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what is your favorite astronomical fact/theory? happy 8k on twitter, you deserve more <3

· ✦ ad anonymous.

aaa !! thank you so much ;; i am almost there < 33 and it feels very surreal considering the number. eternally i am grateful for all the love and support that has been present during my existence on medias.

i would not be able to specify as i think i would ramble on or fare into convoluted ramblings that may or may not end up being more musings asdfjkl; i absolutely love astronomy. but if i had to pick a fact and a theory

✦ stars carved in history. it will never fail to leave me in awe to think about how the stars we gaze upon in the observable universe are technically different points in time. we are in the ' present ' but the cosmos expands, and time does with it. we witness space as a form of time machine - minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years and so forth backwards. the nightsky is a graveyard of stars is a dearest. there is a form of solace that comes with being existentially aware that these stars and celestial objects existed at one point in time, and we are part of it. i never personally liked the concept of time, i am highly avoidant of change. but there is a form of eternity in the privilege of witnessing the universe as it is today.

✦ black hole & white hole theories + quasars. although it violates the second law of thermodynamics, i always loved the theoretical existence of the polar opposite of a black hole too. the duality, one absorbs and the other emits. though it is a concept that may or may not be disproven it is still one of my favourites ! in a more realistic sense, quasars are a beloved proven approach i adore.

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✦ ad somnimemo · !!

asdf aAA i have been so disastrously excited about this and i can finally share that i got a telescope. it is a childhood wish come true to have my own ;; and double happiness lune spoiled me and got me these beautiful starry earrings - ilu månljus ~ ✦✧ ·

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if you couldn't have sága as a persona or a draconic/astronomy related one, what theme/thing would you use?

· ✦ ad anonymous.

this is a hard question to answer - sága is me.

embellished fantasy aspects aside, i don't think i could ever part or remove ' sága ' as a sona even hypothetically. especially their astronomy / specifically stars & black holes / draconic aspects as they resemble & reflect me in real life. it would be like completely having to discard every part of myself and change experiences / identity. since i've had them forever it feels rather strange to try and come up with something else ? my brain circles back to the same theme but minor different approaches asdfjkl;

i have had ocs that reflected me a little more than the usual, but those too fall into categories of astronomy / void / ice / dragons. so technically i would not be able to escape it even if i wanted to ;; i hope that makes sense !

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might try posting adopts here sometimes?

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❛ aeverstar of void ❜ ✦ ad #stelaellustro · the arche aeverstar of eternal stelliferous primordial void interwoven in stardust dreams and memories.

✦ 01 · silhouette part i. primary visual approach & notes including alternatives & interchangeable aspects. stars & black hole features overtures to the concept of the end, nothingness. ✦ nox · ✧ lux

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❛ there is something foreign in the mirror. i used to bleed from my sleeves to others. maybe it was naivety or maybe because i was just a child. the person staring back is filled with star - like wonder, and i am filled with a cold, endless water. i push everything away but they pull everything in to heart. they take the form of my own replica, a vessel architected out of gentler memories. i cannot avert my gaze, all i can do is weep ❜

· ✦ saturnine, stelærnis.

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✦ ad starias · i would like to write more, maybe in fornsvenska too . . . please send me in a theme or maybe some emotes ? topics ? and i will do it for fun.

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stelae, what exactly is the scythe of sága? after that post of yours, i did some research on the power of weapon manipulation and found this: "some users can even make the weapons from a piece of themselves, either by using their life force or by molding their own flesh and bone." and that made me even more curious.

kisses from brazil <3 – 🐈‍⬛

· ✦ ad anonymous.

the precise specifics of the scythe is not entirely clear, but it sounds very similar to what you mentioned about the power of weapon manipulation and it's relationship to the user itself !! by some extent, everything pertaining to sága is made up partially by - themselves ? molding from their own ' flesh & blood ' makes a lot of sense. i always believed that it was something very dear to them, as it does not have to take the shape of a weapon, but they always carry it around !! it probably leans to ' forged and carved from all their stelliferous primordial remnants, the dreams and memories no longer part of them but too dear to be forgotten, their own flesh and blood spilled at their own hands '

this is such a delightful ask !! i sure have a lot more to ponder about < 33 thank you so much for the queries, i absolutely love answering them ⭒✦ muito obrigado < 33

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❛ starchive · 09.09.24 ❜ ✦ ad starias · to the star veiled in stelliferous void.

faring journey of sága ruminations feels like an eternal abyss of seeking consolation. sorrow followed me for many years as i discarded multiple things in order to avoid grief, or even to give it up for others. but it always shattered me to remove ' starry entity ' as one of their most remembered titles. out of bitterness and still some form of avoidance, i do not believe i could return to that term as a primary presentation but specifically, but i have an epiphany.

