time, I reminded myself. Focus on what’s in front of you.
When I turned back around, thinking Azriel might have returned to his room, I found myself inches away from him, my chest bumping against his solid form. A surprised gasp slipped from my lips as I looked up, realizing he hadn’t gone anywhere—he had simply moved closer, quietly as always, standing just behind me. His presence was overwhelming, a wall of warmth and strength, and I felt as if I’d stumbled into a shadowed corner that was both safe and dangerous at the same time.
I tilted my head back, meeting his gaze. His hazel eyes shone like embers in the darkness, flecks of gold catching the faint moonlight. I could feel the shadows circling around us, brushing against my skin like curious fingers, but I was too caught up in the moment to care. A strange warmth coiled inside my chest, a heat that seemed to radiate from the closeness of his body, the nearness of his breath against my cheek. I couldn’t tell if it came from his proximity or from the way he looked at me, as if he couldn’t quite bring himself to look away, as if breaking the connection between our eyes would shatter something fragile.
We stayed like that for a heartbeat—two heartbeats—time stretching out between us until it felt like the world had stopped turning. He studied me with such intensity that it felt as though he was trying to read the secrets I kept hidden, trying to understand the thoughts I wouldn’t share.
I swallowed hard, my mouth suddenly dry, and somehow managed to find my voice. “Goodnight, Azriel,” I whispered, my voice barely more than a breath, the words shaky with a tension I couldn’t quite name.
His expression didn’t change, but I thought I saw a flicker of something in his eyes—something that matched the uncertainty fluttering in my chest. Then, he inclined his head, stepping back just enough to let me pass. I brushed past him, feeling the warmth of his presence lingering like a ghost as I made my way back into my room.
Once inside, I closed the door behind me, leaning against it for a moment as I tried to steady my breathing. My thoughts were a tangled mess, the memory of his gaze, the feel of his breath against my skin, playing over and over in my mind.
I changed into the soft nightclothes I’d found earlier, slipping beneath the blankets of the bed. But as I lay there in the dark, the memory of those hazel eyes refused to fade. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw them again, the way they had looked at me with an intensity that made my heart skip a beat.
I tried to banish the thought, turning over in bed, forcing myself to focus on my breathing—inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale—but it was no use. Images of Azriel kept slipping into my mind, the way he had seemed both infuriatingly composed and yet... something else. Something more vulnerable, more uncertain.
And as I finally drifted off to sleep, the last thing I saw in the darkness behind my eyelids was the memory of his face, framed in shadow, the hint of a mystery in those eyes that made me want to learn more. It was a dangerous thought, but as sleep pulled me under, I found that I didn’t want to let it go.
AZRIEL
Azriel stood in the shadows of his room, the flickering light from the hearth casting long shadows across the walls. He had been here for a while now, attempting to lose himself in the reports Rhysand had given him earlier—briefings on the unrest brewing beyond Velaris, rumors of trouble among the Illyrian camps. His role, his duty, was clear, and it was a role he had played without hesitation for centuries. But tonight, his mind refused to focus on the parchment in front of him.
Instead, his thoughts kept straying—to her. To Sy.
He had been observing her all day, ever since she had arrived. He had watched her carefully, his attention sharp, cataloging every flicker of emotion that crossed her face, every slight shift in her posture. He had told himself that it was necessary, that she was an unknown, a potential threat to his court. And yet, beneath that excuse, there was a restless curiosity that he couldn’t quite silence. He found himself wondering what lay behind her guarded expressions, what kind of life she had left behind, and what kind of strength had brought her here—strength that he hadn’t expected to find in someone so seemingly fragile.
He could still remember the way her laugh had sounded at dinner, light and uncertain, as if she was testing out how it felt to be part of a conversation again. He could still see the way her cheeks had flushed when she caught him watching her across the table, the way her smile had tugged at something deep inside him that he had long since buried.
Azriel sighed, running a hand through his hair, trying to push those thoughts aside. It was foolish—dangerous, even—to let himself get distracted by someone who might be gone from their lives as suddenly as she had appeared. And yet, despite his best efforts, her presence lingered in his mind, like the scent of rain on the air before a storm.
He had almost managed to convince himself to go back to the reports when a faint hint of her scent reached him through the open balcony door. It was subtle, but unmistakable—something warm and sweet, like the scent of a flower blooming in the shadows. Without thinking, he found himself drifting toward the door, drawn by that familiar pull that seemed to tighten every time she was near.
He stepped onto the balcony, the night air cool against his skin, and glanced to his right. There she was—Sy, standing just a few feet away on her own balcony, leaning against the railing as she stared out at the night. Her back was to him, her silhouette framed by the silver glow of the moon, the delicate fabric of her dress shifting in the evening breeze. She seemed lost in thought, her shoulders rising and falling with deep, measured breaths, as if she was trying to calm something inside herself.
Azriel watched her silently, his shadows curling around him like a protective cloak, blending him into the darkness. He knew he should probably turn away, leave her to her thoughts, but he found that he couldn’t. There was a vulnerability in her stance, a weariness that he recognized all too well. It stirred something inside him, something that made his grip on the shadows loosen, made him take a step closer, though he knew it was foolish.
Without thinking, he spoke, letting his voice drift through the stillness between them. “Rough day?”
She jumped at the sound of his voice, her hand flying to her chest as if to steady her racing heart. Azriel couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at his lips, the way her reaction amused him. It wasn’t often that he managed to catch people off guard—not like this.
She turned to face him, and even in the dim light, he could see the flush of color that crept into her cheeks, the way she tried to hide her surprise with a laugh. “You Illyrian males seem to have a hobby of sneaking up on me, don’t you?” she teased, her voice light and playful, though there was an edge of nervousness beneath it.
Azriel arched an eyebrow, tilting his head slightly as he studied her. “Males, plural? Who else has managed to scare you?” He didn’t move from where he stood, leaning against the edge of his own balcony, but he could feel a tension coiling inside him at the thought. The idea that someone else might have shaken her, might have made her feel vulnerable, stirred a possessiveness in him that he didn’t want to examine too closely.
She shrugged, brushing off his question as if it was nothing, but he caught the flicker of something in her eyes before she spoke. “Rhysand,” she said, her tone casual, but he could hear the undercurrent of something else—something that made his shadows tighten slightly. “Earlier today, he did the same thing—caught me off guard, just like you did now.”
Azriel’s jaw clenched, though he tried to keep his expression impassive. He knew it was irrational to feel a flash of irritation at Rhysand’s name—Rhys was his brother, his High Lord, and he had every right to interact with Sy however he pleased. But the thought that she had been surprised by Rhysand in the same way she had been by him, that she might have felt that same shock, that same flutter of awareness—it dug at him, more than he cared to admit.
He didn’t respond, letting the silence settle between them again, and she turned back toward the view, her gaze sweeping across the night-shrouded landscape. He could see the tension in her shoulders, the way her hands gripped the edge of the railing as if she was trying to anchor herself. He wondered what thoughts chased through her mind—what fears and uncertainties haunted her in this strange new world.
She took a deep breath, her eyes slipping closed, and for a moment, she looked so small, so lost, that it sent a pang through his chest. He wanted to reach out, to tell her that she wasn’t alone in facing those shadows, but the words stuck in his throat. He had never been good at offering comfort, not in a way that didn’t come with the sharp edges of his own darkness.
When she turned back toward him, her movements tentative, he realized too late that he had moved closer, that he had crossed the invisible boundary between their balconies without even noticing. She collided with him, her small frame bumping into his chest, and he froze, his breath catching at the sudden closeness.
Her eyes widened as she looked up at him, her surprise clear in the way her lips parted slightly, a soft breath escaping her. Azriel stared down at her, aware of every inch of space between them—or rather, the lack of it. He could feel the heat radiating from her skin, the warmth of her breath against his cheek. Her scent—something sweet and unfamiliar—washed over him, making his thoughts blur and tangle, like shadows caught in a rising wind.
His shadows curled around her, almost of their own accord, brushing against her skin like curious tendrils. He forced them back, but the closeness, the intimacy of the moment, made it harder to keep them in check. And despite his best efforts, he couldn’t look away from her, from the way her lips trembled slightly, from the vulnerability in her wide eyes.
She looked up at him, and in her gaze, he saw a reflection of his own uncertainty, his own struggle to find the right words. He could have moved back, could have turned away, but something held him there, something that whispered that if he broke this connection, if he pulled away, he might lose a chance he didn’t yet understand.
They stood like that for what felt like an eternity, caught in the stillness of the night, with only the distant murmur of the river breaking the silence. He could see her searching his face, and he wondered if she saw past the mask he wore, if she glimpsed the cracks that lay beneath.
She was the first to find her voice, her words barely a whisper. “Goodnight, Azriel.” Her voice trembled slightly, but there was a softness in it that brushed against the edges of his heart.
Azriel swallowed, forcing himself to nod, even though a part of him wanted to ask her to stay, to keep talking, to fill the silence between them with more than just secrets and shadows. But he let her pass, stepping back as she slipped into her room, her presence leaving a strange emptiness in the air behind her.
He watched the door close, standing alone on the balcony with only the night for company. His shadows whispered restlessly around him, carrying thoughts he refused to acknowledge, emotions he had buried too deep to name. He told himself that this was nothing more than curiosity, that she was an enigma to be solved, a potential danger that he needed to understand. But as he turned and slipped back into his own room, he couldn’t ignore the way his mind kept returning to the feel of her warmth against him, the way her eyes had looked when they met his.
He lay in the darkness for a long time, staring up at the ceiling, and all he could see was the memory of her, the way she had felt so solid, so real, pressed against him. And beneath it all, that quiet, unwelcome thought that maybe—just maybe—he didn’t want to look away.
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sinoramikss · 8 months ago
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Hey everyone, this is the part where I think Azriel's POV is going to make a lot of people happy!Enjoy, and don't forget to like my posts if you do!
