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Space’s Summer Chronicles #33: August 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th: LYULIN TAKES ON THE COASTTTT

Heyooooooo y’all!!! My friends have finally arrived on coast and it’s been a wild few days. We’ve gotten drunk on the beach, discussed aliens and the pyramids, went to the club, made fun of my bff’s feet infection, sweated, ate, danced, went to the club and sooo much more!

I love my friends sooo much, I don’t have a lot of them but the ones I do have I Really love.

There was drama before they arrived, my bff and her bf got into a fight, they ditched each other, she called me drunk and asked me to get her but she was two hours away and i was ALSO drunk so i didn’t

Honestly I can’t really describe these days with much more than “FUN AS FUCK!”. I love my friends and we work so well together (except when they take 3 hours to shower after the beach, but that’s champagne problems).

My bff and her bf are gone now and we have three more days with the rest of my friends so we’ll have FUNNN AND. DRINK SLUSHIES WITH VODKA AND WATCH THE NEW WEDNESDAY SEASON!!!

Summer Progress Bar: 62.6%/100

Also bitch my tits look good but idk if they look BETTER compared to a month ago, i need a second opinion ugh

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #32: July 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th, 29th, 30th, 31st: Summer Haze

Heyooo!!! So, unemployment is going great, I have a few interviews lined up and I feel a big weight coming off my chest. In a way, despite all of its benefits, this job was holding me back. Anyways, back to my summer chronicles:

My parents and cousin finallt left for the city which is great cause they were all getting on my nerves and I love being alone. Me and my cousin went to this beach bar that has a direct connection to the sea so we danced in the sea and it was really fun. I went there two weeks ago with my best friend and got really drunk and danced to Stereo Love to the amusement of some middle aged French people. It wasn’t AS FUN this time cause my cousin is not as fun as my best friend, but it was still really fun and the bar was full of french people again, just young ones lol

Anyways, after my cousin and parents left I truly started to feel like I’m relaxing - I cooked myself some ramen with pork, I made myself some salmon bruschetta with salmon, cream cheese, sundried tomatoes and capers and sweet chilli, I go to the beach every day after my interviews and I just relax. I’m so happy and honestly glad they’re gone.

My soltitude won’t last long though cause my best friend and her boyfriend are arriving tomorrow WOOOO and then my other best friends are arriving on Saturday and we’re gonna PARTYYY I CAN’T WAIT

My current daily routine is:

Wake up whenever I wanna

Have something biiig for breakfast

Go to the beach and get drunk and swim

Go home at 8 pm, have dinner and relax

Honestly my dream life. I came up with a fun idea for a short story about mermaids in the Bermuda Triangle and I might write it soon. I love summer and I love the sea and I love unemployment. I needed this break so bad. I’m so happy.

I want some tan tattoos, like i wanna put a star on my face and sunbathe with it so I get it like a temporary tattoo

Summer Progress Bar: 57%/100

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #31: July 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th: End Of An Era / Freedom

Heyoooo! It’s been a while! I’m free!!!!

Let me explain what I mean by that. Quick recap of the past few days: I enjoyed what time I had without my cousin and tried to relax over the weekend, had my favorite coastal meal (beans with sausage and garlic cheesy bread on one of my favorite restaurants by the sea), but as soon as the work week started back up again, work kept getting worse and worse and worse and it all came to a head on Tuesday afternoon. Me and my family went to get my cousin and we went to a walk around a different coastal city, had ice cream and got some souvenirs, when my boss decided we won’t work from home any longer and anyone who has a problem with that is free to quit. I quit on him the following day and now….it’s a weird situation. I’m actually not worried which is crazy cause I have a mortgage but I have ways to come up with the money so now my focus is applying to jobs and going to the beach. I have a feeling it will all be fine, great even.

I’ve had the horrible feeling for the longest time that I wouldn’t be able to find a different company, that I wouldn’t do well, that they wouldn’t tolerate mistakes but now I realise that’s just bullshit. The only good thing about now my ex-job was the fact that they let me work part time during the summer and that I could work from home. Now that that’s gone, there’s nothing holding me back.

I called up one of my ex colleagues that lasted aboutttt 9 months before quitting and she really helped me put things in perspective. She has a new job that actually treats her well now and the difference is night and day.

ANYWays enough about jobs, my whole point is I’M FREE , no more work stress, I have a few interviews lined up and I’ll have more so I’m actually really happy this happened in a non-destructive way. Like, everything is fine and great!

My cousin is still getting on my nerves but it’s fine. Yesterday we went to the beach at night, got drunk, listened to music and swam in our underwear, it was so fun.

