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Healing is slowly realizing how much damage you alllowed people to cause to your self, your energy, your aura, your passion, your shame, and now having to rewire every part of your being to become again.

I’ve never had the privilege of existing as me. For me. And now I have to figure it all out from scratch at the age of 27… life is cruel and unforgiving but also beautiful and full of second chances. I have the gift of opening my eyes and freeing myself from the mundane, and I have to freedom to open myself up to a new life IIII get to build FOR ME.

Does it hurt? Absolutely. Excruciatingly.

But god damn one day it is going to feel so good.

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yeah i couldn’t be trusted with a penis id get hard from the way the sun shines through the leaves and everyone would hate me

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please don’t ever try to get my attention by neglecting me because i will alienate myself from you at terminal velocity 

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Walk a little on the lake path with me. The sun is coming up.

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i have feelings for you *blocks you*

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having a very public breakdown on tumblr is actually quite noble and should be respected

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I think imma give up tbh

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Can’t wait to get everything I’ve ever wanted. seriously, I know it’s coming and I can’t wait!!! Wooooo any second now I’m gonna have the best life imaginable and everything is going to turn out exactly how I want it… yeeeeppp here it comes…

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I have never been loved.

I was born with a heart that speaks in a language most people have never learned.

I feel more. I see more. I want more.

Some would say it makes me unique,

I say unlovable.

No one ever taught me what it feels like to be held without condition.

To be met where I am without demands.

To be seen and kept in my most vulnerable form.

I don’t know how to hold this pain.

No one ever showed me how.

I’ve been carrying around an empty cup, begging people to fill it, all while pretending I’m not dying of thirst.

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Missed my gyno appointment last week, missed jury duty yesterday, missed work today cause I’m sick. My water bill is $250 cause my toilet is broke and idk how to fix that shit, my roof is leaking water and iiiiii am v overwhelmed.

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saying “be safe” like a spell that’ll protect them

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you can go back to the past but nobody’s there

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"There's a good girl" as she's shaking and cumming on it

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