AZRİEL
As they reappeared in the River House, Rhysand and Feyre on either side of her, Azriel’s eyes couldn’t help but follow Sy's movements. He watched as she steadied herself after the winnowing, a small smile tugging at her lips, her breath catching from the sudden shift. The dress she wore now—a twilight blue that flowed like water—hugged her form in a way that made him pause. The fabric draped over her curves, accentuating the line of her waist before cascading softly to her ankles. It suited her, he thought reluctantly, bringing out the gentleness in her eyes.
He kept his expression neutral, though his shadows betrayed him, swirling more restlessly around his shoulders. He reminded himself that this girl, this strange newcomer, was still an enigma—one they couldn’t fully trust yet. And yet, he couldn’t deny the strange pull he felt toward her, an attraction that he couldn’t quite explain. The way she looked at Velaris with a mix of awe and disbelief, the hesitant smile that hinted at a deeper well of hope—it drew him in despite himself.
As they made their way to the dining room, the others were already gathered. Cassian lounged casually in his chair, arms crossed as he smirked at Azriel and the newcomer. Nesta sat beside him, her posture straight and unyielding, watching Sy with an appraising look, her expression carefully blank. Elain, ever gentle, offered Sy a warm smile, the kind that seemed to welcome anyone into her circle. Across from them, Amren perched like a small but deadly bird, her silver eyes gleaming with curiosity as she took in their arrival.
The conversation flowed easily around the table as everyone settled in, and Sy’s presence among them seemed to gradually become a part of the rhythm of their interactions. Despite her earlier uncertainty, she began to relax, her answers to their questions becoming more genuine, her laughter joining the mix of voices. But Azriel noticed how she seemed to study each of them when she thought no one was looking, as if trying to memorize every detail of this new life.
“Is it always like this?” she asked softly after a while, a hint of wonder in her voice as she watched Cassian animatedly recounting a story from training. “The way you all are with each other?”
Rhysand leaned back in his chair, considering her question. “It’s not always this peaceful,” he admitted with a faint smile. “But yes, we’ve been through enough together to know how to enjoy the quiet moments when they come. Trust is something we value—something we’ve fought hard to earn.”
She nodded slowly, looking down at her plate, her fingers tracing the edge of her glass. Azriel caught the way her shoulders tensed at the mention of trust, a shadow passing across her expression. He knew that look too well—knew what it was to carry the weight of isolation, even among others. It made him wonder what kind of life she had left behind when she’d made that desperate bargain, what losses she carried beneath her polite smiles.
His shadows stirred with his curiosity, brushing against her like a whisper, but he pulled them back, keeping his face impassive. He couldn’t afford to let his interest show—not when there were still so many unanswered questions. But he couldn’t help the way his gaze lingered on her when she wasn’t looking, drawn to the way the candlelight played across her face, softening the lines of her uncertainty.
Elain noticed his distraction, her gentle gaze catching his as she tilted her head in silent question, as if to ask what he was thinking. Azriel gave her a small, barely perceptible shake of his head, signaling that now wasn’t the time. She smiled softly, understanding, but he could see the flicker of amusement in her eyes, as if she had caught on to more than he had intended.
“Did you find anything that surprised you about Velaris?” Amren’s voice cut through the chatter, her tone sharp and direct as she fixed her silver gaze on Sy.
Sy blinked, as if startled by the question, but quickly recovered. “More than I can say,” she admitted with a small, hesitant smile. “It’s like seeing a dream come to life.”
Mor leaned forward, her eyes gleaming with interest. “Well, let’s hope it stays that way. There’s nothing quite like Velaris when you first see it.” Her smile was genuine, but there was an edge to her words that made it clear she wasn’t entirely ready to trust Sy yet.
Nesta’s gaze was cooler, her expression unreadable as she studied Sy’s face. “Dreams can change,” she said, her voice low, a hint of warning threading through the words. “And so can the people living in them.”
Cassian nudged her playfully with his elbow, breaking the tension with a wink in Sy’s direction. “Don’t mind her—Nesta just likes to make sure everyone knows she’s keeping an eye on things.”
Sy managed a small laugh, but Azriel could see the uncertainty lingering in her eyes, the way she still seemed unsure of her place among them. And yet, there was a strength in the way she held herself, a quiet determination that made him think she wouldn’t back down easily, even in the face of so much doubt.
Rhysand, ever attuned to the undercurrents of a conversation, finally spoke up, his voice carrying a note of amusement. “I think our guest’s appetite is louder than her words, judging by the way her stomach keeps growling. Perhaps we should let her enjoy her meal before Cassian scares her off with another story.”
Sy’s cheeks flushed slightly, and she shot Rhysand a grateful, if embarrassed, look. “I wouldn’t say no to that.”
Azriel’s lips twitched into a faint smirk at her response, and when she glanced at him, he made sure to keep his expression neutral. But he couldn’t help the thought that crossed his mind—how she had slipped into their lives so unexpectedly, how she seemed to tug at something within him that he hadn’t felt in a long time. He knew better than to let it show, but as he watched her across the table, he couldn’t deny that her presence intrigued him more than he cared to admit.
As the meal continued, and the conversation turned to lighter topics, he let himself watch her just a little longer, wondering what secrets she still held—and what it might mean for them all in the days to come.
SY
Dinner continued in near silence, the only sounds being the soft clinking of silverware against plates and the occasional babbling of little Nyx, who sat in his high chair, making contented noises as he played with a piece of bread. My hunger, which had been gnawing at me all day, seemed almost unnatural now, considering I’d grown so used to going without food back in my world. I was surprised by how ravenous I’d become, and as I finished the last bite on my plate, I sank back into my chair, feeling the uncomfortable fullness settle in my stomach. A part of me worried that my new clothes, snug as they were, might start to feel tighter after such a hearty meal.
Rhysand’s voice broke the quiet, drawing my attention back to the table. “Sy, earlier Feyre asked if you had any powers in your world. You said you didn’t, but what about here?” His violet eyes studied me intently, a shadow of concern crossing his expression.
I blinked, caught off guard by the question. I hadn’t thought about it—hadn’t even considered the possibility. It was obvious that I wasn’t a High Fae, but I knew that some humans in this world had been granted powers under unique circumstances. My brows furrowed as I shook my head slowly. “I don’t know,” I admitted, my voice uncertain. “If I do have any abilities, I have no idea what they might be... or if I’d even know how to use them.”
My words seemed to stir something in Rhysand, his thoughtful expression deepening as he turned over the implications. Around the table, the others exchanged glances, their expressions varying from curiosity to concern. It was clear that none of them had considered this possibility before—not until now. The thought of me possessing some unknown power must have made them uneasy, especially considering that I hadn’t been brought here by the Cauldron, but by something much older, something ancient.
Rhysand’s gaze shifted to Amren and Nesta, a decision forming in his eyes. “Tomorrow, I want you both to work with Sy to see if there’s any way to determine whether she has latent abilities,” he instructed, his tone firm but calm. “If she does have any talents, it’s better for her to know—”
“—and better for us to know,” Nesta cut in, her voice sharp with a hint of disdain. Her words carried an edge that made her feelings clear—she wasn’t thrilled about my presence here, and she wanted to make sure I knew it. The hostility in her eyes was like a slap, but I kept my expression neutral, not wanting to give her the satisfaction of seeing how it affected me.
I offered a silent nod of agreement to Rhysand’s request, even though unease prickled at the edges of my mind. It wasn’t as if I had a choice—if there was a chance I had powers, it was better to understand them than to stumble blindly through whatever challenges this world might throw at me.
Rhysand then turned his attention to Azriel, who had been quiet throughout most of the meal, his shadows a restless presence around him. “And Azriel, I’ll need your help to teach Sy how to defend herself,” Rhysand added, his voice carrying a note of authority that brooked no argument.
For a brief moment, a flicker of uncertainty crossed Azriel’s face, so fleeting I might have missed it if I hadn’t been watching him so closely. He ran a hand through his raven-black hair, adjusting his posture before responding. “Wouldn’t Cassian be better suited for that task?” he asked, his tone measured, though I sensed a hint of reluctance beneath it.
“No,” Nesta interjected, her voice firm as she leaned forward, fixing Azriel with a fierce glare. Her hand landed on Cassian’s leg under the table, her fingers digging into his thigh as if to underscore her point. “He’s not the right person for this.”
Cassian winced at the pressure of her grip, letting out a hiss through gritted teeth. “Nesta,” he muttered, clearly pained by her display of possessiveness. But her gaze remained locked on Azriel, her expression daring him to argue further.
I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, avoiding the tension crackling between them. Studying the intricate patterns carved into the wooden table suddenly seemed like a safer option than meeting anyone’s eyes.
Rhysand’s gaze lingered on Nesta for a moment, as if weighing her unspoken reasoning, before he gave a slight nod. “Very well. Sy, you’ll train with Azriel after lunch each day. Mornings will be spent working with Nesta and Amren on discovering if you have any abilities.”
Nesta’s expression tightened, but she didn’t object. Perhaps she understood that pushing back would only lead to Cassian being assigned to work with me instead, and she seemed determined to avoid that outcome.
I hesitated, glancing around the table before voicing the question that had been gnawing at me since this discussion began. “And what if... what if I decide I want to leave?” I asked softly, barely more than a whisper.
Rhysand set down his wine glass, his brow furrowing as he considered my words. “If you truly wish to leave, Sy, you are free to go,” he replied, his tone even but tinged with a hint of warning. “But sending you out into Prythian as you are now, untrained and defenseless, would be no better than sending you to your death. And we don’t know what consequences your departure could bring—either for you or for us.”
He leaned forward slightly, resting his hands on the table, his expression serious. “So, for your sake and ours, I think it’s wise for you to stay as our guest for now. Learn the basics—learn how to protect yourself. Then, if you still want to leave, at least you’ll be able to survive beyond our borders.”
I swallowed hard, feeling the weight of his words settle on my shoulders. It was a logical argument—one I couldn’t easily dismiss. And yet, there was a part of me that bristled at the thought of being tied down, even temporarily. But looking around the table, at the faces of those who were reluctantly offering me a chance, I knew that staying was the smarter choice.
