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that's some truly crazy resemblance like dean thought that only dad could survive the purgatory so he turned into john

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benny the vampire pirate my beloved. vampirate.

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benny is so real for the way he treated cass at their very first encounter like yes king ask him all uncomfortable and logical questions

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terrifying realization that my account on some fanfiction site is like. 12? 13? years old. that's how old the little people in those fandoms are now

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genuinely curious why proshippers are being frowned upon, like. wasn't that the fandom etiquette since forever? don't like don't read and scroll away?

i know that I personally am being a hater for a silly reason (disliking a character and/or the very specific cast of The Ship shippers and how they treat The Source Material) but overall? idc as long as it's not shoved into my face and doesn't actually hurt anyone 🙏

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every time i see that pink haired guy from kpop demon hunters i think of him. of choi san fireworks era

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do you ever think about the fact that soulless sam kept the samulet? because i do. all the time.

we know from the show that dean doesn’t know sam kept the amulet until S11. check.

we know that dean didn’t know sam was alive after he jumped into the cage, and so sam didn’t go back to get any of his old belongings from dean. check.

the fact that sam still has the amulet means it was in his duffle/belongings, which dean kept the year sam was gone. makes sense. check.

but when they get back together, and sam has access to his things again, he keeps the amulet.

this is a soulless man, who looks at dean and feels nothing. he tolerates his concern, barely, but he’s more annoyed than anything at his constant attempts to “get sammy back.”

but he keeps the fucking amulet!! this man travelled for a year with the things he can keep in a backpack. he’s not attached to physical items because he doesn’t care for them. he doesn’t care for people.

and after a year of hard living, of living completely light and portable, presumably starting over more than once if shit got too hot to go back and get his things—HE MADE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION TO KEEP THE AMULET!!!

i’m sure it wasn’t an “aw. okay.” moment, but it sure as hell was a moment with sam indexing his bag, seeing the amulet tucked amongst his clothes or rolled into a tube of socks or pressed under the lining and leaving it! a sam who was not planning on getting his soul back and wouldn’t mourn it if it were gone!

he doesn’t wear it or bring it up, so it doesn’t fall into the hedonistic/“i like nice things” category that the charger falls into. it doesn’t serve a functional purpose.

i think sam kept it for the same bland contentment he shows when dean hugs him. just “okay.” that’s it. something is “right” about this, about existing in this state.

i’m sure his chest seized around something that was supposed to be there when he looked at it. there’s an inexplicable rightness to having the amulet close. thinking about it annoys sam, so he doesn’t think about it.

maybe he considered throwing it away, and dug it out of the motel trash 20 minutes later, angry and not knowing why.

HE KEPT IT!!! SOULLESS SAM KEPT THE SAMULET!!! SAM WITHOUT A SOUL STILL KEPT SOMETHING THAT “DIDN’T MEAN ANYTHING” TO DEAN!!! BECAUSE IT STILL MEANT SOMETHING TO HIM!!!!

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they bought orange juice for office and five minutes later I'm drinking the cheapest bumble coffee in my life

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colleague's birthday means I'm sitting at the office waiting for them to bring food for lunch feeling like I'm waiting for mom to say the dinner's ready

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s7 is such a joy to watch after all those angels and their wars tbh, just some little hunts and big bad guys on the background

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me beating animes with a stick no builds no strategu

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at this point the idea of rotting in my little blog where like two ppl understand the spn yapping an neither reacts feels more attractive than going here and seeing the destiel preachers who believe their ship is canon 100% real thing that happened with proofs and are gay gay homosexual gay ( -vibe -aura for cockles stuff as well bc somehow it feels as bad or even worse than idk kpop shippers)

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oh how i love to watch spn with my parents (again) and feel validated about my dislike of castiel

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how 4x22 felt

now (while rewatching spn and actually paying attention to the thing) i laugh when i see ppl say s4 destiel had romantic/sexual tension like. dean tolerates him at best and hates him at worst throughout the majority of the season and cas is being a nasty bit-

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s5 ep16 "dark side of the moon"