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victor vincent fuentes my idol❤️😛

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quick doodle of rivers instead of working on my portfolio yayy!! im alive!!

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ent. 3

today is monday, september 9, 2024. pretty boring day if you ask me.

things at home have been good, which is a relief. i am more relaxed and no longer dread the end of school.

at school is another story. i love my friends, trust me, but god i cant take it anymore. all they do is complain to me. i don't know what about me makes them want to, but it's all i hear and im so sick of it. i already have to try so hard to find joy in the daily things, and now you have go come shit on everything to ME. leave me alone!!! damn!!! of course they're always open to vent about stuff, but on a daily basis it's so exhausting and tires me out so much.

what hurts me even more is realizing they don't really give two shits about me. i know it's on me to communicate, but nobody ever takes me seriously. it's whatever.

i decided not to go to hoco this year since tickets are... wait for it... now $140!! are you yolking me rn. i could go to a concert for that kinda money. my friend from another school is going to come over and smoke while our other friends go. definetly feeling the fomo on that one, but i know we'll have a good time.

i began my first piece for my portfolio so yay!!! i have to refine my inquiry but i've been putting it off lololol. it's due wednesday soooo i gotta lock in. speaking of wednesday im going to some random concert with my other friend!! she's paying for my ticket since she just wants company and i have no idea who tf the artist is :P just hoping to have fun!!

oh and some other awkward news! im pretty sure a freshman in my 1st period is eyeing me which is kinda weird since im a junior. not into that! he's cool but like.. i believe in if the grades don't touch, you don't touch lmfaoaoa. just gonna distance myself :P

anyways, life has been pretty mediocre lately. a lot better than what was before! im trying to ween off my caffeine dependence so i'll keep you updated on that! also if you have any tips to pull AGE APPROPRIATE hoes pls lmk ;D i have never had a bf and am wondering what the hype is!! thanks, bye!!!!

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ent. 2

today is saturday, aug 31, 2024.

i am home alone right now. i havent been keeping track on here much since i attempted to collect my thoughts writing actual pencil on paper, but today i found out my mom went through my room and found them! so.. we're back to tumblr <3

i think she went through my room cause she suspected i was smoking, and she might've found my stash, lol. i just wish she'd stay out of my business. i don't get why it's so hard to understand. 2 more years until i can get as far away as possible.

we had a fight a night or two ago and ive been kinda giving her the cold shoulder since. she tried to talk to me about it yesterday picking me up from school, but i reallyyy don't want to talk to her. i dont want to talk to any actual people about it. i dont like being home very much. i know im very priviledged, especially with having both parents. those were my private thoughts.

i miss my friends. the weekends are getting harder and harder to deal with. i honestly dont have much going on at school right now anyways. to me, its just time to spend with people who i can actually get along with.

i finally wrote my inquiry for my portfolio! it still needs some touching up, so i wont share it here yet :P fun news is that we're gonna start actually working on stuff soon so yay!!!

i also decided i dont really want to go to homecoming, so i might just spend the night with one of my other friends. we'll see, since tickets are sooooo expensive!! $120!! i hate here lollolooll

anyways, thats it for now. bye bye!!

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some more arty farty

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Teacher Izuku’s first lecture

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HEYY!! finally posting the rest of my stuff :PP (after i forgot lol)

all these drawings of itsuki are pre-horn addition btw😛 im just too lazy to reopen them tehe

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what are your top three favorite bnha characters

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ngl my faves r super basic ;;;D my top 3 r asui, izuku, and present mic lollll

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i cant wait to leave home

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sometimes i lie awake and wonder if i'll actually make it to that road trip

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there i see you, 15 years old again.

i had loved you more than i could love any parent. my soul cherished all your jagged grace; the type of flaming victory you feel after falling off your skateboard scraping your legs on the asphalt. but you still managed to do the trick.

you loved me back, too. i was small and simple. you didn't have to love me. but you did, and i will never understand why.

12 bullets was all it took to extinguish the most glorious burning pile id ever seen. the world's chest seemed to swell, deflating once again at the feeling of your body hitting the street. i thought the fire in your eyes was immortal. 12 bullets, and id never see those beautiful sparks again.

there was no collected cry of outrage. only seven small voices, all shrieking and sobbing and clawing our heartbroken voices from our raw throats. they say you never turned your face to god, and in return he shunned your soul.

i will always hate them for that. you were more than the idea of god; you were real. at only 15 years old, you turned the world over, holding all the crumbs and shattered bits of secrets open in your palms for me. i had always loved you for that.

nothing has been the same since. i am left to turn the world over myself, and it feels as though these shards are cutting into my skin.

i have missed you since the day the fire went out. still, the pit is empty, never to be reignited again.

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im sorry to reach you like this. if i tried to tell you myself, im pretty sure i wouldn't be able to get the words out right and everything would be wrong.

we've grown apart. we don't talk much anymore, or laugh, or just walk beside each other. sometimes i miss you even though you're still around.

i think i miss that you held my hand all the time. you’d read comics beside me while listening to music. i could read you front and back and understand you through and through... who am i kidding, though. is anyone really as close to each other as they were when they were eleven?

sometimes i wake up in a cold sweat, afraid we've grown too far apart. i could never let you go, not even if i wanted to, and i could never want that. younger me would have wished for you in every world. i think i would, too.

i just hope you know that i'll always have room for you. even when time continues to pass and we can't bear to look at each other anymore. even when we're both completely different i'll still think about how you held my hand. i'll still wish you would magically show up and take me back to when i was eleven.

ill be happy if you just show up. we don't have to be little again. i still miss you now. ive grown out of my old shoes and you have too.

i know some things are better off as memories. i just hope you aren't one of them.

i'll visit, will you?