With a quiet sigh, I nodded, acknowledging the decision that had already been made. And as Rhysand turned back to his own meal, I couldn’t shake the feeling that my time in this world was only beginning—and that the path ahead would be far more treacherous than I had anticipated.
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sinoramikss · 8 months ago
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Hello everyone this is my first time writing fanfic its not a smut (for now). But we will see what’s gonna happen together. I recently finished reading ACOTAR and this idea came to me. What if I bargain with some old deity and find myself in ACOTAR universe.
And warning English is not my native.
As the night crept deeper into the woods, a cool breeze rustled the leaves overhead. Shadows danced between the trees, mingling with the gentle light of the stars. The forest was hushed, save for the occasional sound of wildlife skittering through the underbrush. But beneath the canopy, a figure lay in stillness—a traveler from a world that was no longer theirs.
Your body, fragile and motionless, rested on a bed of fallen leaves, arms spread out as if surrendering to the earth. The clothes you wore were unfamiliar in this land—fabric too strange, stitching too precise. The air around you held a peculiar scent, one that did not belong to this realm, as if the forest itself held its breath, aware of an intruder from beyond the known worlds.
Azriel was the first to sense it—a pulse of magic, foreign and faint. It brushed against the shadows that were his constant companions, a shiver in the fabric of reality. He landed quietly amidst the trees, his wings folding behind him, the air stirred only slightly by his descent. His face remained impassive, but his senses were alert, dark gaze scanning the surroundings.
Cassian followed not long after, his presence more obvious, the crunch of leaves under his boots echoing through the stillness. He moved with less caution, but no less focus, his battle-hardened instincts sharpened by the unfamiliar presence Azriel had felt. When he spotted your unmoving form, his brows furrowed.
"Is she dead?" Cassian asked, his voice low but carrying through the night air, as if he feared to disturb something sacred.
Azriel knelt beside you, his shadows curling around you like curious tendrils, probing for any sign of life. He placed two fingers against your neck, searching for a pulse. It thrummed faintly, weak but steady.
"No. But... she doesn’t belong here," Azriel murmured, his shadows whispering their secrets in his ear. He couldn’t pinpoint it, but there was something about you that did not match the cadence of this world, a dissonance in the magic that laced the air around you.
Cassian crossed his arms, staring down at you with a mixture of curiosity and caution. "What do you think she is? Some kind of spy? A trick from one of the other courts?"
Azriel shook his head, still studying you. "No. This magic... it's ancient, wild. Not from any court I know of." He tilted his head, listening to the way the shadows recoiled and danced. "It’s like she fell through from somewhere else. Someplace beyond the reach of our worlds."
Cassian shifted, unease pulling at his expression. "And she's just lying here, like she fell out of the sky. Hells, Az, what do we do with her?"
Azriel’s gaze softened, just a fraction, as he looked at your unconscious form. He could see the faint traces of suffering etched into the lines of your face, the exhaustion that clung to you even in rest. Whatever had brought you here, it had not been gentle. "We take her back to Velaris. At least until she wakes up and we get some answers."
Cassian hesitated, glancing back toward the way they had come. But he trusted Azriel's instincts, and if there was danger, they were more than capable of handling it. He let out a huff of breath, the decision made. "Fine. But if she turns out to be trouble, I’m blaming you."
Azriel only nodded, carefully slipping his arms beneath you. You weighed almost nothing in his grasp, your body limp against his chest as he lifted you from the forest floor. He noted the chill that clung to your skin, the way your head lolled against his shoulder, as if even in unconsciousness, you were seeking warmth. A pang of something unidentifiable tugged at his chest, but he dismissed it quickly.
With a shared glance, the two Illyrians took to the sky, Azriel cradling your form as Cassian kept watch over their surroundings. The wind rushed past them as they soared above the treetops, the lights of Velaris gleaming in the distance like a beacon. Beneath the starlit sky, you remained still, lost in a world between worlds, the faintest trace of a smile on your lips, as if you had finally found a kind of peace in leaving behind the life you once knew.
But in this new realm, your story was just beginning, and the choices you made would echo across more than one reality. And perhaps, somewhere in the shadows of your mind, the voice of Hekate whispered softly, reminding you of the price you paid to escape your old reality and of the new fate you had accepted.
The wind whispered through the night as Azriel and Cassian descended toward the River House, its stone walls glinting softly in the moonlight. The home, a refuge for those who belonged to the Inner Circle, now held a new mystery within its walls—you.
Azriel's landing was silent as he touched down just outside the doors, cradling your unconscious form gently against his chest. Cassian landed beside him with a heavier thud, his wings rustling as he folded them behind his back. They exchanged a brief glance before Azriel moved forward, nudging the door open with his shoulder.
Inside, the warmth of the River House was a stark contrast to the cool air outside. A fire crackled in the hearth, casting a gentle glow across the room, filling the space with a comforting warmth. Rhysand and Feyre were already waiting, alerted by the subtle shift in the wards when Azriel and Cassian had approached.
Rhysand leaned against the mantel, arms crossed over his chest, his violet eyes narrowed with curiosity as they fell upon you. Feyre stood at his side, her expression softer, though a crease of concern marked her brow. As Azriel carefully laid you down on a couch near the fire, Rhysand’s gaze turned speculative.
"Who is she?" Rhysand asked, his voice a low murmur that filled the space between them.
Azriel shook his head, stepping back from the couch as his shadows curled protectively around him. "I don't know. But whatever magic brought her here, it’s old, and it's not from Prythian. We found her in the forest—unconscious, as if she’d fallen through a crack between worlds."
Feyre moved closer, her eyes scanning your face, taking in the strange clothing and the pallor of your skin. There was a certain tenderness in the way she brushed a stray strand of hair from your face, noting the exhaustion that seemed to seep into every line of your expression. "She looks like she’s been through a lot," she observed softly, her voice tinged with sympathy.
Cassian scoffed, though it lacked any real bite. "She doesn’t look like much of a threat to me. But then again, we've been surprised before."
Rhysand tilted his head, considering, as if weighing the possibilities against the unknown. He stepped forward, his shadows curling subtly as he reached out with his magic, brushing lightly against the barrier of your mind, searching for answers without prying too deeply. But what he encountered was a tangled web—one that he could not unravel easily. It was as if the space between your thoughts was filled with echoes, like the remnants of a deal sealed in darkness.
He pulled back, his eyes narrowing slightly. "There's something blocking her mind—a barrier, or a spell. Whatever it is, it's old, and it feels like it was made to keep secrets. I can't get through it without risking her mind."
Feyre’s lips pressed into a thin line, her gaze shifting to Rhysand for a moment before returning to you. "Then we wait until she wakes up. Maybe she’ll tell us what she knows—what she is."
Cassian, who had been pacing impatiently, stopped and nodded. "In the meantime, I’ll stay on guard, in case she tries anything funny." He shot a half-teasing, half-serious look at Azriel. "If she attacks anyone, I'm blaming you, Az."
Azriel only rolled his eyes in response, but there was a small quirk to his lips as he looked back at you, a hint of something softer than his usual cold demeanor. "She’s not here to hurt anyone. I can feel it," he murmured, more to himself than to the others.
Feyre watched Azriel for a moment, then sighed. "She’ll need warmth and food when she wakes. I’ll have someone prepare something light, just in case." She moved toward the door, glancing back at Rhysand. "We’ll need to keep an eye on her, but we shouldn’t treat her like a prisoner."
Rhysand nodded in agreement. "Agreed. If she’s come to us through whatever magic brought her here, then it’s likely for a reason. We'll find out what it is when she wakes."
With that, they left Azriel and Cassian alone with you, the fire’s glow flickering softly across the room. Cassian leaned against the wall, arms crossed, keeping one watchful eye on you, though his expression was more curious than wary now. Azriel remained nearby, his gaze lingering on you with an intensity that seemed to go beyond mere curiosity.
He wondered what had driven you to accept a bargain so potent it could tear you from your reality. What had you left behind, and why? Perhaps he recognized a reflection of his own shadows in the emptiness you carried with you—a person burdened by a past that clung too tightly. But he pushed those thoughts aside, returning to the present as he watched over you.
And then, as the fire crackled softly and the River House settled into a quieter rhythm, your eyes fluttered open. Disoriented, you blinked up at the unfamiliar ceiling, the warmth of the room pressing against the chill that clung to your bones. For a moment, you couldn’t remember where you were—or, more precisely, when you were. You tried to sit up, but a wave of dizziness washed over you, and you slumped back against the cushions.
Azriel's shadowed figure came into focus beside you, his expression a careful mask of calm. "Easy," he said, his voice low and smooth, as if he were speaking to a wounded animal. "You’re safe here. Just rest."
You turned your head slightly, taking in the sight of Cassian leaning casually against the wall, his eyes narrowing as he studied you. There was a tension in the air, as if both of them were waiting for your next move—waiting for you to reveal what had brought you into their world.
Memories of Hekate's deal flashed through your mind—the darkness of her offer, the weariness that had driven you to accept it, and the promise of escape that had come at such a high price. You remembered the moment you closed your eyes and let go of your old reality, the sense of falling through the cracks of the world.
And now, you were here, surrounded by strangers with wings and eyes that seemed to see right through you. A strange sort of peace settled over you, even as uncertainty lingered at the edges. You met Azriel’s gaze, and though your voice was hoarse and barely more than a whisper, you managed to ask, “Where am I?”
Azriel exchanged a brief glance with Cassian before looking back at you. "You’re in Velaris. Safe, for now. But I think it’s time you tell us who you are—and why you’re here."
Your breath hitched as you tried to find the words, knowing that whatever you said next could change the course of your journey in this new world. But there was no turning back now, no retreating into the life you had left behind. You took a deep breath, your heart thudding against your ribs, and began to speak, hoping that this place, and these people, might hold the answers you sought—or at least a chance at a new beginning.
You shifted on the couch, trying to find a position that didn't feel so vulnerable under their sharp gazes. Your mind raced, balancing the weight of truth and the risk of lies. You knew Azriel's kind—someone who could cut through deceit with a single, probing look. But giving them everything might paint you as something you weren't: a threat, a fool, or worse, a spy.
