smol-dweeb

[smol-dweeb]

YUH hey past bitch 🤪

you did indeed dye your hair, purple highlights ✌🏽😗 but sadly no piercings AS OF NOVEMBER 2023 i still got a month (future me get on that 👀)

YOU DID MOVE IN WITH Z ❤️ CAUSE HE CAME HOME AFTER 10 MONTHS!! but it’s his apartment with his other roommate but dw, i’m still planning on moving into a home next year with or without him like we planned, but this apartment is making us happy for now 🥰

2023 update i guess??

it’s 2023 and hopefully it goes by quick, lmk how it goes future me !! maybe i’ll finally dye my hair and get a few piercings this year. i really wanna save up as much money as i can to get a place with my z ❤️hopefully he comes home in a year at the latest 😤

i guess i’ll update again when i get my hair dyed or something crazy happens

[smol-dweeb]

You’re so beautiful! I hope you have an amazing day 🌸

aw, thank you! 💛 i hope your day is great too!!

[smol-dweeb]

2023 update i guess??

it’s 2023 and hopefully it goes by quick, lmk how it goes future me !! maybe i’ll finally dye my hair and get a few piercings this year. i really wanna save up as much money as i can to get a place with my z ❤️hopefully he comes home in a year at the latest 😤

i guess i’ll update again when i get my hair dyed or something crazy happens

[smol-dweeb]

you found that someone bitch ❤️❤️❤️ and he means everything to you, you’re truly happy with your person, finally you feel special and worthy of love. his love. and even your own love, he showed you and continues to show you that you’re special and worth loving 💕

I miss relationships

Honestly, I only really miss that really special pure feeling you get when you’re with somebody romantically. That feeling when you kissed them sweetly and softly. That feeling when you spend time together doing whatever just to pass time, just to spend more time with them. That feeling of knowing you’re truly admired and deemed something special to them. I just miss the pure happiness of relationships.

[smol-dweeb]

it’s been a while but i don’t think i hate myself as much anymore hehe 😳

[smol-dweeb]

shut up whore, you’re doing great now

you still get anxious but it’s way more manageable, and all those things that you thought you couldn’t do you’re excelling at :) love u bitch, from future you ❤️

Okay I'm going to rant about all the shit I don't like about myslef currently and how I'm feeling so be warned

Okay. I really hate myself most of the time. I don’t feel like I’m good enough, or that I can’t do what I know I can do??? Like I know I can do things if I just put myslef out there but like?? That’s hard????????? And I can’t?? Do that????????!?!:( Like my mentality is just like “no what of u fuck up and everybody laughs at you, you hate people judging you, you don’t want that, just stay quiet and don’t do what you want to try, stay in your comfort zone u know it well” and I’m just like???? But I really want to??? And I kinda have like a mini anxiety attack just standing there thinking about all this??? AND ANOTHER THING- Like I know I’m lazy, I’m so painfully aware of that. I know I procrastinate and I know it’s bad but I can’t? Help it? Maybe I could if I really tried but, do you know how hard it is to change your mindset on something?? IT’S REALLY HARD OKAY :( God I just, really dislike myslef,,, like a lot lmao. Like dafuq is wrong with me, BOI I’LL TELL U I complain a lot and I refuse to change and make up this bs you’re reading now, that’s what. Like I know I can change and od things the way I want but it’s so hard to suddenly change like that. MAYBE FUTURE ME WILL HAVE HER SHIT TOGETHER, WHO TF KNOWS IF I’LL EVEN LIVE PAST TOMORROW BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL DON’T KNOW Sometimes I really wish I could just die and be reincarnated into someone from a completely different everything of me currently, I wanna see how that plays out, if I’ll end up the same either way bUT I’M ANXIETY MAKES ME SCARED OF DEATH SO YEET Ugh, I think I’m done now, highkey needed to get that off my chest and stop fucking whining because so many people have worse than I do and I’m just complaining about the stupidest shit lmao, so pls ignore me. I’ll be fine by tomorrow, BET

[smol-dweeb]

Haven't posted on this acc in a while so here's some old photos

[smol-dweeb]

Okay I'm going to rant about all the shit I don't like about myslef currently and how I'm feeling so be warned

Okay. I really hate myself most of the time. I don't feel like I'm good enough, or that I can't do what I know I can do??? Like I know I can do things if I just put myslef out there but like?? That's hard????????? And I can't?? Do that????????!?!:( Like my mentality is just like "no what of u fuck up and everybody laughs at you, you hate people judging you, you don't want that, just stay quiet and don't do what you want to try, stay in your comfort zone u know it well" and I'm just like???? But I really want to??? And I kinda have like a mini anxiety attack just standing there thinking about all this??? AND ANOTHER THING- Like I know I'm lazy, I'm so painfully aware of that. I know I procrastinate and I know it's bad but I can't? Help it? Maybe I could if I really tried but, do you know how hard it is to change your mindset on something?? IT'S REALLY HARD OKAY :( God I just, really dislike myslef,,, like a lot lmao. Like dafuq is wrong with me, BOI I'LL TELL U I complain a lot and I refuse to change and make up this bs you're reading now, that's what. Like I know I can change and od things the way I want but it's so hard to suddenly change like that. MAYBE FUTURE ME WILL HAVE HER SHIT TOGETHER, WHO TF KNOWS IF I'LL EVEN LIVE PAST TOMORROW BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL DON'T KNOW Sometimes I really wish I could just die and be reincarnated into someone from a completely different everything of me currently, I wanna see how that plays out, if I'll end up the same either way bUT I'M ANXIETY MAKES ME SCARED OF DEATH SO YEET Ugh, I think I'm done now, highkey needed to get that off my chest and stop fucking whining because so many people have worse than I do and I'm just complaining about the stupidest shit lmao, so pls ignore me. I'll be fine by tomorrow, BET

[smol-dweeb]

Aaahhhh, was tagged by @unicom-on-fire to do the 6 selfies of 2016 thing

I TRIED TO PICK ONES I HAVEN’T POSTED ON MY OTHER ACCOUNT, BUT IDK MAN, THESE SUCK, YEET

imma tag @whoaimhellatrash @obliviousmicrowave @spaedes @lasagnagirl061 @drewbiedrewbiedrew AND WHOEVER ELSE SEES AND WANTS TO DO IT, OKAY BYE (u don’t have to do this if u don’t wanna)

[smol-dweeb]

I miss relationships

Honestly, I only really miss that really special pure feeling you get when you're with somebody romantically. That feeling when you kissed them sweetly and softly. That feeling when you spend time together doing whatever just to pass time, just to spend more time with them. That feeling of knowing you're truly admired and deemed something special to them. I just miss the pure happiness of relationships.

[smol-dweeb]

have i ever mentioned how much i hate the word “smol”

like just say small…… cmon……

[smol-dweeb]

@ME NEXT TIME

have i ever mentioned how much i hate the word “smol”

like just say small…… cmon……

[smol-dweeb]

🤗

[smol-dweeb]

My marching band had their last competition in Hershey We got 5th place (I forgot the score) it was p lit tho

[smol-dweeb]

tagged by @silvernevermind to post wallpaper, music, and a face

ill tag @obliviousmicrowave and @th4t-w31rdo I guesssss

[smol-dweeb]

Are you okay

Why wouldn’t I be?

[smol-dweeb]

Are you okay

Why wouldn't I be?