Summer Progress Bar: 50.4%/100 (HALFWAY POINTTT)

Songs:

Oh wow, it’s the halfway point of the summer. Honestly, it has exceeded my expectations so far. Here’s to more!!!!

(Also one of my online friends hates me now. He always has lowkey. I hope he develops better taste.)

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #30: July 17th, 18th and 19th: Icarus Falls

Am I Icarus? Past two I’m free But he still tries to catch me So I fly and fly closer to the sun Death with dignity is better than life without

Hi, y'all! I feel like I'm flying too close to the sun. The job situation is getting worse and while I do not feel like I'm gonna be fired, per se, the environment is getting worse and worse. I'm trying to jump ship, submitting CVs but the job market is shit and everyone is off work so who knows. I have faith that it will all be good, it's all I can do. It will all be good. I'll find something great, be financially stable and have MONEYYY forever!!!! Anyways.

There's not much to say except THANK GODDD my cousin is still visiting her friend. It's soooo much calmer in my head now that I'm not dealing with her. She's coming back on Tuesday, I might miss her a little bit but who knows. Until she comes back, it's relaxing time. Honestly, the job situation is weighing on my nerves and I have to stop that. Gonna go into hibernation and sleep 10 hours.

In other news, I've been swimming a lot and taking walks while listening to Carly Rae Jepsen and Badlands. Love it. Gets me back in that mindset I had back when I was a preteen and I wanted to escape my parents on vacation so I took long walks around the city with my headphones on. Great.

Tit progress is great, I have a feeling I'll be one hot hot bitch at the Kesha concert!

Gonna try the morning notes tomorrow. Ugh. It's like.... I didn't even set THAT MANY goals for the summer and yet the only thing I've managed to achieve properly is party. I don't know.

ALSO MY DND GAME FOR MY MUTUALS IS STARTING SOON YAYYY

k bye

Summer Progress Bar: 45.7%/100 (shit it's close to 50)

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #29: July 15th and 16th: Young & Beautiful

I LOVE THE COASTTTTTTTTTT

Everything is so good now, it's genuinely miraculous how good the sea is at just absorbing all my troubles and bad thoughts. Now for the bad part, my cousin is annoying as FUCKKK K it's not like her fault but we have very different personalities and she's annoying meeeee. NOW FOR THE GREAT PART, AS OF A FEW HOURS AGO SHE WENT TO VISIT A FRIEND FOR A FEW DAYS SO NOW I'M GONNA SLEEP ALONE IN MY BED THANK YOU GODDDDDD

Anyways, some fun things we did in the past two days:

We walked around the city and the beach at night, I got drunk off mango rum and juice and rode on a ride in the amusement park (almost threw up cause I'm bad at riding those EVEN WITHOUT ALCOHOL but it was super fun).

Then we went to a bar, wasn't that fun cause the bar was full of pretentious people that didn't wanna get up and dance so we weren't feeling the vibe.

That's mostly it, she left a few hours ago and me and my parents had a tarot reading session cause we needed to know some things, I'm getting better and better at tarot, which makes me really happy (I've been reading tarot for like 2.5 years now so ofc I'm good but still. There is one weak point in my tarot reading and it's that I can't read over a distance. Like I have to be with the person to accurately predict things. It sucks.).

AMONG OTHER NEWS, I FINALLY HAVE CONFIRMATION ABOUT WHEN HALF OF MY FRIENDS ARE GONNA COME AND STAY WITH ME, 2ND TO 9TH OF AUGUST HERE WE GOOOOO WE'RE GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN.

Also me and my cousin are definitely gonna take a portable speaker and get drunk on the beach and have a dance party at sunset once she gets back. I know I sound like I dislike her or resent her, but that's not true! She's just annoying as fuck. It's not her fault, it's mostly mine so I don't hold it against her lolll

I should find a new job. Ew. I also should probably graduate. Double ew.

ALSO I'M STARTING MY DND GAME SOON AAAA

Summer progress bar: 42.9%/100

Song of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #28: July 14th: Coast Ghost

HEYOO I’m FINALLY BACK ON THE COAST. OH MY FUCKING GOD EVER SINCE MY COUSIN SET FOOT IN THIS COUNTRY IT’S BEEN PROBLEM AFTER PROBLEM AFTER CHORE AFTER ERRAND AFTER ERRAND. I’M SICK OF ITTTT I WANNA REST AND I WILL! on the coast.

Forgot my second fave shorts at home and also my face roller but IDGAF!!!!!! I’m FREE!!! WOO!!! BACK BY THE SEA WHERE I BELONG!!!! Drove for 4.5 hours and my cousin wasn’t impressed by my emotion and emotion side b cds but idgaffffffff she has no taste.