❛ the arche aeverstar of stelliferous primordial void ❜

retaining the pivotal motifs but accentuating them as a star by core. they are still a personification of nothingness, portrayed by stellar ontics. an eternal star all encompassing - all seeing, overseer of void / visually represented by a black hole with everstar core /

spoken, i would like to be honest and direct. the newfound gentleness i feel to being referred to as ' star ' is bittersweet repose. stelae is the main reference i will present as publically due to the handles. polaris is for the personal, those who know me a little more, as it is an intimate name. star, starlight, starfallen, aeverstar, voidstar / or their swe, br, spa counterparts / are nicknames i'd appreciate for endearment. void and ryūsei are alright occasionally, but a little more convoluted as they negate some feelings - so less of a main.

starlight / stjärnljus & ryūsei are nicknames lune uses for me, so those two do have fond gentleness in heart.

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❛ starlustrance ❜ ✦ ad ﹔#stelaellustro · all my bygone wishes still dream.

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❛ MADRA ❜ ✦ ad ﹔ #stelaellustro · empty vessel, void of ebbing stars.

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Rainer Maria Rilke, from Where Silence Reigns: Selected Prose; "An Experience,"

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❛ starchive · 05.09.24 ❜ ✦ ad ﹔starfallen · general sorrowful reflections of both grief and frustrations.

there is something about being online that makes me increasingly bitter and incessantly tired. people throwing around the word ' privileged ' as means to invertedly place the blame of self pity at someone else. i do not deny how discouraging and life draining it is to try and stay relevant or be remembered only for it to be completely shattered by people's ignorance or the algorithm. no one wants to hear this. but at some point, people need to reflect / work on themselves and tackle issues that persist because if the source is someone unrelated, it is not on that person, it's not their responsibility to be held accountable for someone else's miseries.

about engagement. ' just draw for fun !! ' does not pertain to half of the creators out there. a lot of people depend on support & feedback in order to live sustainably. this includes ' you get to draw be happy '. i did not spend all my years trying to live up to the impossible standard of an everchanging and increasingly difficult community to be told i should not focus on numbers. it is not easy. i am not an isolated case of putting down blood and tears on paper desperately trying to amount to - something. it is still like that, but the attempts at comfort is almost always trampled by people's assumptions & ignorance.

it is not that simple. people who point fingers and will compare themselves to others by putting themselves down are - to be cold - exhausting. i won't deny that i also have and do it, because jealousy is a normal thing. but silently, quietly, personally. it is not anyone else's problem. people's success should not be your reason to make them feel bad. to add, it is never as black & white as it seems. maybe you do have it awful. maybe you do struggle, but comparing them and making others feel bad for expressing their own will remove my respect for you.

i am also tired of dealing with people who do not read, and guilt me for things i already state. i cannot quit cms the way i wanted to before, but this is one of the reasons why.

the patterns. to be hypersensitive to any form of changes is my own ruination. the idea that people hate or dislike me because i am not present, or they are no longer there. the delusion is vivid and both irritating as it is devastating. it is no one's problem but my own, but it hinders me from forming proper understanding and relations. automatically believing i have done something wrong or people forget me when there is no reason to / as i try to tell myself / is - debilitating.

i have returned to illustrating sága a lot more due to countless of reasons. a lot to cope and give myself some form of solace. but i do not want that to be a problem too. there are many memories and concepts that i am recapturing presently to cope with how much is changing. ' the primordial aeverstar of boundless, infinite, eternal stelliferous void ' is more befitting. i grieved for years, at some point forced to put myself in a position where it reflected my own emotional state of anhedonistic nihilism. void still pertains to them, they are nothingness. but now presented as a star. i missed it. being associated purely as ' starry being '. although i do not believe i will go back to that term, the primordial everstar of void / nothingness is somewhat assuring. it puts the stelliferous aspect first. it really does mean everything to be called ' star ' again.

i will personally see how people behave around my attempts at personal reconciliation. if my little attempts at consolations cause people to guilt or self pity, then i will encourage to cut off interactions.

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❛ sydväst svensk miku ❜ ✦ ad ﹔ southwest miku will save us !

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"Good morning, Jack. How was your night?", Vardges Petrosyan (translated by metamorphesque)

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I have fallen a long way. Clouds are flowering Blue and mystical over the face of the stars.

Sylvia Plath, The Moon and the Yew Tree

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❛ another foreign noise, strange arias spill through chapped lips cosmic, boundless, infinite stars deteriorate inside. a thunderless lightning coursing through my veins something fissures this diamond brittle vessel. all these constellations collide into a conglomeration uncharted carvings left on tissue. this shell, eternal winter cherished a formless ego void adorned in all those things beloved. a blank gaze, fingertips in stellar ash there is nothing inside but rain still falls ❜

⋯ ✦ completed emptiness, stelærnis.