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The Wishes of Yesterday

Things I wish I knew Prior to the Pandemic

     I never thought that the last birthday that I would be celebrating normally was on my 16th birthday in 2020. It was a normal morning when I arrived at my school, me and my classmates were complaining because the other city already suspended the classes of their schools. It was a normal day, that's what I thought. I didn't hang out with my friends after school, we went home immediately which I regret looking back at. I thought that maybe after a week the said "virus" would be gone.  After hours of waiting a smile appeared on my face because we won't have classes tomorrow. Who wouldn't be happy after being stressed right? but a week after, the schools didn't open again. I was happy but then that moment I didn't know that was the start of the silence being loud. I was mostly outside the house so I didn't know what was happening inside my home and even my mind. My life has become quiet. In my solitude, the things that I should've done and know are revealed to me.

Physical Interaction is Important

   I’m an introvert so I do not really talk that much especially if I’m not close with someone. Social interaction is so tiring for me. In 2019, I joined a contest and the program was so long that my seatmate from a different school started talking to me. I just nod and answer his questions that could not keep the conversation from proceeding. Online classes started when I realized the importance of communication and contact physically, “What would they think of me?” “Am I asking a stupid question?” These are just some thoughts that I kept on thinking after the interactions became virtual. In a face to face scenario I could observe and read their body language with that I can react based on what I see and hear from them.

Capture the Moment

     I love taking pictures, but I only took pictures of nature because I was so fascinated by the beauty of it. Looking back there are some memories that I remember but I do not have a picture or video of it. Performances, Activities, Role Playing, I really really want to see a memory of it but I find it hard because the photos I took are very limited. I wanted to see the smiles and laughter on my face as well as my classmates without a mask. I wish I took videos and pictures of every memorable moment so I could’ve looked back into it.

I shouldn’t have Listened to Anyone

   Before Pandemic, I bought different kinds of clothes whenever I went out but I always ended up wearing jeans or shorts and a shirt if I’ll hanging out with my friends. I thought that I was fat because someone called me “chubby” but looking at my old pictures...... I look skinny, my arms are not big, I look thin. Now I regret wasting money and not wearing the fancy clothes I had which I could probably not wear now because I gained weight. The moment I saw my body before I realized I should not listen to people who are wasting time to insult my body. I may be gaining weight now (sweets are life) but apart from that I’m also gaining the confidence that I lost years ago. 

Life will not always be about School

     It’s okay to give up some time for school to bond with your loved ones. I focused on my school too much that I forgot there is a life outside a four corner room, learning would be everywhere. I should not be afraid and guilty of spending time with my family and friends and taking some time off for my health. Staying healthy physically, emotionally, and mentally is what matters to keep your life healthy and continue learning. I wanted to create a lot of memories with my family; Reminiscing the adventures with them would be heartwarming. 

“Don’t live your life regretting yesterday. Live your life so tomorrow you won’t regret today.” – Catherine Pulsifer

       These are just some things that I wish I did or knew before, there’s still a little regret left but I would try to live my life not thinking of the wishes of my yesterday but improving today and I won’t worry about the things that has not happened yet. We didn’t expect a pandemic would happen, in life it's full of surprises we don't know what tomorrow brings but we can use our yesterday to improve and fulfill the wishes of our yesterday and encounter a light in the darkness.  

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The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it

John 1:5

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Last page

   Few hours from now we are closing the book that has a lot sufferings happened, but those events eventually kicks some realizations to us and the reason of our growth.

   Hey, you made me proud, little fighter. You made it till the last page. Be ready for another book that is about to begin!

Happy New Year and God bless us everyone.

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The power of Letting Go

Letting something or someone go is probably one of the most hardest decision that we would ever encounter. It is the scariest event that may happen in our life.

Last year, I have let a lot of things go.

Person, Feelings, Relationship

to name a few. I noticed after dropping it, I grew. I also glow haha. I become prettier, healthier and a lot much better.

So don't cry out if things around you are slowly leaving you, it's just God removing something not good for your life.

So cheer up and learn to accept that things are supposed to happen.

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Enjoy your life.

Do something that makes you happy but know your limits 😉

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One of the things I learned after parting ways some people is you could never really grow if you won't come out of your comfort zone. If you're too comfortable, you're not gonna learn something new that could be the plot twist of your life.