I’m starting up my morning notes again tomorrow. Lowkey depressed about my job but we’ll see. I’m FREEE AND EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!!! Lowkey feel like my cousin’s presence is cursing me so i’m doing some defensive magic. I’ll WIN! Also I’m starting that D&D game with my twitter mutuals soon - NECKLACE SEND ME UR CHARACTER OMFG

the amount of alcohol i brought to the coast….i’m gonna need it to survive these two weeks with my cousin, she’s already annoying me and NOW WE SHARE A BED SO I CAN’T EVEN FART WHILE LYIING IN PEACE OMFGGGG

On a more positive note, the summer is passing slowly and I’m sooo happy I’m having fun experiences.

Summer progress bar: 41.1%/100

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #28: July 13th: Hosed Down

Heyooo!!! I’m going back to the coast tomorrow and I honestly can’t wait. Today was a really really hot day, I mostly ran errands in the early afternoon, then I cooked the rest of the food in the fridge cause we gotta eat it before we go.

Food cooked:

Fried porketta

Sauce made with six tomatoes that weren’t delicious enough for a salad, five onions, garlic powder, celery, garlic and parsley and the oil left from the porketta. Yum!

Tomato feta onion salad

Mashed sweet potatoes

Lamb meatballs

Cooked all that in two hours!

Also I had some fun in the yard trying to beat the heat hosing myself down lol and also I fought some hornets with the hose. I think I killed some.

All the alcohol I bought for the coast is now in the car and GODS there’s a LOT! Anyways, I’ll be travelling with my mom’s car sadly so no cabriolet on the coast…for now. Might be able to bring it in August somehow but if not, there’s always next year.

I’ll be getting up early tomorrow to drive my cousin for a blood test then I’ll work till 2 then I’ll drive her to her psychic and then we’re off to the coast! Honestly, I can’t wait, I feel like most of my days in the city have been errand after errand after errand. Let my parents do the boring stuff on the coast so I can relax. AMEN!

Bringing my secret stuff to the coast too cause there’s some plotting. Iykyk.

Summer progress bar: 40.1%/100

You can hear the song of the day in the hose clip lol

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #27 July 10th, 11th and 12th: Full Moon

I’m hurt but i’ve denied myself a heart so i can’t prove it

The full moon has been waiting for me for three days, or maybe four. She hasn’t done that before.

I need rest, it’s getting too much, even if it’s little. I need to leave. I have to be strong and grown. For the future.

Me and my cousin are still taking on the town but she is CONSIDERABLY less energetic than me and I’m battling some sort of emotional fatigue. She’s acting like a grandma at the age of 20 which is crazy. We had a nice homemade ribs dinner in our yard which was fun. She’s kinda getting on my nerves but it’s not entirely her fault.

Went to a bar with a friend and my cousin, got drunk and danced a lot. I seem to have underestimated the value of Grape Girl - every time we go to the club together and someone wants to dance with me for too long she mean mugs them until they leave. There was this guy that night that lowkey wanted me baddd and don’t get me wrong, I love the attention but he lowkey smelled bad.

He kept on trying to grind on me and get a place at our table and I had to dance hard as fuck to prevent him from touching me LMFAOOOOOOO dude take a shower. Anyways.

My car got fixed but then immediately showed signs of breaking again so I’m driving my mom’s unsexy car. Ugh.

Went to an amazing pool resort with my cousin and best friend and we had an amazing day, we swam, played with a ball, read some books on hammocks and had burgers and cake! Amazing, love it. Last time we did that was two years ago and it was sooo good. Time flew today though, probably the first time so far this summer that it happened. I don’t know what that means.

Time is flying today, and I want it to come to a halt. I feel like I can’t pay the price though. Or don’t wanna. Don’t wanna.

Kept the gaze of a bird for a minute, it’s like i froze it in place, it only moved once i looked away

I’m lowkey overwhelmed. I do things for my cousin, for the house, for my parents constantly ever since I came back, it’s super tiring, I don’t have much time for myself. That needs to stop. I need to relax. Gonna sleep for 10 hours tonight. Work is stressing me out too. Think I might find a new one. I don’t want to tho. Ugh.

I can’t pay today.

No how. No way.

Summer Progress Bar: 39.2%/100

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #26: July 7th, 8th and 9th: Dirty Heat/Godless Nights

Heyoooo, back with another update!

I’ve been driving around in my car with the top down in the DIRTYYYY heat streaming Kesha’s new album and it makes me wanna start up some trouble.

