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🩸 TUESDAY, JUNE 10 – WEEK 2, DAY 2

“ENDURANCE ASCENSION”

48 minutes // shirtless // soaked by the end

Started dry. Ended transformed.

Today’s training wasn’t just physical—it was devotional. Two rounds of legwork, cardio, and core, followed by a slow burn that took me past muscle and into something deeper. No shirt. No hiding. Just breath, tension, and a will that refused to quit.

By the time I folded into my cooldown, I was drenched. My body throbbed from the inside out—sweat rolling, heart pounding, something sacred brewing in the silence. I let go in the stretch. Let it flood through. Heat, scent, pressure—everything I’d built rising to the surface.

I sat with it after. Let it settle. No need to finish the feeling. Sometimes the real power is in holding it.

🟨 Badge Earned: The Reservoir Sigil

For restraint. For reverence. For honoring the tension without release.

This is more than fitness.

It’s ritual.

It’s reclamation.

And today, I walked the line between discipline and desire—and didn’t flinch.

🥊 No shame. No chains.

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Before I step into Week 2, I want to speak plainly.

I didn’t start this journey because I wanted to look a certain way. I started because I needed to feel something real—something rooted, something mine.

I was raised Southern Baptist, adopted into a world where shame was baked into every lesson. Neurodivergent before anyone knew the term. Queer before I had the safety to claim it. Sensory-oriented in ways I was taught were sinful.

I didn’t grow up with the language to describe myself—only with the silence I was told to keep.

Kink found me early, and I carried that weight alone for years. Not because it was wrong, but because I was told I was. I felt things deeply. My body responded to things I couldn’t explain. And instead of being met with understanding, I was met with fear, punishment, and isolation.

That does something to you.

It wires you to believe your instincts are dangerous. That your softness is weakness. That your hunger for touch, scent, control, surrender—whatever it may be—is something you’ll always have to hide.

But I’m done hiding.

I box now, not just to get stronger, but to reconnect with the body I was taught to fear. I train through ritual—geared not for appearance, but for presence. I use scent, weight, repetition, layers—because for me, training isn’t just physical. It’s a kind of liturgy.

I don’t have a six-pack. I have stretch marks. A gut. A complicated relationship with the mirror. But I show up anyway. Because healing doesn’t wait for you to look like a magazine cover.

I don’t want to be a fitness influencer. I want to be real.

If you’re still figuring out how to live inside yourself, you’re not alone.

If you’ve ever felt broken for what you crave, soft in a world that demands hardness, or wired differently than what’s considered “normal”—I see you.

You’re not wrong. You’re not weak. You’re sacred.

Week 2, I’m coming in with my full self. Not cleaned up. Not cut down. Just here.

🥊 No Shame. No Chains.

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Week 1 is done.

Starting this journey felt like stepping into a storm I’ve been circling for years—equal parts fear, hope, discipline, and something deeper I don’t fully have words for yet. But I showed up. Every day. Not just to train—but to feel it.

I didn’t come into this with a gym-hardened body or a perfect mindset. I came in soft, sore, and carrying more than just weight. I came in honest.

This week, I:

• Completed 7 full training days—including strength, cardio, and back support work

• Built a consistent warm-up and cooldown ritual that grounds me emotionally

• Worked through fatigue, soreness, and self-doubt without giving up

• Reinforced my discipline with simple layers and structured gear—enough to stay connected to the deeper reason I’m doing this

There were moments where I wanted to bail. Times where my brain screamed that I wasn’t good enough or strong enough to keep going. But I didn’t quit. I kept my promise to myself.

I moved, I sweat, I stayed. That’s the win.

I’m learning how to treat my body like something sacred—not just when it performs, but when it struggles. Especially when it struggles.

Onward to Week 2.

🥊 No Shame. No Chains.

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My name’s Ryan, but around here, I go by SlickSaint.

I’m 33. Southern-born, neurodivergent, queer. I’ve carried a lot—shame, silence, survival. For a long time, I didn’t believe I deserved to feel strong. Or sexy. Or sacred.

But I’m still here. Still standing. And I’m choosing to fight—not just in the ring, but for myself.

This blog is where I track my boxing journey, but it’s bigger than workouts or weight. This is about rebuilding from the inside out. Learning how to hold my past without letting it define me. Moving through anxiety, trauma, and doubt with my fists up and my heart open.

I train in ritual. I sweat with intention. I push through pain not to punish myself—but to honor the version of me that kept going.

I started from scratch—no gym body, no perfect plan. Just a desire to show up and see what happens when I stop hiding.

If you’re here for honest growth, emotional grit, and a little sacred fire—I’m glad you found me.

This is my pilgrimage.

🥊 No Shame. No Chains.