#i am healing

[nartothelar]

how are you doing, nart? :3

I’ve been super busy! skksks I just finished my finals so now I’m just waiting on grades 😭 but at least now I can finally wind down, draw, and catch up with friends ;w; thanks for asking!

[lostestleo]

I apologize, I forgot to put a trigger warning before. I do mention suicide.

As a chronic pain patient/advocate who is newish but oldish to the game, I have learned that the argument of addiction is the reason people in pain are not getting proper pain relief. And if you are lucky to get pain relievers, it comes with a big, red scarlet sticker saying the medication “can cause dependency” on the bottle... well, think about it: if you have daily pain, you will need daily relief if you hope to live a normal life.

But there is a major difference between addiction & dependency:

Addiction is an insatiable desire for the medications immediate “euphoric” effects, aka “chasing the dragon” which typically lasts all day. The patient may end up over using/taking much more or all of the prescribed amount within a shorter time period.

Dependency is when the person needs the medication to sustain a decent quality of life. The patient is taking their prescribed medications as directed so that their body can function properly.

An example of dependency is a diabetic patient needing insulin so that they can live.

The problem is that addiction is in everyone, and everyone has some form of addiction that is waiting to be ignited. It is a basic human condition to “want more” and it can be a result of MANY things including a traumatic experience, or even the dreaded “peer pressure” during a high-school party. It can happen with gambling, sex, exercising, even food… It is a spectrum. And it is up to the person to determine their path.

We have reached a new stage of our awful human evolution. Being thin is a societal influence, something that people will kill them-selves for, and we now have everyday people using the diabetic prescription drug “ozempic” as a way to lose weight.

Diabetic patients who are dependent on this type of drug are unable to fill their prescriptions because of the high numbers of non-diabetic people using this drug for their personal gain- pun noted.

To be blunt or a bit dramatic, we could say they are abusing or misusing a diabetics drug.

A person in pain asking for medical attention is shamed, mocked, reported, harassed, and some extraordinary nurses have even taken it far enough to record their rejected “drug seekers” walking out from the hospitals as they’re laughing in the background.

We have been waiting for justice for what seems forever, and some pain warriors have even decided death is better than endless pain… there are so many. It’s not just pain patients either, an ER doctor Dr. Steve Ortiz committed suicide, because he was unable to help his patients. He was continually harassed by the ones who made these fucking rules. He wanted to bring light to the corruption with his death, leaving behind his wife and children in hopes for justice.

And now pain patients everywhere get to watch our society do exactly what they claim to hate us for: abusing someone else’s medication…

Self reflection is free, and everyone should use it daily.

[yanderson]

It's FINALLY HERE!!! My very own Galvantula sitting cutie. This has to be one of the best ever of all time. She also plays keyboard, apparently, which is an added bonus.

[whatever-you-can-give-me]

the weirdest way that being a moderately well-known writer in the trigun fandom + someone with a bit of an ego has helped my mental health is that i spend a decent amount of time wondering what ppl are saying about me in discord servers and dms in an exclusively positive way. i used to worry that people were talking behind my back and now i’m almost exclusively thinking “i wonder what nice things people say about my writing in private discords 👀👀👀”

like as someone with completely absent emotional object permanence who used to assume either i stopped existing when not present or Everyone who spoke about me out of earshot was complaining about me. i’m taking the win without shame.

[kieflo]

listening to the alola battle themes so i can heal

[katastronoot]

Anyone who leaves sweet nice comments on my writing: I’m crying you don’t know how much that means to someone who thought they could never write ❤️

[jimmyenjoyer]

I found my 3ds and have started a new island in tomodachi life ♡

[m0ldyc0ffee]

ITS SO NICE SO LET YOURSELF BE HUMAN AND NOT DESPISE EVERY INCH OF YOURSELF JUST FOR BEING DIFFERENT

[waarrows]

out of the hospital, into the frying pan (my mid-twenties)

[vizthedatum]

It is a myth that people can get over a traumatic event in whatever time (either immediately, in a month, or in a couple of years).

The time is completely variable and it depends entirely on that person. It depends on how equipped that person is to be able to reflect on what’s happened, while they’re still living their lives.