I got some ungodly amounts of alcohol for when i got back to the coast. Incomplete list:

- Raspberry Vodka

- Grapefruit Vodka

- 2 Limoncellos

- 2 PINK Limoncellos

- Peach & Raspberry Gin

- Orange Gin

- Lemon Gin

- Malibu

- Dead Man’s Rum Mango

- Cherry Liqueur

Among more.

Went to a korean restaurant with a friend of mine but it was very meh, nothing like the one in Budapest.

I picked up my cousin from the airport and my car immediately broke down. Something with the gas. I had to drive at like 15 kph just to find somewhere to park cause GUESS WHAT IT BROKE DOWN IN A HIGH SPEED ROAD. Fuck this. Also my fucking toilet stopped working. (my aunt might be putting spells on me via my mom, time for a counterattack). ALSO ABOUT THE TOILET: I GOT A DIARRHEA ATTACK FROM SOME RANDOM WILD PLUMS I ATE WHILE WAITING FOR MY COUSIN TO FINISH HER APPOINTMENT WITH A PSYCHIC AND I LEARNED MY TOILET STOPPED WORKING IN THE AFTERMATH OF THAT.

Thankfully I managed to park it somewhere and get a cab for me and my cousin and then get it to a mechanic the following day. Phew.

Me and my cousin and also a friend and my second cousin and the friend’s bf went bar crawling and it was kinda shit cause none of the bars were good so we eventually just went home and drank and danced. It was fun. Wait, let me talk my shit: THE FIRST BAR WAS GOOD BUT MY FRIEND’S BOYFRIEND THOUGHT IT WAS TOO LOUD SO WE MOVED. THE SECOND BAR WAS MEH BUT WE DIDN’T EVEN GET INSIDE CAUSE MY COUSIN COULDN’T BREATHE FROM THE SHISHA SMOKE. THE THIRD BAR WAS A COMBO OF BOTH. FUCK THAT.

Can’t wait for this work week to end. Me and my cousin are going to the club tomorrow with some of the afforementioned friends so it will be fun!

Haven’t been doing the morning notes. I should do them.

These are godless nights, unbound and untethered by consequences and bosses.

Weirdly enough, dirty heat is gone now, it’s a little cold for some reason. The variety is nice.

Honestly, I’m getting a little bored of alcohol now which is crazy cause I bought so much for the summer. Might take a little break, at least til we reach the coast. Who knows.

Tits are fine but I need to do some pushups if I want them to be in prime condition for Kesha’s tour.

Summer Progress Bar: 36.4%/100

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #25: July 6th: Heat Waves & Art

Heyooo!!! Today was a good day, I woke up, I had a croissant then I went on the train to pick up my car from the city cause I drank yesterday and I left it parked there, then I ran some errands and then I met with Grape Girl and her friends!

We went to the Museum Of Socialist Art (for whoever doesn’t know, I live in a post-socialist country and it’s a sour topic here) cause I personally really love Eastern Europe Socialist Architecture, and I was really excited to see some art in a similar style.

We roamed the gardens filled with Brutalist statues, I had some wild plums that were growing on a tree (wild plums are very common here, more so during my childhood and they’re really delicious and grow everywhere during summer so essentially you have free fruit everywhere. They’ve been getting rarer though, I’m sad about that), we saw some Socialist art and I’m a reallll lazy bitch cause all the glorification of labor lowkey made me sick (but the thought of my boss is making me sick too so I guess it’s just my anxious mood related to work stress). I included my favorite painting in the post.

Then we went to a shisha place and talked a lot, I read them their future with my tarot cards, we laughed a lot and then went on a walk. Really fun. Grape Girl drove me to my car after picking up some tomatoes from her dad and we had a little carpool karaoke moment, as usual. I probably won’t see her again til like September. Bummer.

Grape Girl’s two friends are great, we were having really cool discussions about our country’s past Socialist regime and also just general topics, they’re really intelligent, I love it.

I gotta change my tires tomorrow ewwwwwwww

Anyways I gotta sleep I’m tiredd and I gotta work tomorrow byeeee

Summer Progress Bar: 33.6%/100

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #24: July 4th, July 5th: Back To The City

July 4th:

I was mostly stressed about work the first half of the day, then I put my phone on do not disturb and swam til the evening. Then I saw a free music show! Very fun!

July 5th:

First day back in the city. Sleep deprived. The heat is attempting to choke me but can’t fully commit to it. I feel like I’ve gone from flying free back to a comfortable cage that’s open at all times and soothing in its vulgarity. This is not a prison, this is where I’m from.

On my way to a Virgin by Lorde party, armed with my electric blue/green hair, a blue outfit and a crippling weight in my throat for some reason. It’s like my programming is dedicated to not allow me to have fun. Probably a side effect of the sleep deprivation, I only got 4 hours in cause I had to get the 7 am bus.