So, you chose the path between, the shadows of half-truths.
"I... I'm not from around here," you began, your voice quiet but steady, each word carefully chosen. Azriel's expression remained unreadable, but Cassian raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced by your vague answer.
You shifted slightly, looking down at your hands as you tried to continue. "I made a mistake. A deal I didn't fully understand. It... took me away from my home, and I ended up here. I didn't choose this place. I just—fell through." You lifted your gaze, meeting Azriel's sharp eyes. "But I'm not here to harm anyone. I just want to understand what happened to me... and maybe find a way back. If that's even possible."
Azriel's shadows flared subtly, swirling around him as if responding to your words, but his expression betrayed nothing. "You speak in riddles," he said, his tone flat, but there was a thread of curiosity beneath it. "What kind of deal did you make? And with whom?"
You swallowed hard, trying not to let your nerves show. "A goddess. One that... offered me a way out when I thought I had no other choice. She promised me freedom but didn’t mention the price. And now, I’m here."
Cassian crossed his arms, his eyes narrowing. "Sounds like something a spy would say. A convenient story to hide your real intentions." He tilted his head, assessing you with a soldier's scrutiny. "If you’re telling the truth, then prove it."
You could feel the tension growing thicker between them, and your pulse quickened. "I don't know how to prove it," you said, your voice wavering slightly, though you tried to keep your tone steady. "I have no magic of my own—no tricks. Just... this." You gestured vaguely to yourself, as if that could convey the strange dissonance you felt within this world. "If I wanted to harm anyone, why would I have let myself be found, unconscious and vulnerable?"
Azriel held your gaze, his eyes like chips of ice, piercing through the dark. For a long moment, he said nothing, the silence stretching uncomfortably, until finally, he spoke, his voice softer, almost thoughtful. "You’re afraid. But not of us, are you?"
You hesitated, then shook your head slowly. "No... I’m afraid of what I left behind. And what might come looking for me."
Cassian frowned, glancing at Azriel, who seemed to consider your words carefully, weighing them like coins in his mind. After a moment, Azriel inclined his head, almost imperceptibly, a subtle acknowledgment.
"We’ll keep an eye on you until we know more," Azriel said, his tone carrying an edge of warning. "But if you have no ill intentions, then you have nothing to fear from us. Just remember, deception is a dangerous game to play here. We’ve had enough of that from the people we trust."
Cassian huffed but didn’t protest further, though his eyes remained wary. You nodded slowly, relief mingling with unease. It wasn't trust, not yet, but it was enough to keep you safe for the time being. And maybe, just maybe, it would be enough to unravel the threads of your strange new fate.
As the tension simmered in the room, the sound of soft footsteps approached, and a familiar presence filled the space like the calm before a storm. Rhysand and Feyre stepped into the room, their expressions curious yet cautious. Rhysand’s violet eyes swept over the scene, noting your wary posture and the unreadable expressions on Azriel and Cassian's faces.
Feyre’s gaze softened as she saw you struggling to sit up, your movements still sluggish from the exhaustion that clung to you. "She’s awake," she murmured, more to herself than anyone else, and she took a step closer, her tone gentle. "How are you feeling?"
You hesitated, feeling the weight of so many eyes on you, but there was a kindness in Feyre’s expression that made it a little easier to speak. "Better than I did in the forest, I guess," you replied, your voice rough from disuse. You glanced at Rhysand, sensing the power that he kept carefully reined in, like a storm just beneath the surface. His presence was as imposing as it was mesmerizing.
Rhysand offered a small, polite smile, though his gaze was as sharp as Azriel’s. "My friends tell me you have quite the story. One that brought you a long way from home." He tilted his head, studying you with a curiosity that seemed almost feline. "I’d like to hear it, if you’re willing to share."
Before you could answer, another set of footsteps echoed through the hall, more hurried and filled with a different kind of energy. Adrenaline rushed through the air as Mor emerged, her eyes flashing with a mixture of concern and intrigue. Nesta followed closely behind, her expression guarded, while Elain lingered near the doorway, her gentle presence like a balm against the tension.
Mor shot you a sympathetic look, but her curiosity burned brightly. "So, this is the stranger from another world," she said, more of a statement than a question. She folded her arms, glancing between Azriel and Rhysand. "What have I missed?"
Nesta, ever watchful, remained silent, but her eyes assessed you with the same scrutiny as the others. Elain, however, moved a step closer, her expression soft and welcoming, a slight smile curving her lips as she tried to put you at ease. "We’re not here to frighten you," Elain said quietly, her voice gentle like a summer breeze. "We just want to understand what brought you here."
You took a deep breath, feeling the weight of their attention, the unspoken questions hanging between all of you. It was time to unravel the tangled threads of your story—bit by bit, just enough to make sense of it all without giving away everything that lay buried beneath the surface.
You began slowly, your voice barely more than a whisper at first. "My world... it was suffocating. I was sick, in a way that made me feel like I was drowning every day. And then... she came. A goddess, Hekate. She offered me a deal—a chance to leave it all behind. To start over somewhere new, somewhere different." You hesitated, your gaze dropping to your hands, as if the memory of that dark bargain still lingered in your skin. "But I didn't realize what it meant. I thought I was just escaping my pain. I didn’t know it would mean abandoning everything—my home, my reality. That I’d end up... here."
The silence that followed was heavy, filled with the weight of your words and the uncertainty they carried. Rhysand's expression turned thoughtful, his eyes narrowing slightly as he considered what you had shared. Mor, meanwhile, leaned forward, her curiosity barely contained. "Hekate? That's a name I haven't heard in a very, very long time. She’s a tricky one—deals like that never come without strings attached."
Azriel and Cassian exchanged a glance, but it was Rhysand who spoke, his tone measured. "So, you’re telling us that you struck a bargain with an ancient goddess and ended up in our world by accident. But what we don’t know is why she chose you—and what she might want from you now."
You met his gaze, feeling the weight of his unspoken question: What makes you worth such a powerful deal? But you couldn’t answer that—not fully. Not when even you didn’t understand why Hekate had chosen you, or what her true motives might be. So, you chose another half-truth, hoping it would be enough.
"I think she wanted me to become something new. Someone who could move between worlds. But the cost... it was everything I knew. I woke up here, in your forest, with nothing but the clothes on my back. I don’t even know if she intends to call me back, or if she’s left me to figure out what comes next on my own."
Nesta’s gaze softened slightly, though she still held herself with a defensive edge. "And what do you want from us? Are you hoping we’ll send you back to her?"
You shook your head, your expression hardening, refusing to show any vulnerability. "No, I don’t want anything from you. I’m not here looking for a handout or a place to hide. I can take care of myself, and if I’m in your way, I’ll leave right now. Just point me in the direction, and I’ll figure it out on my own." Your tone held a defiant edge, even though uncertainty churned inside you.
Rhysand arched a brow, his gaze cool but curious as he studied you. "So, you’d rather take your chances out there, alone, in a world you don’t understand?"
You met his gaze, unwilling to back down. "Yes. I didn’t ask to be here, but I don’t need anyone’s pity or protection. I’ll find my own way, like I always have."
Feyre’s expression turned more sympathetic, a flicker of understanding crossing her face, but she didn’t interrupt. Mor looked like she might argue, but a look from Rhysand kept her quiet for the moment. Azriel’s shadows stirred, his expression unreadable as he watched you, as if searching for something deeper in your words.
Elain, still near the doorway, spoke softly, her gentle nature contrasting with the tension in the room. "You don’t have to do it alone. It’s not about pity... sometimes, people need each other. It’s okay to accept help when it’s offered."
You swallowed hard, but your resolve remained firm, your voice steady. "I appreciate the sentiment, but I’m not here to become someone’s charity case. I’d rather face whatever’s out there on my terms."
Rhysand studied you for a long moment, and then, with a slow nod, he seemed to reach a decision. "You’re free to leave whenever you wish, if that’s truly what you want. But we won’t cast you out without making sure you understand the dangers of this world. Stay for a few days, learn what you can—and then, if you still wish to leave, we won’t stop you."
Mor’s expression softened slightly, though she still looked frustrated by your stubbornness. Cassian shrugged, a wry smile playing at his lips. "Your funeral, if you ask me. But maybe you’ll come around to the idea of not running headfirst into the unknown."
Azriel remained silent, but his gaze lingered on you, as if he understood more than he was letting on. It wasn’t trust, not yet, but it was a tentative offer of understanding.
You let out a small, shaky breath, feeling the tug of conflicting emotions. It wasn’t what you wanted—to accept help, to let down your guard. But maybe, just maybe, a few days of safety would give you time to understand the tangled mess your life had become and decide what path to take next.
And in that moment, you found yourself caught between the stubborn pride that had kept you going for so long and the quiet, unfamiliar hope that maybe, just maybe, you wouldn’t have to face this new world entirely alone.
As the silence settled over the room, the decision hanging in the air like a delicate thread, Rhysand’s gaze softened ever so slightly, though the sharpness in his expression didn’t fade completely. He turned to address the others, a sense of command slipping into his tone. “Let’s give her some space. We’ve all had a long night, and she deserves time to make her decision without us hovering over her.”
Feyre nodded, offering you a final look of understanding before she gently touched Rhysand’s arm, guiding him toward the door. Mor hesitated, her curious gaze lingering on you, but she followed suit after a moment, though you could still feel the weight of her attention as she left.
Nesta, always guarded, gave you a long, considering look before turning away. Elain lingered the longest, her kind eyes holding a quiet hope, as if she wished she could somehow convince you to stay, but eventually, she too retreated with the others.
Cassian paused at the doorway, his lips quirking in a lopsided grin. “I’ll keep a spot warm for you if you change your mind about running off into the woods. But if you’d rather do things the hard way, well, you’ll fit right in with the rest of us.” He shot a wink your way, and then he was gone, leaving just you and Azriel alone in the room.
Azriel stayed back, his shadows swirling around him like curious spirits. He watched you with that piercing, unreadable gaze of his, the silence stretching longer than seemed comfortable. But he didn’t leave immediately, as if sensing that you had something left to say or simply offering you a moment to gather yourself.
