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BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN (2005) Dir. Ang Lee

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y’know that post that’s like “every interaction between men and women is an act of performance are and the man has no idea” because that’s what this is

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NSFW!!! My lil dudes finally got here from @pen_is_painting and I LOVE THEM I can't wait for them to sit on my table or desk or bookshelf and be the perfect catalyst for a conversation starter! 💖💖💖 https://www.instagram.com/p/BxQkXWsBjoMlygaJKyJXxmZFt2zuDoPbhWzVBw0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1w5384rvkh0kf

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It's been almost 4 years. 1,445 days. 34680 hours. 2080800 minutes. 124848000 seconds. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I can't hear the jawas in starwars without crying. I see you everywhere. In my dreams, in the leaves as they rustle in the wind, in every forehead kiss. Part of you sits on my dresser and it's supposed to be comforting but I close the lid on the display box. I feel like you are always watching me. You see me cry in bed, have panic attacks in the corner... you see me with other men (and women). But I cant stomach to move you. The way your tiger striped gleaned in the sunlight is something that's hard to forget, the way your teeth felt against my skin, they way you left me gasping for air most days, how my insides felt like they twisted around each other... how it felt to be held as my world collapsed. See the days you comforted me during breakdowns were the good ones. The days I didnt have to beg you to care. I told you you could walk away but you said you loved me so you stayed. Youd hold my head in the crook of your neck and my whole world was static background noise.... Your mom doesnt call me anymore. It's funny, all I wanted was what was best for you and all I got was PTSD instead. I wonder what the Sun and Moon had pitted against me for life to turn out like this.

Just as everything was clicking into place it all fell apart. I thought it was just beginning but it seems I got turned around, things flipped upside down and left me in a bizarre realm where I was suddenly Humpty Dumpty. All the Kings horses and all the Kings men couldn’t fix me. Not everything that’s broken can be fixed. I think i learned the hard way… In the end it was all my own fault. I realize that it now, but it’s too late to apologize now. It won’t change anything.. And by the time the sun rises the moon will have faded into the background behind thick stormy skies. But at last the moon will rest unimpeded. My first and last post. Fare thee well.

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Reblog if you support asexuals and aren’t a COWARD

RB if your blog is a safe, accepting space for asexuals!

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“I just need to rest my eyes” *falls asleep for 11 hours*

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I found this so interesting I had to share it

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This is the funniest thing to ever happen to me.

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Laurence,

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paramore - caught in the middle

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No one:

My brain: roll a Goliath named David

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