On that note, no more buses! My cabriolet is fixed! Life is great.

I hope I have fun at the Lorde party. I also hope there are actual people there cause I have a feeling it’ll be like five people and that’s my OPTIMISTIC prediction.

Just saw MEGAN2.0 with a friend, the movie was great, even better than the first part, I genuinely don’t know what’s up some people’s asses that has them acting like the movie is bad. They had me convinced the movie is pandering to a cringe yass mama audience and there were like….zero jokes of the sort. I don’t know.

I’m manifesting a great night dancing to Lorde and other tumblr alt artists, followed by an AMAZING SLEEP. Idk. My boss has been stressing me out recently, do you know how hard that is to do when i work part time??? Crazy.

My bus home was fun, Hot City by Bonnie McKee finally clicked for me (SLAY is a crime against humanity tho), I picked out pics for my Instagram posts from Budapest (super hard endeavor, took me 3 hours), and I almost finished reading the D&D campaign I’m gonna run for my online friends.

Currently streaming Virgin as I wander around waiting for the event to start and GOD, that album has so solidly defined itself as a beach one in my mind, it actively feels WRONG to stream it without a sea breeze in my hair.

Got a random inclination towards feeling ugly as of the last few hours. I’m gonna blame that on the sleep deprivation cause I was FEELING myself in those roadside toilet mirrors on the way home.

I’ve left a mess in my house as I was leaving for the coast two weeks ago, forgot to throw some trash out and the vegetable peels have turned black and i think there might be some insects. I hope I’m being paranoid over nothing.

Tits are in good shape, I hope the week away from sea doesn’t affect them too much. But even it it does, I’ll have to live like 6 months without sea til the Kesha concert, so does it truly matter.

Me streaming HOT CITY on the way to the city is very fitting cause GOD, this place is HOT. I didn’t even sweat at all on the coast and I’m a BIG SWEATER. Now I’m sweating in the subway waiting for my train. Don’t get me wrong, I love my city and I love hear, but this is my first encounter this year with THIS much heat if we ignore two days in Budapest.

Anyways, I overate with some sushi in preparation for the event and now I’m bloated. I have two hours to get it down. Also I should get properly drunk for cheap before the event. I have money now but I don’t see a reason to be STUPID.

Honestly I feel like I’m gonna end up dancing alone in the bar, no one but me and the DJ. I’ll have to be fine with that. I think I will be.

The further I go in the album, the better I feel about this whole thing. I think I’ll have fun.

I’m feeling vulnerable for some reason - a combination of sensory overload and general anxiety, everything feels violent. Sounds. Stares. Everything. I can’t detach myself from the context of all else that exists. This is stupid. I gotta manually override this mood of mine.

I don’t know if I currently can’t stand people or myself. Likely both.

I’m leaving the outdoor jazz festival I meant to kill some time at until the event. I don’t wanna be in a situation where I’m not having fun.

I need water. Water will help me.

Maybe I’m chasing something I already have.

Okay Virgin lowkey depressed the fuck out of me so now I’m getting happy streaming Kesha’s new album while watching two guys play featherball. I probably should root for one so I’ll root for the hot one.

The hot one is winning, I have good instincts.

Post-Virgin event: JESUS FUCKING CHRIST THESE PEOPLE ARE BORINGGGG

I was the only one out of six attendees to dance at all, the DJ was very low energy and repeated songs, and I didn’t get drunk at all despite my best efforts but it was semi-worth it cause I danced for two hours and then at the end when White Teeth Teens played and I was left completely alone, I danced on stage and lost myself in the music. Very nice.

My hair is currently turning purple cause I’m lowkey sick of the blue and it’s not very permanent cause once I get to the sea I’ll turn blue/green again so who cares. Looking forward to going to a museum tomorrow.

Summer progress bar: 32.7%/100

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #23: July 1st, July 2nd, July 3rd: Ginsoaked Pockets

Ginsoaked pockets, I have a mistress

The pink clouds reflect in the sea

Oh, woe will be me

Once this is not meant to be

The jellyfish have found me. I hate them so much. One of them stung my neck today. It’s good for character development at least, I hope.

Eagerly awaiting Kesha’s new album, I expect it to blow my tits off but also then bring them back even better than before so I can wear a slutty mesh top to the Tits Out Tour.

I’ve been loving this summer so far, these past two weeks have been chill but on Saturday I’m coming back to the city and I’m gonna PARTY! Even then, there are many things from my to-do list I haven’t even STARTED yet and idk how to feel about that. I gotta write! I wanna write! I wanna finish a song at least! I’ve had some good ideas for songs recently and I GOTTA MAKE AT LEAST ONE DEMO. This feels silly to say out loud but imagine me becoming a successful artist out of the blue. I want it. It could happen. I just gotta make a song.

