The thing is. He was dying. Since season 1 he's been dying. Since he was four years old he's been dying. Why? Because a capricious god said so. So the only true resolution to his story would be for him to live, to find joy and peace in defiance of god. Is the thing.
the confession (jensen's version) | the night we met
"In my mind, I was sitting there thinking that... you know, it was like this flashback—you know they say that when you're about to die your life flashes before you. In my mind, I was flashing back to Lazarus Rising and seeing him walk through the barn with the sparks flying and all of the sudden all of these clips in my mind of Castiel and walking into the lake, and all of these things that are ingrained in my memory and seeing this now character have to say goodbye, but also knowing that my friend was in there having to struggle with this as well and I just thought he did such an artful job and such an incredibly nuanced performance in that moment that I was really proud of." x
inspired by @drulalovescas's post | watch it on youtube
taylor swift dm me if you need to talk I've been there happy belated old friend you crazy nine inches I think it would be great to announce a plan of some sort of rebirth to be continued I'm sure its going to happen we know what the subtext is bury it a little bit there's much to be said regarding destiel how would I want to be saved I found that person in dean winchester jensen is pretty attracted to me dean and cas would be balls deep for sure I'm the one who fucked you hard dean pretty I think that it’s maybe the best that cas is still trapped in the empty jensen I don't think I should do this absolutely you shouldn't I don’t like to think of myself as multiple personality but I might be and dean is one of them its not subtext its clear text its just understood hey man I said I love you and you kind of didn’t like respond so it’s been kind of nagging at me I’m gonna answer for him it was like this flashback when you're about to die your life flashes before you all of these clips in my mind of castiel I can't even look at him it started to blur the lines we were really broken up about it It felt real to us we sort of lost our minds. It's only june