You felt the need to break the silence, your stubbornness still warring with the uncertainty that gnawed at you. “You don’t have to stay and babysit me, you know. I’m not going to sneak out the window,” you muttered, trying to inject some semblance of humor into your voice, though it fell flat.
Azriel’s expression didn’t shift, but there was a slight softening in the shadows that danced around him, as if they found your stubbornness... amusing. “I’m not here to watch over you,” he replied quietly, his voice a low murmur that seemed to blend with the flickering shadows. “But if you plan to go, you should know that this world is not kind to those who wander alone. Especially those without allies.”
You looked away, staring into the fire as it crackled softly in the hearth. “I’ve never had allies. I’ve never needed them.”
Azriel’s silence was contemplative, the shadows swirling closer as if whispering secrets to him. “Maybe not. But perhaps it’s time you learn what it means to have people who don’t see you as a burden.” He turned then, his wings shifting subtly as he moved toward the door, his back to you. “Think on it. When you’re ready, you’ll find us nearby.”
He left without another word, the door closing softly behind him, leaving you alone with the sound of the crackling fire and your own tangled thoughts. The warmth of the room seemed to press in on you, reminding you of the unfamiliar comfort you hadn’t asked for but found yourself reluctant to abandon.
You leaned back against the cushions, staring up at the ceiling as you tried to untangle the threads of confusion and defiance that knotted inside you. Part of you still wanted to flee, to run headlong into whatever awaited outside, to prove that you didn’t need anyone’s help. But another part, the quieter, wearier part, whispered that perhaps there was more to be found here—answers, maybe even a chance to redefine what your life could become.
And so, for the first time in a long while, you allowed yourself to consider the possibility that staying—if only for a little while—might not mean surrendering your pride. It might mean gaining the time you needed to find out who you were in this new world and what Hekate’s deal truly meant for you.
With a sigh, you closed your eyes, letting the warmth of the fire lull you into a restless sleep, your mind drifting with thoughts of the unknown paths that lay before you. And as you slipped into dreams, a shadowed figure stood watch outside the River House, his sharp eyes scanning the night, ensuring that no harm would come while you decided whether to stay or go.
And as you slept, the night outside the River House remained still, cloaked in a veil of quiet tension. Azriel, true to his nature, kept his vigil just beyond the threshold, shadows curling around him like a living mantle. His gaze swept across the river and the distant lights of Velaris, but his thoughts lingered on you—the stranger from another world, full of defiance and uncertainty.
In the darkness, he considered the many secrets you still held close, the tangled story you had only begun to unravel. He understood the weight of a past that refused to be left behind, the reluctance to lean on anyone when you had learned to survive on your own. But he also sensed the threads of something more in your stubborn determination, a potential that made him curious in a way he hadn't been in a long time.
Inside, the warmth of the fire slowly lulled you into deeper sleep, but your dreams were filled with half-formed images and whispers that felt like echoes of the life you had left behind. Faces blurred, places faded, until all that remained was the memory of Hekate's voice, her promise reverberating through the shadows of your mind.
You wanted freedom, little wanderer. Now you must learn what it means to be free.
Her words, cryptic and cold, seemed to twist through your dreams like smoke, leaving you grasping for meaning. You turned restlessly on the couch, murmuring quietly as you drifted between sleep and waking, aware of the quiet but powerful presence beyond the door, even if you couldn’t see him.
In the morning, the sun would rise over the river, casting its first light across the city of Velaris, and you would have to face the decision you had yet to make. Stay, and risk the vulnerability of accepting help—or go, and carve out your place in this new world on your own terms.
But for now, as the night held its breath, you remained suspended in the space between, your fate not yet written, your heart caught between fear and the faintest glimmer of hope.
The first rays of dawn filtered through the windows, casting a soft glow across the room. I awoke to the sight of Elain’s curious and concerned expression hovering above me. Her eyes were wide with a mixture of wonder and worry, and I could only imagine how strange it must have been to discover a girl who had seemingly fallen from the sky.
I knew this world—perhaps more than anyone here could guess. I had read its stories, knew who these people were, and understood exactly where I had landed. But despite my familiarity with the place, I had no idea what awaited me in this reality. What twists my presence here might bring, and whether I would manage to carve a place for myself or remain an outsider forever.
Elain’s gentle smile spread across her face as she noticed me stirring. “Good morning,” she greeted, her voice as warm as the sunlight streaming through the windows. I shifted on the couch where I had slept, and only then did I realize how uncomfortable it had been. My neck and back ached with stiffness, and I winced slightly as I tried to sit up, rubbing my temples to ease the dull throb of a headache.
I forced a small, grateful smile, mirroring Elain’s kindness. “Good morning,” I replied, my voice a little rough with sleep. She seemed to brighten at my attempt to match her cheerfulness, and I appreciated the effort she made to ease the awkwardness of waking in an unfamiliar place.
The thin blanket that had been draped over me slipped off as I moved, gathering in a heap at the foot of the couch. I swung my legs over the side, struggling to push myself upright. But before I could make much progress, the sound of soft footsteps approaching caught both our attention. We turned toward the doorway, where the familiar silhouette of Feyre appeared.
She smiled warmly, a gentle expression that echoed her sister’s, though there was a hint of curiosity behind it. “Are you ready for breakfast?” she asked, her tone light and welcoming, as if she were speaking to an old friend rather than a stranger from another world.
I hesitated, but the rumble of hunger in my stomach answered for me. I gave a small nod, unable to find the words, and let the exhaustion of the night slip away as I rose from the couch. I smoothed down my rumpled clothes, trying to maintain some semblance of dignity despite the awkwardness of the situation.
Elain and Feyre waited patiently, and as soon as I was steady on my feet, they led me out of the room and down the hall toward the dining area. The morning air was cool against my skin, the scent of fresh bread and tea wafting from the nearby kitchen, mingling with the sweet fragrance of the river beyond the windows.
As we approached the dining room, my steps slowed, realizing what awaited on the other side of the door. The entire Inner Circle—those figures I had only known through pages and imagination—were likely gathered within, waiting to see what the morning would reveal about their unexpected guest.
Feyre shot me an encouraging smile over her shoulder, as if sensing my hesitation, while Elain gently reached out to give my arm a reassuring squeeze. I took a deep breath, steeling myself, and followed them through the doorway.
Inside, the dining room was bathed in the golden light of morning, casting a warm glow over the long wooden table. As I had expected, they were all there—Rhysand seated at the head of the table, his expression unreadable but curious. Cassian lounged comfortably in a chair, though he shot me a lopsided grin as I entered, while Azriel stood near the window, his shadows whispering quietly around him. Mor’s eyes sparkled with curiosity, and even Nesta, though more reserved, watched me with an intensity that made it clear she hadn’t let down her guard.
Elain and Feyre guided me to a seat, and I sat down gingerly, aware of the weight of every gaze upon me. The food laid out on the table looked simple but inviting—warm bread, fruit, cheese, and a pot of steaming tea. The aroma filled the air, making my stomach clench with hunger, but the tension of the room kept my appetite in check.
Rhysand’s lips quirked into a small smile, and he inclined his head slightly. “Please, eat. You’ve had a long night, and there’s plenty to go around.”
I hesitated, glancing at the others, but eventually, I reached for a piece of bread, my fingers trembling slightly as I broke off a bite. The warmth of it soothed some of the lingering cold in my chest, and I took another breath, trying to steady myself.
Cassian leaned forward, his elbows on the table, and gave me a half-teasing, half-serious look. “So, how does a girl fall out of the sky and end up in the middle of our forest?” His tone was light, but I could sense the sharp edge of curiosity beneath it.
I swallowed the bite of bread, feeling the weight of the question settle in the room. All eyes were on me again, waiting for an answer, waiting for me to explain the impossible. I glanced briefly at Elain, who offered me an encouraging nod, before meeting Cassian’s gaze.
“I’m still trying to figure that out myself,” I replied, my voice carefully measured. “All I know is that I made a choice—to leave behind everything I knew. But I didn’t expect to end up here, in your world.” I hesitated, then added, “But I don’t intend to be a burden. If you want me to leave, I will. I can take care of myself.”
The table fell into a thoughtful silence, each of them processing my words in their own way. Rhysand’s gaze grew more contemplative, as if weighing the implications of what I had said. Mor’s lips twitched into a faint, intrigued smile, while Azriel’s shadows seemed to dance around him, though his expression remained as inscrutable as ever.
Elain’s hand rested gently on mine, a silent reassurance that not all of them viewed me as an outsider. But even as I sat among them, surrounded by warmth and light, I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was still standing on the edge of something vast and unknown, unsure of what my next step would be.
And for now, all I could do was wait and see what this new morning—and the people seated around that table—might bring.
Rhysand leaned back slightly in his chair, a knowing smile playing at the corners of his lips. “What we discussed last night still stands, Miss…” He trailed off, his tone polite yet probing, as if waiting for me to fill in the blank.
It struck me then—amidst all the confusion, no one had even asked my name. It made sense, I supposed, given the strangeness of my arrival and the circumstances of the night before. And I, for my part, hadn’t thought to offer it. I already knew each of them, but of course, they had no way of knowing that.
A brief wave of anxiety washed over me, my mind racing for an answer that wouldn’t give away too much. I straightened in my chair, trying to appear composed as I quickly responded, “Sy. You can call me Sy.”
Rhysand’s eyebrow arched slightly, a flicker of curiosity passing through his violet eyes, while the rest of the table exchanged subtle glances, as if they were weighing the sound of the name, trying to find its hidden meanings.
I forced a small, casual smile and continued, rushing to explain before they could question further. “It’s short for my full name—it’s... a bit difficult to pronounce. So, Sy works fine. Just call me that.” My words tumbled out in a breathless rush, my fingers fidgeting with the edge of the napkin on my lap.
There was a moment of silence, the kind that makes your skin prickle with the weight of unspoken questions. Mor tilted her head, studying me with an amused glint in her eye, while Cassian’s expression turned thoughtful, as if he was filing away every detail I had given. Azriel remained in the shadows, his face a mask of calm, but I could feel his gaze, like a cool breeze brushing over my skin.