I’m tired, physically, from swimming, which is wonderful. It’s great just getting in bed and falling asleep immediately. I’m not used to that.

The D&D game for my twitter oomfs is in planning stages, everyone is down, we had a bit of a delay cause we were beefing with Ellie Gouldling but that’s semi resolved now so it’s time for them to tackle The Devil’s Bridge! I haven’t been a dm in like 4-5 years so it will be scary but fun. I think I’ll be great and they will also be great.

The temperature by the coast is great but the city is getting fried. I wonder how I’ll deal when I get back. We’ll see, there are a lot of pools in my future.

I’ve been occasionally doing the Morning Pages from the Artist’s Way. I GOTTA STOP SKIPPING THEM, they make me feel great, they make me feel like I could actually accomplish something and be a person!!!! I will be an artist. A good one.

Summer progress bar: 30.8%/100

IT’S MIDNIGHT! KESHA TIME!

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #22: June 29th and June 30th: June Forever

June’s over! That’s weird! Like 30% of summer is down! So far the summer is meeting my expectations, I’m having fun, relaxing, getting drunk, getting my tits in shape for the Kesha concert, love it!

I’ll be going back to the city on Saturday for my cousin, the boat ride got cancelled but the museum and the Lorde club night didn’t so I’ll still have a lot of fun!

My father is full of venom and no better life would change that

He’ll always find something to be mad about

Crushes are a type of mental enslavement of sorts

How far would you go, how much would you abandon to have him?

Anyways, I gotta get #serious about The Artist’s Way, more specifically the morning notes - Everyone who has tried them says they’re LIFECHANGING and maybe I want my life a little changed.

My tan is overwhelming, I feel like Ariana Grande in 2017 but it’s unavoidable, I never leave the water.

Might start preparing a DnD session for some online friends soon! Idk if it’s best to do it in a chat form or over discord cause like - differing timezones but also if it’s by chat it’s risky cause most of the people I have in mind are very bad at consistently replying LMFAOOO we’ll see.

Summer progress bar: 28%/100

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #21: June 27th and June 28th: Fireworks Before The Storm

Hi! The town is filling up as the summer tourist season flares up. As much as I dislike all these slow inconsiderate walkers swarming the streets, somehow their arrival has shaken up the air and it’s no longer stale, so there’s that at least.

Thank god for the sea, every time I get inside it just melts away all my troubles, all my overthinking disappears inside it and I just swim and live and love to live. Amazing.

My boss got pissed at some of my coworkers and decided starting September, we will be working from an office instead of from home. This won’t stand so we have a new goal for the summer - find a good new job that will allow me to work from home! I’m confident that I’ll find one but it’s bittersweet - I like my current job and most of the time it isn’t stressful but this is something I will Not budge on. Plus, the pay is low compared to other companies so it would be good for my finances to switch jobs too. Honestly I will miss being able to work part time in the summer tho, this is the biggest perk of my current job. I’m confident I will find the perfect new job tho, one that will allow me to relax in the summer. Pray for me. I gotta do some spells on the beach soon.

Despite the people, the town feels dead.

The fireworks seem like a celebration before the storm.

I didn’t go to the beach on Saturday cause it rained, however I am not mad at missing out. I would be, usually, but now that I’m spending THREE MONTHS by the sea I couldn’t care less. I have all the time in the world.

In my last entry I said I hoped Virgin by Lorde would change my life. I’m happy to announce it’s currently doing exactly that except I haven’t even focused on analysing the lyrics yet. It’s such a rich record and it devastates me every time I listen to it. Love it. I’m having a parasocial reaction to Favorite Daughter, connecting it to my grandma who passed away 1.5 years ago. She was my first and biggest fan. I miss her. She has a hold of me no one else does, except maybe my mother. Current Affairs and Clearblue are my favorite songs on the record. Also, my room at the coastal apartment is giving the album cover lowkey lol.

Also, the line about the uncle dying of a broken heart is genuinely word for word me and my mother’s uncle. She says I remind her of him so much.

I got invited to go to a yacht with some of Grape Girl’s friends next Sunday (not a yacht per se, it’s a regular boat that they’re renting but they call it a yacht lol), so that’s exciting. My next weekend will be filled with activities - I’ll go back to the city in the afternoon, watch M3gan2.0 with a friend, go to a Virgin release party, then on the next day I’m going to a museum and the yacht with the aforementioned people. Then my cousin arrives and it’s party time! Can’t wait.