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if anyone has any tips on how to organize please lmk!!!

entries:

#1 #2 #3

mha oc:

sketches , info dump , itsuki AND ririka

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ent. 1

today is tuesday, aug 20, 2024. not sure why i formatted like that buuut anyways!

i had an okay day. nothing really special. my first period is always fun and my second period i TA, so it's not like i do anything there in the first place.

ooh, i also spent all day listening to music. this months song is seasons in the sun, which makes me kinda sad. im pretty sure its from the perspective of a man reminiscing life on his death bed, i think. when i hear it, i think of someone who wants to commit but finds it hard to. they take notice of all the nice things in life, like singing birds and pretty girls, but still know that they're going to do it anyways. i really like the lines "goodbye my friend, its hard to die" and "goodbye papa, please pray for me"! the last lines of the song definitely are more towards an old man dying, plus the mentions of running out of time, but i feel like they can also be interpreted as someone succumbing to their mind and/or mental illness. thats just my perspective though :P i also rlly like the nirvana cover!

tbh i think why ive been listening to that song so much is just because ive been coming to terms with my own feelings towards committing. in my mind its all together with accepting the fact that im growing up and changing, and so are the people around me. i dont really allow myself to enjoy media very much anymore since i immerse myself too much, and once i come out of it, i get very depressed. ive had suicidal feelings before but my sophomore year was especially bad.

coming out of that year alive made me really think about what's making me feel this way. i dont really talk to my parents a whole lot, even though i know they try. it sounds so overdone but they don't let me express emotions easily so i kinda just shut off around them. i dont really like being around them.

i think ive grown disconnected from my friends over the years, but they'll always be my people. i doubt anything could really change that. they know more about me than anyone and i love them with my whole heart. if i stay, its most likely for them.

hey, also, ive never had a boyfriend!! i would KILL to have a cute sweet corny ass teenage romance. im a junior man, times running out!!! i dont know what im doing wrong. its like everyone got a manual on how to interact with each other and get TGOETHER BUT I DIDNT!! what the egg. this year its my mission to catch some bitches PLEASE

im taking ap studio art this year soo im making a portfolio. i only have one idea for my investigation and its.... *drumroll* growing up!! whew!! i dont have the concept really polished, but its something along the lines of coming to accept the fact that im getting older and evolving as a person, which means so are my peers and so is my environment, which is all very much out of my control. id also like to note the bonds ive made with my girls too though, since its played a big part of my life. theres genuinely nothing more in the world i couldve asked for than to grow up with my friends like i did.

ill probably have a more exacted idea as the week goes on and once i retrieve my notes from the art room. anyways i think i have a caffeine dependance now so i should figure out how to not! have that.

i think that's it for my first entry!! see u next time :3

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mha oc dump!

(i'll be adding stuff here from now on i think)

lolol finally some stuff for my mha oc!! idk if there's a format i should follow so im just gna spew stuff ;]] also ngl she has main character syndrome cause i made her when i was 12 and like her too much to change anything tehehe

name: itsuki ochoa (jap x mex)

colored photo of her is kinda old btw!

havent made a name for her quirk but basic summary:

fathers side:

-can transform into a large wolf-like beast averaging around 115ft tall (2nd photo :P)

-can also transform specific body parts/limbs by choice

-gains hyper abilities such as strength, stamina, senses, pain tolerance, etc.

-transformed body parts will heat up and sometimes turn red from irritation (once returned to normal form)

-if transformed for too long she will overheat and fall ill w/ fever (dangerous overuse can potentially leave burns)

mothers side:

-vines with flowers on the end

-based on whatever drink she's consumed, the flowers can emit a pollen which leaves effects on those nearby

-only one effect can be used at a time

-effects will range from victims feeling high (hallucinogenic trip or merely dazed out depending on exposure), nausea, dizzy, or falling unconscious

-flowers can emit this pollen for a half hour after consumption, and effects will last upwards of five hours

-the vines are prehensile and can be controlled, strong enough to carry her weight

-if broken from her back the flower will immediately die

-lasting heat from her transformation will cause the flowers to wilt and become useless

-prolonged exposure will also cause the pollen to take effect on her as well

-the vines do not grow in her wolf form and are too weak to support her

backstory stuff:

gonna keep it short cause i can go onnnn

initially born in japan! her father is a retired american vet. while her mother is a nurse/caretaker (flower quirk has a lot more range).

anyways she turns 6 and wooo! her quirk comes in!! us gov finds out abt the potential of her power and stages an accident killing her parents D: they steal her away to the states and she's forced to join their specialized child military (like the hero commission?? i think idk i haven't been in touch w mha for like a year)

she trains a whole bunch and is mindlessly loyal cause she doesn't have anywhere else to go. also apart of a small squad that does super duper special stuff. her entire squad perished except her by the time she's 13 so she's reassigned partners with another girl, ririka!! (i'll prob post my stuff of her tmr :DD)

they become lifers! when they turn 15 they get orders to enroll in UA due to suspicious activity (usj incident). nobody knows their real identity except for nezu and aizawa.

that's basically it in summary!! it feels so silly writing this but honestly who cares :P PLWASE ask me any questions abt her!!! also writing may be coming soon wink wink ;) byebye!!

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numetal bestfriends :D i loved making them

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haii i also wanna add that im kinda in the mha fandom (not up to date, just love my old oc)!!

i like to draw inserts w/ her and sometimes i'll add in my friends oc cus we have our stories connected lolol :P anyways i might post some stuff abt her later and some writing! byee :D