Feyre offered a kind smile, breaking the tension. “It’s nice to meet you, Sy,” she said softly, the sincerity in her voice making the simple statement feel more meaningful than it should have. Elain nodded beside her, her gentle smile never wavering.
With the attention shifting slightly away from me, I glanced down at the food on the table, grateful for the distraction. The rich smell of warm bread and fresh fruit was a comforting contrast to the tension that hung in the air. I took a slow, deliberate breath, trying to steady the racing of my heart as I reached for a slice of fruit.
Rhysand’s voice, though softer now, still carried a thread of curiosity as he spoke again, drawing my attention back to him. “Sy, then. Last night, you mentioned you had made a choice to leave behind your world. I’d like to know more about what that means—if you’re willing to share.”
I hesitated, my fingers pausing over the piece of fruit, feeling the weight of the question press against me. This was the moment I had been dreading, the one where I would have to give them more than just half-truths if I wanted to earn their trust—or at least convince them that I wasn’t a threat.
But before I could respond, Cassian leaned in, his elbows resting on the table as he shot me a lopsided grin. “Relax, Sy. We’re not interrogating you... yet.” His attempt at humor was meant to ease the tension, but it only highlighted the scrutiny I was under.
I managed a weak chuckle, though it sounded hollow even to my own ears. “I’ll do my best,” I replied, glancing between them, searching their faces for any sign of malice or hidden agendas. But all I found was a mix of curiosity, caution, and—surprisingly—concern.
I gathered all my strength, forcing the words past the knot in my throat. “I... I made a deal with Hekate, like I mentioned last night.” Even that single sentence felt like it took all the air from my lungs, leaving me breathless. I swallowed hard, trying to clear the tightness in my chest. Everyone’s eyes were on me, watching, waiting, but I couldn’t bring myself to meet any of their gazes. Instead, I focused on the tabletop, on the way my hands trembled slightly as I continued.
“I was facing a terrible illness, one that left me with no hope. In my world, we don’t have gods like you do here—not many, at least. But we have stories, tales of ancient deities long forgotten, like the ones from myth.” A broken smile flickered across my face. Even now, the reality of Hekate’s existence felt impossible to grasp, but being here—truly here—left me with little room for doubt. I took another shaky breath and pressed on.
“My family... they believed in our modern god. But I always loved those stories of ancient gods and goddesses, even when I was a little girl. I’d spend hours reading about them, imagining what they might be like. Then, as I was lying in my sickbed, barely able to get up anymore, I found one of those old books I used to read as a child. It was about Hekate—how to worship her, how to ask for her help.” My voice wavered, the memory sharp and painful, yet tinged with an odd sort of nostalgia.
“When I read it as a child, I hadn’t understood any of it. But reading it again, as an adult—well, I saw things differently.” I forced out a dry, humorless laugh. “At my last doctor’s appointment, they told me I didn’t have much time left. My family had given up hope, and to be honest, so had I. So, I decided to call out to her, Hekate, from my sickbed. I thought, ‘What could go wrong?’ I was willing to try anything if it meant escaping the pain.”
My voice faltered, and I felt the burn of tears welling in my eyes, memories of those days flooding back—memories I had hoped to leave behind. I blinked rapidly, trying to keep the tears at bay, but a few escaped, rolling down my cheeks. I wiped them away with the back of my hand, taking a deep, shuddering breath to steady myself before continuing.
“That night, when I fell asleep, I found myself in this place—darkness all around me, thick and suffocating. It felt like I’d reached the end, like this was what everyone had been waiting for: my final moment.” I paused, struggling to put the next part into words, the vividness of it still haunting me. “But then, a small light appeared in the darkness—blood-red, like a drop of crimson ink spreading through the void. And then she was there. Hekate.”
I closed my eyes tightly, trying to block out the memory of her face, but it lingered in my mind like a shadow. “At first, I didn’t understand who she was or what she wanted. We didn’t speak, not right away. But then she smiled, and she asked me what I wanted. I told her, ‘Take away the pain, please.’ She asked what I was willing to give in return, and I... I begged for another chance, somewhere else, some other time—anywhere but there. I just wanted the pain to end.”
A shiver ran through me as I remembered the way she had smiled, her lips curving in a way that seemed to hold all the secrets of the universe. “I can’t forget that smile. She just looked at me and said, ‘Very well.’ And then... then I woke up here, in your forest.”
The room fell into a heavy silence, each word echoing back at me like a reminder of the choices I had made. I forced myself to look up, to meet the eyes of the people around the table. Mor’s expression had softened, the curiosity in her gaze now mingled with a glimmer of sympathy. Elain’s face was open, her eyes filled with kindness, as if she could feel the weight of every word I’d spoken.
Cassian shifted in his chair, his usual bravado tempered by a trace of something more serious. Azriel’s face remained unreadable, but his shadows seemed to draw closer, whispering secrets only he could hear. Feyre’s lips pressed into a thin line, as if she was considering what I had said, turning over each detail in her mind. And Rhysand—his expression was still thoughtful, but his eyes held an understanding that went deeper than I had expected.
“You made a desperate choice,” Rhysand finally said, his voice gentle but firm, like the steady pull of a tide. “And you paid a price for it. But that doesn’t mean you have to face this alone now.”
I shook my head, the old fear rising up in me again. “I don’t know what she wants from me, Rhysand. I don’t know why she sent me here, or if she plans to come for me again. Maybe... maybe she’s just waiting to see if I’ll survive this new life, or if I’ll break under the weight of it.” My voice cracked, and I bit my lip to keep it from trembling.
The moment Rhysand’s name slipped from my lips, I bit down on my tongue, cursing myself inwardly. Azriel’s hazel eyes snapped toward me, sharp and unyielding, like those of a hawk spotting its prey. Shadows unfurled around him, curling and weaving through the air as if ready to close in on me. Cassian, Feyre, and Mor exchanged puzzled looks, their expressions shifting from surprise to suspicion as they focused their attention on me. Elain, caught between concern and curiosity, glanced at her friends’ faces, trying to understand the sudden shift in the room’s atmosphere.
Nesta, however, stood a little apart, her mate beside her, a mocking smile playing on her lips as she met Cassian’s gaze, sharing an unspoken thought. The tension was palpable, hanging thick in the air like a brewing storm.
Rhysand leaned back in his chair, settling more comfortably, though there was nothing relaxed about his posture. His eyes had grown darker, shadows playing across his features as he studied me. “I don’t recall ever telling you my name, Sy,” he said, his voice as smooth as silk but carrying an unmistakable edge.
There it was—accusation and doubt laced in his words, suspicion seeping into every syllable. He thought I might be a spy, someone sent to infiltrate their circle, to learn their secrets. Perhaps even a pawn of Eris or Tamlin, playing a role in some scheme. I could see it in his gaze, the way his mind calculated the possible threats, how each piece might fit into a dangerous puzzle.
I opened my mouth, desperate to explain, but the words died on my tongue. How could I possibly justify this? How could I tell them that, in my world, they were characters in a story I had read—heroes and villains who existed only within the pages of a book? Saying that aloud would only make me sound mad, and it certainly wouldn’t help my case now.
But lying was just as dangerous. Azriel’s shadows twitched around me, as if sensing my indecision, ready to tighten their hold should I say something false. Deception would only dig me into a deeper hole, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to claw my way out of it.
I swallowed hard, my thoughts racing as I tried to find some middle ground—some way to explain enough without revealing too much. I could feel my pulse hammering in my ears, and I forced myself to hold Rhysand’s gaze, hoping that some semblance of honesty might buy me time, might keep me from being seen as an enemy. But how much could I afford to say before they turned their suspicions into action?
And there, in that moment, with all eyes fixed on me, I realized that this might be my only chance to find some thread of trust among them—or to lose it entirely.
I took a shaky breath, my mind still spinning with possible explanations, none of them good enough. My palms felt clammy as I clenched them into fists, pressing them against my legs to keep my hands from shaking. Rhysand’s eyes bore into mine, unyielding, waiting for an answer that might prove my innocence or seal my fate.
“I... I’m not a spy,” I stammered, the words coming out before I could fully think them through. “I swear, I’m not here to harm any of you.”
Azriel’s shadows twitched closer, brushing against my skin like a cold breeze, as if testing the truth of my words. His expression remained impassive, but his shadows were far less forgiving, tightening their circle around me. Cassian shifted in his chair, his playful demeanor gone, replaced with the focused scrutiny of a warrior. Mor crossed her arms, her gaze sharp and unrelenting, while Feyre’s expression softened just a fraction, though wariness still lingered in her eyes.
Rhysand’s lips curled into a tight smile, but it held no warmth. “Then explain it to us, Sy. Explain how you know my name when I never gave it to you. Explain why you seem to know more about us than a simple stranger should.”
My heart pounded faster, a frantic rhythm against my ribs. How could I make them believe me without sounding completely insane? I couldn’t tell them the full truth—that in my world, they were fictional, their lives woven into stories that people devoured hungrily. It would sound like a bad joke or the ramblings of a madwoman, and it wouldn’t change the suspicion already festering in their minds.
But there was no point in holding back now. If I didn’t give them something, they’d assume the worst anyway. I licked my dry lips and tried to speak, my voice trembling but steadying as I went on. “I can’t explain it in a way that will make sense... but where I come from, there are stories about you—about all of you. Stories that people know and read. They tell of your lives, your battles, your home here. They know your names, your faces.”
Rhysand’s expression remained unreadable, but his posture stiffened. He glanced briefly at Azriel, who held my gaze with an intensity that made it feel like he could see into my very thoughts. Cassian’s frown deepened, while Mor seemed caught between disbelief and intrigue. Nesta’s smile faltered, replaced with a scowl as if she didn’t know whether to laugh at the absurdity of my words or take them seriously.
Feyre’s brows furrowed, her hand twitching slightly, as if she wanted to reach out but held herself back. “Are you saying... that we’re some kind of... legend? That people from your world know about us?” Her voice was softer than Rhysand’s, more curious than accusatory, but the doubt was clear.