I failed at doing my morning notes in my third day. It’s fine, I’ll do them tomorrow. I’m commited. I need to start writing soon. I had a great idea for a song called Normal Guys yesterday on the beach. Gonna write it soon.

I hate my tan but it’s unavoidable when I spend so much time in the water.

Some family friends visited today and GOD i felt like a 14 year old again, all I wanted was to stay in my room. Guess I haven’t grown up yet.

Summer Progress Bar: 26.1%/100

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #20: June 25th and June 26th: Floating In The Sea

I’m on a tightrope of sorts. My job is stressful with some deadlines but I wanna avoid doing overtime and go to the beach and I do it. I worry while I get to the beach but when I get in the water all melts away and I’m fine forever. I swear I am made for the sea. I love it so much.

I started The Artist’s Way yesterday and the first “tool” I have to use is Morning Pages - the moment I wake up I have to pick up a notebook and write a three page freehand stream of consciousness to get rid of all lingering thoughts and open my mind to creativity. I did it this morning, slept for 9.5 hours cause I was exhausted from all the work stress and then the swimming and walking I’m doing all day, and honestly? It was weird but very fulfilling. It’s very hard for me to run out of thoughts but having to actually write it somehow slowed me down and I managed to get a lot of things off my chest. My hand hurt cause I haven’t written with a pen for a long time but it was good. I wonder what I’ll write tomorrow.

As for creativity, so far The Artist’s Way has started to spark it a bit. As I was swimming in the sea I came up with a great concept for a DnD campaign setting - something I’ve thought of before but kinda refined and better - and even if it isn’t a campaign setting, it would be a great setting for a book so I’m excited to pursue that!

I gotta post my pics from Budapest on Instagram soon.

I already have a lot of plans for when I go back to the city for a week; also a new friend of mine asked me to visit me at my apartment by the coast so she’ll probably come in August. This summer is going great so far! June is ending soon which is surreal. Thankfully we’re barely 1/4 of the way. Hope it gets even better!

Currently listening to Virgin by Lorde. Hope it changes my life!

Summer Progress Bar: 24.2%/100

Songs of the days:

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #19: June 23rd and June 24th: Beach Days!

We begin the coastal saga! My new reality: waking up at 9.30 am; having nice breakfast; working til like 2 pm; going to the beach til like 7 pm; eating dinner and exploring the city; relaxing.

It’s all I’ve ever dreamed of - having my own place near the beach. I’ve always loved water, you can ask my mother how many times she’s had to drag me out of the water kicking and screaming cause I never wanted to come out. Now that I’m grown I can disappear for hours in the sea and come out whenever I decide I wanna leave. I’m free.

I do think my earlier prediction of the sea carving me into the person I’m meant to be is proving correct. I will elaborate on it later.

Side note: my tits look AMAZING from all the swimming I’m doing! I’m gonna look so fucking hot at the Kesha concert if i keep this up for the next 2.5 months. Pushups postponed for now!

On June 23rd I took a walk around the town in the evening and I was sad for some reason. The day went better than I could have anticipated, so that was really confusing but meh, emotions have to be felt.

I was chasing an Eastern Star of sorts. Could have been a drone.

The air is stale but thank God it’s June, I don’t sweat

I wonder where the sea winds are

Are they avoiding me like the moon does?

On June 24th I discovered I’m a very fearful person. I have a tendency of jumping when I’m scared and being on very high alert. Mostly for jellyfish. They majorly gross me out. I need to let go of my fear. Fear is good for survival but from now on I will be thriving.

I think I’ll be a millionaire eventually - maybe when a million is not that much but I think I’ll get there. I’m not sure I like what capitalism has made me but I sure love what it has given me. I hope it can give to those who need it too. I saw a video of a homeless mother and her child receiving gifts from a kind stranger. All my life I’ve had to be stingy with people like that cause I’ve never had enough to both help them and secure my and my family’s well being for long. Sure, I’ve given money on occassion but my default mode is just protect the little I have. Now that I begin to have more, is it time to unlearn that? When I was a child, I thought grown up me would give to charity regularly. Am I grown up me yet? Or am I disappointing him?

I told my online friend from the UK about my coast situation and he said I’ll be sunkissed. Girl, I’ll be SUNFUCKED thank GOD i’m stocked up on sunscreen.

An ex classmate of mine that I recently reconnected with cause she started coming to my Zumba class invited me to a house party for her birthday in July but sadly I won’t be able to make it cause I’ll still be on the coast. Kinda sad but then again most of her friends are boring male programmers. Shudder. Maybe this is me dodging a bullet.

