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**** Started my own FB group, trying to add to it, as Im wanting to connect with more people like myself that are also on their healing/spiritual journey. So PLEASE ACCEPT MY INVITATION and also feel free to make your own posts (If it's not an option, plz let me know so that I can fix that in the group settings....I'm not GREAT when it comes to this...and this is also my first group I ever even started) I want this to be a platform for myself and whoever else, to seek advice, ask questions to others on the same journey who may be struggling, to laugh/make jokes/find humor and just SHARE stories and offer support, healing, and inspiration!

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If your life was a book, what would this chapter of your life be called? What would the first few lines of that chapter be? What about the last few lines? The ending? Here is what mine would contain:

Unanswered Prayers

First lines- Ever since she was a little girl, all she ever wanted was unconditional love. The kind of love that would move mountains and have no end.

Last lines- Finally, she came to realize, that SELF love was what she was in search of all along. Everyone that ever broke her heart, was actually guiding her right back to herself this whole time. Those heart aches and painful lessons she endured and the darkness that hung over her like a cloud for what seemed like her whole life...they, too, were magical gifts. Because in order for her to truly appreciate the light, she had to experience the darkness. She gives more of that love to herself now. Because she is hers, before anybody else's. She now knows unconditional love, the kind of love that moves mountains and has absolutely no end.

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Saturday thoughts

'It takes courage to love. It also takes an unwavering commitment to truth to be able to show up for each inch of that process.

When I am honest about what I've yearned for all along, it is easier to seek it, source it, and give it.

My ability to receive love is matched by my ability to excavate the fears I have when it comes to Intimacy. I know that, as much as I want connection and partnership, I was taught to Hide. Each time I sweep my feelings under the rug, I resist being known.

I can't, and WON'T, wait around for someone to find me loveable, likeable, or worthy of commitment. If I've learned anything, it's that treating myself the way I want to be treated, is the surest, and only, way to attract the same from others.

I let others know that they have a home in my heart, but only their absolute desire to be there will unlock its door.

If my relationships/friendships can't be a portal to transformation, they won't last long. I promise to commit to partnerships that keep me honest.

There is nothing I need to add to myself in order to be worthy of receiving kindness. I refuse NO parts of myself. Every inch of me is worthy of love, compassion, kindness, and understanding.

Healing chooses me when it's good and ready. I can't force it to happen. And I love myself enough to know that nobody is coming to save me. My healing journey is mine, and mine to navigate.

Lastly, I am grateful for all the people in my life that take the effort to really see me. To really know me. Because to me, to be loved is to be known' .Chani

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▶️ Watch this reel

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**PLEASE READ AND PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME** IM FEELING DEFEATED, Although HE IS CURRENTLY IN JAIL AWAITING A JUDGE FOR MORE DEFINITE SENTENCING, I FEEL LIKE HE WILL STILL SOMEHOW GET OUT WITHIN A WEEK, AS CRAZY AS THAT SOUNDS...ITS HAPPENED MORE TIMES THAN I COULD COUNT. REACHING OUT ON HERE IS ONE OF LAST RESORTS. I STILL DONT FEELL SAFE. AND NEITHER DO MY KIDS. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Praying this will finally be the time they keep him locked up, but not feeling too confident.

Karma AT it's absolute finest was served on the very FIRST DAY OF 2024 too for a certain person I know. Today was Veda's 7th birthday, but this certain someone decided he had wanted to celebrate his way. All of my tires are now slashed, so as a result of that and not having the funds bc of back to back December birthdays and Christmas, I couldn't purchase tires, we couldn't take Veda out to celebrate her special day. She woke up to cops having to be called. My friends tires were also slashed, also this person stole my friend's debit card and car keys. I could go on and on but 6 charges currently, most definitely 7 when he is seen by a judge tomorrow or Wednesday. He admitted to cops he knew it was Veda's birthday, and that was how he chose to celebrate With trauma and memories I know she will never forget. I did my best to make her day that much more special, but my mommy heart can't stop aching for her. This person was also hiding in my laundry room outside for many hours before he was caught. This person also, yet again, violated the restraining order I have on him. I think this is the 5th time now. The system fails me and my children time and time again, he gets away with everything, all the time. And will continue to do so because he knows there will be no true consequences for it. This event was by far the most malicious and I am even more afraid now than I already was. Some may say that me posting this will make him retaliate. Yea...he mostly likely will. But I've been silent for 4 years, no communication with the person and he "retaliates"regardless. And since the court system won't serve justice, I'm talking it upon myself to reach out for help/advice. I've asked for guidance from Victims assistance, cops, and unfortunately something like my life has to be taken in order for anyone to take any REAL action. I can't afford a lawyer, it's not possible or ideal for me to move. This has been our family home for 15 years. Is there anyone, or even anyone who knows ANYONE, who can help me keep my children and I safe from this violent person? How, other than him talking my life, do I go about finding someone that will hold him accountable? Why is domestic violence treated like a minor issue that's not worth handling. He gets a slap on the wrist and a free pass to go back out into the world, basically allowing him another chance to "get me" again. This has been going on for years. Plz don't send negativity my way, and plz no judgement for my decision to take it to FB...just know bringing it here was truly my last resort.

Tonight we ended our night with pizza and ice cream and presents.. and even when we sung happy birthday to her, my whole heart was just breaking for her. She deserves the world. She is one of the sweetest souls I know. Please send me in any direction that will help us.

Karma was he got arrested within 5 minutes, whereas most times, he runs away and GETS away. Leaving us terrified to even sleep at night.

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Even I feel violated watching this 😢

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Alright, I think I like tumblr now.

A pun post crossed my dash, and I reblogged it with an equally bad pun in return. A couple of my followers find it funny, it's a good day for everyone.

That was on July 7th.

Virality on Reddit was entirely algorithmic. You could garner a couple crossposts, but the success of a post was entirely dependent on whether or not it hit r/all--the main page of Reddit. If your post does that, it's immediately exposed to 10x the number of people and immediately gets upvoted.

On my pun post, I get a couple reblogs. And those reblogs get a couple reblogs--nobody really adds any content to the post, it just gets a couple reblogs here and there.

There's a specific chain of reblogs that I'd like to focus on. The most popular post on this chain has about 25 reblogs on it. Half the posts have three reblogs or fewer. Five posts in this chain have just one reblog total.

But the reblog chain keeps going. And going. It breaches containment many times over. And finally, after a chain THIRTY SIX posts long, at 9:30 AM, July 22nd this morning, it hits a popular account.

99% percent of the people who have seen the post--virtually unchanged from how it left my dash--have seen it because it was curated by 36 different people. That's insane to me.

None of those 36 people know that they're part of this chain. They saw a post, reblogged it, and moved on. If any one of these people had not reblogged, the post would have a fraction of the impact it has.

And yet, after two weeks, the post has effectively hit the main page of tumblr. It was picked up, only because people liked it enough to show it to their followers. There were no algorithms necessary.

You really, truly, cannot get this on any other website.

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❤️ 💜 I just want to say that I love this platform. It's much different and more supportive than the others out there and I appreciate the support from everyone. 💜❤️

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NOBODY!! I'm proud of myself and who I am..flaws and all 💜❤️

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Yessssss!!!!! This!! 💯