I nodded slowly, trying to find the right words to make this sound even remotely plausible. “Yes. I don’t know how it’s possible, but it’s the truth. I knew who you were before I even arrived in this world. I know some of what you’ve been through, the battles you’ve fought, the choices you’ve made... because I read about them.”
Mor let out a breath, an incredulous laugh escaping her. “So, let me get this straight—you’re telling us that you’ve read our lives like some sort of fairy tale in your world?”
I winced at the way she phrased it, knowing how absurd it must sound to them. “It’s more than a fairy tale, but... yes, in a way. It’s as if I knew you before I ever came here. But it’s not... everything.” I glanced down, my voice lowering. “There are gaps, things I don’t understand. It’s not like I know your every thought or intention.”
Rhysand studied me for a long moment, his face a mask of concentration. “If that’s true, then how can we trust that you’re not here to use that knowledge against us? How do we know you aren’t working with someone who would harm this court?”
Desperation crept into my voice as I leaned forward, trying to make them see the sincerity in my words. “Because I don’t have anyone to work with! I don’t know how I got here, or why Hekate chose me. I just wanted to escape the life I had, to find a way to survive. I never intended to be a threat to any of you.”
Azriel’s shadows tightened further, brushing against my arms, my neck, like a warning. “You could be lying,” he murmured, his voice as cold as the touch of his shadows. “It wouldn’t be the first time we’ve encountered someone with hidden intentions.”
I shivered, not just from the chill of his shadows but from the realization that I might be digging my own grave with every word. I forced myself to meet his gaze, my voice barely more than a whisper. “I know you have no reason to believe me. But I swear, I don’t want to harm anyone. I just want... to understand what’s happening to me.”
Feyre’s gaze softened slightly, a hint of empathy in her expression as she looked between me and her mate. Rhysand’s jaw tightened, and for a moment, I thought he might dismiss my story outright, cast me out or worse. But instead, he leaned forward, resting his hands on the table, his eyes locking onto mine.
“If you truly have knowledge of our world, then you’ll understand why we can’t take your presence lightly,” he said, his tone measured. “We’ve faced enough deception to know that trust isn’t given freely. But I’m willing to give you a chance, Sy. A chance to prove that you aren’t the enemy you might appear to be.”
He turned to the others, his gaze sweeping over each of them before settling back on me. “But know this—if you betray that trust, if you turn out to be a danger to this court or its people, there will be consequences. Do you understand?”
I nodded slowly, my throat dry and tight with the weight of his words. “I understand.”
Rhysand’s expression remained unreadable, but he gave a small nod, as if the matter was settled for now. He glanced at Azriel, who reluctantly eased his shadows back, though the tension between us remained, a reminder that this fragile truce could shatter with a single misstep.
Cassian huffed a breath, breaking the silence with a sardonic smile. “Well, this should make things interesting.” He shot me a look that was almost teasing, though his eyes still held a flicker of suspicion. “Welcome to Velaris, Sy. I hope you like surprises.”
Mor shook her head, a bemused smile tugging at her lips. “Of all the strange things we’ve seen, this one might take the cake.”
Elain remained quiet, her gaze still filled with that gentle curiosity, as if she wanted to understand every piece of my story before forming her judgment. Nesta, however, simply crossed her arms, her eyes narrowed as she watched me, no trace of her earlier amusement left.
I took another breath, trying to steady the racing of my heart. It wasn’t trust—not yet. But it was a chance, and for now, that was more than I could have hoped for. And as I looked around the room at the faces of those who would determine my fate, I knew that this fragile alliance was all that stood between me and the unknown dangers of this new reality.
It wasn’t safety, not yet. But it was a beginning. And that, for now, was enough.
After the intense interrogation over breakfast, the atmosphere gradually shifted. It was as if I had always been there, just another person at their table. The conversation flowed around me, and everyone resumed their meal, discussing their plans for the day, and bantering in a way that felt strangely normal. A few minutes later, the door to the dining room opened, and in came a toddler cradled in the arms of his nanny. Nyx.
Excitement rippled through the room as Rhysand, Feyre, and the others turned their attention to the little boy. He was even more beautiful than the stories had described—his mother’s pale skin and his father’s striking, vivid eyes. It was easy to see that he would break hearts when he grew older. With a delighted squeal, Nyx stretched his chubby arms toward his father, and Rhysand immediately reached out, pulling his son into a warm embrace. The sight of him holding his child softened the tension that had settled over the room, a rare, tender moment that I couldn’t help but watch.
Feyre observed her husband and son, her expression gentle, but then her gaze flicked to me, her curiosity sharp. “Nyx... was he in those books of yours too?” she asked, her tone carefully neutral, but the look in her eyes betrayed a mother’s worry—a need to know what the future might hold for her child.
I hesitated for a moment, then nodded, offering a small, tentative smile. “Yes, he was. But only as he is now, Feyre. I’m sorry, but I don’t know anything about what’s to come. I don’t know your futures.” My words were sincere, my gaze shifting to Rhysand and Nyx, who were still lost in their own world. “I wish I could say something to ease your fears, to give you certainty, but I can’t.”
Feyre’s expression softened into a sad smile, as if my honesty held a comfort of its own, even if it wasn’t the reassurance she’d hoped for. The rest of the meal passed without incident, a strange sense of normalcy settling over the room despite the tension that still lingered in the air.
After breakfast, I returned to the couch where I had slept, only to find that my belongings had already been neatly packed away. It seemed that the time for introductions and casual conversation was over. When I re-entered the room where they had gathered, it was clear that the real conversation was about to begin.
Rhysand had taken a seat in an armchair by the window, his silhouette framed against the morning light. The others arranged themselves around the room, each choosing a spot that allowed them a clear view of me, their expressions serious. It felt like being in the center of a storm, all their attentions converging on me with quiet intensity. Whatever lay ahead, it was clear that this would be more than a simple chat.
Trying to hide my unease, I took a seat in an empty chair beside Azriel, his shadows still curling subtly at the edges of the room. He watched me with that same, unreadable look, as if weighing every detail of my presence.
Rhysand’s voice broke the silence, his tone serious. “If you’ve decided to stay here, then there are things we need to discuss, Sy.” His words carried the weight of leadership, calm but firm, leaving no room for ambiguity. “You claim to know Velaris, which means you also know that each of us has a role, a purpose within this court.”
I nodded slowly, feeling the tension in the room tighten as all eyes remained fixed on me. “Yes, I know,” I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. There was no point in pretending otherwise, not when they had already seen through my attempts to hide my knowledge.
Cassian leaned forward, his gaze unwavering, though there was a strange kind of gentleness in his voice that I hadn’t expected. “Then what is your decision? Will you stay, or will you leave?” Nesta stood close beside him, her posture tense, her sharp gaze fixed on me like a predator ready to strike at the first sign of danger.
I took a breath, forcing myself to meet each of their gazes in turn, gathering my thoughts. “Before I can truly decide... I need to understand this place better. To learn what Velaris is beyond just the stories I know,” I admitted, choosing my words carefully. “But if, after that, I find that I can help, then... I would like to be of service. To earn my place here.”
The silence that followed my words felt heavy, like the calm before a storm, as each of them processed my response. Rhysand’s expression remained unreadable, his eyes searching mine as if looking for any trace of deceit. Feyre watched me closely, her hands clasped in her lap, and I could see a flicker of something close to hope in her gaze. Mor and Cassian exchanged a glance, their skepticism not entirely hidden, but there was a note of curiosity there as well.
Azriel’s shadows seemed to stir around him, but he said nothing, his gaze still trained on me, his expression as enigmatic as ever. Nesta’s eyes narrowed slightly, as if she were trying to decide whether I was worth the risk I might pose to their safety.
Rhysand finally leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms as if coming to a decision. “Very well, Sy,” he said, his voice quiet but authoritative. “We will give you time to learn, and to prove yourself. But know this—trust must be earned, not given freely. You will be watched, and any hint of betrayal will not be taken lightly.”
I nodded, a small thread of relief winding through the tension that still knotted my chest. “I understand. I don’t expect you to trust me right away.”
Rhysand’s lips curled into a faint, grim smile. “Good. Then we’ll start by showing you what Velaris truly is, beyond the stories you’ve read.” He glanced at Feyre, who gave him a small nod in return. “Feyre and I will introduce you to the city and its people, and you’ll see for yourself what it means to live among us.”
I took a deep breath, trying to ignore the way my heart hammered in my chest. This was the beginning of something I couldn’t fully understand—something that could change everything. And as I met the eyes of those who would now shape my path, I wondered if I was ready for what came next.
Whatever it was, there would be no turning back.
Feyre and Rhysand took me through the wonders of Velaris, the city even more beautiful than the books had described. The vibrant colors, the smell of the sea air mingling with the floral notes from the gardens, and the sound of laughter and music drifting from the open windows made it feel almost like a dream. The people of Velaris were kind, even if they couldn’t help but cast curious glances my way. My unfamiliar clothes, my short stature, and my odd ears made me stand out, but no one seemed bothered by my presence.
As the hours went by, the exhaustion began to creep in, mingling with the hunger gnawing at my stomach. The walk had been long—longer than anything I’d been able to manage in my old life. Back there, even making it from my bed to the bathroom was a struggle most days. Maybe that’s why I hadn’t complained about the walk, why I’d stayed silent through the tour. Being able to move freely, to feel the strength in my legs, was a gift I hadn’t realized I’d missed so much.
“Here!” Feyre said excitedly, pulling me from my thoughts. I followed her gaze to a small boutique nestled between the colorful buildings, its windows lined with beautifully crafted dresses and garments. Feyre turned to me, a warm smile lighting up her face as she took my hands. “Your clothes might be comfortable, but it wouldn’t hurt to blend in a bit more, right?”
She was right. In my own world, the odd one out might be an alien—here, that might very well be me. I wasn’t quite that strange, but I certainly stood out. I didn’t want to draw any more attention to myself than I already had, so I allowed her to lead me into the shop.