I will be attending a party in honor of the new Lorde album nexttt Saturday. I hope people show up honestly lmfaooooo

Summer progress bar:22.4%/100

Song of the day:

The sea is so aquamarine. It’s beautiful

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Space’s Summer Chronicles #18: June 21st and June 22nd: The JOYRIDE

HEYOOOOOO, so let’s get into it! June 21st is the start of the astronomical summer and the day with the most hours of daylight! I woke up at 11am, had breakfast, then caught the train to the city to see my friends! I couldn’t use my car cause I’d need it the following day to get to the city and I had drinking plans for the evening hehe

I hung out with two of my best friends at one of them’s apartment - I’m lowkey worried about the friend whose apartment we were at. She was very obviously out of it and disinterested, kinda depressed, she’s having job troubles and it might be worse than she’s letting on. I talked with her but then again, I can’t save her, she has to save herself.

Anyways, at around 4 pm Grape Girl picked me up in her man’s car and we went to have pizza at my favorite pizza place (i’m gonna miss that pizza once we get to the coast). We caught up, I told her all the best spots in Budapest cause she’ll be going in September, and she caught me up with her other friends’ drama. Afterwards we went to a rooftop party which was weirdly enough only til like 10pm. I had a bottle of passionfruit gin mixed with mango juice ready for pregaming but despite drinking a considerable amount, I only got tipsy. Whatever.

Anyways, the party was fun, it was mostly full of millennials who were too cool to dance but we danced a lot and it was great. Grape Girl’s nemesis showed up and her and her friends watched us the whole night so that was funny as fuck.

I also saw one of the depressed girl i talked about earlier’s ex friends, we talked a lot, exchanged a lot of gossip, learned why they stopped talking (depressed girl kept asking her for money and ignored her whenever she wasn’t asking her for money), and she gave me a whiskey shot yayyy

She invited us to her table but cause Grape Girl doesn’t like talking to new people, we only went at like 9.40pm, 20 minutes before closing. Funnily enough they hit it off very well, discussing weddings (Grape Girl got married in May, ex-friend of my friend is engaged and planning a wedding).

#keshasummer: you know how in sleazy by kesha she says we take the drinks from the table when you get up and leave ‘em? WELLLLLLLLL the girls from ex friend’s neighboring table appeared to have left permanently and left an unopened bottle of vodka and an unopened bottle of white wine so I swiped the white wine in my backpack and ex-friend swiped the vodka LMFAOOOOO

but plot twist THEY CAME BACK TWO MINUTES LATER and like the music was already dead cause of curfew and me and Grape Girl decided to leave before the girls learned who stole their wine LMFAOOOO

SOOO AFTERWARDS ME AND GRAPE GIRL WENT FOR A NIGHT JOYRIDE, DRIVING AROUND AND SCREAMING ALONG TO OUR FAVORITE SONGS FOR HOURSSS

lowkey my favorite summer day so far but then again June 21st is iconic by definition

Today’s June 22nd and I woke up to a semi popular actor from my country posting me and Grape Girl dancing at the party to his story lol (video attached below)

I feel amazing, younger me would be so proud I’m cool and funny and I’m the star of every party I go to (I also got two compliments on the color of my hair yesterday hehe)

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So it’s June 22nd and I’m currently on the bus travelling to the coast! My car needs some repairs so I’ll be convertible-less until like early July when I come back to the city to pick up my cousin coming to visit from Germany for adventures. I spent 4 hours from the trip doing some work on my phone on behalf of my parents so they can get some extra money which was okay honestly, I love keeping busy. Sadly when I reach the coast I’ll have to do some of my OWN work cause I promised my boss something for tomorrow (originally promised for Friday) so i have to fix the situation I’ve created ugh

Also I gotta start the Artist’s Way this evening cause I wanna live out the six/eight weeks of the “course” on the coast. I wonder what I’ll create. A part of the Artist’s Way is morning notes to get all your thoughts out of the way so I might include mine in the next entries if they’re interesting, we’ll see.

Honestly, I love riding the bus through the countryside, I love the endless blindingly golden fields. Such a beautiful color.

I have a feeling the sea will whittle me away to the version of me I was always meant to be.

Also!!! For those who remember I’m preparing to go to Kesha’s TITS OUT TOUR in March…..SHE INCLUDED MY FAVORITE SONG OF HERS IN THE SETLIST AND IT HAS NEVER BEEN SUNG LIVE BEFOREEEE (THINKING OF YOU) I’M SO EXCITEEDDD

Okay I’ve arrived and GOD the town is gorgeous and the apartment has this amazing terrace, I can’t wait to continue this amazing summer tomorrow!

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Summer progress bar: 20.5%/100