Life keeps moving on even while you’re healing - which means, you are likely to fall back on similar patterns of thinking (including the survival mechanisms you’ve picked up on the way) while you’re trying to heal.

For example, I’m not the same person I was this time last year. I have a lot of compassion for that person. They were hurting so badly and trying to keep moving on. I was seeking pleasure not for pleasure’s sake but as a way to soothe my hurt via dissociation. I had so much judgment for people because I had so much judgment for myself.

That person I was was healing.

The person I am now is still healing. I may be in that position again. I don’t know. Healing is a journey - not a linear path to a state of “healed.” It’s never as black and white like that (and that’s what makes it beautiful, even if you can’t see it in the moment).

But I’m trying. I’m trying to apply the insights I learn every day. I am trying to let go of things that don’t serve me, ESPECIALLY when it’s uncomfortable.

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It’s hard to be sailing through life and not realize what’s weighing you down so much so that you’re drowning… you let go of a huge amount of load, and you feel lighter. But is that all there is? What about all the other things you’re holding on to? The things you think you can’t survive without?

[andisweet]

Tonight, I was watching RuPaul's Drag Race UK.

One of the contestants said something I felt in the deepest part of myself. They said that for years they had it drilled into them that they were worthless, nothing, and that being there and hearing so much encouragement, validation, and being told they're beautiful has been overwhelming. That as hard as they try to make themself believe what they are being told, something inside them won't let them.

That is exactly how I feel. Though I was lucky enough to always have support and positivity around me, my self esteem has always been near zero. So when people validate me, tell me I'm beautiful, or that I have value I have *THE*HARDEST* time believing them. Something in my brain says "smile and accept it, then move on because they're just saying it."

[lostestleo]

I wish I could stop being so angry. I am a bitch without trying to be, so the anger makes me a little bit of a fucking horrible mistake of a human.

I don’t want to hurt people.

[psychicuniiverse]

10 Psychological Tips That’ll Help You Get Your Life Together

1. If you can figure out why your parents did this or that, you’ll be able to forgive them and take a huge step towards accepting yourself just as you are.

2. When it comes to beating yourself up for past mistakes, don’t forget that you made that decision because you felt that it was right for you at that time in your life.

3. If you’ve been hurt by someone, tell them how you feel, but choose your words wisely. Instead of saying, “You betrayed me!”, a much better way to open a dialogue is to say, “I feel betrayed.”

4. Try to have desires and goals that are your own and not somebody else’s. When we try to live another person’s life, we destroy our own.

5. You can change your life if you just step out of your comfort zone and start doing things you’d never imagine yourself doing.

6. You don’t have to be nice and accommodating for everybody and give up your own desires and expectations. It’s perfectly okay to say “no”.

7. Don’t wait for the right moment, take steps to make your life better every single day.

8. Each stressful situation pulls you out of your comfort zone. And with it, you’ve gained new experience that will help you learn your lesson so that you never repeat the same mistakes again.

9. Do everything that’s in your power, and then let the situation work itself out. It’s pointless to stress over something you can’t change and have no control over.

10. Remember you’re the person you spend your whole life with. No matter how much everyone else praises you, if you don’t like yourself, you’ll still be miserable.

[doctorhoe]

besties, don't underestimate the inherent comfort and joy that comes with dating people of your own age and maturity level.

[cicadangel]

growing up in maine (bleak, depressing, nothing) has led me to just be obsessed with getting out and has led me to that embarassing "nobody in this town understands me" mindset which im glad im over bc that was pathetic,,, anyway i was just so obsessed with being miserable and being trapped in my own mental illness and cycles of self-destruction... anyway in like the past few months i've come to an epiphany that i want to be happy, and i can be content in maine. sure i still want to leave as soon as i graduate hs but i might as well live while i can... i can go to those stupid cliquey parties i can drink cheap vodka with friends i can enjoy homecoming and go to the football games and have fun with my life here so i dont look back at high school and think whoa that was depressing.

[lynnbutlertron]

not related to my cosplay but i’m trying to get into the swing of drawing again by doing animation memes with the furry ocs i made with my friend when I was 12. I have come full circle