suffernotindoubt

[suffernotindoubt]

May Harlem restrain her breadbag shoes of devotion, papersack loaf of columbine and dandelion

I am not hen or then

can you seek the waning clatter of heel, assiduous deserts' granular permutations

its heart on approach, loosening commitments made to foregone strategem

home aggressive, learned by consecrating hissing ministrations

tender witherings' clay: well consequent to love

[suffernotindoubt]

Breathlessness is no exile worth a grasping tongue's epistle

Heat winding selfless is light

hate to but make it on time

not to resemble

nor long encumbered by echo

this what it is

thisness watches grow

grabbing gun, old timer stirs

hold, pack it up, let 'er rip, ring

All uh ya

getting mowed now

step right out

of your skin

now you see, we are renters

of the vessels

we the faeries

one prior generation's

flesh rabble and sewn

repeated upright, underloop, to left

semi-automatic face

uproariously scrubbed of cartilage

scaffolding terminus is

the air we suck

around steel our golden crowns

silvers melt sooner than

bed nails reiterated as shrapnel

step out each and all

your life crumbles

in memorium scholarship

plaintive as heroin

trite, grief seems thy constraint

delivered inopportunely, denigrating

smartwatch the manmower craved

and, briefly planning its snatch

and stealing away

bubbly synapse wiring

tumbling brown, speckled blond

sweep across sweat-drenched chins

rifle unlooses butt

kicking sniffles

is tight hot

blank stare

right I am back there

stunrazors applaud

every sharp wedge

let us bend

agents of follicle dispossession

demand neither blush nor stout

beneath wind-scoured canker sore

revelation of drought

assign life hues

oil to tan

thimble descent

does that make you not hysterical

give up on first intent

sacrificial rhyme

find your end

I am writing to get this out

down with loop of a noose

hammer slices

wrestling gravity's mundane

fragility

shrinking palms

venture unbound

landing on bank of breaking knees

brisk temple shot

steeled my pessimism

my villain

hail punctured his paws

luminaries the hot slugs riveted

whipping out

blow still up subway stairs

ladders of affection

scaling the halt

stand as one fam

backs of whose palms

instill tough as all out

may my piece divert

one mid-heron bloom

evidence of mud's fascination

[suffernotindoubt]

Instantaneously burst, of crafted light

Springing forth, turned back

blanket of time, wild buck

Protect electric sense

restricting domination of your self

from self.

Good faith is any kind.

[suffernotindoubt]

One star, of one hundred

plasticene microcosmic faux

fair-weather mid-waves

half-mast and capsizing

tits-for-tat, bitch or wield bat

beglossing foreseeable horrors

there thy reap

did and do not 'hate'

another petrol Betelguese

livid's coaxial fishnet

balls wearisomely blue-ing

stoking our discontents

[suffernotindoubt]

An even-if

What is it, this?

What is anything?

Not nothing.

Not anything, yet.

It is not this.

This is not that.

What if, what then,

what about what about 

not what you thought

nothing like how it is

but when is not why

and who alternates in time

then you get nothing

after all this want

I started with that...

That is what you got.

[suffernotindoubt]

Second shift - 20 January 2025

Growl, rip, order up another then; at least squad squak swaps swan beak to prosecute peas, malign potatoes… Just as deep kept aspirations, conspiracy, quick but replete, supplants plenary defiance - except allegiance, especially inception of rent the shed bright, meta till truncated lends forward full maw of glaring marauder.

[suffernotindoubt]

Sugar-daddy swindler try'nabe

I will not open an escrow. I will not tell

you, 'No, please do not send me

money.' Honey, your scam-artistry is

lacking. On these games, you think I

can ever be sleeping? Assumption

disparaged; repartee deceased.

[suffernotindoubt]

Blunted wraths

Is being kind really as easy 

as it is to mine

is having a lot to let go

doing good like letting it go 

it can not be sold and do good

you can not be known

and be well

If staying free of connections

is easy as staying alive 

where would we be

I know you tried

to stay, but

are there no better paths

to making it home before too late

[suffernotindoubt]

Memory and todays

Is as if

if as an

opportunity wasting

its or it is

like as when

as now

as such

its muchness

as well, can be

let be known

let them see

let them know

as well as can be said 

to be known

we are as much as we

have been before

we are worth a glistening

shadow's blood

moving within silence 

this form of guidance

[suffernotindoubt]

Get head as Winter fucking becomes you

This time, its making of you

represents the time you made true

out of fissile abberation

a feeling of gloam

upon the roof of tough

splattered with suck

them give through

essence, fortunate as

is this movie seeing you

or did writing all our names

ingloriously down

bring us to that there

down is where I know

I stay, away

captain of no cap

oft-enough lesser

halved by cleft

a winsome vacancy

[suffernotindoubt]

Complicate grace

If g-d is dead

how can we be lover

everywhere hope is done

bearing always livid beginnings

by, in name wholly, frothing

flitting tongues' revival

kiss me eyelids

[suffernotindoubt]

West side detente

Feet held uncommonly close

in bed/park bench

to chest, beams

memory-besieged

who by fire

without, no more ponders

home, portentous winter

fearless, far gone

soon to a shadow harm

combustion its sum

of not and of getting

witness, wading, baptism

past gossamer-hobbled phrase

into September bloom

[suffernotindoubt]

Embarrassed brain-dead

Embarrassed by engagement

brain-dead by arrangements

preceding and decided without

input or intuition.

Party, eat, mobilize

grassroots and maskless,

sleep, and repeat

[suffernotindoubt]

Ambassador branding

I mean no malice

also I am fallen

no omen

nor ominous

coming hard to miss

animal sans animus

menial I

nominal, ludicrous

brightest of dimmings

light up nameless 

activate similes

mediate leave

I mean it, too

atlas of contrary 

news, unbreathing

ignominy become

us for nothing

or all apiece

sit, wink, suck

if I may

just articulate

not like that

like this

[suffernotindoubt]

A train, glimpse of C, S transiting

[suffernotindoubt]

Ode to a 'Duino' elegy

Photographic flexxers' memorisation

fails herein... memorials care

so we no have to

never open heart

commandments that it were true

orient all suspicion

granting light waver

halo of crown

terrorising stealth prayers

rare offal that fruit

rending pages safe

when longing comes over

to sing of great love

not of lovers

[suffernotindoubt]

More grimace, two

On A train noone sat near, so here I share their grimacing maws -