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Soooo. I went away to this academy and gained 10lbs... I’m about 141lbs

Before I was around 132lbs. And I was honestly fine with it and wouldn’t say I’m exactly relapsing. But just feel I would look better slimmer. So I’m gonna try to lose the weight and go until I think I look good. I’m not going to go under 125lbs.

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Fuck I wanna go back to the 127lbs that I was :(

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Recovery

So at this point, I haven’t been obsessing over my weight, very mad at myself when I eat, and don’t really want to be the skinny that I once wanted to be. I’m kinda taking that as I’m recovering or have recovered without knowing which is great. I’m just posting this because I don’t know what I will be doing with this account anymore. For those of you that care, I do have another account where I sell private content and that’s: sorrow-mary. But as for this, I don’t see myself continuing it.

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Weighed in at 127lbs at the gym today😳 could it be possible that I’m starting to kind of like my body??

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Just an update, I am now 129lbs about. I have lost about 15-20lbs in a month. And look really good, I can admit lol but I just got a planet fitness membership and will be slowly building my dream body!

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I’m about to transform into the baddest bitch that I have ever seen.

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No more if I get skinny. When I get skinny I’m gonna wear this and fucking rock it.

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difference in a little less than a month

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I’ll stop when i can see my chest bones perfectly

I’ll stop when my hips bones poke through jeans

I’ll stop when my legs dont touch no matter how hard i try

I’ll stop when i can count every single rib

I’ll stop when people stare and worry about me

I’ll stop when people regret not caring.

Then i’ll stop.

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Trying on old clothes is one of my fave motivations to keep going🤧

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5/27/2020

I got new medications, they have yet to come still but they’re antidepressants and they’re supposed to really suppress your appetite. I’ve done a lot of research on them and almost everyone says that they lost a LOT of weight. Also, I don’t know about the body check, I’ve been doing really bad lately :(

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5/9/2020

So by the end of May, I will be posting a body check. I hope to be down at least 5lbs by then! Please look forward to that! :)

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