The woman behind the counter greeted us with a friendly smile, though her expression shifted briefly to surprise when she noticed me. I couldn’t blame her—my clothing might have been normal for my world, but here it was clearly out of place. My pajamas—a long, cream-colored pair of pants and a short-sleeved top of the same color—weren’t exactly suitable for a city like Velaris. Luckily, they’d given me a cloak back at the River House, which helped me look a little less outlandish.
“We’ll need a few dresses,” Feyre said to the woman, drawing her attention away from me. The shopkeeper nodded in understanding and led us toward the racks of clothing, Feyre eagerly following behind her.
Just as I was about to trail after them, a familiar, smooth voice spoke from behind me, making me jump slightly. “Looks like this could take a while,” Rhysand teased, his tone playful.
I turned to find him watching me with a faintly amused smile, and my cheeks flushed under the intensity of his gaze. He seemed to find my reaction amusing, almost as if he enjoyed keeping me on edge. I shifted awkwardly, glancing down at the floor. “Yeah, probably,” I mumbled, rubbing the back of my neck. “But... I don’t have any money, and I’m not sure how I’ll pay you back for all this. I mean, I will, I promise. I’ll pay back every bit of it—somehow.”
Rhysand’s expression softened, and he placed a warm hand on my shoulder, making me look up in surprise. His gaze held a rare understanding as he met my eyes. “Don’t worry about that right now,” he said gently, giving my shoulder a reassuring squeeze. “And if you tell Feyre you’re concerned about the cost, she’ll probably just kick us both out of the shop and buy you whatever she wants anyway.”
A startled laugh escaped me—a snort, really—and he chuckled along with me, his laughter lightening the tension in the air. It was such an unexpected moment of shared humor that I almost forgot the strangeness of my situation.
Before we could continue, Feyre’s voice called from further inside the shop, her tone a mix of impatience and amusement. “Are you two coming, or are you just going to stand there all day?”
I turned to see her holding a bundle of clothes, an expectant look on her face. I shot a quick, grateful glance at Rhysand, leaning in to whisper, “Thank you.”
He nodded, a small, understanding smile playing on his lips as he stepped back, allowing me to follow Feyre toward the fitting rooms. With a deep breath, I walked into the next phase of this strange, new life—one that involved trying on dresses that I never would have imagined wearing back in my old world, hoping that somehow, I might find a way to fit into this one.
As I stepped into the fitting room, Feyre handed me a few dresses with an encouraging smile. The fabrics felt luxurious between my fingers, softer and lighter than anything I had worn before. The first dress I tried on was a deep forest green, a shade that reminded me of the lush trees I had seen around Velaris. It was made from a lightweight, flowing material that draped elegantly over my frame, falling just below my knees. The sleeves were long, fitting snugly around my arms before flaring out slightly at the wrists, with delicate stitching along the cuffs that gave it a touch of understated beauty.
The neckline was simple, neither too high nor too low, with a small, embroidered pattern of silver leaves that curled around the edges. It gave the dress a touch of sparkle, catching the light in a way that made it seem almost ethereal, as if the threads themselves were woven from moonlight. I turned slightly in front of the mirror, letting the fabric swish around my legs. It felt light and freeing, a stark contrast to the heavy, stiff clothing I had grown used to in my old life.
Next, I tried on a dark blue dress, the color of a twilight sky. It was sleeveless, with a fitted bodice that cinched gently at the waist before cascading into a skirt that moved like water with each step. The fabric had a subtle shimmer to it, catching the light with every movement. It made me feel graceful, like I could disappear into the night sky and dance among the stars. The skirt flowed down to my ankles, and I couldn’t help but smile as the fabric brushed against my skin, soft and cool. This dress felt like a secret, something precious that whispered of new beginnings and possibilities.
But the one that truly took my breath away was the third—an ash-gray gown with intricate lace detailing around the neckline and sleeves. The lace patterns resembled vines and flowers, delicate and intricate, trailing down the length of my arms and across my collarbones. The dress itself hugged my form in a way that was both comfortable and elegant, with a high neckline that balanced the fitted bodice. It flared out gently below the hips, the skirt billowing around me like a soft mist when I moved.
Feyre’s reflection appeared behind me in the mirror, a knowing smile on her lips as she took in my reaction. “That one suits you,” she said, her voice warm and encouraging. “It brings out the softness in your eyes.”
I hesitated, glancing at myself in the mirror, barely recognizing the figure looking back at me. In my old life, I had always worn practical clothes—things that wouldn’t draw attention. But here, in this dress, I looked like I might belong in Velaris, like I was part of this world that I had only ever read about.
“Maybe it’s not so bad,” I admitted, smoothing my hands over the fabric. “It’s... different.”
Feyre’s smile widened as she nodded approvingly. “Different isn’t always a bad thing. Besides, you blend in a little better now.”
I chuckled softly, a little more at ease as I turned to face her fully. The dresses she had picked out had managed to strike a balance between my comfort and the elegance of Velaris, allowing me to feel a part of this place without losing myself entirely.
As I stepped out of the fitting room, I caught a glimpse of Rhysand waiting near the entrance, his gaze sweeping over me with that same unreadable expression. For a moment, I wondered if he saw the changes I was starting to feel—if he could sense the shift in me as I took this small step toward adapting to his world. But whatever thoughts he had, he kept them to himself, simply offering me a nod as if to say, This is just the beginning.
As we walked back toward the River House, we followed the path along the riverbank, the gentle sound of the flowing water a soothing backdrop to the conversation. Feyre and Rhysand walked on either side of me, their curiosity evident as they asked me about my life—questions that seemed simple but carried the weight of genuine interest. They wanted to know how many siblings I had, what my parents were like, the friends I had left behind, and how old I was when I’d made my desperate choice. It made sense—they knew almost nothing about me, even as I knew so much about them.
I did my best to answer, sharing fragments of a life that already felt distant. I spoke of my mother’s warmth, my father’s quiet strength, the siblings I had grown up with, and the friends I had once spent endless hours with. But each word came with a bittersweet ache, a reminder of the world I had left behind, even if it had been filled with pain.
As the river shimmered in the late afternoon sun, Feyre asked me, “Did you have any powers in your world?” She posed the question delicately, as if afraid it might sting, like a bruise that hadn’t yet healed.
I couldn’t help but laugh softly at the thought. “No, not really—unless you count teaching and working with kids as a power!” I said with a small grin, the corners of my mouth lifting despite the melancholy that had settled over me.
Feyre joined in my laughter, the sound light and genuine. “Working with children might be the greatest power of all,” she said with a bright smile, and I could see the warmth in her expression, a spark of humor in her eyes.
Rhysand chuckled beside her, shaking his head. “Especially Illyrian children,” he added, and the two of them exchanged a knowing look, both of them laughing at some shared memory I couldn’t quite grasp.
Feyre turned back to me, her curiosity far from sated. “What else did you do? Before... well, before you became ill?”
I hesitated, but there was no judgment in their eyes, just genuine interest. “Not much, really. But before I got sick, I loved music, painting, theater—anything to do with the arts. And reading, of course. Books became my lifeline when I couldn’t get out of bed. Reading about other people’s stories, listening to their experiences, and maybe even trying to write my own... it kept me going.”
Feyre’s expression softened, and I could see the empathy in her eyes, the compassion she didn’t bother to hide. “You’re welcome to paint with me anytime,” she offered, a tentative smile tugging at her lips. “We could share my studio, if you’d like.”
I stopped for a moment, letting her words sink in. It was a simple offer, yet it felt like so much more—a chance at something normal, a small piece of the life I had thought I’d lost forever. I looked up at her, my voice barely more than a whisper. “I’d love that.”
Before I could say more, Rhysand’s playful voice cut through the moment. “Our guest’s stomach is growling so loudly that even those in the House of Wind might hear it. I think it’s time we head home.”
I hadn’t realized just how hungry I was until he mentioned it, and I couldn’t help but laugh softly, a bit embarrassed. But before I could respond, Rhysand reached out and took both of our hands, his grip warm and reassuring. The world blurred around us as he used his magic to winnow us back to the River House, the familiar warmth of magic wrapping around us like a gentle breeze.
In the blink of an eye, we reappeared in the entrance hall of the River House. The air was cooler here, and the scent of something delicious wafted through the air, making my stomach rumble again.
As we steadied ourselves, I realized we weren’t alone. Waiting for us in the hallway were Azriel, Cassian, and Mor, each of them with expressions that ranged from curiosity to amusement. Cassian, arms crossed over his broad chest, flashed me a grin that bordered on teasing. “So, did they bore you to death with the grand tour of Velaris?” he asked, raising an eyebrow.
I shook my head, a small smile tugging at my lips. “No, not at all. It was... incredible. More beautiful than I ever imagined.”
Azriel’s gaze was steady, his shadows swirling lazily around him as he observed me. “Did you learn anything new about our city?” he asked, his voice carrying that quiet intensity that made it hard to tell if he was joking or serious.
I hesitated for a moment, then shrugged slightly. “Maybe not new, but seeing it in person... it felt like seeing a dream come to life.”
Mor stepped forward, her smile warm and genuine as she clapped a hand on my shoulder. “Well, I’m glad they didn’t scare you off,” she said lightly, her tone teasing. “I was starting to think we’d have to chase you back to the forest.”
Rhysand gave a mock sigh of exasperation, shaking his head. “You wound me, Mor. I think we’ve done a fine job of being gracious hosts.”
Mor rolled her eyes at him, but her smile never faded. “Sure, sure. Now, why don’t we let our guest get something to eat before she collapses from hunger?”
I couldn’t help but laugh, the sound lighter than it had been in a long time. And as we all made our way into the dining room, the air seemed a little less heavy, the shadows a little less daunting. Maybe, just maybe, I was starting to find a place among them—this strange, new family that had taken me in, despite all the uncertainties.
And as we sat down to share a meal, the warmth of their laughter and conversation filled the space around me, wrapping me in a sense of belonging that I hadn’t realized I’d been missing so desperately. It wasn’t home—not yet—but for the first time, I felt like it could be.
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